I don't own twilight….I know big shocker right?

Lunch goes by without a cinch after that.

It isn't until we're heading to the last period that I remember something very important Jake and I have gym together.

"Oh my god!"

"What" he asks

"Jacob and I have gym together. What should I do? Should I talk to him….if he talks to me?" I ask

"Of course Bella. You talking to him is the whole point of this charade isn't it?" he asks quietly since his guys a few feet behind us.

They look an awful lot like bodyguards to me.

"But don't give in too easily. He'll probably ask you to leave me either today or tomorrow but I suggest you think about it before you say anything because you have to make sure he's asking as a guy who wants his girl back not as a guy who wants his friend or sister back"

I nod

I was so nervous about what Jacob would say if he talked to me that it took me longer than it should have to change into my gym clothes.

All my worrying was for nothing though because Jacob didn't come to class. I was extremely disappointed. I hardly paid attention in class which is why it was good that we were going over the rules to whatever sport we would play next.

Why isn't he here?

Why isn't he yelling at me for being with Edward?

Everyone thought Edward was dangerous so why isn't Jake here?

Have I ever had any real friends?

I thought that at least Jake was a real friend; that he at least cared but I was wrong I had never had any real friends and nobody cared what happened to me. I was utterly alone.

What am I going to do now? I was counting on the fact that Jake cared about me.

"Class dismissed" coach says

I go back to the locker room and change.

Again I'm not really paying attention to what I'm doing so when Edward asks me what's wrong I find myself surprise I'm already outside.

"Huh?"

"Why are you crying?" he asks somewhat impatiently.

I touch my cheek

When did I start crying?

"I…Ja"

"What have you done to her?" Jake yells in the distance.

I turn around.

Jake!

Edward pulls me to his side immediately and wraps a possessive hand around my waist holding me to his side. Restraining me there.

"First of all it's none of your business. Second I didn't do anything to her but even if I did it would be our business, me and Bella's only"

"It is my business because what happens to Izzy will always be my business because she's my…" he pauses and looks at me.

Your what Jake? What are you going to say? Could it be that you're about to say that I'm your

"Friend" Jake finishes

Friend? Well at least that's something right?

"Well Bella doesn't need you anymore she has me now" he kisses that side of my head "and that's all she needs"

"Izzy can we talk for a second?" Jake says to me completely ignoring Edward

"No" Edward responds for me.

What is he doing? I thought he said it was vital Jake and I talked.

"I was talking to Izzy" Jake says irritated.

"And I said Bella doesn't need you anymore and her name is Bella not Izzy; she's not a little girl anymore"

"Come on Bella let's go" Edward says

We head towards the parking lot. I'm so stunned about what happened that I hardly notice anything around me.

"Izzy! Izzy!" I hear Jake yell after me.

I have to force myself not to look.

I'm sorry Jake

It isn't until we on our way home that I finally get the courage to ask him.

"What the hell was that Edward? I thought you said Jake and I had to talk"

"Are all you rich kids stupid or something? Or is that just you and Jacob?"

"How dare you!"

"Were you not listening during lunch when I told you that you couldn't have any outside friends?"

"Yes but"

"Don't you know that everyone knows that I'm a possessive and jealous bastard?"

"Yes but"

"But nothing! The guys were right behind us Bella! It would look strange to them that I let my girlfriend talk to her friend; who she 'used to' have a crush on!"

"Oh"

"Oh" he mimics "look you can talk to him when it's just you two with no one else watching but when I'm around I won't let him anywhere near you understand?"

I nod

"He's probably going to come later today and it would be great if I was here that way I could kick him out; that way he would want to talk to you even more but I have to report back home so you're going to have to handle it. Talk to him for a couple of minutes tell him you love me and that he should leave you alone because you don't want any problems with me"

"Ok"

"Now get out"

I hadn't noticed we were already at my house.

"I'll be back tomorrow to pick you up and try not to mess up our plan"

"Ok" I say and get out of the car.

I'm barely out the door when he speeds away.

I guess Edward had a point but did he have to be so mean about it? I was just so happy that Jake cared that I forgot anything else.

"Welcome how Ms. Izzy would you like something? How was school?"

"I'm fine Gloria thank you" I say smiling "I don't need anything thanks, school was….good. And its Bella now Gloria please inform the rest of the staff that they should now address me as Bella"

If Jake came he would think it odd that my staff still called me "Izzy" and besides "Bella" sounds more grown up.

"Certainly Ms. Bella" she says somewhat surprised.

Get ready Gloria this is the least of the surprises.

"That's all Gloria you're dismissed"

She leaves without another word.

I go up to my room and think.

Jake cares, he might've been about to expose our secret which is HUGE.

Besides Jake I have no real friends but that's ok as long as I have him I don't need anyone else.

I hope Jake realizes he loves me soon because it's going to be lonely without him.

My reputation has gone down the drain. My image is down the drain and I will surely be looked down upon for being with Edward but as long as Jake falls for me then its ok. Everything that happens is ok as long as I have Jake.

~3hours Later~

"Ms. Bella" Gloria says knocking.

"Yes Gloria" I say opening the door.

"Mr. Jacob is here"

I smile involuntarily

He came

I clear my throat and remove the smile from my face.

Edward said I could talk to him…I'm supposed to be in love with Edward and not wanting to have problems with him so I shouldn't be eager to talk to him…

"Tell him I'm not here"

Let's see if Edward is right…

"But I already told him you were here and he's waiting in the living room" she says in a surprised voice.

"Then tell him I don't want to talk to him" I say

"But"

"But nothing Gloria do as I say"

She leaves without a word.

I'm sorry for doing this to you Gloria but I have to get Jake back.

A couple of minutes later Jacob comes barging into my room.

"Izzy we need to talk" he says

"I said I didn't want to talk to you Jacob!" I yell

I put on the stoniest face I can muster.

"I don't care what you want right now we need to talk!"

"Fine what do you want?"

"To talk to you" he says softly

"I can't Jake I'm with Edward now and he doesn't want me to talk to you." I say in a soft voice.

I could never be mad at him or be mean to him and I now realize that I don't have a right to be at the moment. We weren't together so technically he didn't betray me.

He smiles at my change of tone but frowns almost immediately at what I said.

"Why? You aren't in his gang I know that. I know you didn't sleep with 4 other guys heck! I doubt you slept with Edward in the first place"

It's incredibly hard to suppress a smile when I hear those words.

Oh Jake! Thank you for thinking so highly of me but I did sleep with him. I'm sorry for betraying you. I always thought you would be my first.

"But I did. We met at Mike and Tyler's party we got talking and then spent the entire weekend together."

"What Friday night? Iz I heard about Friday night I know you were drunk and that he was dragging you out the door! He took advantage of you Izzy!"

"No he didn't. I wanted it. I was the one who went looking for him"

"Izzy you were drunk"

"Yes! I was but that doesn't mean I didn't want to sleep him."

"Why would you want to sleep with him? Last time I checked you weren't in love with him and I know you wouldn't sleep with someone you don't love"

"I never said we were in love the first time we slept together. Our first time together was because we both felt alone and unloved"

"See there you go you were vulnerable and he took advantage"

"What about all the other times?" I ask

"What other times?"

Oh god please forgive me for this Jake and don't be mad at me.

"we spent the entire weekend together what do think we did" I say laughing " oh we talked and all but that wasn't what we did most of the time" I smirking

It's quiet for a full 5 minutes.

"How many times did you sleep with him?" he asks quietly

"That's none of your business" I say

"I guess not"

"Goodbye Jake please don't come back I don't want Edward to see you here and think….something that's not."

"He doesn't love you Izzy he's just using you. I know you don't believe me but….just know that when he tosses you to the curb like all the others you can always come back."

"You're wrong Edward isn't using me" we're both using each other. "I know it's hard for you to understand but Edward LOVES me and I LOVE HIM! I'm not a little girl anymore Jake I know you're worried about me but don't be I know when someone is using me and I can protect myself if need be. Now please leave I don't want any problems with Edward please"

"Ok I'll leave but remember I'll always be here and when you're done you can come back" and with that he turns around and leaves.

I drop to ground and cry.

I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Please forgive me Jake! Please!

Hours later

"So did he go?" Edward asks

We were on the phone.

"Yes he did 3 hours later"

He laughs

"I knew it! So how did it go?"

"It went good I think. He thinks you took advantage of me Friday night but don't worry I took care of it" I took a deep breath "ok don't be mad at me ok but I told Jake we slept multiple times don't worry though I didn't give an exact number. That's the only way I could convince him to believe me. Maybe now he'll see me as a girl." I said sadly.

"it's alright Bella you made the right decision although….it might be harder now for him to take you back….on a brighter note I think that him not believing you has more to do with the fact that he refuses to believe that you slept with someone other than him."

"Really You think so?" I ask hopefully

"Yeah! Hey look I have to go but don't worry Jake will definitely take you back see you tomorrow"

He hangs up before I can respond.

Was Edward trying to make me feel better again?

Ok so here's the next chapter I'm kind of iffy on it but….. tell me what you think