Pairing: Eren/Mikasa

Setting: Modern Day AU;Prequel to Childhood

Words: 2578

Rating: K

Notes: I know I just updated a few days ago but the tag is an awful mess right now so have some happy, friends.

Ryvius requested a story that explored Mikasa's diary entry that was mentioned in Childhood and to go over twelve year old Mikasa and her crush on her best friend. I thought it was the cutest thing ever and I had to write it. I also had to channel my inner twelve year old to remember what I wrote in my diary when I was that age. I wrote about my crushes a lot so Mikasa has a lot to say about twelve year old Eren. The title is from "Come to Me" by the Goo Goo Dolls.

Come to Me My Sweetest Friend

Dear Diary, June 28th

It's finally the first day of summer! Not that I mind school too much but it's still nice not to have homework every night and have to sit all day in a classroom. Now I have more time to hang out with Armin and Eren, we're even gonna go on vacations over the summer. Mom said her and Aunt Carla are gonna take us to the beach, to the museum which me and Armin were a lot more excited about than Eren, to the zoo, and maybe even a weekend trip where we'll get to stay in a hotel.

Mom asked me if I was excited to go onto eighth grade next year cause just one more year and then high school. The high school is a lot bigger than junior high, and has a lot more stuff to do, but Eren and Armin might not be in all my classes like they are now and I dunno how I feel about that. But that's a whole other year away.

Dear Diary, June 30th

We finally planned out the beach trip. Mom, dad, Aunt Carla, Uncle Grisha, and the Colonel all got time off the fourth of July weekend so we're gonna go spend not only a day at the beach but a weekend at the beach! We're gonna be staying at a beach house and everything. It's gonna be just us too, which is how I like it. I asked Mom if Levi was coming too, but Mom said he was too busy in the military to come home for a weekend trip. It really was okay, Levi would just torment Eren if he was there.

Mom said I should go make friends with girls too but Armin and Eren have been my best friends since I moved here, why would I want other friends? We do everything together. We used to even sleep over each other's houses all the time till Mom said I couldn't go anymore since I was a girl and they were boys. I thought it was dumb but Mom said it was the new rule. They only live a house away so we can all still hang out and then just walk home, but it's not the same. Eren was always warmer than my bed ever is.

But the girls in my class aren't bad. I like Sasha, she always makes everyone laugh. Annie keeps to herself and doesn't talk much to anyone. Krista is nice, most all the guys have crushes on her but she doesn't seem to care too much to notice. I tried to ask Eren once if he liked her too, but he just looked at me weird and asked why it mattered. I didn't really know what to tell him.

Dear Diary, July 3rd

We spent our first day at the beach today and it was so much fun. The beach house is bigger than I ever expected so that Mom and Dad, Aunt Carla and Uncle Grisha, and the Colonel all get their own rooms. Eren and Armin get to share a room and I have one to myself but I'd rather be with them. They said to just come in with them at night when everyone is asleep, but I don't know, Mom will be mad if she finds out. I do miss staying up all night with them though.

We went right down to the beach and we were so excited we forgot sunblock. Eren keeps asking Armin when we're gonna butter him up and cook him he's so red. Uncle Grisha had to go out and get him some aloe to help him feel better. I got a little pink but not too much, I spent most the time in the water but I didn't even know Eren's skin could get so tanned. He almost looks like another person, but he's still just as cute.

Dear Diary, July 4th

I got in trouble for falling asleep in the boy's room last night. I told Mom it was an accident but she didn't believe me. Aunt Carla tried to defend me by saying we were just kids, but Mom seemed convinced that twelve well almost thirteen is not a kid anymore and that we're too old for that. I think it's dumb, we're all just friends. I was so upset that I just went down to the beach myself and sat down in the sand. Aunt Carla came out and sat with me, saying that I should obey my mom because she's my mom, and that she is right because we're gonna be teenagers soon and things will start to change. I knew all that, but I still just wanna be with my friends like I used to.

Aunt Carla told me it was a part of growing up and that it was perfectly okay to have a crush on one of my best friends. I wanted to just burry my head in the sand I was so embarrassed but Aunt Carla laughed and said it was okay. She told me to be patient because sometimes it takes guys a little longer than it takes girls. I apologized to Mom and Dad too and they seemed okay after. It was still the best I had slept in a long time.

Eren's calling me though. It's time for fireworks on the beach.

Dear Diary, July 15th

The rest of our trip had gone really well, and we were all sad to go but Uncle Grisha said we could go back next year so at least we'll have that to look forward to. We did a few more things, like go to the museums downtown. Eren hummed thoughtfully at every art painting we passed by mimicking the other people there until Aunt Carla tugged at his ear telling him to behave himself. He spent the rest of the art section trying to see if he could figure out The DaVinci Code in every picture.

Armin liked the history section the best and made sure we read every section on the floor or until Eren fell asleep on one of the benches. There were all these garden mazes outside that Aunt Carla let us run around in while she sat down to read. We decided to see if who could find our way out first but I got distracted by the fountains and flowers so I knew I was losing. Eren found me first though. He came up right behind me and asked me what I was doing. He scared me so much that I backed right into him and he had to catch me so I didn't knock us both over. He was laughing when I turned to face him, his hands still holding onto my waist sending butterflies all over my body and I'm pretty sure my face was as red as the roses that I was standing near. He was smiling though, that bright smile that made me forget everything in my head and I felt so stupid. This was Eren, I never got flustered around him but I can't even try to deny it anymore.

I have the biggest crush on my best friend.

Dear Diary, July 26th

Jean and Eren got into a fight today, which isn't too surprising, they get into fights all the time but the way it happened was weird. I was sitting outside on my porch, reading a book since Armin was helping the Colonel around the house and Eren had a doctor's appointment. Jean, who lives on the next road over, was driving his bike by when he stopped in front of my house. He called out to me so I waved, it's not like Jean was a bad guy but I wasn't sure why he always stopped by. I sided with Eren on all their fights not him.

He came up to the steps, leaning his bike against my porch and asked if it was okay if he stayed for a bit. I wasn't doing anything so I told him it was okay, and he looked pretty happy, which was unusual cause Jean normally looks pretty grumpy. That could be because Eren is always around though. Jean was nice enough though, asking how my summer was going and what we did so far. He told me about how he was going to visit his mom's family up North soon and was in the middle of telling a story about one of his uncles when Eren's angry voice came out of nowhere. I tried to ask him if something had happened at the doctor's but Eren had his eyes set on Jean. Eren just told him to never come back over here and started fighting with him and Jean took the bait, throwing his fist right back.

I tried to get them to stop and was about to step in myself when Dad had to come out and break them up, leaving Jean with a bruised cheek and Eren with a black eye. They both got yelled at and sent home, but I went over to walk Eren home and make sure he was okay. I was trying to look at his eye but he just kept looking over at Jean who gave Eren a dirty look before leaving down the street. I don't know what had happened, but if Dad was mad, you should have heard Aunt Carla.

Dear Diary, July 31st

Mom invited Sasha over to have a sleep over the other night which was fun. I love hanging out with Armin and Eren but there are some things I can't talk about with them. We were just about to grab snacks for the night when the doorbell rang. I went to get it and it was Eren who was returning some clothes I had left from when I was swimming there the other day. He said hi to Sasha before Mom scurried him away since it was supposed to be only girls tonight. The moment we got upstairs Sasha asked me if I liked Eren, like really liked Eren. I asked her why she said that and she told me it was the way I was looking at him. I relented and told her yes to which she joyously shouted that she knew it and wanted to know everything.

I told her about the weird fight, and Sasha said it was probably because Eren was jealous that Jean was hanging out with me alone. I told her that was stupid that Eren just had a temper and hates Jean but Sasha just shrugged with a smile. She said she thought Jean liked me, which was ridiculous and I told her as much but she still was convinced. She told me just to ask Armin then.

Even if it was true, he's not the one I want to like me.

Dear Diary, August 2nd

I did it. I talked to Armin about it. I went over when I knew Eren was helping his dad at work that day so that just we could hang out. I was friends with Eren first but Armin was always like a brother to me, so it's easy to talk to him but at the same time it wasn't really easy because I was so embarrassed. I didn't even have to say it though because he already knew. He said he had known for a while and that he thought it was cute and that he was glad that I felt like I could come to him. I've always trusted what Armin said ever since he told me not to get upset when Eren lost his temper that he wasn't mad at me and wasn't trying to pick a fight. He just was bad at handling it, which was the truth, Armin always said he needed to get sense literally knocked into him all the time. Armin said my secret was safe with him though.

I just wish Eren felt the same, but I know he doesn't. I haven't told anyone this but sometimes when no one is around I'll just daydream that we've been married and that we're older. That I have the short hair my mom won't let me have, and that Eren's tall but he still has the same smile. That we'll have two…no three kids together and I just wish that's what would happen.

Eren had felt like he had been keeping his composure well but he just lost it; he couldn't contain the laugh that was falling from his lips.

"What is so funny?" Mikasa's voice called from the kitchen.

"Nothing," Eren called back, closing the worn book and tossing it back into the box on the coffee table.

"Why don't I believe you?"

He felt two arms drape down his chest as Mikasa leaned over the back of the couch, pulling him back so her chin could rest on his head. "I have no idea what you are talking about."

"I still don't believe you." She leaned in till her face was near his.

Eren turned his head to look at her, not being able to hold the grin off his lips. "So all you wanted me to be when we got married was tall?"

Mikasa blinked at him, clearly confused by his words but between the look he knew he had on his face, and her old diary still poking out of one of the many moving boxes in their new living room, Eren watched the realization on her face. "You read my diary!" she slapped him on the chest before lunging over the couch at him.

Eren laughed as he caught her effortlessly, her body falling into his lap as she still tried to hit him; there was a lack of pain that told Eren she was just playing with him. He reached down to lace his hands with hers as her head rested on the armrest of the couch, the rest of her body laying across his legs.

"That was an invasion of privacy, Eren Jaeger," she said, but she was laughing.

"From when we were twelve," he snorted.

She rolled her eyes. "Read anything you plan to tease me about in the near future?"

"Nah, it was cute." He leaned down to press his lips to hers. "So you want to get married have three kids, huh?"

Mikasa tried to hit him again but Eren still had a hold of her hands.

"I can arraign that," he murmured against her.

She leaned her head up to kiss him before sitting up on the couch as she laughed. "I think first we should finish unpacking the house. So back to work, no more distracting yourself." She pushed herself up to her feet before turning back to look at him with a smile on her lips. "Or me."

"Okay," Eren sighed more dramatically then he needed to causing Mikasa to throw a nearby pillow at him. "I'm working!" He pulled a box to him and started to unwrap the items in it while Mikasa walked back to the kitchen. "Hey, Mikasa," Eren called until she appeared in the kitchen doorway again, a box of their things from their old apartment in her hands. "Sasha was right."

"About what?"

"I punched Jean in the face because I was jealous when I saw him sitting on the porch with you."

She rolled her eyes, but her smile was still bright.