A/N:Well, the reviews so far have been helpful and just plain gratifying. Reading them honestly makes my day, and normally kick-starts me into writing another chapter, I'm not trying to order you or anything but if you have the time after reading a chapter or two, leaving a review is probably the kindest thing you can do for someone who may be self-conscious of her stories and would very much like people telling her that her stories are actually okay…
On that note, in response to 'Kindles Suck' don't worry! There won't be any hetero pairings/relationships… I was just teasing you guys for the funsies but you gotta remember that Severus originally had a crush on Lily, so until things get heavy, Sev is still going to pine over Lily a little. Plus, expect some juicy pairings and I am considering that one thing you want… :P
Other than that, I've been receiving reviews asking/pleading for central SS/SB or SS/JP and I can honestly say that this story is going to be multi-paired heavy until the end, I'm not sure whether to end it on a relationship either but I have ideas for a sequel based years after this one… so look forward for that and whether it will centre around a paring or not… it's really hard trying to please you all! xD
That's it for Author Note so enjoy this chapter!
*I apologise for mentioning Sirius in the warnings, I actually planned to involve him but my mind took me elsewhere... he will definitely be in the next chapter!*
Warnings in General: Sexual scene, Homosexual relationships, multiple pairings (SSxJP, SSxSB & SSxLM), Crack moments, slight OOC? And MAYBE DESCRIPTIVE SEX LATER IN STORY, YOU'VE BEEN WARNED.
Warnings this Chapter: More Lucius but less graphic or sexual, maybe some language…
Chapter Five – Avoidances and Getaways
The day passes quickly enough, Lily being seemingly overprotective whenever I seemed or looked distressed. I tried my best to ignore Potter's entranced looks or Black's flirtatious ones. I didn't bump into Lucius at all that day, if I wasn't so pessimistic, I could see that as a silver lining.
I wasn't going to escape from the blonde forever though.
Creeping into my dormitory, every student which I shared the room with asleep, I manage to quietly slip under the green silk covers and calm enough to try to sleep, under the impression that everyone in the Dormitory is asleep. As I'm dropping off to unconsciousness, a smooth but strong hand grabs me. I barely have any time to react before I'm smothered by puckered lips, a skilful tongue darting out to meet mine.
"Ah…!" I manage to gasp, as soon as the lips leave mine. I wearily look up to a smirking Lucius, who now pins my arms above my head. "Won't you leave me alone for at least a few hours…?"
"How can I?" Lucius murmurs, biting forcefully on my collarbone, causing me to buck with sudden pain. "You've been avoiding me Severus…"
"For good reason!" I hiss, trying to subtly pull my arms from Malfoy's grasp. "C-can't you take a hint!"
"I suppose I can't," Malfoy drawls, pretending to look thoughtful before shaking his head. "That can't be it; I don't see why you won't accept this, as this is probably the most sexual experience you'll ever get."
I'm honestly hurt by the crazed Slytherin's insult; a fire building up within me that I didn't even know was there gives me the courage and recklessness to utter my next words.
"I could get it!" I growl, glaring at the smug blonde. "As matter of fact, there are two people in this castle who would gladly bend over backwards if I were to say so, so don't think you're the only person here who owns me because of that!"
Lucius looks utterly shocked, making an unexplainable growling sound before surprisingly letting go of me. I stare in shock as he practically stalks out of the dorm in a huff.
"That was… weird," I mutter to myself, trying to find my bearings. I'm about to lie back down but quickly decide to shut the curtains around my bed and seal them shut with a spell, feeling much safer, I close my eyes and try to sleep despite the adrenaline that ran through me when Malfoy trapped me. Despite the danger of it all, it disturbingly thrills me when Lucius domineer's over me, which I'm never going to admit to anyone… not even under the cruciatus curse.
Dropping off to an uneasy sleep, I manage a few hours of light rest before the noises of waking up peer's forces me to sit up, I'm feeling extremely tired even though I've had some semblance of sleep. Ignoring the other dressing boys in the Dormitory, I quickly dress in casual clothes (I just remember that it's Saturday, oh how the week flies by when you're chased by entranced students.) They are shaggy and quite ugly clothes but I'm so used to wearing such filth that I don't even care anymore what people think.
Walking out to the common room, I'm quickly pulled by someone and I don't even feel shock as Lucius pins me to the wall. I am full of shock though, as the blonde passes me a bundle of clothing.
"These are for you," Lucius explains, looking with disgust at my shabby clothes. I honestly think he did it for a good deed before he continues on. "I don't want my property looking horrid."
I groan and growl at the same time, feeling fed up with Malfoy's horrible advances and declarations of ownership of me.
"Look here, Malfoy," I grumble, glaring daggers at the Slytherin. "I'm no one's property; if you're going to pretend to actually like me, don't be all rapey!"
"Is that even a word?" Lucius sarcastically retorts, not seeming that bothered at my request. "You don't seem to understand, Severus. Malfoy's get what they want and I want all of you, no sharing, you're mine, do you understand?"
"Sharing, what the Merlin do you mean by that!?" I angrily confront the blonde's words. What did he mean by that!?
"I know whats going on with you, Black and Potter!" Lucius uncharacteristically yells, gripping my shoulders suddenly. I can feel the gazes of fellow Slytherin's on us after his outburst. "I'm not going to let them take you, I just won't!"
Malfoy's sudden change in attitude honestly scares me and the only thing I want to do is run, I quickly dislodge myself from the blonde's grip and run towards the Common Room entrance, exiting it like my life depending on it.
It might have, I'm not even sure how Lucius would act in his condition.
Gasping for breath, I have to rest a little, my legs shaking with honest fear, my heart pumping with a strange adrenaline I've never felt before. After a few minutes of forcing myself to not have panic attack I finally calm down, then I realize I'm still holding the clothe that Lucius gave me. They look so tempting to wear, the cloth made of fine silk and some of the items look extremely expensive and fashionable. I try my best to fight the urge but I give up and find an empty room to quickly dress in. Picking a simple pair of detailed and rich looking jeans (the pair in the pile, the rest are expensive slacks.) and out of all the tops and jackets, I pick a simple white silk under-top and snug fitting but long green button up. I'm honestly relieved to find some form-fitting leather shoes so I don't have to wear my ratty trainers with the luxurious outfit.
I feel immensely bad, for falling for Lucius' cheap trick. But I try to cast that thought aside as I burn my old clothes with a quick spell and sweep the ashes to the side. Discretely leaving the room, I go out in search for my red-headed friend.
"Lily!" I say out loud, as I spot her. She is sitting at the same spot near the lake, but this time, a few of the girls from yesterday are with her. Grinning at me, Lily waves me over.
"Good morning, Severus," Lily chimes, sending me a breathtaking smile. The girls (who I recognise as Mary and Emily), smile at me as well… I'm still not used to girls other than Lily being kind to me.
"Morning Lily," I quietly say back, but Lily finally notices my new clothes as she stares incredulously at them. "…what?"
"Who got you those?" Lily plainly asks, Mary and Emily suddenly hushing to direct their attention on me. I feel a flush creep itself onto my face, giving it away immediately.
"It was a gift, from someone," I manage to say, but averting my eyes from the three girls' piercing ones.
"From who…?" Lily questions, a suspicious gleam to her eyes. "Come on, Severus, it can't be that bad."
I stand up, wanting to get away from Lily's incessant questioning. I barely wave goodbye as I practically run from Lily and her friends. I know it's cowardly but I'm not exactly a Gryffindor nor is the truth of my gift giver that would most likely anger Lily for my stupidity. I'm once again panting out of exhaustion, leaning against a stone pillar as I don't trust my legs just yet. I rest at the pillar for a while, not feeling up to doing anything or bumping into anyone undesirable. My wish is not granted, as James Potter notices me. I hold in the urge to have a tantrum because apparently no one wants to leave me alone!
"Severus…?" Potter timidly says, looking bashful. "Sorry for before, I came on too strong…"
"Why should I care or accept your stupid apology," I snap, crossing my arms defensively. Although, the only good thing about Potter's advances is that he seems to respect my space.
"I really am sorry, Sev," Potter pleads, even going as far to kneel. "I just want you to accept, I want to start over again and become friends… maybe even more?"
"Unlikely," I snort, glaring unmercifully at the pleading Gryffindor. Potter shocks me though, by smiling suddenly.
"Unlike still means there is a chance," He happily points out. "I knew you would find it in your heart to forgive me, thank you Severus!"
"I didn't say such thing!" I grate out, clenching my fists. Potter doesn't seem to notice my frustration as in his sudden happiness, he rushes forward to me.
I don't stand a chance at pushing the other away as he embraces me, cupping my head and pressing our lips together sweetly. I was going to fight it off, but the sudden eruption of feeling in my chest makes me accept Potter's needy kiss. Potter seems to go into slight shock at my acceptance and begins to greedily press his lips harder to mine, his tongue tentatively opening my mouth before sucking on my own. It isn't until Potter presses our bodies together that I pull away quickly.
"Oh shit…" I curse, stepping back. I'm in shock that I even allowed my bully to kiss me like that! Why would I even do such a thing?
Would I have stopped it before it got further, will I?
"Whats wrong Sev?" Potter asks, sounding genuinely concerned. "I thought you liked it, don't you?"
"Of course I did, you fool!" I hiss, steeping further away from the Gryffindor as he tried to comfort me. "That's the problem, I shouldn't like it! I'm not gay… or even remotely interested in you!"
"Sev, you're sure about that?" Potter bluntly asks, looking a bit fed up with my behaviour. "You seemed to enjoy it and I could tell by your bo-"
"I DID NOT!" I cut off the teen mid-speech, feeling embarrassed at the truth. "You are just imagining things!"
I try to pretend Potter did not sigh like he is defeated or frustrated at my reaction, which should not be making me feel guilty, at all.
"Look, I know we have a messed up past," Potter mumbles, averting his gaze away as if ashamed by our hostile past. "But, I want to make it up to you, so if you accept, meet me near the Astronomy tower tomorrow night at midnight."
"I'm not going," I seethe, glaring at Potter's slight cheeky but soft smile.
"I didn't say you were, but I'll be there tomorrow," Potter shrugs. "I got to go, Sev but… I love you."
"I don't," I snap, turning and walking away from the enamoured looking Gryffindor. I vigorously ignore the thumping of my chest and the almost tearing apart feeling.
What the Merlin is going on with me?
A/N: Wow, this is shorter than I planned but I just needed to update for you guys. What's this Severus? Feelings?
By the way, don't get too furious with Sev, he's going to find it hard admitting he actually likes the attention but when he finally gives in to the boys' advances… well. I'm not going to spoil it. Also, I made Lucius a little less rapey but still possessive, he's still going to be a big part of this story guys (to those who prefer SB/SS and SS/JP)
(P.S I FUCKING KNOW MY PHRASES ARE COMPLEX, NO NEED TO BLUE LINE EVERYTHING... GOSH!)