The next day at school instead of whispers everything went silent as soon as Edward and I stepped into the building. It was slightly uncomfortable but I preferred that over the insults.
Edward was very quiet this morning. I wanted to ask if there was anything wrong but what if he got mad like the last time. He didn't really want to talk about it then but….he was always making me better so I guess I kinda owed him
Just take a deep breath and do it Bella you've waited long enough.
I really do need to stop talking to myself but I'm right. It was now lunch and we were in the cafeteria he had been like this all day.
Here goes nothing
"Is everything alright Edward?" I asked tentively.
"Yeah I am just some business stuff, you don't want to know"
I nod
"Did Ja…he say anything? Did he go over?"
"No" I say disappointed "maybe you scared him off with what you did yesterday"
"If that's the case then he's a wuss" he snorts
"Hey!" I say frowning
He laughs
"I'm sure he's just following my wishes after all I did ask him to stay away" I say defending Jake.
"If you say so…. But that wouldn't stop me from seeing my girl."
I didn't have any response for that. It was quiet for a long time. It grew awkward at for me.
"Edward I've been thinking" I say nervously
"Uhoh" he says laughing clearly referencing my whole 'don't fall in love with me' speech.
"Shut up! I'm serious!"
"Ok ok I'm sorry" he says sobering up.
I take a deep breath
"So how exactly is this going to work?"
"How's what going to work?" He asks confused.
"'Our relationship' I don't think we can continue like this. We don't know anything about each other. We hardly spend time together and when we do we hardly talk. I know you said that what people think doesn't matter but…"
"They think we spent yesterday together as for the rest we could always lie but I think we should get to know each other a bit better specially because…"
"Because….?" I ask when he doesn't continue.
"Well you remember that honeymoon phase we were talking about?"
I nod getting scared.
"Well there are things I've been neglecting these last 3 days and I can't afford any more time. I'm sorry"
"So what's going to happen Monday" I ask nervously
"Oh don't worry it isn't anything too bad" he pauses dramatically "I'm just going to unleash them on you"
Unleash them? Oh! He…he means…
I hear him laugh.
"You look scared" he says laughing again "They aren't that bad. They'll treat you right, they might be a bit curious though."
"What if I don't know the correct answer?"
"It won't be an inquisition or anything so don't worry"
I nod
"Are they…? What exactly…how…" I pause and take a deep breath "I mean how much are they going to be around?"
"Well for starters I won't always be able to pick you up in fact until further notice Jasper's gonna be picking you up"
"Why?" I ask bewildered
"I've got stuff to do. I won't be able to take you to class either, Jasper and Riley will do that. We'll still sit together at lunch but the whole gang will be with us. Umm…oh! I'll try to take you home but it won't always be possible" he said listing them off as if they weren't important.
"Great so basically you're throwing me to the curb is that it?" I ask irritated
"This will ruin our whole plan" I whisper/yell
"Don't worry about that I've got it covered"
"Oh really well please enlighten me"
"I won't be busy every afternoon we'll spend some time together…some of that might have to be in public though. You know have an actual 'date' just so it doesn't look suspicious."
"I guess that's ok but I don't know it doesn't seem right"
"Bella" he says exasperated "I can't be with you all the time"
"I know that!" I said defensively.
"And we have to let them in at some point." He says softly.
"I know" I said rolling my eyes "I'm just worried that 'our love' will suffer" I explained.
"You mean that other people will think I tossed you to the curb?"
I nod
He sighs "Bella I thought I told you to….you know what forget it" he takes a deep breath "Bella I'm sure you don't realize this but I haven't done anything like this with anyone else so that alone makes you pretty special"
I look at him confused
"Bella I've never spent an entire week alone with a girl. I've never protected anyone like I protect you not even Tanya. So please trust me when I tell you that 'our love' won't suffer alright"
I nod
He's right. Our plan won't be ruined. He's never done anything like this with anyone else. He had never spent a week with anyone. He had never taken any of his other girls to class. He's never defended any of them against the rumors and insults not even Tanya and the things they said about her were 10 times worse but then again he's never had to all of the others could take care of themselves.
I slumped my shoulders
"So how exactly are we going to get to know each other?" I ask feeling a little down.
"How about we spend the afternoons together from here till Friday? Your house?"
"Sounds good"
"Will your maids be an issue?"
"No they won't bother us"
"Alright then your house it is then, now let's hurry because you're going to late"
"Me? Aren't you worried about you being late?"
"No, but I don't want your record of being on time to be screwed up because of me"
"You shouldn't worry so much about me you know" I say quietly.
He just shrugs.
I sigh.
I wish he wouldn't say things like that. It makes me feel like a burden whenever I hear them.
*FFL*
I really thought Jake wasn't going to say anything, about what happened yesterday, but he stopped me right after gym.
"Bella wait" he called after me.
Calm down Bella! Don't you dare smile! Relax!
"Yes Jake" I ask turning around
"Are you ok?" he asks concerned "you know about yesterday"
"Yeah" I nod "thanks to Edward everything's alright" I let myself smile a little.
Jake will think it's because of Edward and I just HAVE to smile. I can't contain it!
"Yeah" he snorts "it was his fault in the first place"
"No it wasn't" I say frowning
I didn't want anyone blaming Edward.
"It's no one's fault people just like to talk to make their lives more interesting. They're stupid." I say repeating Edward's words.
"Yeah they are" he agrees "so you're good right? I know those types of types of comments always upset you and now…" he trailed off
Now that they're being said about me I finished.
"Yes I am." I say smiling "Edward has been teaching me to not care about what others think."
"It's good that you have him then." he says stiffly "Is he also teaching you how to ignore violence? Is that why you don't care that those girls were beaten to a bloody pulp? Because it not like you to agree to something like that? I just don't understand how you could just let that happen."
"I thought you knew me better than that. No, I didn't agree to it but you know what? It felt damn good to have someone there for me. Protecting me and standing up for me. So even though I don't agree how it came to be I'm glad the rumors stopped"
"I'm sorry" he says reaching his hand out and caressing my cheek "I wish I had done something about that earlier."
Don't lean into the caress Bella!
"It's ok Edward took care of it"
He drops his hand and his face hardens.
"Like I said it's good you have him" he says stiffly before turning around and leaving.
Did Jake just get jealous?
I couldn't contain the smile that spread across my face.
Jake's jealous! Jake's jealous! Jake's jealous! Jake's jealous!
I kept repeating that over and over in my head while I went to change. I was so out of it that I didn't know I was outside until I heard Edward's voice.
"I'm sorry what did you say?" I ask
"I said" he says taking my hand "why are you so happy I thought you hated gym"
"I do it's just that" I looked back at the gang.
"Never mind I can guess"
"You're smart" I compliment still not being able to stop smiling.
"I am but you're also very predictable" he says smiling.
"Hey" I say elbowing him, hurting me more than him. "I could be happy because of something else!"
"Yeah but not this happy" he laughs.
I yank my hand free from his and cross my hands across my chest. I go ahead stomp ahead of him towards his car.
I hear him laugh again.
*FFL*
The ride home is quiet. I think we're both a bit nervous, at least I am.
I get out of the car as soon as we arrive.
I hope Gloria is nicer
"I'm home" I say opening the door.
"Welcome home Ms. Bella" Gloria says making her way towards me but freezes as soon as she sees Edward. "Mr. Cullen" she says curtly looking away.
"Please call me Edward. My dad is 'Mr. Cullen'"
"Alright Mr. Edward" she says curtly.
This isn't going very well.
"Gloria" I warn.
"It's alright Bella" Edward intercedes "she's allowed not to like me. Where do you want to do this?"
"How about the backyard?"
"Sounds cool" he shrugs
"Gloria; Edward and I are going to be out back, please have Daisy come with some refreshments. What would you like?" I ask turning to Edward.
"I don't know coke I guess"
"Would you like anything else a snack or something?" I ask.
"Nah"
"A coke and a water please" I say Gloria.
She nods and leaves without another word.
"Come on Edward it's this way" I lead him toward the back "I really do apologize please don't be mad she just a bit biased. She really likes Jake and wants me to be with him"
"Like I said I don't care. I'm not your real boyfriend you know so it doesn't matter."
"I know it doesn't matter but it's still rude. I guess it would've been different if it were Tanya's parents right?"
"No not really, her parents hate me too" he shrugs
"Must be nice not caring what anyone thinks about you"
"It is you should try it sometime" he says sitting down on one of the chairs around the table.
"Oh I could never do it like you. I mean I agree with you about the kids at school because well I won't be seeing any of them come graduation but the adults are different. Maybe it's because of my family name and what that represents but I was always taught to be careful and mindful when I'm around adults."
"Whatever, so where"
"I'm sorry to interrupt" says Daisy blushing. "Here are your drinks."
Daisy was a little younger than the rest of the maids. I think she just turned 21 and it was obvious from her blush that she liked him.
"Thanks Daisy you can leave now"
I turn to Edward and see him checking her out as she leaves.
What's he doing? He's supposed to be my boyfriend!
"Edward" I whisper/yell hitting him under the table "you're supposed to be my boyfriend remember?"
"Oh yeah sorry" he says turning to look at me. "How old is she by the way?"
"21" I say huffing "so technically if anything did happen between you guys it would be considered rape!"
"Actually Bella, I'm 18" he says winking
"Edward I swear to god if"
"Relax Relax" he says laughing "I was just messing with you"
"You better be"
"Let's get this over with. What do you want to know about me?"
"Let's start simple. What's your favorite color?"
"Black"
"Really?"
"Yes. Next question"
"Ok. What music do you like? What shows do you watch? Do you have any hobbies? What do you do in your spare time? And I guess that's it since your birthday just passed….right?"
"Wow"
"Sorry" I say looking at him sheepishly.
"Well to answer your last question yes my birthday just passed so you don't need to know it. I don't have a lot of spare time but when I do I like to spend it with Jasper and Emmett, they're the closest I have to friends. I don't have any hobbies. I don't watch a lot of t.v. so wait no I like to watch 'The Borgias' and 'Borgia'. I tend to read more and if you tell anyone that you'll be sorry." He threatens "Music well I mostly listen to Eminem and classical and that last one is because my dad insists on playing it at the house all the fucken time!" he finishes frustrated.
I giggle.
He rolls his eyes.
"Move on"
"Ok now a bit more serious stuff. What do you plan on doing after high school?"
He stiffened.
"I don't really know yet"
"Are you going to college?"
"I said I didn't know" he says slowly.
"Ok sorry next question umm…what would you like to be. I mean if you could be anything in the world what would it be?"
"I don't know. I've never thought about it, how about you what are you going to do after high school?"
"I'm leaving Forks" I answer.
"I know that but where are you going to go?"
"I'm not sure it depends. I might go back and live with my parents for a while or…" or I'll marry Jake and become his wife. That is if he'll take me.
No I'll definitely be his wife! I have to both for his sake and mine. But what if he STOP IT BELLA!
"Are you ok?" Edward asks concerned.
"Yeah" I say hoarsely
"Do you need a minute or something?"
"No I'm ok uh what's your favorite movie?"
"I don't really have one but I guess we can say it's 'The Godfather' since it's the one I've seen the most"
"Do you have any brothers or sisters?"
"I have a sister her name's Alice and she's 2 years younger than I am, but Emmett's kinda like a brother to me too"
"Must be nice, having a brother and a sister, I often wished for one. Mostly when Jake was busy" I say giving him a lopsided smile.
"You mean when he ignores you. When he's too busy being an asshole ditching you"
"Stop. Please" I beg.
"Fine. Next question"
I scrambled my brain to think of something but it came up blank. I knew everyone thought I was pathetic for loving Jake since he was always ditching me. But like Edward said others don't matter. Still though hearing him say it….
"I uh can't think of anything so what would you like to know about me?"
"I don't need to know anything about you Bella. I already know you"
"Oh really" I say sarcastically.
His assumptions and know it all attitude were beginning to get on my nerves.
"Tell me then" I challenge.
"You're Isabella Swan, heiress to the Swan Fortune. Your family is very close to the Black Family. You are in love to with Jacob Black and you've been in love with him since I don't know when."
"Please" I snort "everyone knows that"
"I wasn't finished" he says smiling.
"You're extremely loyal and smart. You're Sensitive, though you've never shown it, Determined and persistent, as our relationship clearly shows. You hate violence it doesn't matter what others do to you, you'll never wish them any harm, which brings us to the next one you're kind and sweet and a straight A student. You're a good girl."
"Wow"
"Told you" He smirks.
"How do you know so much about me?"
"Bella we've been going to the same school since we were kids and unlike you I'm not so obsessed with Jacob that I don't notice anything else."
I blushed
I guess I didn't pay attention to others that weren't Jacob.
"You're also self-conscious and don't see yourself clearly" he says smiling.
"What do you mean by I don't see myself clearly?"
"Forget it" he says seeming serious all of a sudden "I don't know why I said it"
"Tell me something though why" he pauses "why does your maid Gloria, I think her name is, why does she add the 'Ms.' and 'Mr.' to every name?"
That wasn't his original question.
"I don't know actually. We've, Jake and I, often asked her not to but she insists"
"Out of all the chick flicks you've watched which one's your best one? Please don't say it's 'The Notebook'"
"Actually I've never seen it"
"I thought every girl watched it?"
"I don't know" I shrug "I just never saw it. My favorite movie is 'A Walk to Remember'"
"What is that about?"
"About this guy Landon who is forced to join the drama club. He's given the lead male role and he asks for the help of Jamie, the Reverend's daughter. It's about him falling for this girl who has been going to the same school as him but whom he never gave a chance to."
"Let me guess they live happily ever after."
"No" I say shaking my head "Jaime has Leukemia and there isn't anything the doctors can do. They do get married though and have a couple of months together but she dies. She saved him from everything; she made him want to be more than he was. It's because of her that he thought about his future seriously and became a doctor." I say smiling.
I hope I can save Jake and myself.
We spend the rest of the afternoon talking and surprisingly its easy to talk to him when he's not angry he can be pretty approachable and friendly. We laughed and joked we had a good time.
He leaves just before dinner time I asked him to stay but he said he had to be home I keep forgetting he has family.
