After spending a quite lonely weekend I was looking forward to seeing Edward today.

I had called my mom later that day and had looked at the wedding dress and I was brought to tears because of how beautiful it was I wish I could've told them I loved it but I refused to pick a dress before I knew if we were going to get married because after all Jake could still change his mind.

I sighed and shook my head. I had to finish getting ready before Edward got here.

Knock knock

"Thanks Gloria please tell him I'll be down in a minute!"

I check my outfit once more and go and look for shoes.

Darn it! Where are they?

Oh there they are.

Do these really go with my outfit though?

I shrugged I'll ask Edward. I put them on quickly and grab my bag before heading out the door.

"Hey Edward" I greet without looking at him. I was struggling with the door "I know what you said before but what do you think about these" my eyes widen when I turn around and Jasper and Riley "shoes" I finish

I had forgotten that Edward wasn't picking me up anymore. I'll admit I'm a little disappointed.

"Sorry I forgot Edward wasn't picking me up today" I say smiling sheepishly.

"It's alright Bella" Jasper says amused "and the shoes look fine by the way"

"Thanks" I say blushing.

Riley doesn't say anything but he opens the door of the back seat of the car for me.

"Thank you Riley" I say as I get in.

He nods.

The ride to school is awkward until Jasper starts talking, I wouldn't say I was completely at ease but it helped some. I manage to not embarrass myself further still though when we get to school I practically run to Edward, who's leaning against his car apparently waiting for me, and hide my face in his chest.

He wraps his arms around me instantly.

"Can you guys give us a minute" he says to the rest of the gang apparently because I didn't notice.

Nice Bella nice!

I should just skip school today and go home before I do anything else.

"What's wrong Bella" he asks concerned "did something happen over the weekend or on the way here?"

"No nothing happened on the weekend" I lie.

He doesn't need to know about the whole wedding thing that's Jake's and mine's problem.

"I just managed to embarrass myself in front of Jasper and Riley and now apparently the rest of your friends. Would you mind if I just spend the rest of the day like this?" I say in his chest.

There you go again Bella wow you're on a roll today aren't you?

"I wouldn't mind that actually but we don't have the same schedule and I'm pretty sure its against school rules for you to be sitting on my lap during class"

"Edward" I yell slapping him in the chest and instantly pulling away.

"Hey you were the one who said you wanted to stay glued to my chest and I don't know about you but I sit down during class. What did you do anyway that was so embarrassing?"

"When I was walking out of my house this morning I was expecting it to be you that was waiting for me because I forgot what you'd said anyway I got out and started talking to you"

I could see he was trying not to laugh.

"What did you say exactly?"

I look down.

"I was asking you what you thought of my shoes" I say quietly.

He laughs like I knew he would.

"Bella don't think of it as embarrassing think of it as" he says when he stops laughing. "boyfriend/girlfriend shit. It shows them you love me and care if you look good for me. They buy more into our plan and hey it helps me at least, Jazz and Rose said you didn't look too in love with me"

"I guess…"

"And you delayed the inquisition a little. Rose was unusually quiet and pensive on the way here."

"That's true" I say smiling in relief.

After that nothing really happened except that Jake and I connected once again when he nodded slightly at me indicating that everything was ok. I smiled and sighed in relief.

I have more time to make Jake fall for me and he wasn't disowned.

I was on my way home with Jasper and Riley and throughout the weekend as well I'd thought about it and I wanted to replace Edward's shirt.

Since I didn't know what Edward liked I had decided to ask Jasper for help. I just hadn't gotten the courage to ask him yet I had to hurry though because we were almost at my house.

When the car stopped in front of my house I knew I had to ask.

"Um Jasper can we talk?" I ask nervously.

"Sure Riley leaves us for a second"

Riley gets out without a word.

"Thanks I didn't want to be rude" I say quietly.

"Yeah I figured. So what did you want to talk about?"

"Um I was wondering if you could come shopping with me" I say nervously.

"Shopping" he says surprised "any other thing I would gladly do but"

"It's not for me" I explain quickly before he can say no " it's for Edward. You see I ruined his shirt and I wanted to buy him a new one"

"Like I said anything else I would but I've been traumatized enough. Why don't we ask Rose" he suggested.

"Doesn't Rosalie hate me?" I ask confused.

"She does….sort of. Anyway Rose loves to shop and she'll do it especially when she hears it's to get something for Edward"

What's that supposed to mean?

"Her and Alice have been trying for ages to get him to change his style"

"Alice? Edward's sister?"

"Yeah" he says smiling wistfully for a second "the two of them can literally shop for hours. I think they once spent a whole day shopping, from the time they opened to the time they closed."

So she was also close to his sister?!

She truly was close to them wasn't she?

I just really hope they're being careful if they're sleeping together.

"So Bella what do you think should I ask Rose?"

"ummm…I guess but if she doesn't want to then please don't force her I'll just take my chances" I say secretly hoping with all my heart that she wouldn't come.

"Thanks Jasper" I say getting out of the car.

"Thank you Riley for the privacy"

"No problem" he responds.

Does he ever smile?

I waved to them one more time before going inside.

"She just got here hold on please" Gloria says into the phone.

"Ms. Bella, Mr. Jacob is on the phone" she informs me.

"Thank you Gloria I'll take his call in my room" I say heading upstairs.

What could he possibly want?

"Hey Jake" I say picking up the phone and lying down on the bed.

"Hey I didn't want to call you on your cell in case he checked your phone records or something"

I rolled my eyes.

"Please Jake, Edward isn't like that. I swear he's not like people make him out to be" I smile remembering Thursday afternoon "he's a nice guy"

"Yeah if you say so anyway the reason I called is because I wanted to let you know that I only managed to postpone our wedding for another year." He sighs "they're very adamant of us marrying before we're 20 for some reason"

"I think it's just that they want us married before we change our minds again. I don't think they ever really got over you trying to have another girl that wasn't me." I laugh "you would think adults would be able to get over things like that"

"I know. I certainly learned my lesson. I'll lie to my parents from now on"

We both laugh

"In all seriousness though how are things with Edward?" he asks

"Yeah we're good thanks for asking. How is your relationship with Tanya going?"

"Tanya and I are great! Couldn't be better" he says sarcastically.

"Why do you say it like that?"

"We're having some problems but nothing too important. She just freaked when I told her you and I were engaged"

"You told her? Why? You never have before?"

"I had to she found my engagement ring and started asking questions. Besides I figured I should tell her in case our parents decide to visit you know how they like to surprise us. How did Edward take it?"

"He took it quite good actually" I lie.

"Really? I would've thought he would go ballistic when he found out"

"Ok you got me" I admit " I haven't told him yet" I hang my head in defeat.

"Bella! How could you not have told him? Especially with how our parents are and things like this?"

"I just….I….I didn't know what to say or how to tell him" I lie. I didn't tell Edward because well he isn't really my boyfriend and he doesn't need to know. "Besides there is no best way or time to tell the man you love that you're engaged to another" I defended myself.

"'The man you love'?" he asks in a hoarse voice.

"Yeah, I love him" I say hoarsely.

We both clear our throats.

"If you love him like you say you do then you should tell him sooner rather than later because even though I'm sure Tanya wouldn't tell him it would be better if he heard it from you. He'll take it worse if he hears it from someone else. I never imagined you would do something like this especially after all the times you nagged me for not doing so" he says sounding disappointed.

Great he's disappointed in me.

"You know I hate confrontations Jake" I say sadly. I almost pleaded for him not to be disappointed in me.

"I know Bella but…" he trailed off.

"Yeah I know" I say "I'll tell him" someday maybe.

"Please do. Anyway I'll leave you then bye and I miss you"

My expression brightened.

He missed me!

"You do?" I ask toning down my happiness.

"Yeah you're my best friend of course I miss you"

Great.

My expression soured.

"I miss you too" I say trying to hide my disappointed. "Bye Jake"

"Take care…with Edward please be careful" he says quietly.

"I will" I say smiling at his concern for me.

I knew he cared.

"Bye" I said and hung up.

A couple of minutes later Gloria comes in.

"Ms. Bella I know I have no right to ask you for explanations but I would like to know who those young men were that came to pick you up."

"Gloria" I begin feeling awful that I made her feel this way "I know we have been having some problems but you're still family to me and you're one of the most important people in my life"

"Thank you Ms. Bella" she says smiling fondly.

"And to answer your question those guys were Edward friends" I say. I don't think she would take the term 'gang' well "they're going to be picking me up now"

"And why isn't that….Mr. Edward" she says with some difficulty "why isn't he picking you up? What could he possibly do that's more important than picking you, his girlfriend, up?"

"He helps his family a lot Gloria" I defend.

I didn't know exactly what he did and I didn't want to but I did know that it had something to do with his family.

"Ok if you say so" she sighs "would you like something to eat?"

"No thanks I have a lot of homework" I lied I didn't have anything to do.

God I missed Edward.

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