Then we're through kept replaying in my head as Ally stood up from the couch. "Ally, that's not fair!" I yell and run to the door before she gets there. "Yes it is!" She yells back and tries for the door knob but I block it. "No Ally. I'm not going on a seven month tour without you!" I say and she looks up at my face. "You're going on this tour Austin! I'm not letting you give your dream up because of me." She says and I sigh. "Ally. You have to listen to me. That's not my dream anymore. My dream is to be here with you, have a baby and get married. That tour isn't what I want. You are what I want." I tell her and she shakes her head. "Austin, you either go on that tour or we break up. I don't want to hear another word about it. Got it?" She asks and I nod my head. "Fine, I'll go." I say and she gives me a sad smile before reaching up and kissing my lips. "When's the tour?" She asks and I sigh. "It starts in two months." I say and I groan. "What's the matter?" She asks and I shake my head. "Nothing." I tell her.
"Jimmy?" I ask thought the phone. "Yes Austin?" He asks and I sigh. "I'll do the tour." I tell him and I could practically hear his smile as he speaks. "Great!" He says and I walk into the bedroom, not closing the door. "But..." I say and I hear him groan. "Do you think you could make it earlier? Because the way the time is set, I'll definitely miss the birth of my child." I say. "Umm..." He says and I hear clicking in the background. "The only other time you can do would be next week." He says and I nod my head even though he can't see me. " I'll do that then. Thanks Jimmy!" I say and hang up the phone.
"Babe?" I call out, walking into the kitchen where Ally is. "Hmm?" She asks. "Look, you might not be happy about it but I got Jimmy to move the tour earlier so I can definitely be here when the baby comes." I say and we both smile. "Really?! That's great when do you leave?" She asks and I lose my smile. "Next week..." I trail off and she loses her smile too. "Oh, t-that's great!" She says with a smile again but I can tell it's fake. I sigh and wrap my hands around her waist from behind. "I'm gonna miss you Ally." I say and she turns around in my arms. "I'm gonna miss you too." She says giving me a sad smile. She turns back around and groans. "I forgot tomatoes for this salad. I'll be right back, okay?" She asks and I shake my head. "I'm coming with you." I tell her and she smiles at me. "I need you to stay here and watch the stove. I'll be fine, okay?" I groan but nod at her.
Ally's POV
I get in the car and when I get to grocery store, I head right toward the isle with tomatoes. As I pick each tomato out, I can't help but notice a man watching me. I try not to let it bother me and I pick out two tomatoes. The man follows me up to the register and buys a pack of gum as I'm leaving. That's it. It's starting to scare me because he makes the same turn out of the parking lot as I did. I make random turns, to see if he's following me and he has yet to leave me so I call Austin.
After the first ring, he picks up. "Ally? Are you okay? You've been out for nearly forty five minutes! All you needed was a tomato!" He yells into the phone and I look back through the mirror to see if the man was still there. He is. "A guy was watching me in the store and I've been trying to lose him but he's still following my car." I say and he growls. "Will you come down into the parking lot so I don't have to get out alone?" I ask. "Yeah, I'll wait outside." He responds and I hang up I pull into the parking lot and Austin jogs to the car and opens the door for me. The man who was following me parks next to my car.
Austin grabs my hand and we sprint inside and into the elevator as fast as we could. "You okay?" Austin asks me and I nod. "You can't go out alone anymore Alls. I know you don't want to hear this, but neither do I. Someone's after you. You can't be alone. You have to ask me to go with you or Dez. Wherever it is I'll go, I promise." He tells me, concern clear in his voice. "Austin, what about the tour?" I ask and mentally slap myself. Why'd I say that? "You can stay with them when I leave and I'm getting you a body guard." He says and I make a face at him as we step out of the elevator. "A bodyguard Austin? Really?" I ask and he nods. "Bodyguard or I'm not going on the tour." He says and I groan. "You're so stubborn." I tell him and he smiles at me. "Only when someone is against you or your safety." He says, grabbing his phone.
He's on the phone for about twenty minutes until he gets off. "Okay, so I got you a body guard for when you're sleeping, you'll sleep in the guest bedroom because there are no windows. He'll stay outside of your door and when you're not home, a body guard will be in the apartment to make sure no one comes in. I talked to Dez and Trish also. You will go with Dez or a body guard when you leave." He tells me and I roll my eyes. "You act like I'm two years old! I can go out alone!" I say angrily and he sighs. "Please Ally. I just can't have anything happen to you." He tells me and I groan. "I know, but I want privacy!" I yell at him and he turns away from me. "Ally, it's hard enough that you're making me leave, don't make it harder." He says, still facing the other direction and I nod, even though her can't see me. "Okay..." I say in a quiet voice.
For lunch, we that tomato salad I made. Well, I did. Austin said he wasn't hungry again. What's the matter with him? He didn't eat breakfast either. He also looks a little tired. I wonder what's going on with him. I'll ask him during dinner, if he eats that is.
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"Austin!" I yell and he gets off the couch and over to the kitchen. "What's up?" He asks and I roll my eyes. Same thing everyday... "Really Austin? We do this everyday!" I say while laughing. "It's time for dinner." I say and he sits down in his spot at the table. "I'm not really hungry..." He says looking up from his empty plate and I sigh. "Austin, what's up? You haven't eaten a thing all day. And you look exhausted." I tell him and he shrugs his shoulders. "I don't know, I just got a lot on my mind." He says and I can't help but feel like he's not telling me something but I don't know what it is.
Austin's POV
After Ally ate, we say down to watch a movie. We watched 'The Notebook' (I don't own) and Ally fell asleep forty five minutes in. I look at her and sigh. I don't want to go on this tour. I really don't. I don't know how we're gonna go from seeing each other every day since pre-school to not seeing each other for seven months. I pick her up and bring her into the guest bedroom. I lay her down on the bed and pull the covers over her. As I think everything over again, a tear slips down my cheek and I close my eyes. I'm going to miss most of Ally's pregnancy! I'm gonna miss the first doctors appointment, the first kicks... I might even miss the birth itself. I sigh, letting another tear slip and I get up and go into the kitchen.
I grab a knife and make two slashes, right above the other two I made last night. You guys are probably why I'm doing this. Well, once I start, I can't stop. It's like an addiction to me. I feel like... Like... I'm going into depression again. Sometimes I wonder what everything would be like without me. Dez. Would he be less crazy? Happier? Different job? I don't know. Trish. Would she be able to hold a steady job? Does she even like managing Ally and I? Ally. Would she be happier? Probably. Would she have someone who deserves her? Most likely, she can get any guy. Would she more famous? Yes. Living in an apartment in New York? No. Would she be in danger like she is now? No. Sometimes I feel like everyone I knew would be better without me.
Then I go turn the tv on in the living room. I sit in the chair closest to the guest room so I can see Ally. She looks so peaceful when she's sleeping. I turn my head back to the tv and at sixish, I finally fall asleep.
At eight this morning, I find Ally in the kitchen breakfast, she looks upset about something. "Morning." I say getting up and walking over to her. "Hi..." She says in a quiet voice. "Whats the matter?" I ask her and she turns round to face me and I see tears rushing down her face. "I don't know, you tell me." She says and I scrunch my eyebrows up in confusion. "What?" I ask her and she starts to cry again. I slowly put my arms around her waist and rock her gently, humming a soft slow melody. "Will you tell what's going on?" I ask her and she sighs. "You're not eating, you look like you've barely slept in days and you slept in the living room. What's the matter with you?" She asks and I give her a hug. "I'm fine, I slept in the living room because I couldn't fall asleep and I just watched some tv. And, I'm just not really hungry." I tell her shrugging my shoulders and she wipes her tears. "Okay, if you need to talk, I'm here though." She tells me and I nod.
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Today's Wednesday, the day I'm leaving. I have a small personal luggage that I'm bringing because they already have my wardrobe. The week was the usual. I didn't get much sleep, I cut almost every night. The closer the tour got, the more I cut. I couldn't help it. The thought of being away from Ally for seven months... Currently, Ally, Dez and Trish are walking me to the bus.
"Bye Trish." I say, bending down to hug her. "Bye Austin." Se says, a few tears slipping from her eyes and I give her a sad smile. "Take a picture for every new job, okay?" I ask, lightening the mood. She laughs. "Will do." She says. "And I want pictures of any baby things that happen." I say seriously and she nods. "Of course." She hugs me again and I kiss her on the cheek.
"Bye Dez," I say and he gives me a half smile. "Bye man," he says and we do our handshake, finishing off with "what up?!" Really high and loud. We all laugh. "Good luck, have fun." He says and I pat his shoulder. "Thanks... Good luck with the baby. Protect her please." I whisper and he nods. "Got it covered," he says with a nod. "Thanks man, I'll text you." I say as he walks toward Trish. "You better!" He calls back laughing.
"Alls..." I say. Tears spilling down her face, her sobs becoming louder and louder. "Don't cry Alls. You'll make me cry." I say with a sad laugh. She wipes her tears and apologizes. "I'll miss you." She says and I pull her in for a hug. "Il miss you too." I say and I pull away to look at her face. I lean in and touch my lips to hers but pull away quickly. I pull my whistle necklace off my neck and place it around Ally's. "Here," I say. "This will be a reminder of me. If you miss me, just talk to the whistle until we actually talk." I say with a small chuckle. "I know it sounds crazy but it works." I say and she looks up me with sad eyes. "I can't take this Austin. I know it was your gran-" she starts but I cut her off with a kiss. "Take it. I promise. I want you to have it." I say and she nods with a small smile on her lips.
She looks into her bag and pulls out her book. "Here." She says placing it into my hands and I stare at her. "I want you to have it. I want you to read it in reminder of me." She says but I shake my head, placing it back in her hands. "I'm not taking it. I'm not reading it. That's personal stuff you've written in there. I as told to never touch. Your. Book." I say and she laughs. "Please Austin, I have another one in the apartment because I ran out of pages in that one. Besides, a bunch of new songs are in it. You can used any of them during your tour." She says, placing the book back in my hands and I give her a look. "You sure?" I ask and she nods her head. "Positive." She says. "We'll I guess this is goodbye then..." I say and a tear slips from her eye. "I guess so." She says and I pull her in for one more kiss. This kiss is soft, slow and passionate. It lasts for about three minutes. Three minutes of pure bliss. Until someone had to ruin the moment. "Two minutes Austin." They say and I break away from Ally. "I'll call you all the time." I tell her and she smiles at me. "Good." She says. "I love you." She says as I walk toward the tour bus. "I love you too.