Hey I'm back and this time, it's really the chapter 12. Sorry for the repost thing, my tablet was bugging and I had to take care of it. I finally have it under control... Well I hope I do. WARNING! Self harm included!

'' Ms Elsa! Look at what I can do. '' David called from his spot on the swing.

'' I'm watching. '' Elsa smiled at the little boy.

'' I can go up really really high. ''

'' Be carefull David, I don't want you to fall. You will hurt yourself. ''

'' I'm a strong boy, I will not hurt myself. ''

'' Listen to Ms. Elsa David. She is only trying to keep you safe. '' Belle told him with a stern, yet gentle tone. The boy slowed down and looked up at Elsa with a cheepish look.

'' I'm sorry miss. ''

'' It's alright little man, just be careful. '' Elsa nodded before glancing down at her phone. She's tried to call Anna but the girl wasn't answering her phone. It was seriously starting to worry her, her sister's last words still echoed in her head like a mantra.

I hope you're happy when I'm gone...

I'm done.

What did she meant? It only frustrated Elsa more.

'' Ms. Elsa? '' A little girl tugged at Elsa's blouse. She had one hand behind her back as she looked at the tall beautiful blonde shyly.

'' Yes? '' Elsa asked, bending slightly to her level. The girl pulled her hand from behind her back and handed Elsa a white rose. '' For me? ''

'' Mhmm... ''

'' Oh thank you so much, what's your name sweetie? ''

'' Annalise. '' The girl answered politely.

Elsa stared at Annalise with a rather surprised look. '' Really? What a beautiful name, just like you. '' she tweeked her nose, earning a giggle from the girl.

'' Though my friends like to call me Anna... I don't like it. ''

'' Why? Anna is a beautiful name. ''

'' But my name is Annalise, not Anna. '' The girl said in a tone close to a whining one.

Elsa laughed at her point. Kids get upset by the smalles tlittle things, sometimes it's really funny.

'' You know, I have a little sister and her name is Annabelle but everyone call her Anna and you know what? ''

'' Huh? ''

'' She likes it. '' A frown settled on the girl's face, so Elsa continued. '' She even prefer Anna than Annabelle. It's easier to pronouce and sometimes people use this affectionate term to show their affection. ''

'' Oh! Like a petname? ''

'' Exactly. ''

'' And you think it's a good thing? ''

'' Well yes. It means that your friends are comfortable enough around you to call you by this term of endearment. ''

'' Endrerearr... I don't understand what you say. '' Annalise frowned. She really reminded Elsa of Anna. Her sister hates complicated words, they always make her cringe.

'' A petname, that's it. '' Elsa nodded to make things easy for the girl.

'' That's cool. '' Annalise grinned widely. '' That means Annabelle is your Anna and I am my friends' Anna? ''

Elsa tilted her head to the side as if to think and gave a small nod after a while. That was one interesting way to put it into words.

'' Yes she is my Anna. '' she smiled. Annalise officially decided that Anna was a beautiful name and guess what?

She likes it too.

'' Anna you come play with us on the slide? '' A group of children called the girl

'' I'm coming! '' She yelled back. '' Bye Ms Elsa. ''

'' Bye. '' Elsa waved as she watches her run towards the big slide. Her smile slowly faltered and a soft sigh escaped her lips when once again, Anna occupied her mind,

Her Anna as the girl said.

She wasn't serene since she left, despite all the times she tried to distance herself from her little sister, she couldn't deny the tingling in her stomach for everytime Anna was in trouble. She couldn't help but worry about her.

'' You are really good with kids. '' Belle's voice startled her.

'' You think so? ''

'' Of course, I can tell that they like you already. ''

'' Hmm... ''

Elsa looked at the white rose Annalise gave her and carefully tucked it in the pocket of her blazer. When she looked up, she stared at the children in the playground with a distant look as if she was lost into space.

'' Elsa? ''

'' Yes? '' She turned her head towards the other woman.

Belle gave her a knowing look. '' Something is bothering you, is it your sister? ''

'' Yes. '' Elsa admitted with a soft sigh. '' We had an argument before she left and now I'm worried about her. Maybe I shouldn't have let her leave. ''

'' You had an argument? ''

'' Yes. She wasn't feeling well and she was just cranky from the lack of sleep but I think I went a bit overboard. ''

'' Did you try to call her? ''

'' I did but she is not answering. I wouldn't be surprised if she doesn't want to talk with me. ''

Belle raised a hand to her chin as if to think and hummed softly. '' Well I think you should go and check on her then. ''

'' Are you sure? I didn't have the time to speak with all the members of the stafff and the children- ''

'' - will be fine. '' Belle cuts her off. '' If you feel like something is not right with Anna, you should follow your instinct. I will keep you inform about the children, don't worry. ''

'' Thank you Belle, please call me if you need anything. ''

'' Thanks to you Elsa for everything you've done, drive safely. ''

Elsa finally left the building and drove straight to the mansion as soon as she was on the road. She didn't know why but there was a knot in her stomach, it was an uneasy feeling she couldn't ignore and it only got her to speed, burning two red lights in the process. That would probably cost her tickets and her license but she didn't care right now.

As soon as she arrived at the mansion, she pulled her car in the driveway and climbed out, running in the house, not bothering to close her door or turn the engine off.

'' Anna? '' She called, frantically running towards the kitchen hoping to find her sister there but there was no luck. She ran back into the living room '' Anna? ''

Gerda came running through the stairs '' Ms. Elsa? ''

'' Gerda where is Anna? '' She asked, closing the gap between her and the old woman.

'' Oh dear, thanks God you're here! Kai told me that your sister seemed troubled when she came home and I tried to get her out of her room but she won't let us in. She is not answering to our calls either. ''

'' Did you try to open the door? ''

'' It's locked. There is a spare key but I don't know if invading her privacy would be a good id- wait Ms. Elsa! what are you... ''

Elsa didn't listen the end of the sentence as she was already racing through the stairs, cursing under her breath because for once, the house seems too big and her sister's room seems so far. But eventually, she reached her destination and without a second thought, she twisted the handle of Anna's door only to find it... locked?

Just like Gerda said.

'' She never locks her door '' The blonde whispered, getting more and more worried. Anna hates locked doors. '' Anna? '' she called, knocking a few times.

She waited but got no answer.

'' Anna! '' She tried again knocking more loudly. Finally she heard footsteps and she couldn't help but feel relieved to hear her sister from the other side but then, there was a loud thump followed by more noises. The sound of broken glasses alarmed Elsa.

'' Anna I know you're here! Open the door now! '' She shouted, pounding her fist on the mahogany door. What was going on in there? '' Anna open the door! '' She yelled, growing frustrated.

This was scaring her.

Giving up on knocking, she headed towards her own bedroom and came back a few seconds later with the spare key of Anna's room and wasted no time to unlock the door.

Elsa entered the room and found the bed empty. There was a smell lingering in the air and when she recognized the smell of marijuana, she couldn't help but feel her anger raising. She heard noises coming from the bathroom and she figured that her sister was in there. She stomped towards the half open door, ready to explode.

'' Anna! I can't belie- '' Elsa stopped in her track and froze when her heart skipped a beat. Her eyes widened in horror and she had to keep a hand over her mouth to muffle a sob.

Oh no!

'' Oh dear lord! '' She heard Gerda gasp from behind her, stopping at the door.

Anna was laying by the cabinet, surrounded by items that had sat atop of it and shattered glasses. But that wasn't what made her sick. No. What made her sick was the sight of the small girl wrapped in a fluffy white crimson stained towel, blood flowing from the cuts on her wrists and dripped onto the floor. A razor blade laid next to her.

'' Els? '' Anna whispered blinking slowly, her eyelids getting heavier as the seconds passed by.

She was still conscious, Elsa realized. Conscious but barely.

Elsa immediatly rushed to her sister's side and picked her up before carrying her to her bed '' Call the 911 '' She ordered Gerda, ripping her blazer off and pressed it to her sister's cuts.

'' You silly girl, why did you do this? '' Elsa whispered.

Anna stared at her big sister in awe like she was an angel and for a second, Elsa thought she could see her five year old sister again. Those big blue eyes, the most beautiful orbs she's ever seen. They used to light up just like that when she was little and looked up at her big sister.

'' Hi Elsie. '' The girl smiled tiredly '' You look like an angel. ''

'' Shh it's okay, I'm here but I'm not an angel. '' Elsa replied in a shaky voice, fighting her own tears. Never a second, she would imagine her little sister taking her own life. Not even in her worst nightmare. '' Stay with me Anna. '' she pleaded, holding her blazer on the cuts.

'' I'm not going anywhere silly. '' Anna lets out a small laught '' I want chocolate. '' she giggled, obviously light headed. Elsa knew it was because of the effect of the drug.

'' You can have all the chocolate you want if you just keep your eyes open. '' Elsa told her, holding the girl close to her.

'' But whyyy? '' she whined sleepily.

'' Because I need you to keep them open for me baby. '' Elsa replied, not able to hold her tears anymore when her sister struggled to keep her eyes open '' Can you do that for me? Please snowflake, stay with me. ''

'' Snowflake. '' Anna smiled, hearing the nickname Elsa gave her when she was little. '' Dat me. ''

'' Yes that's right honey. '' Elsa tried to smile through her tears but it was too hard. '' That's you, my precious snowflake. ''

'' Yo-oursss? ''

'' Yes mine. ''

'' Why you crying Ess-ie '' Her sister slurred, her head dropping drastically to the side, she was so tired.

'' I need you baby, please don't sleep. Stay with me! '' Elsa started to sob, burrying her nose into Anna's hair. It was her fault if Anna was like this.

'' The ambulance is on the way. '' Gerda said in the background, her voice mixed with sorrow and pain.

Elsa didn't cry when her parents died, she loved them dearly but she didn't cry because she had her rock. Anna was her rock but now, her sister was dying and she couldn't bear it. A lot of things were not said, the most important things were not said.

It's so wrong.

'' I wanna stay with Elsie '' The girl said, fighting the sleepness, though it was harder than she thought.

'' Then stay. Stay with Elsie. ''

Anna's blood stained the expensive blazer that was pressed on her wrists and Elsa's hands as well but she didn't care.

'' Okay... '' Anna finally whispered, still smiling as she blinked again. '' Do you wanna build a snowman? '' She asked, barely audible.

The question broke Elsa's heart into one million pieces as she sobbed loudly. Even when she was dying, Anna still wants to build a snowman.

'' Of- Of course I want to build a snowman with you. We will build as many as you want. ''

Elsa decided that if Anna ever make it, she vows to make a snowman. Even if there is no snow at all, she will take her sister somewhere, to the end of the world if she has to, to build that snowman.

The girl nodded, her smile growing as a single tear flowed down her temple at the corner of her eyes. She finally got the answer she wanted to hear for so long '' Thank you Elsie. '' She breathed out as her eyes finally closed and her body went limp in her sister's arms.

'' No! Open your eyes! Please stay with me Anna. '' she cried holding the girl against her chest, not caring if her suit will be stained with all the blood Anna has lost. '' Snowflake, please don't leave me. ''

The sound of the ambulance could be heard in distance.

'' Anna don't leave me. Please wake up, the sky's still awake. '' It souds stupid but she was so desperated and saying that the sky is awake was the only thing that could wake Anna up when she was little.

But it didn't work this time.

'' Ms. Elsa. '' Gerda spoke placing a hand on the blonde's shoulder causing her to cradle Anna's head more into her neck as if to protect her from the harm. But the harm was done already '' The ambulance is here. ''

'' Anna, wake up now! You got to wake up, damn it! '' She shook her sister again, hoping for a sign but Anna was not responsive at all.

She was unconscious. Deadly unconscious.

More footsteps were heard as two EMTs entered the room. Gerda gently grabbed Elsa's shoulders, praying her to let go of Anna but the young woman would have none of it.

Elsa stood up with the bundle carefully cradled in her arms and looked at the two men that had entered the room. Understanding her silent request, they quickly led her downstairs where the gurney for her sister was waiting. An air mask was placed on Anna's face as she was wheeled out of the mansion.

'' Ma'am you can come with us but we can't take more than one person. '' An EMT told Elsa.

'' I'm coming. '' She said, climbing in the back of the ambulance.

'' I'll get Kai and we will join you at the hospital. '' Gerda said, running back into the mansion. The ambulance left for the hospital.

Elsa held her sister's hand the entire ride while the EMTs worked on Anna. There were too much beeping sounds and she knew it would be a miracle if Anna makes it through. Her blazer was entirely soaked with blood and as she looked closely, she noticed something poking out of the pocket. Reaching a hand out, she grabbed it and a sob escaped her lips.

'' Oh Anna. ''

It was the white rose Annalise gave her, only it was not white anymore but red. Red and stained with blood as well. It looked like it was bleeding, just like Anna was bleeding.

Like her own heart was bleeding.

'' I never got to tell you how much I love you. '' She whispered, kissing her sister's forehead.

Lie!

The truth is, She's got many chances to tell her but she never took them.

She never told Anna. Only now, almost too late, she realizes it.

Another chance... It's the only think she is asking for.. Elsa never prayed before, she didn't believe in God but for the first time in forever, she prayed. She prayed God to let Anna stay with her, so she could shower her with love. All the love she denied her and make up for her mistakes.

She only needs a chance.

That's it!

I want to thanks once again all the readers, followers, favorites and also thanks all of you for the reviews. You don't know how much it means to me and there were a few ideas I got from you guys and honestly, they are very interesting. They gave me a few tips as well, so thank you very very much!

Next chapter is coming very soon like I promised.