"Hello Ms. Bella welcome home" Gloria greets me pleasantly "is…is Mr. Edward not coming today?" she asks when I close the door behind me. She couldn't hide her pleasure.

"No" I say irritated.

Could she at least try to hide it! What was her problem with Edward anyway? Edward was a nice guy!

Yeah a nice guy who practically raped you! And let's not forget that he's a man whore that's why Tanya broke up with him.

I sigh

"He's busy today" I say in a quiet voice feeling low "I'll be in my room"

I head upstairs to my room.

I seem to forget how Edward and mine's relationship came about. I mean I know I wanted it and I'm happy I don't remember it but deep down I do feel somewhat violated. I have this fear that he'll want to do it again, for the most part I'm able to ignore my fears and forget them but they tend to come up when we're alone and I don't know what's going on like today at lunch. The rest of the time I manage to put it out of my mind and enjoy my time with him.

How can the Edward that was consoling me yesterday be the same as the sex addicted man whore and practically rapist?

"ugh!" I exclaim falling down on the bed.

Then of course there's the Rosalie thing. I mean she spends so much time at his house that its practically like her second home. I don't know what she does at his house, I'll admit that, but they could be sleeping together he's a man whore after all and he hasn't been getting any from me or anyone else for that matter and I haven't seen him pay any special attention to any other girl from school so that only leaves Rosalie and since she spends so much time at his house that's what they could be doing for all I know.

Heck they could be sleeping together right now! Maybe that's why he lied to me today.

Stop Bella stop! I shouted in my head while shaking my head.

If they are sleeping together I hope they're being discreet because if they aren't then this could ruin everything.

I sit up and get my backpack and start my homework.

How lame

Hours later.

Beep! Beep!

I look over and see that I got a text. I grab my phone and read it. It's from Edward.

'So I hear that you miss me'

God I'm so embarrassed. I'm glad he isn't here to see me blush.

'I thought I should do something girlfriendly you know since we're so in love and all'

'hahaha good thinking my love ;)'

Before I can text back I get another text from him

'So how was the drive home with Jasper?'

'Are you worried about me? That's so sweet'

'Please! I'm asking how you felt on the ride home not how he acted. I know Jazz'

I had to admit I was slightly disappointed.

'Oh. It was good I mean we talked and I felt comfortable around him which is surprising'

My phone rings its Edward calling me.

"Told you" he says smugly as soon as I answer.

"Real mature Edward" I say rolling my eyes "you called me just to say 'I told you so'"

"It's not the same through text I had to savor the moment" I imagine him grinning from ear to ear and shrugging.

It was quiet for a couple of moments.

"So did Rosalie leave yet?"

Guess I'm back to blurting out stupid things again. I groan quietly.

"I'm just curious because Jasper said she spends a lot of time there" I explain.

I think I just made it worse.

"If I didn't know any better I'd say you were jealous Bella"

I scuff.

"Please Edward don't be ridiculous. I was just curious"

"I was just saying Bella, anyway to answer your question yes they both spend a lot of time here" he laughs "I can't seem to get rid of them and I think she left I don't know I haven't seen her."

"mmmm"

"So I guess I'll leave you goodnight Bella see you Monday" Edward says after an awkward silence.

"Yeah goodnight Edward, see you" I say

"Bye" we both say and hang up.

I went to sleep soon after finally feeling relaxed after a long afternoon.

Wonder why I was so tense before?

I shrugged it off and went to sleep.

5am Saturday morning.

"Drew looks at me,

And I fake a smile so he won't see,

What I want and I'm needing"

I groan at my phone ringing.

It's too early! Who could it be?

"Hello?" I say groggily.

"Bella oh dear did I wake you?" my mom says merely but concerned.

"It's" I look over at the clock by bed stand "5am mom" I groan.

"Sorry I always forget to check the time differences" she says

"It's alright. I think I'm used to it by now. Anyway you sounded very happy before is there something special you wanted to say to me?"

"You know me so well" she says laughing "Esme and I were shopping yesterday and we walked right by a bridal shop and we saw the perfect dress for you. You'll look so beautiful in it Bella" she says excited.

"It's pure white and has a beaded bodice I'll send you pictures later. We were also looking at tuxes and we can't decide on the color you see I think a traditional black one would look better but Esme wants a white one what do you think Bella?"

"Mom don't you think you and Esme are moving a little too fast I mean we haven't even set a date yet" I say.

I hated doing this to them but it was the only way they would leave this alone and leave Jake alone, at least for now.

We tried coming to them with the truth, that Jake and I didn't want this, heck Jake went as far as mentioning he had a girlfriend but our parents freaked and Billy almost disowned him. Jake was 15 at the time. Since then we lied and told them that we had seen the error of our ways and had gotten together.

"No your father and Billy will call him sometime today to talk to him about it"

I sat up.

"What? Really? Don't you think it's too soon? I mean we haven't even graduated high school yet"

"Bella you'll be 18 in 7 months and graduation is what like 5 months away? We can't leave everything last minute and both your father and Billy want the wedding as soon as possible after your 18th birthday"

"Oh" is all I manage to say.

I have even less time to make my plan work!

I began to feel panicked and stressed.

"Bella? Bella? Are you there? Hello?"

"Sorry mom I kinda zoned out, look can we talk later? I'm not fully awake yet"

"Sure sweetie we'll talk later ciao!" she said then blew a kiss into the phone and hung up.

"Bye" I say even though she had already hung up and couldn't hear me.

What am I going to do now? If Jake defies Billy again then he'll disown Jake for sure now

I have to call him so he won't freak

I pressed the number 1 on my speed dial and called.

"Hello" he says sleepily.

"Hey Jake it's me Bella sorry about waking you so early but my mom just called me and don't freak ok but they're already looking at wedding dresses. She said that my dad and your dad will be calling you soon and by soon I mean sometime today. Jake they're going to set a wedding date. They want it as soon as possible after my 18th birthday. I know you don't want this so I'm thinking you could delay it further by saying oh I don't know that you want to do a semester or 2 of college first or something."

He sighs.

"I knew they'd try something like this sooner or later but don't worry I'll think of something. I know that now that you're with Edward you probably don't want this now but I can't hold them off forever. Sooner or later we both know we'll have to do this."

"I thought you didn't want this?" I ask confused.

"I don't I just gave up. Bye Bella and don't worry I'll postpone our wedding" he said before hanging up.

I really need Jake to fall in love with me. I didn't want to be with someone who was just with me because he had to.

I sigh and lay back down on the bed.

Why couldn't he just fall in love with me to begin with?