"Stay away from me love, I know you're still in time

I'm not who you think I am and I'm sorry I didn't fall from the sky.

If you still don't believe me and want to risk it,

You'll see that I'm really good at deceiving and hurting

Who I love more" – "Alejate de mi" by Camila

EPOV

"Wait for me outside" I tell Rose and Heidi "and remember what I told you Heidi don't talk to my father unless you're spoken to, keep your head bowed and only look up when he calls on you."

Heidi nods

"And Rose please will you keep your opinions to"

"Yeah, yeah" Rose interrupts rolling her eyes "I know how to behave myself in front of your father. It's not the first time I've disagreed with something you and he have done."

"Yes but apparently it's the first time you've felt this passionately about it"

"Go on inside so we can go to school already I can't wait to see how you deal with Bella"

I take a deep breath before knocking, I can't think about Bella right now.

"Come in"

"Father I've brought the new recruit. She's outside with Rose."

"So you were really just waiting for the right one." He says surprised

I nod.

"I'm proud of you son. I thought maybe the girl was clouding your judgment I'm happy to see that wasn't the case." He smiles proudly at me.

"Has she already been marked?" he asks when I don't say anything.

"Yes" I respond quietly "we did that yesterday as well after..." I trail off.

Every member of our gang had to get a tattoo; it's a shield with a mountain lion on it with the letters 'C' and 'M', that stand for 'Cullen' and 'Masen', on either side of the shield. The people who I recruit personally have an 'E', that stands for 'Edward' of course, on the top of shield. Rose once told the girls that if anyone ever asked they could always say that they just had a huge crush on me. It wasn't visible though; the girls usually got it on their lower backs, tramp stamp they sometimes call it, or above their pelvis and the boys got it on their right shoulder. In our rainy town of Forks, where everyone was usually always bundles up it wasn't a problem.

"And Rose how did she take it? I hear she had a problem with you going through initiation."

"She just bitched a little but that's all. She knows better than to get in the way." I say trying to sound confident and not as uneasy as I really was. I had to find out who my father's informant was and get rid of him or her I was getting tired of him always knowing things I didn't want him to know.

"I should hope so. I honestly don't know why you gave her so much power." He says disapprovingly.

"You know why dad" I sigh we'd had this argument before "Emmett didn't want anyone messing with her or getting any ideas about being with her."

"There were other ways of doing it for example making her your 'girlfriend'"

"yeah I don't think Emmett would like that so much not that people thinking she's my fuck buddy is that great but in his mind that's just people being stupid and making shit up."

"We could've put her in private school like Alice." He suggests

"Yeah and who was going to tell her that?" I ask raising an eyebrow.

"You're right" he laughs "that girl may not be a Cullen by blood but she behaves more like one than you and your sister sometimes. The day your cousin marries her and makes it official will be a great day for the Cullen family."

I smile but don't say anything.

"Now bring in the new girl so I can meet her." he says standing up and putting a serious look on his face.

RPOV

This bitch was getting on my nerves. I didn't like the way she was always looking at Edward like she was undressing him with her eyes. I swear if she didn't stop that shit soon I was going to cut the bitch.

"Follow me" Edward says coming out of the office.

"Get up" I command Miss Bitch, I think 'Miss Bitch' had become her nickname that's what I called her in my head and what I would call her if Edward hadn't persuaded me otherwise. "Hurry up we don't have all day" I say shoving her unnecessarily and smiled when she tripped.

I'll admit I was secretly hoping Carlisle didn't approve of her so we could be done with her once and for all. After all if Carlisle doesn't approve of you, even if you had already passed initiation and gotten tattooed, you didn't get in.

From the looks of it though I wasn't getting my wish; Carlisle tried to hide it but I could tell he liked her and would approve.

I sighed.

"What's your name?" he asks when he's done assessing her, aka looking at her up and down.

"Heidi sir." She responds quietly. She was putting on her façade of being a meek little girl again.

"Welcome abroad Heidi" he says extending his hand "I can tell you'll go far in the organization."

"Thank you sir" she says shaking his hand and smiling somewhat flirtatiously at him.

First of all Eeww! He could be her father! And second of all DAMN!

"Great business acquisition don't you think Rose?" Carlisle asks turning towards me "How do you feel about it?" he asks making a slight emphasis on 'feel'.

I can practically feel Edward tense up.

"I think feelings have no room in business" I answer looking directly into Carlisle's eyes "and in a business sense yes recruiting her does make sense."

Edward exhales relaxing

"Just the same though I thank god every day that I fell in love with Emmett and not Edward." I finish

Edward tenses up again.

"Yes I guess that was for the best" Carlisle laughs "you'd probably rip their eyes out" referring to the girls.

And cut off his balls

I just smile

"You're all dismissed" he says getting serious again.

FFL

"Why would you say that? Did you WANT to give me a heart attack?" Edward asks on our way to school.

I just roll my eyes. He was worrying over nothing and if I wasn't so pissed at him I would've told to relax a long time ago.

"Tomorrow you find your own way to school got it?" I ask Miss Bitch who was in the back seat.

She just nods and continues to look at Edward like she had been during the whole morning.

"Oh and if you keep looking at Edward that way I'm going to cut you" I threaten unable to take it any longer. "If Bella sees her looking at you like that she'll feel worse" I tell Edward.

"Since when are you and Bella bffs?" he asks confused and avoiding the subject like he had since yesterday.

"We're not but this whole situation has me feeling sorry for her and looking out for her" I say irritated "it's weird and annoying as hell"

"Don't worry about Bella. She has me to think about her."

"You weren't thinking about her last night." I counter.

"Weren't you the one who said that feelings don't have a place in business?" he asks.

"Guys might be able to separate business but for girls it isn't so easy, and we both know Bella won't be able to separate it like you want her to. Even Tanya had a hard time with it."

He didn't say anything and the rest of the way to school was silent. When we arrived he got out and sat in the hood of his car to wait for her.

Poor Bella she was going to be crushed.

BPOV

Something was up. I don't know what but something was definitely up. Both Jasper and Riley were very serious this morning and had been giving me these odd looks ever since they picked me up. At first I thought that Edward was ditching me again but I'd texted him and he said that he was already at school and was waiting for me.

I wonder what it is. Why are they looking at me like this?

"Bella we're here" Jasper says quietly without smiling.

"Thanks" I say smiling hoping to lighten the mood.

He just nods and doesn't smile back.

I get out and my suspicions are somewhat confirmed when I see Edward sitting by himself in the hood of his car. What was even weirder was that the rest of the gang was standing so far from him but were looking our way.

"Why are you alone?" I ask Edward hugging him and giving him a kiss on the cheek.

"They're just giving us some privacy" he says looking at me worriedly.

"Privacy? Why? Are we going to make out or something?" I ask not that we hadn't done that in front of them but it was the only reason I could think of that would require privacy well that and sex and we were definitely not having sex.

"No" he says smiling a little "it's not that" he stops and suddenly hugs me tightly "you look very beautiful today"

"Thanks" I say confused. Today I had a 'normal' outfit just some jeans, a pink t-shirt, a grey sweater with grey sparkling high tops. I couldn't look that pretty. If he was resorting to lying then this was bad.

"What is it Edward? Just tell me" I plead "I can take it" I smile reassuringly "I'm stronger now thanks to you."

"Ok..." he takes a deep breath and looks me directly in the eyes. "There's a new member in my gang."

Okay...so what?

"Her name's Heidi" he adds when I don't say anything.

"Uh...that's great?" I say unsure of what to say I mean it's not like I care if there's a new member or not.

EPOV

She doesn't get it. At first I was hurt thinking she truly didn't care but then I realized she didn't get the implications of a new girl in the group. I didn't know what to think of it because she knew the rules so...

I know it's rather cowardly of me but I didn't want to tell her. It's only a matter of time though and I know that but I want things to stay like this with everything being "okay" for as long as possible.

When Rose saw a lack of reaction from Bella she decided to come over.

"So Bella did Edward tell you about our new recruit?" she asks raising an eyebrow at me.

"...yes..." Bella answers sounding even more confused.

Rose looks at me shocked.

"Edward I'm going to class ok?" Bella says sensing that Rose wanted to say something to me privately

"Alright" I nod smiling a little. I give her a peck on the lips and motion for Jasper and the others to come forward. "See you after class"

"You haven't told her?" Rose asks when Bella's gone "how could you not"

"I did tell her" I interrupt "I don't know why she hasn't put 2 and 2 together."

"Well then why didn't say 'Bella I slept with Heidi'!"

"Will you keep it down?" I whisper/yell.

"Why?" she yells even louder "everyone else already knows! And how do you think she'll feel then" she demands "you have to tell her Edward" she says more calmly "she'll feel worse if she finds out by someone else."

"I know"

"But you're not going to tell her" she states "why? You might lose her for this. That's why Tanya left. Tanya stuck around for a while but I'm not so sure Bella will."

"Bella stuck around for Jacob. Why wouldn't she stick around for me?"

"That's different and you know it. I hope you know what you're doing?" she says and leaves.

BPOV

Have you ever had the feeling you were missing something? Or that maybe you had something on you? Like gum stuck on your butt or maybe you had your shirt on backwards? That's how I had felt today. Everyone and I do mean EVERYONE had been staring at me all day. I had gone to the bathroom like 10 times today and checked but everything seemed fine. I had even asked Jasper if I looked ok, which was a bit embarrassing, and he said I looked fine. To say I felt self-conscious would be an understatement.

I hadn't seen Edward until now, lunch, normally I wouldn't have minded I mean it's not like he was always waiting for me at the end of class, at least not anymore, but he had said that he would 'see me after class' so I had expected him but he wasn't there. Maybe if he would've been there then everyone would've stopped staring at me.

I guess I was wrong though. Even with Edward here sitting beside me everyone is still staring at me in fact it might even be worse. Everyone at our table was quiet they were just staring at their food some weren't even eating. It was strange seeing them like this. It was as if the pressure of everyone staring was getting to them or something. Rosalie was quiet which was weird in and of its self but I would've expected her to say something bitchy to get everyone to stop staring. And Edward he wasn't only quiet he was also distant both physically and otherwise.

I sighed and looked towards the end of the table towards Heidi the new girl. She looked up at that moment, maybe sensing someone looking at her, but her eyes didn't go to me her eyes went to Edward. I didn't like how she was staring at him, like he was a piece of meat or something. I was a coward though and didn't say anything not even to Edward.

I sighed again if I was brave like Rosalie I would tell her that he was mine and that he would never sleep

"You slept with her" I gasp

Edward comes back to life and grabs my hand and drags me outside.

I'm so stupid!

Why didn't I put it together before? He had told me what happened when someone entered into the gang heck I KNEW already! That's the reason why I slept with him! To get in his gang!

Stupid Bella that's why everyone was staring. They were all waiting for stupid me to react.

Everything made sense now.

He stops when we're in the deserted parking lot.

He doesn't say anything.

Is he waiting for me to say something?

"You and Heidi sl" I can't even say it without tearing up "you and Heidi slept together."

"Yes" he responds coldly not looking at me

"Why?"

"It's part of initiation you know that." He interrupts

"No" I say shaking my head "that's not what I meant. I wasn't asking why you slept with her I was asking why you didn't tell me beforehand!" I yell tears spilling out.

"I did" he responds turning towards me and I wish he hadn't his eyes were just as cold as his voice "this morning"

"Not good enough Edward! That was a cop out confession and you know it! You should've come right out and said it."

He just stands there looking at me with his cold eyes.

"Do you know how stupid I feel right now? EVERYONE knew about it!" I yell and run off with tears spilling out.

He doesn't come after me.

I run into the girl's bathroom.

"I knew you'd come here eventually." Tanya says "how are you feeling."

"Stupid" I respond "why didn't I put it together? It's not like I didn't know."

"You just didn't want to believe he would do that. That he would cheat on you" Tanya says "it happened to me too the first couple of times"

"How did you get over it?"

"I cried and let out my hurt and anger"

"You're right" I nod drying up my tears "he had to do it. There's no reason"

"DON'T!" she yells "don't make excuses for him! He was the one that put that condition!"

I shake my head tears returning

"Yes, so cry and get angry but don't make excuses for him. You did that for Jake and that got you nowhere its ok to get hurt and be angry Bella"

"That's what he said" I say letting myself break down.

"Why?" I sob "Why did he do that to me? He was he was different. He helped me." I cry "he helped me through so many other things. I never thought he'd hurt me like this"

"I'm sorry Bella I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. I honestly thought he'd changed" Tanya says embracing me trying to comfort me. "He loves you though I can tell and he's probably hurting right now too for hurting you."

She was wrong he didn't love me he loved her. Everything with us was all an act everything even the fact that he cared that he'd hurt me. I thought he at least thought of me as a friend but I guess wrong I was nothing to him.

I sobbed in Tanya's arms for the rest of lunch. When lunch was over I gathered myself together and told her to go to class. I told her I would be fine. I didn't want to see anyone so I went to the library and went to a dark corner and I wanted to stay there for the remainder of my classes but Jasper found me.

"There you are" Jasper says relieved "we have been looking everywhere for you."

I just nod not wanting to talk to anyone.

"Aren't you going to class?" he asks "you already missed half of this one but we could make up something"

"No" I say barely managing a whisper

"Are you just going to stay here?"

"Yes I don't want to see anybody"

"Ok do you want me to get Edward?"

"No"

"I guess you figured it out"

I nod

"Let me just tell everyone you're ok"

"Just don't tell them where I am ok?"

"Ok"
he gets out his phone and sends a single text, to Edward telling him he'd found me. He didn't say where I was or if I was hurt, physically, and Edward didn't ask.

I knew he didn't care.

"Tell him I don't want to see him the rest of the day." I say excusing Edward from contacting today. I don't know if he would or not but just in case I had already excused him. "Actually since you're going to ditch class anyway can't you just take me home?" I ask when I feel my eyes tearing up again.

"Sure" he says getting up and extending me his hand.

Jasper was silent like always and didn't ask but he was there and offered me his silent support and that's what I needed for someone to be there.

When I got home I rushed upstairs ignoring Gloria calling me. I'm ashamed to say I cried the afternoon away.

"Ms. Bella Jacob's here" Gloria knocks.

It's around 5 p.m.

"Tell him that I'm sorry but that I don't feel like seeing someone today." I say not opening the door.

"Bella please open the door I know you're hurting right now but please let me be there for you like you have always been there for me." Jacob pleads.

"I...I can't I'm a bit embarrassed" I admit

"You have nothing to be embarrassed about. You didn't do anything wrong" he says

"I know but I expected something that is unrealistic and I didn't know until today. I expected him to" to care about me. I thought he would care if he hurt me maybe not as his girlfriend but as a woman. Did he really think I wouldn't mind?

"You expected him to what Bella?" Jake asks when I don't continue.

"I expected fidelity from him knowing full well it could never be possible. I should've known better. What's worse is that I didn't figure it out you know. It was only until lunch that I figured it out. I was stupid"

"I don't understand didn't he tell you? Didn't you know?" Jake asks confused.

"I did know the rules and he did tell me I was just slow I guess" I laugh humorlessly and start tearing up. "Tanya says it's because I didn't want to believe he'd hurt me" I begin to cry again

"Bella can you please open the door?" he pleads again.

I get up from the bed and open the door. As soon as I open the door opens he embraces me and lets me cry until my eyes can't cry anymore. We sit by the door and he hands me a blue teddy bear.

"I've spent the entire afternoon looking for one to cheer you up, but I know that no matter what it says it won't be enough but I hope that this at least makes you feel just a tiny bit better."

"Thanks" I say smiling a little "it's cute and it does help a little."

It's has a bouquet of flowers in one hand and its on one knee. He has a shirt that says 'pick me I love you'

"Press it" he whispers in my ear

"He's a stupid pig head why don't you pick me instead? I promise not to hurt you" the bear said.

"Where did you get this? Did you have it custom made?" I ask a little confused. Was he asking me out right now?

"Well...yeah I mean it's not like there's a sorry he cheated on you bear" he explains with a shrug.

"Well no I guess not but what about the whole 'pick me' thing?" I ask. It doesn't really go with what he says he was going for.

"I don't know I thought it'd make you feel better" he says shrugging again

"Oh" I say awkwardly.

"Why don't we watch a movie?" he suggests "to distract you and so you don't spend the rest of the afternoon alone in there wallowing."

"Sure"

So how you guys liking Edward? Lol please review and I'm sorry if I don't answer some your review when you guys ask who Bella is ending up with I just don't want to give anything away. Hope you guys liked it!