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EPOV

"Edward what are you doing?" Jasper asks confused from the doorway to my room.

"What does it look like I'm doing? I'm watching television." I reply in a bored tone.

"Yes I can see that but" he stops and takes a calming breathe "why are you just lying there on the bed instead of doing SOMETHING! James is still out there maybe if we hurry we could still catch him."

"You know as well as I do that we can't. We all know where he's going. He's already too far heck he's probably there already and has already told them everything. None of us can do anything to stop him anymore and we can't defy the council's verdict. There's nothing we can do anymore."

"So you're just giving up?" he asks judgment clear in his voice. "I would've never thought of you as someone who would just give up."

Quitter. He didn't say it but that's what he was implying. That I had given up on life and he's right.

"Then what do you want me to do huh Jasper?" I ask/yell getting in his face. "Tell me!" I ask shoving him a little.

"That's enough Edward" My father says loudly.

I back down and try to calm down.

"Tanya just called" my father says.

Tanya's father is the leader of the Denali Family. The Denali Family runs the drug business all over Canada. They also have their hands in everything else but their main source of income comes from drug dealing.

"Apparently there was a meeting with all the bosses." He says grimly

"You weren't called" Jasper states.

"Which means they were talking about me" I say "They didn't think you would be impartial." I say looking at my dad for the first time.

He nods

I almost don't want to ask because deep down I already know and I just don't want to hear it said out loud and make it final.

"Wh…what was the verdict?"

My father's calm expression falters

"They're coming" he is all he says.

I stagger back.

I'm going to die.

"Come downstairs" my father instructs fighting back tears "co…come spend some time with the family."

"What about Bella?" I ask scared to death that I may have condemned her to the same fate as me. "They…they won't hurt her will they?" I ask my voice trembling a bit.

"No" he says coldly "They have ruled her innocent. It seems James protected her. The fact that her father is so powerful; also helped I'm sure." He says angrily.

"Thank god" I whisper relieved

"If it wasn't for that girl none of this would be happening!" he yells angrily.

"Don't blame her dad. It was my decision."

I can tell he wants to say more but he just stalks off without another word.

"I'll wait for you downstairs." Jasper says quietly sensing that I want to be alone.

I take out my phone and hesitate before dialing her number. I need to hear her voice one more time before….

BPOV

"Ms. Swan" says Carlo the photographer exasperatedly "will you please smile? You're supposed to be on a date with your fiancée, the love of your life, not a funeral!"

"I'm sorry" I apologize for probably the 100th time "can I have 5 minutes please?"

He stares at me with an annoyed look before he says "alright. We'll be filming kisses next. Please prepare yourself for that" with that he goes off muttering to himself about something probably how useless I am.

I can't blame him for being so fed up with me. I had been screwing up all afternoon. I don't know what's wrong with me. I mean I was finally with Jake again and I should be beyond happy. This photo-shoot should be a piece of cake not only because I've done this countless times but because I love Jake don't I? And besides after managing to make everyone believe I was in love with Edward for….how long were we together anyways?

I start counting how long Edward and I were together.

A month.

Today would've been our one month anniversary.

My phone buzzes in my pocket I take it out and see that it's Edward.

I smile despite my glum mood.

In the distance I can hear Carlo taking pictures of Jake I'm assuming.

EPOV

"Edward" she answers brightly and I imagine in my head, that the reason she's so happy is because of me because I called not because she's back with Jacob.

"Hey" I is all I can manage to say past the lump in my throat.

"I was just thinking about you?"

"You were?" I ask confused. She's with the love of her life why is she thinking of me?

"yeah." She says and I can still hear the smile in her voice. "I was just thinking that today is I mean would've been our one month anniversary."

"Wow. Yeah I guess you're right." I say quietly still unable to talk much past the lump in my throat.

"So" she says awkwardly when I don't say anything else. "Why did you call? Did you want to talk about something? Is something wrong?" she asks worriedly.

I clear my throat before answering.

"No nothing is wrong" I lie "I jus…I was just wondering how the photo-shoot was going? I'm not interrupting am I? I'm sorry if I am I can call you back later if you want?"

"No you're not interrupting." She says quickly. "We're actually on a break. Things aren't going so good."

"Why" I ask frowning "is Jacob being an"

"It's not Jake" she interrupts me "it's me" she says quietly. "I…I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't focus and I don't know how to act around Jacob. I mean I just broke up with you I'm I mean I should be upset right? Edward what do I do?"

"You're asking me?" I ask a bit incredulous.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have asked." She says quietly "I just don't have anyone else."

"What about your friend Leah?"

"I don't think she's my friend anymore. Actually I'm starting to think she was never my friend. When you and I first got together she made no move what so ever to contact me. I'm sorry for asking I'll figure something out."

"No it's okay," I say before taking a deep breath before continuing. I had to do this. I had to set her free once and for all.

"Act normally. Focus on the photo-shoot and afterwards you can play the heartbroken card and try to get some comfort from him. Use every advantage to get him. if you do this then the transition of your love from me to him will be more believable especially since you and him have history and everyone, except for him of course, knows that you 'were' in love with him."

"But" she starts to protest.

"Trust me Bella." I insist.

"Ok" she says reluctantly.

We're both quiet for a couple of seconds.

"Listen I got in a fight today. A big one and my dad's very upset and I think he's thinking to send me away to some European high school or something so if I don't show up on Monday I don't want you to freak out or anything."

"You're not coming on Monday?" she asks quietly almost like she's going to cry.

"Maybe" I hear a sniffle. "Are you crying?" I ask a bit worried and if I'm being honest with myself also a bit happy.

"No it's just that the air is bringing out my allergies, but I am sad though that I won't be seeing you Monday."

"Hey I said 'maybe' you never know he might cool off. I just didn't want you to worry." I lie not wanting her to be sad. I know I'm not making it past this weekend. The Council is swift in their justice.

She doesn't respond.

Her allergy story sounds bogus to me, I mean in all the years I've known her this is the first time I'm hearing anything about her having allergies. Then again it's not like we've been best friends or anything and incase this is just made up I don't want to call her out and embarrass her.

I wanted to make things better. I didn't want things between us to end on a sad note. I didn't want her to lie to her though. I couldn't tell her things would be ok and that I would be at school on Monday because I knew I wouldn't be there and I wasn't sure how things with her and Jacob would go.

It was Bella that saved me.

"I watched all of 'The Godfather' movies yesterday."

"You did?"

"Yeah I…it was movie night and I kinda missed you" she admits quietly.

"I miss you too, which is funny because up until a month ago we'd never hung out together."

"Yeah you were too cool for me" she says jokingly. The smile is back in her voice.

I laugh involuntarily.

"Yeah right. You were the one in the popular crowd remember? Besides it was you who kept rejecting me?" I smile at the memories.

"Liar when did I reject you?" she says. There's real happiness in her voice now. I smile at that.

"Ummm….where should I start? On the first day of kindergarten I asked you if I could sit beside you and you said actually it was more like yelled 'No!'. In first grade the teacher paired you up with me for an in-class project but you cried until she paired you with Jacob and I was stuck with Leah. In second grade we went to a trip to the museum the teacher made you and I buddies we were supposed to hold hands as we went looking through the exhibitions, which you refused to do, and we were supposed to sit together on the bus, which again you refused to do so I had to sit alone like a loser. In third grade I was paired with Jacob for something and you gave me the stink eye all day. In fourth grade the teacher made us do valentine's day card FOR EVERYONE. I took some chocolates to give out to everyone along with the card and when I tried to give you one you refused and I think I saw you throw the card in the trash after school. That's pretty much how it's been should I just stop now or do you wish to hear them all?"

"Stop please stop. I get the picture I was a horrible person to you.'

"Yes you were. It's a miracle I wasn't traumatized."

We both laugh at that.

"But you weren't all that nice to me either. I seem to remember that you pulled my ponytails in 8th grade."

"Yeah well that was the day Mrs. Mason had us choose hall monitor and you chose BILLY! BILLY! Over me and I know it was just to spite me because no one liked Billy. I was through being nice to you missy"

She laughs again.

"Be there in a minute." She says to someone.

"Break over?" I ask.

"Yeah" she says quietly.

"I'll let you go then." I say preparing myself to say goodbye forever. "Focus. Remember to smile and to use your every advantage. Have confidence in yourself. Don't let others push you around and remember that it's ok to get hurt every once in a while and if anybody says anything to you that you don't like tell them that they can just go and fuck themselves. You can even pretend that it's me who is saying it if it helps you but say it."

"Ok I will" she says laughing.

"Goodbye Bella" I say willing my voice not to break.

"See you later Edward."

No you won't.

JPOV

Bella seemed fine after that phone call. All it took was one phone call from him and she was fine. Maybe I really have lost her.

She still couldn't stand to kiss me though. All she allowed was a peck. The photographer wasn't too happy but he cooled off when I talked to him besides he had gotten some great pictures of Bella when she was on the phone with him.

She fell asleep on the way home and she must've been dreaming about him because she was smiling the whole time and kept saying his name.

I think I may have really lost her. In one month I lost a girl who had been mine for 17 years. I didn't blame her. It was my fault. I didn't value her I didn't appreciate her. It's a miracle she loved me till now.

BPOV

Saturday

Our parents arrived on Saturday, Jake and I went to pick them up at the airport. They didn't really comment on my new style but I saw them giving each other looks. I didn't let it bother me though and when Jacob put his arm around me I must shamefully admit that I imagined it was Edward to be able to relax. I don't know why.

I didn't hear from him. I didn't really think he would but after what he said yesterday of him moving to another school I was worried and I found myself checking my phone a lot hoping he would text me.

Sunday

We all went to Disneyland. It's a tradition we have. Every time they come we all go. I also went shopping with my mom and Sarah. The whole day was fun but something was missing. Actually I think it's more like someone was missing and I didn't want to think about who that person might be or why I miss that person.

I laughed and tried my best but my mom mentioned I was acting a bit odd. I doubled my efforts after that but somehow I knew that it wasn't enough.

No word from Edward today either. I guess I'll have to wait till tomorrow to see if he shows up. I really hope he will because I miss him crazy. I don't know what I'll do if he doesn't.

Monday

I woke up and for some weird reason I thought Edward would be coming to pick me up. I have to admit I was disappointed when I realized he wasn't coming, but I'll see him at school today right? It wouldn't be so bad if I could just see him today.

Thing were still a bit weird with me and Jake because I still wasn't comfortable with him. I don't understand myself anymore. What is wrong with me?

"Nervous about school" Jake asks.

"Huh?"

When did I get inside his car?

I shake my head

I really should pay more attention to what I'm doing.

Jake smiles.

"I asked if you were nervous about school"

"Yeah a little. I think it's more worry than nervousness though"

"Don't worry if anybody says anything to you"

"No it's not that" I interrupt "but thanks" I smile at him.

"Then…is it about Edward?"

"Yeah" I nod "he…it seems he got in a really big fight and his father was so upset he was thinking of sending him to Europe or something"

"Europe?" Jake asks doubtfully "he got into a big fight and his father is sending him on vacation?"

"I know it seems that way but his family is really close so sending him away would be punishment for them."

"I guess. So is that why you kept checking your phone this weekend?" he asks.

I blush.

I guess I was really obvious.

"Yeah. Sorry about that I was just so worried"

"It's okay Bella" he assures me "so has he called?"

"No " I say sadly "but he would call me though right? He wouldn't just leave without telling me right?" I ask on the verge of tears.

"Yes" he assures me "he would call don't worry Bella he'll be there."

I just nod trying to calm down. It was quiet the rest of the way. I couldn't stop thinking about Edward though. "We're here" he says. He gets out and opens my door for me.

"Thanks Edward" I say instantly cringing when I realize that I just called him Edward. "I'm sorry Jake. It's just that"

"It was a slip of the tongue I get it you were thinking about him." he smiles understandingly.

"I'm sorry" I say again looking down.

"It's ok" he says quietly.

I still don't dare to look up at him it's just too embarrassing. I can't believe I just called him Edward.

"Hi Jacob, hi Bella" Leah says sounding oddly happy.

I look up for the first time. She looks really happy about something and I know just by looking at that evil looking smile of hers that I won't like it.

"Sorry for not calling you this weekend B. I was so busy" she says

"So what's the excuse for the last 4 weeks?" I ask calling her out on her shit.

She just stares at me speechless but seriously did she expect me to just go back to how things were? To not even question it? Maybe Izzy would have but not Bella.

"you know I knew that the rest of them would turn their backs on me but I thought that at least you my 'best friend' would at least try to get in touch with me to see if I was alright at least but I guess I was wrong."

"I'm really sorry Bella" she says ashamed "you're right I've been a shitty friend. I should've tried but I honestly thought you were mad at all of us for accepting Tanya into our group."

"It's ok" I say exhaling.

I'm not good at holding grudges and I'm still the same girl who always forgives. Edward would probably tell me that I shouldn't forgive her so easily or that I should just forget about her completely but I can't. She's been my friend for a very long time.

The thought about Edward makes me smile. I wonder if he's here yet. I really want to spend sometime today with him to check if he's ok. I wonder if I can get him to meet me in the library.

Edward I sigh.

"So have you heard?" Leah asks after a while, she's trying to hide it but that happy tone is back

"Heard what?" I ask suspiciously.

"Leah" Jake warns.

"What" she says to Jake "she should know besides she's going to find out anyway." She turns to me and Jake grabs my hand and gives it a squeeze. Dread creeps into me.

"Tanya and Edward are back together."

"What?" I ask not understanding anything. That couldn't be true could it? He said he didn't want her.

I look around for Edward and find him in his usual parking spot. Holding Tanya.

"Yeah apparently they got together over the weekend at some party or something." Leah says.

I can hear my heart breaking.

Why is he with her?

More importantly though why does it bother me so much? I can't love Edward can I? No of course not! I…I…

"Oh my god" I whisper and let go of Jake's hand.

Oh my god! I'm in love with Edward!

What?

Lol I know it's no surprise to most of you but it is to Bella.

Sorry for being such a horrible person and not updating sooner. Thank you to all of you who still read my story and thanks to all the reviewers you guys are the ones that make me want to continue writing this story. Thank you to those who favorite and/or follow this story as well. Hope you guys like it and please review!