An analysis from afar

by Whavey

We had it all, we thought... It was shortly after my promotion when my feelings popped up. It was her that made me feel reborn, warm, safe and most of all, alive. In a period where homophobia was a thing, I wanted her more than I wanted anything. But was the team going to suffer too? (repost from my Wattpad story An Analysis From Afar, account name also Whavey)

11. Chapter 9

Lizzie

The weeks flew by and soon it was week 9. The week that would let us know what to expect in the play-offs. I was super nervous, but not only because Play-offs almost begin, but also for another fact. Martin leaked to me that Deilor is fired and is doubting between leaving Berlin and go home or to find another team.

I was sitting behind my pc, livestreaming some art that I was drawing and talking to viewers when suddenly Oliver walked over to me, waving to the stream. "We got a meeting." He says and I nod. I close off the stream and follow Oliver to the living room where they all sat on the couch, all but Sabine. Oliver stands next to her and I join them. "What's up?" I ask and Oliver hands me a letter. "Why is Alfie suspended for this week? They don't have a reason." I say and Sabine looks at me. "They do. He is a sub and he has been on our main roster for 5 games already and the games for this week too, which makes he could be an illegal starter." She explains and I sigh, sitting down on the chair next to the couch. "I have to play, don't I?" I ask and they nod. I look at them. "This week I will." I mutter softly and look at them. "Late scrim guys." I say, walking to my pc. Everyone else joins while I try to find some team to scrim against. "Guys, G2 wants to do a best of 5." I say and they nod. "Got it." Ezra says as I make the game and invite G2. Sabine gets up while I invite Freyja to spectate. Oliver sits down next to me on his PC to do some work. "Liz, can we see you on either Gragas or Hecarim?" She asks and I nod as I lock in Nautilus. "As long as there is a Karma in the comp, I am okay." I say and Ezra nods. Joe picks Maokai and Erik and Aidan select Nautilus and Fortune. On the G2 side they have a Gragas top, Kha'zix jungle, Lissandra mid and bot Lucian and Thresh. As we enter the game, I suddenly get super nervous and start shaking a little. Oliver turns to me as PerkZ is still loading in. "What's up?" He asks and I turn to him. "I am just a little scared. Last time I played has been a long time ago, and then I sucked so hard." I say and he looks at me with comforting eyes. "You'll do just fine. Try to get your pick next game." He advises and I nod as I look at the screen and get my Machete, potions and a ward.

The game goes very well. Considering it is my first game in 3 weeks, I am still pretty good and even manage to pick up a triple kill. We win only because we baited them at Baron. We suddenly disappeared into the jungle on the Baron side and they followed, face checking a bush and then we came from behind and upfront. Aidan pulls off a beautiful 5 man ulti to pick up a penta before we run to do Baron. With the deathtimers over a minute, we can get both the nexus turrets down before we have to retreat. I place a very sneaky ward to where Joe can TP, and when G2 wants to bait us into a 4v5, Joe TP's to the nexus to do it. While we fight and stop them from backing, he keeps doing so much damage that when PerkZ does manage to back, it is already too late. The nexus falls and we cheer.

The games after are a little less god. We managed to get a 3-2 loss out of it, and in the 4th game, which we won, I played my absolute favourite champion ever, Quinn and Valor. While I cleared my red buff, I decided to gank mid. I ran down and came in. I Q'ed E'ed Perkz and soon he dropped, giving Ezra first blood and me the assist. Ezra was so happy and everytime I got to his lane, he would use his ult, Frozen Tomb, on Perkz to snare him and I would end it. At this point I was fed on only ganking, but Bot was struggling really bad. I made Ezra walk a longer route to bot so they would think he was coming top. I flew to bot from base with my homeguards, and soon it was a 4v2 on bot, clearing them out. I smiled as not much later we won the game.

We were sitting in front of the Huge TV watching the replays when we finally get to game 4. Oliver and Sabine look at each other. "This was the game you played best." Freyja starts and I look at her. "Quinn might have chosen a weak champion for jungle, but her early ganks made her so strong. A lot of times you want to get fed of some farm as a weak jungler, but this system of super early ganks is ridiculous. It scares the people out of lane. As you can see here, you made not only Mithy and Trick buy a sightstone, but also Expect has one, while they also have red trinkets. Your sneak attacks were great and it forced them back so much." Freyja says and I yawn. "Just a question, what is the chance this will work against Origin?" Sabine asks and Freyja shrugs. "Pretty high chance. They expect her to pick one of her signature champs probably, so like a Shyvana or Xin, maybe Eve, but certainly not Quinn." Freyja explains and I see Sabine looking at me. "I am all in if you are." She says and I turn to the guys, who are all looking at me in hope. "Sure, get something to work around Quinn, and I will play Quinn." I say and they cheer all. I smile as we go on.

The next morning I am up like really early. It is 5am and I would go sporting today, but I feel like going for a run. I dress and leave a note that I went for a run on the kitchen counter. I am running through the still sleeping Berlin when I pass a park. I walk in and see Eefje sitting on a bench. I walk up to her and sit down next to her. "Hey." I say and she looks up. "Hey, what are you doing up already?" She asks and I smile. "I could ask you the same. But I went for a run, couldn't sleep anymore." I say and she looks at me. "Insomnia?" She asks and I shake my head. "I always get up early." I say and she nods. "I couldn't sleep either." She says and I look at her. "Are you okay?" I ask and she shakes her head. I pull her in a tight hug, my heart skipping a little as she wraps her arms around me too. "I couldn't sleep and then I realised I had so much to do and now I am super stressed and I just wanna go home and relax." She says and I look at her. "When can you go home?" I ask and she looks at me. "I mean Bruges when I say home. I mean you should be able to during the Challenger promotion tournament." I say and she looks at me. "Why are you so nice?" She asks and I shrug. "You are always kind to me and I really think you need a little break." I say and she lays her head on my shoulder. "I don't wanna go back to my apartment and be lonely." She says and I smile. "Then why don't you come to us. We have enough food to share and you would be with like 8 other people." I say and she looks at me. "You wouldn't mind?" She asks and I shake my head. "No we wouldn't. And if you want to you could just walk the street and get to the LCS in seconds." I say and she looks at me. "Thank you." She says as she gets up. I get up too and she looks at me. "What way?" She asks and I show her. "So are the rumours true that Riot banned Alfie because they thought he was starting roster?" She asks and I shake my head. "Just suspended for the two gaming days, so I have to play." I say and she looks at me. "Why did you quit?" She asks and I look at her. "Troubles in the team, they preferred me to take over my old staff position, to beg me later to return for the team. They haven't been doing great." I say and she looks at me. "If you win against Roccat and Origin, you can still come in 3rd." She says and I look at her. "I know but the chance is barely there." I say and she looks at me. "I never saw you as the one to doubt things." She says and I look at her. "No one told you about the mistakes I made in the last 3 weeks?" I ask her and she looks at me. "Come on they can't be that bad." She encourages me and I look at her. "I had a one night stand with Rekkles, I started eating unhealthy, I became reckless. Eefje I don't know what to do anymore. Apparently I can either be only good or just full bad." I say and she looks at me. "I never saw you as the one for one night stands." She says and I look at her. "Because I am not. It was my first bedpartner too." I say and she now stops me. "Was this right after they kicked you out?" She asks and I nod. "They don't know about the one night stand though. Freyja and Martin are trying things out a little, so I don't want to nuke his chances." I say and Eefje smiles. "What?" I ask, and she giggles. "You just remind me so much of a friend I have, always doubting whenever she makes the smallest mistake and then trying to make others happy." She says as we walk into the street. I smile as I grab the keys and open the front door and let her in. Oliver come into the hallway. "Hey Liz, Eefje." He says and I smile. "Hey Oliver, sorry I brought Eefje home, she wanted some company." I explain and he nods. "Come in Eefje, you are always welcome here." He says as he opens the door. I quickly make up my bed/the couch and make sure Eefje can sit. "You don't have a room?" She asks and I smile. "It is the Sub's room now. Right after Krakow they will build a new extra building for the staff to sleep in." I explain and she nods while looking around. "It is big here." She notes and I nod. Alfie waves at Eefje while he walks sleepily to the kitchen to grab some food. Not much later everyone is downstairs and talking about tonight. "Man I really want to play some solo queue." Ezra suddenly says and he leaves with Alfie. I turn to Eefje. "Wanna do some soloqueue? I can ask Oliver if you can use his PC." I ask and she nods. Oliver already heard it and nods. I log in and set up League for her while logging in to my level 30 unranked smurf. She looks at me. "You wanna play placements with me?" she asks and I nod, making a game and inviting her. "Yeah I would love to Eefje." I say and queue up when Erik passes by, winking at me. "You got it." He whispers in my ear and I blush.

Do I really, but then really, love Eefje?