Dean had been pretending to read a book for over an hour. He was pretending because watching Cas read was much more adorable than any book. He loved the way Cas half smiled formed when anything good happened, and when his eyes widened, or brow furrowed when anything sad or scary happened. Or the way that Cas licked his finger every few pages.
The way his tongue brushed his index finger both gracefully and roughly. It was an innocent act, but there was something about the way that Cas did it, which made it seem more sexual...
Dean thought to himself.
Oh no. No, no, no. NO!
This couldn't be happening. He wasn't in love with...oh shit!
Cas looked up momentarily, and saw panic in Dean's eyes.
"Dean are you bored?"
Dean flushed bright red.
"No, I'm not bored, why-why would you say that?"
Cas rolled his eyes.
"Because you've been on the same page of that book for about an hour. Do you want to go for a walk?"
Finally, some alone time with Dean.
Cas thought to himself.
Where did that come from?
Cas and Dean stepped out of the library and went for a stroll along the grounds. A crisp autumn breeze fluttered through the trees, and they were suddenly showered with an array of cascading leaves. Golden, red, yellow, blended in the tumbling wind. Cas smiled at the delicacy of it all, as he then watched Dean stomp his way through the accumulating piles of fallen leaves.
They walked, talked and laughed. Dean was so glad to be back, to feel carefree, to feel as though he mattered. He loved being with Cas, sure he knew he mattered to Sam, but not in the same way he mattered to Cas. Sam loved him as a brother, even a father figure. Cas didn't love him, but Dean knew that with Cas, he didn't feel like he was nothing.
He felt complete.
Dean stood, staring deep into Cas' ocean blue eyes, he then let his eyes lower down and linger at his lips. Dean licked his own. He looked back at Cas' eyes and leaned forward. Cas did the same.
Wait! What am I doing!
Everything stopped.
"We should probably go back in." They said simultaneously.
An awkward laughter ensued, followed by Dean and Cas returning to their original selves, as if nothing had happened.