Ginga´s POV

What time is it? Oh it's already morning. But it must be still very early..., I thought, yawning.

Ginga woke up, when shafts of sunlight hit his face. The jalousie hadnt been lowered down completely. Ginga always had been senistive to light.

Where am I? Oh yes, I have slept at Madoka´s place...in her room. With her in the same bed. I was laying on my back, the blanket thrown away. Madoka was well, half lying on my arm, the other half on me. Her shirt was lifted a bit and my hand was on her bare hip because her pants were slightly slid down a bit. Her skin was so soft, my thumbs practically danced around it. My fingers were circling something tiny and round on her skin. A beauty patch. She has a beauty patch on her right hip? I smiled. I remembered seeing it before... but that had been a very long time ago.

Her leg was spread across my waist between my legs. A wrong move and she could kick my intimate spot. Her right hand over my chest was rising every time I in and exhaled, the other one was…in my hair? I could feel the tips of her finger on my scalp and my hair entangled between her fingers. Great. How can I untighten myself from her? I sighed, even though I had to admit, that I liked it, having her laying so close to me... well practically she was laying on me.

I could feel something wet against my chest. Oh great, she was drooling over me. Then she mumbled something. No, it was more a moan. I could feel her fingers tense over my belly and her legs tighten around my…. okay, I have to get out of here before she wakes up and starts asking questions even I don't have an answer for.

I didnt plan this. I only wanted to sleep next to her. I didnt think I would wake up, entangled with her. Maybe there was a chance to get up without waking her? Even though that was going to be really hard. How was I supposed to get up, without moving her away from me?

Okay, best way to not wake her, was probably to move very slowly...and if she woke up, I will pretend to be asleep...I thought nervously. I really couldnt imagine her reaction to this situation

Hm, I started moving a bit, but she didnt move an inch. In fact, she pressed herself even more against me. I took a deep breath and and made a big mistake: I looked at her and a pair of saphire blue eyes looked at me. She blinked several times and then she seemed to realize where and on who she was. She jerked back so fast I couldn't believe that was possible. She was now on the edge of the bed and lost her balance.

Madoka, watch out! I didn't even know I could react this fast, either.

In an instant, I wrapped my arms around her and softened her fall. As a result, she landed on the floor and I was kneeling on top of her.

Ouch. My wrist had hit the stupid bedside table and made a creaky noise, but it wasn't that bad.

We were inches apart, my head was in her neck and her tiny arms around my back. I could smell her scent again. It was mix of jasmine and orange. Unique. Hers.

She was panting so I lifted my head to see her face. Her left cheek was rosy and her mouth was slightly open. She was probably shocked. Her eyes seemed bigger than usual and full of light and all I could think of was– Beautiful

The words came out by themselves. As if another person had spoken them. Quickly I added: Great job, Mado. Because of your ninja action I nearly had a heart attack. Next time you want to wake me up, you don't put a stunt like that.

W-W-what, she stumbled confused. She was perplex. What the hell, Ginga? What are you doing in my bed? She whispered stunned and a bit angry.

Good question, I thought, sighing.

Madoka´s POV

What the hell happened? Was I drunk last night? I didnt remember sleeping next to Ginga at all! My heart beat was increasing explosion-like, at his sight. His hair was completely messy and his eyes flashed amused, as if he knew something I didnt. I noticed, that he wasnt wearing a shirt and he was looking devilishly good...why is he half naked? I nervously tried to recall what happened last night. I remembered waiting for him to return, while working on the couch in the living room. I probably felt asleep on the couch, since I had been tired. But I really didnt recall going to bed with him?

Ginga was like radiator. He literally was too hot against my body, so the heat rose up inside of me. It was like I couldn't breathe anymore. He was too way to close and due to his movements, when he tried to soften my fall from the bed, both of us were laying on the ground. I knew that he only wanted to prevent me from getting hurt. I felt something soft against my left shoulder. Holy moly, those are his lips! He was so close that he could place his lips against my skin. Despite the heat, that totally sent a chill down my spine. He raised his head and looked at me and I returned his look, totally awe-struck. My arms were around his bare back. Did he just call me beautiful, right now? No, I must have misheard something.

Then he suddenly had the guts to be cheeky with me, accusing me to have caused him a heart attack with my „ninja action"! Who was the one causing me heart attacks first thing in the early morning? What was he doing in my bed for heaven´s sake?

When I asked him, he avoided looking at my eyes. Instead he got up from the ground and I was left there, still trying to catch my breath. When he reached down his arm, to help me get up again, I only glared angrily at him, but still took his hand. He helped me get up.

What happened last night? Why did you sleep in my bed? I asked him once again.

I- well, Im sorry, okay? I just couldnt help it, Mado. He scratched his head, in embarrassement, like he used to do back then. I didnt say anything, only folded my arms, waiting for his explanation.

He sighed and took a short moment, before he continued.

When I returned back yesterday, it was already late... I found you sleeping on the couch, and then...then I carried you to your bed and I eh... well … He was clearly struggling right now.

I raised my eyebrow, waiting for him to continue.

I...eh...I dont know, what made me do this! All I could think of was sleeping next to you! I swear, I didnt have any bad intentions...I missed you so much Madoka and the thought of holding you in my arms again, made me lose every other rational thought...

I didnt know, what I expected him to say, but I surely didnt expect that. He had been honest with me, I could see that, from the look in his eyes.

Ginga, I … , he stopped me before I could finish my sentence. He placed his fingers on my lips, silencing my words. Then he gently trailed them up to the swing of my lips, following the corner of my mouth and put them down to my chin. I was totally captivated by his action and only realized what he was about to do, when he neared his face to mine. I stood there trembling, my heart was beating so loud, that I feared he might hear it.

In the last second, before he could kiss me, I managed to turn my face away. It was harder, than I expected it to me and much to my confusion a part of me was being angry with myself for turning away. He stopped, when he realized, that I wasnt willing to let him kiss me. He didnt say anything.

He only looked at me with a sad expression, as if he got his heart broken. I took a deep breath, since I didnt know what to say. I was feeling so bad and guilty, for hurting him that I felt my heart clench painfully. What was wrong with me? And what the hell was he doing?

G-Ginga, I- I´m sorry, but I...I just can´t, I stumbled. Much to my surprise my voice was shaking, as if I had been crying.

I had to tell him! This situation was getting out of my hand. He had to know about me and Tsubasa.

Madoka, it is okay! I already know... He said with a dark expression.

Eh? Wh-what?

I know about you dating Tsubasa!

Madoka´s face turned from red with panic to white with shock. She didnt know what suprised her more, the fact that he knew that, or the fact, that despite him knowing they were dating, he tried to kiss her. Her hand flew to her mouth.

How...how did you find out?

Why do you care? Why didn´t you tell me yourself? Did you really think, you could keep that from me? That I was too dumb to figure out, what is going on?

I didnt plan keeping that away from you! I didnt plan anything, okay?

Madoka resisted the urge to break down into tears. She felt completely horrible. Why did it turn out that way? She didnt know if she wanted to kill that person, that told Ginga about her and Tsubasa or if she should be grateful, that she didnt have to do that.

You were the one who suddenly disappeared, Ginga. What did you expect? I waited so long for you to come home... I never gave up hope. But eventually I had to move on. I couldnt let my life pass me by...

These words only spurred on Ginga´s anger.

Oh, so you just gave up, is that it? You just decided I was a lost case, huh?

I waited for you for you five years, Ginga! I couldnt wait forever!! Madoka yelled.

Ginga sneered at her.

Well, it sure didn´t take you long to get over me, since you had our good old pal, Tsubasa to comfort you, right?

Madoka looked at him with a pained expression, as if he had hit her.

He knew, that he was probably being unfair and cruel, but he couldnt help himself. He was too enraged. All this time, he had been searching, hoping for his memories to return, so that he could return to her, only to find out that she had moved on.

Y-you have no idea...Ginga! You don´t know anything!! Do you think that was easy for me? Do you have any idea how much I suffered? She screamed at him. She just couldnt take it anymore.

You can´t bloody leave me for nearly seven years and expect to pick where we left off! It was utter hell for me, living without you! Don´t you even care? Don´t you understand what it was like to me, clinging onto a hope that was breaking by the days?

His sneer turned into a glare. It had been torture for him, as well. But that didnt mean he had decided to go out and date someone else. He had thought, if she loved him, she would hold on. Looks like dreams and hopes never worked out the way people wanted them to.

So that means, you go and start dating someone else? He inquired.

Madoka shook her head, letting out an exasperated sigh.

It means that I couldnt keep holding on forever. How was I supposed to know you were alive? You never gave me a sign of life...like a call or a letter. I wrote you letters, one nearly every day and that for two years... you gave the illusion that you were gone forever, Ginga...what else was I supposed to believe?

Madoka knew, that it hadn´t been his fault. He hadnt been able to keep in touch, but he had to see her point too.

Ginga was silent for a moment, pondering all of this.

I know, that you couldnt hold on forever... I didnt expect you to. But I thought you loved me and I thought that was enough, ok? He hoarsely confessed.

Madoka grew soft at this, gazing up to his brilliant eyes that had lost their sparkle. He looked very tired all of a sudden, but not the kind of tired that comes from deprivation of sleep. It was the kind of wanted sleep, that only traveler from a distance land experienced, that kind of sleep that isn´t cured by a nap or a night´s rest.

It was the kind of necessary sleep that was from seeing too much destruction and not enough optimism. It was the kind of needed sleep that was from viewing to many starry nights and never a clear path home. That kind of fatigue that seeped into your very bones and seemed to never get away.

Ginga... I dont know what to say, she trailed off.

Ginga´s expression changed suddenly into a sorrowful smile. A smile that nearly broke her heart.

You don´t have to say anything, Mado...and you dont have to worry about me staying here any longer. I will leave today. Im not taking advantage of your kindness any longer.

Eh? Madoka didn´t know what to say at his words. She felt so terribly confused and sad. It felt wrong that he would leave like that, after their heated argument.

I won´t leave without telling you this, though, he added. You probably already know that, but still...I will say it one more time.

Madoka was unable to even guess where he was heading with this.

I love you Mado! I always have loved you and always will love you! He said with a clear and calm voice, that made Madoka get goosebumps all over her. The honesty in his voice was too much.

He gently took her hand and pressed it lighty against his warm cheek, then he placed a gentle kiss inside the palm of her hand and let it slid back to her side. Madoka felt a huge wave of emotions ran over her. She didnt know what to say or to do.

Ginga left her room. She heard him pack his stuff and even close the door behind him. He really did leave. She was still standing on the same spot, without moving an inch. When her knees suddenly gave out and she felt herself slowly sink to the ground. Tears of shock and exhaustion ran down her face. Madoka felt so numb inside. She cried. She cried, as she hadnt for a long time.

Author´s note: Yeah, I know this chapter ended very depressing! But don´t be sad! There will be more, soon! I hope you still enjoyed this chapter! Thanks a lot for reading! Im really grateful for your kind reviews! Please keep following me! I love you guys :* :* :*