Ch 14 Part 3
BB couldn't help but mentally kick himself. 'Man I wonder what would have happened if she said yes to-' He shook his head. 'Stupid teenage hormones!' he thought as he entered his room. 'She probably thinks I'm a big sex crazed pervert now.'
Finishing his shower, he wrapped a towel around his waist and stared at his reflection in the mirror. He looked himself over and still didn't like what he saw. He knew it didn't matter to Raven, but he wished all the reminders of his past weren't on his body as a constant reminder of how bad his life was.
Covering his body with his suit, he felt like he was hiding again. It did feel good to wear it again because at the same time it was his security blanket. No one would ever know but Raven about these scars. It made him feel a little lighter, but it didn't change the pure hatred he has and overwhelming sadness he had every time he looked at his body. It would always be a reminder that he was looked at as nothing more than an experiment.
"Beast boy," said Raven as she knocked on his door, "can I come in?"
BB smiled as he opened the door for her, and he saw her smile back at him. "Come in," he said as he closed the door behind her.
Raven looked over his bed before she sat down on it. She watched as BB joined her. "Are you ok? I could sense some powerful emotions coming from you."
"Every time I look at my body, I hate what I see. It just reminds me of how powerless I was back then to protect myself."
"Your body is also a testament of how strong your are. While nothing about getting those scars were pleasant, you made it. You're letting the past on your body control you now."
"Honestly Rae, I know you're right. I just don't know how to get past it."
"Well do you think your parents would be hurt to know that you're still in pain? They saved you Gar. I saved you because I saw someone that day who deserved a chance at life. It was far from all right what happened to you, but I thought that if I saved you that day, then I could save myself somehow. I could go back to Azarath and face my fate. Turns out I couldn't so I came to earth and met you and our friends. Best decision I've ever made," she smiled as she squeezed his hand.
BB smiled. "Man what did I do to deserve someone as amazing as you?" he said as he squeezed her hand right back.
"Just by being your annoying, persistent self I guess," said Raven as she stood up with BB. "So maybe we should get some breakfast and then visit my family. I haven't told them about us yet, and I thought we could go after breakfast."
"Sure, sounds great," said BB as they walked down the hall and into the kitchen to see their friends eating breakfast.
"Hey Raven, BB," said Cy. "I made breakfast," he said as BB cringed.
"Well I guess that means I'm making my own breakfast," said BB as he made his way to the fridge.
"Sorry B, I'm not touching that tofu stuff," said Cy as BB smiled.
"I understand Cy," said BB as he popped his tofu in the microwave.
"Say what?" yelled Cy.
"Dude relax, I just want to eat in peace. Besides the tofu vs meat argument is getting a little old. Don't you think buddy?" he said as he grabbed his tofu and sat beside his girlfriend who had a small stack of waffles.
"Raven, what did you do to Beast boy?" asked Cy.
"Nothing," she smiled.
"What? That's even worse!" exclaimed Cy.
"Calm down Cyborg and eat some breakfast," said Robin.