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I've looked at my watch every thirty seconds for the last five minutes but there is no escaping the fact that it is almost one o'clock. Emmett and Jas have insisted on accompanying me to the second floor corridor but I have been vehement that they either leave me at that point or I will not take a step further. I'm not having that fucking eavesdropper Emmett sitting outside with his big fucking ears.
I walk down the corridor to the janitor's closet about halfway down, stopping once to check that those two shitheads are still at the stairwell. Jasper waves at me cheerily and I have to look away before I explode. I pause for a moment with my hand on the door handle. Oh God.
I pull the door open and it's completely dark inside. Maybe she chickened out? That would be the best possible outcome from my point of view. I take a tentative step inside but compared to the relatively bright fluorescent lit corridor I can't see a thing. "Hello?" I call.
The door slams shut behind me and I can hear the sound of the lock being flicked shut which I'm actually pleased about because I couldn't put it past various class members to suddenly throw the door open, trying to catch us in a compromising position. I still can't see anything but someone pushes me forward and down onto a seat. Then they stand against the door slightly behind me.
This is my chance. "Look Jess" I say trying to sound as pleasant as possible. "I don't know what led to this whole thing but it's just not my idea of fun. I think you're a lovely person but I'm just not interested in dating anyone in Forks. I'm planning on moving to the East Coast for college and I just think it's a really bad time to start anything with a girl. I'm not just being old-fashioned here, I'm all for women being assertive but I just don't feel comfortable with this. I don't want to see you being teased though, so look, I suggest we just sit here, for a bit, have a … you know have a chat, like old friends and then we'll go our separate ways and I swear not to say anything more about it. You can tell people whatever you want about what happened, from we did everything including anal to I rejected you violently because I'm in love with Benedict Cumberbatch. Or you can say it was Hallmark style romantic. I don't care and I promise I'll support whatever you have to say. Let's just leave it at that, okay?"
I finish making my offer which is the best face saving solution for both of us that I can think of under the circumstances. I really just don't want her to suffer because of this.
The figure by the door is silent for a few moments but I can hear their rapid breathing. And then I hear a whisper, "Shut up and kiss me, Edward" and a girl sits on my lap.
I brace myself for the onslaught of lip gloss and other shit but unexpectedly, she stops and traces my face lightly with her fingers. Then she gives me a gentle kiss on the cheek.
I'm relieved. If that's it then, I don't mind at all.
She doesn't stop though. Very slowly and gently, she places a few more kisses on my cheek, my upper eyelid, the tip of my nose, my chin and straining a little to reach, my forehead.
She smells lovely; there's some scent that I become aware of as she leans forward that I just can't place. The feel of her soft skin as she brushes against my face is great. The fact that I still can't really see in the dark heightens every touch and adds a sort of suspense because I don't know where she is going to kiss me next. I realize that my arms are holding her loosely because she is after all perched on my lap about the same time that I realize that I'm enjoying this more than I thought. It's very subtle teasing, very delicately done for someone who set this up on the class Facebook page.
And then she finally kisses me on the lips but again it's light and fleeting, more like the promise of a kiss than the real thing. It's me who pushes my hands up into her long soft hair to hold her to me and kiss her deeper.
What am I doing?