An analysis from afar

by Whavey

We had it all, we thought... It was shortly after my promotion when my feelings popped up. It was her that made me feel reborn, warm, safe and most of all, alive. In a period where homophobia was a thing, I wanted her more than I wanted anything. But was the team going to suffer too? (repost from my Wattpad story An Analysis From Afar, account name also Whavey)

5. Chapter 3

Quinn

It was week 5 at this moment and everything was going pretty good. We were 5-1-2 at this moment. We were tied for fourth place with H2k now. We lost the games against H2k and Vitality but managed to tie with Fnatic. At this moment all possibilities were open but we sure made a strong first impression. We only had to play one more game against Splyce before having to play all the teams again. In the meanwhile we had midlaner week, where Ezra was invited to the desk on the Friday to talk about the midlane. I and Oliver trained a lot together in the gym and often dragged the rest of the team with us. The Olympic hurdling team was off to Rio and I now trained alone. People noticed that we all had a different mentality from the other players and were often interested in how "scrubs" came so far.

It was Monday evening and I was streaming some ranked. I locked in Xin and looked at one of the comments in the chat. "No everyone is home, but most of them are to the gym with Oliver. And Sabine? Yeah I don't know where she is." I say with a huge smile. Suddenly another comment pops up. "Do you ever consider inviting girls into your gaming house? Of course not, then the boys won't focus on me anymore." I say in a joking tone and smile as we go into the loading screen. Suddenly the subscriber notification pops up. "Welcome FeedMe's hungry lover to the stream! And welcome to the Food squad." I say with a huge smile as I run to the Blue Buff in game. "Awesome name by the way." I say and play. Suddenly a donation pops in. "You got to love the girl power in the LCS. Thursday at my desk?" The message says and I look. "Sjokz, obviously someone is messing with my donations alert. Sjokz, you have my number, just text me if you want to." I say with a smile as I gank bot, giving our Ashe a first blood.

After the game I decide to do a Q&A. The chat goes wild as I go away to get some tea. When I return I see rude questions like: "With who have you had sex?" and "When are you getting some D?" But one question makes me smile. "Do you have a crush? That is a good question XseikaX, and yes I do, and you could know the person where I am talking about too." I say and the next question is immediately: "Is it a proplayer?". "No it isn't guys, I have 4 pros here in my home, that is enough." I say and drink some tea. "Is it a girl? Asks Elopine. Maybe Elopine, but also maybe a boy." I say and smile. "One more queue?" I ask the viewers as I start another ranked queue.

The next day I am woken up by Oliver. "Holy shit what have you done?" He hisses and I yawn. "Wussup?" I ask and sit up. He hand me the daily dot and I read the headline. "FeedMe admitted that she might be bisexual" the headline reads and I shrug. "Oliver, if they ask, I joked." I say and he looks at me. "Scrims in a hour. Wake up the guys. Sabine's orders." He says and I nod, dressing up and waking up the guys.

Next Thursday we are backstage for the game against Splyce when suddenly a rioter approaches us. "I want FeedMe after the game to go to the studios. Eefje want her to analyse the game." The boy says shyly and I nod. "Tell her I will be there." I tell him and he nods. We are scanned before being handed our keyboard. We are the first game, in the LCS1 studio. We plug in our keyboards and mouse and lay our mousepads down. Sabine puts her hand on my back for a second. "Play safe." She whispers and I nod.

5 minutes later everyone is ready and we now wait for the game to go in champ select. We are talking about random things as suddenly Ezra smiles. "Guys I just realised, Splyce asked Lizzy to join when she hit challenger before any of us did. We need to kick their ass." He says and I roll my eyes. "Don't feed your ass of while doing it." Joe says and I roll my eyes. "Babies you are." I say innocently and Erik almost chokes on his coffee. We all laugh while the audience looks at us with a frown. One of the Riot employees quickly cleans up the spilt coffee and second later, we are in champ select. Sabine starts talking about our draft. I am not that interested, since my only job today is to play a champion and let the team do the rest. Sabine tells something about the cohesion between bot and mid and how I and top should keep roaming and doing unexpected stuff. About 10 minutes later, we are in the loading screen. We have Rumble top, Hecarim in the jungle, Yasuo mid and Thresh bot with Kalista while Splyce decided to go with Maokai top, Elise jungle, Viktor mid and Nami bot with Sivir.

The first game isn't spectacular. Complete early game and mid we are even. Joe loses first blood as Viktor and Elise roamed top as soon as his ward expired, but I managed to clean it up with Ezra after he died. Ezra got his triple to return to lane as I ran down to gank bot. We managed to take Nami down and took the Cloud dragon. "Movement speed Heca incoming." I say as I ult in mid to take out Viktor. After that Splyce caught me off guard in my jungle and camped bot pretty hard. When we had a teamfight last game, I knew it would decide everything.

We started the fight after Ezra took the tier 1 tower down. They went ham, trying to kill him, not noticing how we came from behind. I ulted and ghosted into them, getting them scattered out of formation. Aiden picked up a penta before we headed to their base, making good use of their deathtimes to break open mid to the inhibitor before backing off and running for Baron. We ended the game at 43 minutes when I got them to get me bot with Aidan and Erik, so Joe and Ezra backdoored. We went backstage to talk about the next game.

Game 2 was weird. Splyce knew how to force us back now with the teamcomp we picked. We had Mordekaiser top, Olaf jungle, Lissandra mid and Lucian bot with Thresh against Gragas top, Elise jungle, Azir mid and Braum with Ashe bot. We lost early game pretty hard after they all found me in my jungle and I got taken down. Midgame we got stable again after I camped bot and got fed. But late game we were even until 52 minutes. We both had the tier 3 turret at mid down and we had our inhibitor. We knew we had to play safe. We went for Baron to bait them in, only to find them doing it. I flashed in to smite it, using my ult to stay alive and we all went ham. I picked up a triple and Joe and Ezra both got one too. We ran to their midlane where a huge wave was and we pushed into their base. As soon as the victory screen popped up, I pulled of my headset pulling Ezra in a hug. We hugged before shaking Splyce's hands. Sencux pulled me in a quick hug and I smiled. As soon as I was backstage I was led to the studios. Ezra quickly threw my bottle of water at me so I could drink and I followed the Rioter. As soon as I got in, a headset was planted over my ears and I was put on the seat next to Vedius. He smiles and I smile back. "A minute until we are live." A voice says as I see Eefje avoiding my eyes. I bite my lip as we see Krepo and Quickshot sending it back. From there my instinct to put the people first takes over.

"Thank you Quickshot and I am so glad we could convince FeedMe to join while she was hungry. Well at least, that is what her gameplay let us think today. FeedMe, tell us what you thought of the game?" She asks and I shrug. "We could've done better in so many ways. I am just super glad we were able to pull out a victory here because I messed it up pretty badly. They caught me out where I should've had vision control, and I think the complete team messed up in so many ways possible." I say and she nods. Deficio turns to me. "That outplay on top in Game 1, could you tell us how you were able to clean it up?" he asks and I smile. "Yeah it wasn't that hard. Ezzieboy told us Viktor went back in the fog of war behind his turret and we hadn't seen Elise at all, so we decided to head top, sadly a bit late. When SeaAngel told us that there were three people top, we ran as quickly as possible. So when we got them together in a whirlwind of CC, it wasn't that hard to finish them off. And we let Ezzieboy take TP so he could give extra map pressure. When he got the triple, he could safely back and TP back to lane, giving their Viktor a huge disadvantage." I say and they nod. "Something I would like to highlight still, is your very random Baron steal." Tsepha says and I blush. "We were desperate and all I heard was 'Smite it woman' so I did." I say with a smile and they laugh. Eefje goes on to the next game and turns to Tsepha and Deficio and me. "Predictions UoL against Fnatic?" She asks and I smile. "Fnatic has the biggest chance of winning, they can execute a lot of comps better than the Unicorns." I explain and Deficio nod. "I am with her. Fnatic can execute much more comps in a higher level than the Unicorns and they have a lot of advantaged now Bora is back." Deficio says and Tsepha grins. "I think the Unicorns will win, because they have been so dominant, they are fourth now, just under DMF, and only DMF, G2 and Fnatic are above them, so I think they will be strong and show why they are fourth place." He explains and she smiles, sending it back to the casters.

After the post-game lobby is done, we all walk out of the studios. Eefje is dragged away by Quickshot as soon as they reunite and I frown. "Probably one of them has love troubles." I hear Deficio say behind me and I turn to him with a confused look. "Eefje has been experiencing love for someone and Trevor has troubles in paradise with planning his wedding." He explains and I nod. I give him a quick hug. "I better go home." I mutter and he nods. I walk towards the exit when I hear voices talk. It is Eefje and Trevor. "Trevor, I don't understand it. One second I am fine and one look later and I have trouble focussing. I had so much trouble today when she was there." I hear Eefje call out in desperation. I stand near the door, my heart frozen.