BPOV

I never saw Heidi again. I don't know what happened to her. I didn't know if she was still in the gang, though I suspect she is, or if she was even in our school anymore. Nobody mentioned her and I didn't ask because I didn't really want to know I was just happy she was out.

The week had passed uneventful, you could say it was the most normal and peaceful week Edward and I had had. It was nearing a month since we had been together and we both had settled with each other. It sometimes scared me how comfortable I am being with Edward. I try not to think about it too much but it tends to creep into my mind and I have to keep reminding myself that I'm doing this to be with Jacob.

Something did happen though Monday morning Jake pulled me aside in school to talk to me about mine and Edward's PDA. It seems our parents had been snooping again. Talking to Edward was a bit hard but with much embarrassment I had to ask him to withhold from any PDA for the time being. I really hope Jake convinced our parents not come because forcing him to pretend to love me and be with me wouldn't help and would probably ruin everything I had worked so hard for.

Edward had been distracted though and he seemed to look at his phone a lot more.

EPOV

Everything was going wrong. I sent Heidi to track James to find out what he was doing and to keep an eye on him. He hadn't done anything so far but we all knew he was just bidding his time. I was getting more and more anxious as the days went by. I couldn't let him hurt Bella. If anything would to happen to her because of me I'd die.

With each passing day my love for Bella grew more and more. I now know that I will never love anyone as much as I love her. I don't think I can even be with someone else. The saddest part of all is that I'll have to let her go whether it's for her own safety or because Jacob has finally looked her way she'll leave my life one way or another.

When I told my father about James he had urged me to let her go but I couldn't at least not yet. I wanted some more time with her before I let her go. I'm not asking for much but maybe just 2 more months?

Its Thursday; my favorite day of the week. I got a call from Heidi this morning James slipped passed her and now we don't know where he is. I have a bad feeling about this.

"So which movie do you want to watch today?" Bella asks pulling me out of my thoughts.

"mmmm…how about The Godfather?"

"Again? We already watched that last week!"

"Yeah but you fell asleep again" I say narrowing my eyes at her.

She looks down embarrassed and bites her lower lip.

"I never fall asleep with any of your movies you know, not even with 'The Notebook' and trust me after watching it SEVERAL times it's pretty hard not to. I actually think you owe me. I think tonight we should watch all of the movies I want."

"That's SO not fair!" she complains pouting cutely.

"Have you been talking to my sister?" I ask jokingly "because you kind of sound like her right now." I laugh

"I do?" she asks brightly

"Yes and you kind of look like her too" Tanya answers before I do.

I turn and see that she and Jacob are coming our way and I get this really bad feeling like my life is about to change in a way I won't like.

When I see Tanya's sad expression I know I won't like what's coming so I brace myself.

BPOV

Oh no

I feel my heart break when I see Jake coming towards me because I have a feeling I know what he's going to say and for some reason I don't want it to end not yet and maybe not ever.

"What is it Jake?" I ask through the lump in my throat.

Please don't say it Jake please. I need some more time with him please don't take him away so soon.

I plead with him through my eyes.

"I'm sorry Bella" Jake says seeing the sadness in my eyes "my dad called this morning."

No! I cry out in my head.

"They arrive on Saturday" he says looking at me sadly "I tried talking to the photographer but he says he can't hold it off any longer. He needs something to show our parents you know what that means."

Yes we would have to make up for lost time and fake outings Jake and I had never taken just so there could be proof that we had hung out together. That our relationship was still intact.

"Yes" I say in defeat.

"Bella what's going on? What is he talking about?" Edward asks confused and somewhat angry.

"You haven't told him?" Tanya asks accusingly.

I just shake my head my eyes tearing up.

"Told me what? Bella what's going on?" Edward asks me turning me towards him.

I just look at him for moment.

Why? Why do I have to let you go? It's not fair.

I feel like I'm about to cry.

"Edward we have to talk" I say quietly. I can't seem to talk above a whisper and I can't look him in the eyes for long.

"What is it?" he asks lifting up my face and wiping away the tears that have begun to fall.

I look into his eyes one last time. I know he'll probably hate me for lying to him but I want to look at him one last time before everything goes down the drain.

I love

"We'll leave you guys to talk privately" Jake says interrupting my thoughts. Which I'm happy for because I can't let myself follow that train of thought. "I'll call you tonight Bella."

I don't look away from Edward's eyes. They're so green I want to memorize his face like this. I wish we had taken at least one picture together.

"He'll call you tonight?" he says with disgust after they've left "does he really expect you to take him back just like that? I seriously think you should reconsider being with someone else."

"I can't" I whisper because I can't talk anymore.

"but haven't even tried!" he says angrily "you haven't even tried how can you say that"

"Because I can't!" I yell unexpectedly "because I'm engaged." I whisper.

"what" he asks in detached tone. His face is already turning to stone, his poker face.

"Our mothers met at one of those birthing classes, here in Forks, when they were both still pregnant. They became really good friends. Mrs. Black went into labor first since she was farther along and when my parents went to see them at the hospital when my mom saw Jacob for the first time she went into labor at the very first glance. Both our mothers have always said that it was me seeing Jacob and wanting to be with him from the very beginning that sent my mother into labor early because I wasn't due for another month."

I stop and take a breath. I don't risk looking at Edward. I don't want to see his face right now.

"when we were 2 years old they engaged us to each other. They even went out and bought us rings that very day. It wasn't a little kids ring either it was an adult size ring. We both have one. Throughout our lives our parents have drilled it into us that we are destined to be together. They want us together so badly that they even discouraged us from having any other friends but each other and having another boyfriend or girlfriend other than the other was out of the question. When Jake was 15 years old he fell in love for the first time and it wasn't with me. He loved her so much that when our parents came he wanted to present her to them. He was so reckless back then. I tried to discourage him but he still talked to them about her. Our parents freaked and Billy, Jake's dad, almost disowned him. They wanted to take us out of school but I talked to them and convinced them not to. I told them I would get his love back. They never knew and never have known that Jake doesn't see me like that. I managed to convince Jake to fake being my boyfriend to placate our parents. They were always uneasy after that so they send photographers from time to time to spy on us and make sure we're 'still together' as far as our parents know Jake and I have been together since we were 15 years old. So you see I can't just go to them and say that I'm in love with someone else and that I don't want to marry Jacob anymore because they will never accept anyone but Jacob for me. I'm sorry Edward I know I should have told you sooner but."

"Whatever" he says in that same detached voice and leaves.

I break down and cry.

His face was hard but I know that I hurt him in some way. He probably feels betrayed and lied to because I didn't tell him.

Edward please come back. Please I need you. Please don't leave me!

EPOV

It hurt like a bitch. I mean I knew I didn't have a chance but to have it confirmed and not only that but that they've been engaged for all these years and will get married! That's a whole new kind of pain.

I almost asked her to leave him for me to give me a chance. I was willing to do anything for her but I'm glad I didn't because she probably would have laughed in my face. I've been so stupid I actually thought I stood a chance. I actually thought she was feeling something for me but I was wrong. I was the only idiot who fell in love with a girl that not only loved someone else but was engaged to him as well.

I should've known. I mean no girl can go through what that bastard put her through and just accept him back just like that. A lot of things made sense now.

I got into my car and drove away I needed to get out of here and fast. I pushed the gas petal all the way I didn't care.

I heard the phone ring but I didn't pick it up I just wanted to be alone for a while.

BPOV

Pain

Why does it hurt so much?

"Bella are you ok?" Jasper asks coming closer to me.

"Jasper" I say looking up wiping my eyes and sniffing a little. "Did Edward send you?" I ask hopefully "do you know now where he is? I need to see him please" I plead my voice breaking and I begin to cry again "please take me to him I…I need him please." I break down and cry into his chest.

"Bella please clam down" he says trying to comfort me "I don't know where Edward is. That's what I came to ask you. When lunch ended and you guys didn't come back I assumed he had taken you back to class but he didn't go to 5th period I got a bit worried. I've looked everywhere and he isn't answering his phone. What happened did you guys have an argument?"

"Well" I hesitated should I tell him everything?

"I know everything about you guys not really being together and all that now please if you know anything please tell me it's important."

"You do?"

"Yes so please"

"My parents are coming over this weekend and they're staying for who knows how long. Edward and I had to break up because my parents en…won't accept anyone but Jacob Black for me. After I told him he just left." I say giving him the short version.

"Damn it!" he exclaims "now how am I supposed to find him? He isn't answering his cell."

"Why what's wrong Jasper?" I ask getting concerned

He hesitated for a second

"Fuck it I don't have time to invent something. You remember James right?" he asks

I nod

"Yeah well let's just say he has something BIG on Edward and….that all I can tell you."

"Is it dangerous? For Edward I mean. Could he possibly get hurt?" I ask my concern and worry growing by the second.

"Yes" he says after a second

"Can…can Edward die from this?"

Again he hesitates for a while but he finally answers "yes"

It's too much for me to take in and my mind blacks out.

FFL

"I can't believe you told her" says a familiar voice from beside me. He's angry. Even angry he sounds beautiful.

"I'm not an expert liar like you. I had to go out and find you and couldn't think of a lie fast enough."

"Then you should have left without telling her anything!" He yells but then lowers his voice "look what you did to her"

"I'm sorry" says the other voice apologetically

They're quiet for a second and I don't like it I want to hear his voice again. The other guy should ask him something.

"You should really consider going into hiding Edward"

Edward? He's here!

"My dad would have your ass for even suggesting that."

"Yeah well I don't think he would be too opposed to the idea" Jasper says quietly.

"Just shut up Jazz" Edward says "you've said enough stupid shit for today."

"Edward?" I ask quietly opening my eyes.

"Bella!" he says relieved "are you ok?" he asks worriedly stroking my cheek.

"I'm ok" I say quietly.

I check him for any injuries or bruises.

"I'm alright." He says when he notices me accessing him.

I look into his eyes and even though he's trying to hide it I know he's in pain.

"I'm sorry I"

"sshh" he interrupts putting his finger against my lips.

"It's alright." He says smiling at me.

My heart hurts

"It's nothing you can control. I know about stubborn parents trust me" he stops and gives me another smile "I know we have to break up and I'm only here because I knew you would worry over what this idiot told you" he glares at Jasper "I don't want you to worry I can take care of myself so I'll be fine."

He's lying to me but I let it go. I don't want to end on a bad note. Besides he has so many people around him willing to die for him that I'm sure he'll be ok.

He caresses my face and I lean into his hand

"Also" he stops and asks Jasper to leave. "I have to tell you something. It's sort of like a goodbye present."

A lump forms into my throat

"The night we got together...nothing happened."

"What?" I asked confused "what do you mean?"

"I mean that nothing happened between you and me. You were completely wasted and didn't know what you were doing I wasn't about to let you make a mistake you would regret later. I pretended to go along with your plan and when we got here I just put you to bed and slept in one of the other rooms."

"That can't be. I remember you kissing me and you were taking off your clothes"

"Yes and that's as far as it went. You feel asleep so I just let you be" he shrugged.

"Then why did you say we had?"

"Because I was afraid you would try to do it again and I knew you were serious about doing something to get Jacob back. I didn't want you being taken advantage of."

He was taking care of me from the start. I knew it didn't fit. From what I've come to know about him, him taking advantage of me didn't fit at all.

"I know how important losing their virginity is to a girl I wasn't about to take yours away like that."

"Thank you" I say sitting up and hugging him. "You've been so good to me and I'm sorry for lying to you."

"It's ok" he says quietly not letting me go. He holds me tightly one more time before letting me go. "I know you have a lot of pictures to take but take it easy ok?"

I nod because I don't trust myself to speak.

I don't want him to leave.

He gets up still holding my hand.

"Bye" he says quietly.

"I can still call you right?" I ask not letting go

He looks at me sheepishly

"I don't think your parents would approve of you having a friend like me."

I frown and look down.

"But if you don't mind I don't."

"Really?" I ask hopefully.

"Really" he says smiling.

He leans down and gives me a kiss on my forehead and whispers "goodbye Bella" and leaves.

When he's out of the room I break down in sobs.

I already miss him how am I going to get through this?

Sort of a short update but I thought this was a good place to stop. Next chapter Bella will be back by Jacob's side and the parents will arrive. Hope you guys like it please review they make me happy!

Thank you to those who reviewed last chapter and if I made any of you sad