FFL 24

"Bella why am I picking you up from a hospital? Is everything ok? Are you hurt?" Jake asks as soon as get inside the car.

"I'm ok Jake its..its Edward he…he was h…hurt" I break into a sob not able to hold it in any longer. Jake let me cry in peace and let everything out.

"Are you ok?" He asked

I nodded

"Want to tell me what's going on? Why did he get hurt? How?"

"he just had a fight with someone and it went too far but that's not important he's going to be ok and that's all that matters but seeing him like that it made me realize how much I love him and how much I want to be with him." I said truthfully.

"ok it will take a lot of work but if you and I join forces I think we can manage to convince our parents to push the date back a couple of years." Jake said not getting what I was saying at all or maybe pretending not to.

"No Jake you don't get it. I want to be with Edward as in I want to marry him"

"What are you crazy? How can you possibly think about him when you don't even know him that well? Besides I don't think you should be marrying a guy who just landed himself in the hospital over some stupid fight"

"It wasn't some stupid fight ok it was…." I said trailing off "look Edward isn't perfect I know but he makes me happy and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He won't ever let anything happen to me I know he will always protect me and keep me safe."

"How…how can you..." he trails off

"Because I want to be happy Jake I want to spend my life with someone for whom I'm the first priority to. Someone who loves me and only me. Someone who truly loves me and wants to be with me not someone who just gave up and is settling for me. I know you never wanted to be with me to begin with it was always our parents pushing us together maybe if they hadn't pushed so hard maybe then you would have truly loved me the way they have always wanted you to but they did and you always resented that I know you tried to fight against it and when it didn't work you gave up and accepted the fact that you and I would one day get married but of course you wouldn't be Jake if you just went along with everything so you decided that if you would have to get married to me someday you would still live your life as if it wasn't so and would "experience life" which I don't resent you for by the way well…maybe a little" I smiled a small smile. "For the last 17 years I've been waiting in the sidelines waiting for the day you would finally look at me but as time passed and as the date got closer I realized that I didn't want be someone for whom you settled for so I set about wanting you to fall in love with me. That's why I first started dating Edward to get you to love me" I laughed wiping the tear that was falling down. "I'm pathetic right?" I asked but when he said nothing I continued "but everything backfired I grew to love Edward and now I can't imagine ever being away from him."

"Bella this is just because he's the first one. First loves always feel like they're going to last forever but they don't look at me and Stephanie we didn't last very long." He said parking in front of my house.

"You're wrong Jake because Edward isn't my first love that was you and you're right I did think we would always be together but like you said I was wrong. I desereve someone who loves me like Edward loves me and if you truly care about me even a little you will want that for me." I said opening the door "and don't worry I will talk to my parents about everything goodbye" and with that I got out.

I let out a sigh of relief when I got to the door now that the easy part was done with now came the hard part.