"Run!" The voice was clear and familar and it tugged at her heart. She obeyed the command and pushed her legs harder even though her body was screaming at her in protest. "Your so close, just keep running" Hearing Jace's voice made her eyes water and the tears rolled down her cheeks. The trees around her blurred together until all she was seeing was a mix of green and brown. Her bare feet made the leaves beneath her, crunched with every step.

"I'm trying!" She shouted back and her voice echoed around her. She stumbled but managed to correct herself and continued to sprint in the direction of the angel like voice. "He's going to stop you, is that what you want?" He was quiter now like he was further away and Clary let out a cry. "Of course not, I will reach you." She promised, truly believing she would. She looked behind her shoulder to see Sebastian standing not too far away.

"No you won't, I won't let you." It was a whisper but it was as if he spoke in her ear and she shivered. She didn't bother responding to him but kept moving. Her eyes shot open in horror as she noticed the tree's moving in the opposite way, even though she was running something was pulling her backwards. Then she could see him, the golden boy was in front of her, no more than a couple of meters away. His face looked exhausted and his eyes were filled with sadness.

"You want to stay here don't you?." He almost sounded angry and Clary stopped running and crumbled to the ground as the invisible pull continued to drag her backwards towards her brother. "NO!" She screamed. "I want you, don't let him take me." Her hands clawed at the ground in an attempt to stop herself from being dragged across the dirt. She didn't think anything could have perpared her for what Jace said to her.

"You have a dark heart in you" He spoke slowly, turning away from her and with that she released her grip from the earth and went hurtling towards her brothers feet landing in a heap. The last thing she heard was her brother soothing her telling her that Jace was right and it would be easier if she just accepted it.

She woke up panting and her hair was stuck to her forehead with sweat. She was swaying and she thought it was because she felt faint but she could feel heat radiating from one side of her. She opened her eyes and saw Sebastians chest and jaw. He was carrying her and her head leaned against his shoulder. Her body was stiff and she tried to move. He was looking down at her now his large green eyes looked tired.

"Go back to sleep, little sister. We will be home soon enough" His voice was soft and he pressed his lips against her forehead. "Jonathan?" She asked unsure if it was him or Sebastian. He murmered yes against her hair and she wanted to kick herself. How could she have fallen asleep at the only time where she needed to be awake. "Jonathan, I want to go home." Her voice was weak with exhaustion and she could feel him nodding and her heart fluttered.

"Were here." He said quitely. She was about to explain she meant New York but she knew it wouldn't have made any difference. He carried her through the threshold and up the stairs until they were in a large open room. The walls were cream and the decor was brown. There was a large flat screen placed on the far away wall and a brown leather couch sat facing it. The kitchen was joined onto the room, only seperated by a breakfast bar instead of a wall.

Jonathan carried her into the hall that was past the livingroom and opened the first door on the left. Inside was pretty the paint on the walls were white besides from the main wall at the back which had large red and gold flowers printed on the wallpaper. The double bed was pushed up against that wall and had red sheets on it, the stitching was gold. The floors were wooden and a black furry rug lay at the foot of the bed. Her brother laid her down onto the mattress and the pillow was soft beneath her head. " Just you sleep now" He whispered and lay down on the bed beside her, his arms clasped behind his head. Her body stiffened and he must have sensed it because he started assuring her he would be going to his own room soon. "I just miss you and I want to ask you something" He said.

She looked up at him and he continued. "Whats our Mother like?" He spoke so quitely she almost never heard him. "Well um, She beautiful, caring, artistic and she always tried her best at bringing me up." She sighed, She missed her mom so much and she would have given anything to just see her again. "Like you then? am I anything like her?" He sounded almost like a child, unsure and shy.

"You have her eyes and some of her features." She told him. She felt sympathy for him, it wasn't his fault their father had poisned him when he was still in the womb or the way Valentine brought him up. He just wanted a family, everyone deserved one did they not?. "I always wanted to meet her you know, when I was little but father told me she left because of me and well I don't blame her." he looked down and for the first time ever Clary wanted to hold him, to hold the brother she never had.

"I remember now, what happened the other night" He said and as he spoke she froze, did he mean the first night he kidnapped her. She could barley bring herself to say rape. "What I.. what He done to you Clarissa. Thats not me." He shook his head gently. " It's the demon inside of my body. I would never harm you, you have to know that." His eyes were on her, begging her to agree with him. "How do you remember?" She asked bewildered. Does this mean Sebastian could remember when Jonathan broke through?. "I know you would never hurt me." She said unsure if that was the truth. Deep down she wanted to believe him but how could she when all she had ever known him as was Sebastian.

"I didn't the first time it happened." He admitted. "But after the third time I did, his memories became mine and I guess it's vice versa. So he will remember this conversation as if it were him, but he will be able to tell the difference between what I do and what he does." He sat himself up and turned to face her grasping one of her hands. "You saved me Clary, This must have something to do with the heavenly fire, when you stabbed me...him, There are times now when the demon part of me goes away.. disappears." His lips tugged up into a soft smile, so different from Sebastians. "Are you aware of what he does when it's not you controlling your body?" She asked him and his face saddened.

She already knew the answer. "Yes and I know he is worried that I will soon have full control, He's doing everything he can to stop this, to kill this side of him." His hand squeezed tighter around her own but she didn't mind. "You have to help me, sister." Clary knew she had to aswell, this was her brother ther person he should have been. It wasn't just because she felt sorry for him but because she wanted him to be saved to be apart of her life.

"Of course I will, I will do anything to help." She said and offered him a smile.