Hey guys! This chapter is rough... Read the whole chapter, don't stop reading! Don't assume anything! I'm pretty sure this is my longest chapter. Anyways, I don't own anything!

Austin's POV

The last few months have been okay. I eat at least a meal a day, two meals on a good day. I only cut a few times, three times a week, four the most. I sleep at least five hours a night. I think I'm out of my depression, I smile more and I have no more suicidal thoughts... I talk to Ally three times a day, maybe more. She will FaceTime me for things to do with the baby. She did when she had the first sonogram and she sent me pictures, she videotaped the baby's first kicks and she took a picture everyday to see how much she grew. She's a little emotional though, every time we talk, she cries because she misses me, but trust me, I miss her so much. Seeing her, Dez and Trish is the only reason why I made it this far in the tour.

Tonight is my last concert, it's in New York and everyone is coming. Ally had to take a break from her career while she was pregnant but she's fine. I'll have to take a break when we first bring the baby home too. We thought of names for both genders but we don't know the gender, we want it to be a surprise. Anthony Michael Moon for a boy and Arianna Melody Moon for a girl. I want a girl, so I can spoil my little princess and scare away the boys but I want a boy to teach him things like how to flirt and guy stuff, ya know? I hope we have a second child after this one. I'd love that.

My concert is starting in a few minutes and I'm so excited! I haven't seem Ally in person since I was in the hospital! I'm glad it's ending but I'm also a little nervous... I mean, I'm gonna be a dad. The thought makes me stomach churn and twist in knots, in both good and bad ways. "Places Austin!" I hear someone yell behind me and I pick up my microphone. "And now... With the last concert of his tour... Austin Moon!" He says and I jog onto the stage.

"Hey guys! This is where my tour comes to an end..." I say and the audience erupts into 'aw's. "I know, I know it's sad... But when I get home, I'll be able to get married and raise my newborn child." I say and cheers are heard around the stadium and I smile. "Ally, I love you. This one goes to you." I say and the song 'One Thing' comes on. (Don't own) At the end of the song, I notice Ally is missing from the spot on stage and Trish is backstage, looking around worriedly. Oh please don't be what I think this is. I immediately run off stage to Trish and ask her what's going on. "Ally's in labor." She says and I pull Trish to the parking lot. "Lets go." I say, getting into her and Dez's car and speeding off to the hospital.

"Ally Dawson." I say, jogging up to the desk. "Oh my gosh, you're Austin Moon!" The teen screeches from behind the counter and I growl. "Yes, where is Ally Dawson?" I ask, my teeth clenched. "I just love you!" She says and groan in frustration. "Please, I'll sign anything you want or whatever but my fiancé is in labor. Please help me find her." I plead and she nods her head quietly and looks for Ally's room. "Room... 156" she says and I run off to that direction.

"Ally..." I say, going up to the hospital bed and grabbing her head. She's crying and breathing super heavy. "Ally, deep breaths okay? You're gonna be fine." I say and she calms down a little. "It's too early. Too early..." She trails off, squeezing my hand tighter. "Okay Miss. Dawson, it is unfortunately not false contractions but you're in good hands. We will do all we can to save your baby." He says and Ally looks at him, glaring. "It can't be! It's too early! What did I do wrong?!" She screeches and I stand up to kiss her head. "Ally, you did everything right. It's not your fault." I tell her. "How would you know Austin?! You weren't ever here!" She snaps at me and I take a small step back, our hands disconnecting. "Oh my gosh, Austin I'm so sorry... I didn't mean it l-" she starts but I shake my head and cut her off. "Don't be... You're right..." I say, swallowing the lump in my throat. "Austin, pl-" she stops talking, replacing it with a scream and Trish comes from the other side of the bed, where she was with Dez and sits where I was.

"I'm gonna go call everyone..." I say, leaving the room. A tear slips down my face. "Hello?" My mom asks into the phone. "Come to the hospital, Ally is in labor." I say and she gasps and tells me they will be right here.

I call Ally's dad next. "Mr. Dawson?" I ask. "Who is this?" He asks and I furrow my eyebrows in confusion. "It's Austin..." I say and he laughs. "Oh, not trying to be rude or anything but... Why are you calling me? Are you hanging out with Ally?" He asks and I sigh. "No Sir, Ally is in labor." I tell him and he gasps. "What?!" He yells into the phone and I pull my cell away from my ear. "Yeah, she's two months early... Could you come by? We're all at the hospital right in the city." I tell him. "Is she even dating anyone? Who's the father? I'll kill him! Who is he and who does he think he is?!" He yells and I'm confused. Ally didn't tell him? Why? Is she ashamed of me or something? I'll ask her. "I'll let her explain, I'll see you later Mr. Dawson." I say and I hang up. That's all I call. I don't know who else she didn't tell.

I walk back into the room and Ally is breathing heavy, grasping Trish's hand. "Um..." I look around nervously. "S-sorry for leaving..." I apologize pointing to the door. "I just called our p-parents..." I trail off. I don't know what's going on with me. When she told me that I was never here, it broke my heart. It really hurt me because I know it's true. I wasn't here and that was the biggest mistake of my life.

"You called my Dad?!" She yells and I nod, looking down. "D*** it Austin! I can't- will you please just leave?!" She screeches as I her something hit the floor and I realize it's her engagement ring. I look up at her. Her eyes are bloodshot, dried tears are on her face and she looks like she is in excruciating pain. I nod at her, pick up the ring and jog out of the room, tears falling from my face. I mess everything up! No matter what it is, I manage to mess it up! Everyone would be better without me! They don't need me! No one would care if I was gone!

I slam the bathroom door open and put my hands on the counter. I look up at my face. Red eyes, black bags underneath them, tears rushing down my face... I'm a mess. I think about what happened in the hospital room, I think about the tour, I think about the man who was after Ally. I think about pretty much everything that has gone wrong in the past year. I grab my pocket knife a drag it hard across my skin. I look into my eyes for the last time and see regret and guilt for Ally. Ally... I take out my phone and type up a message. 'Ally, I love you. The ring is for you' I type, I put the phone down and put the ring on top of it. I drag the knife across my skin again and again, up my whole arm. I squeeze my eyes shut and shove it through my stomach. It seems as my life flashes through my eyes and I give a small grin. "I love you and our baby Ally..."

Is the last thing that happens before I fall to the ground and black out.

Ally's POV

"Trish, my water just broke." I whisper, holding my stomach. "Dez, take Ally to the hospital, I'll get Austin when he's done." She says and he looks confused. "Why does she need to go to the hospital?" He questions and I groan in pain. "Ally's water broke! Go, go!" She screeches and Dez lifts me up and goes to the car. He speeds to the hospital and everything else that happened, was a blur because of the excruciating pain I was going through.

Austin jogs up to the hospital bed and grabs my hand. "Ally, deep breaths okay? You're gonna be fine." He says and I try my best to calm down. "It's too early. Too early..." I trail off in pain and hold back a scream. "Okay Miss. Dawson, it is unfortunately not false contractions but you're in good hands. We will do all we can to save your baby." The doctor says as he walks in and I glare at him. "It can't be! It's too early! What did I do wrong?!" I scream at no one in particular. "Ally, you did everything right. It's not your fault." Austin says, kissing my head. "How would you know Austin?! You weren't ever here!" I scream at him and steps back. Our hands disconnect and I immediately feel horrible. "Oh my gosh, Austin I'm so sorry... I didn't mean it l-" I start saying through the pain and he cuts me off. "Don't be... You're right..." He says quietly, taking another step back. "Austin, pl-" I try again but cut myself off with a scream.

"I'm gonna go call everyone..." Austin says, turning around and walk away from the three of us. "I hope he doesn't call my dad..." I whisper to myself, but Trish heard it. Of course. "Why not call your dad?" She asks me and I shake my head. "I haven't spoken to him in so long... He doesn't know that Austin and I are engaged or that I'm pregnan- owwww..." I moan and I start crying. It hurts so bad! I hear Austin's footsteps across the hall.

"Um..." He starts as he enters the room. "S-sorry for leaving..." He stutters nervously and I'm just curious to see if he called my dad. "I just called our p-parents..." He trails off and I lean my head back in frustration.

"You called my Dad?!" I screech in pain and he nods. I squeeze my eyes shut and groan in either pain or frustration. Maybe both. "D*** it Austin! I can't- will you please just leave?!" I yell, pulling my engagement ring off my finger and throwing it to the ground. He looks at the ring and then at me before nodding, grabbing the ring and jogging out of the room. Tears slip from my eyes and I scream put in frustration. "Ally, Ally... You'll be fine, okay? You know how much he loves you..." She says, pushing a strand of my hair behind my ear. "He'll be back. He won't miss the birth of your beautiful baby." She says and I close my eyes. "I hope so..." I trail off before the doctor comes in.

He checks me and says that I'm almost there and to get whoever I want to stay in the room with me and I sigh. "Trish...?" I ask hopefully and she gives me a small smile. "Don't you think Austin should be in here?" She asks and I groan but nod my head anyway. "Will you please go find Austin?" I ask looking over to Dez and he nods his head. He stands up and walks out of the room. "What if he left?" I ask Trish and she shakes her head. "He wouldn't..." She says and I nod at her.

Dez's POV

Right now, I'm looking through the hospital and can't find him anywhere. "Excuse me, have you seen Austin Moon come over here?" I ask the girl at the desk. "Um, no he hasn't come through here so he must be that way." She says, pointing toward the hall that ally's room is in. "How can I find him?" I ask her and she thinks about it for a minute. "Well, he didnt. Leave because I would've seen and he can't go into any random room so he is most likely in one of the waiting rooms down that way or a bathroom somewhere." She says and I nod a thank you at her before jogging off to check the waiting rooms.

Waiting Room 1... No

Waiting Room 2... No

Waiting Room 3... Nope

Waiting Room 4... Nothing

I check the four bathrooms and don't see him in any if those.

I sigh in frustration and look around. There! He's got to be in there! I can't believe I didn't see that bathroom! It's right near the room Ally is in. I jog towards it and open the door.

I gasp and stumble backwards at the sight. "Help!" I scream as my stomach drops and I run towards Austin, who is lying on the floor bloody, a knife in his stomach. "Help! Somebody help me!" I scream, desperate to get someone's attention. "Austin, get up. This isn't funny." I say, trying to wake him up and shaking him, getting blood on my hands. He still has a faint pulse. Faint. It's faint. "Please Austin!" I'm yelling now, a tear falling from my eyes. "Help me! Someone help!" I try again but no one is listening. I stand up and run out of the bathroom. I look around, trying to find someone and I run straight to Ally's room. There's a doctor. "Help... Please help!" I plead and they all look at me in confusion.

"Please, doctor. I need someone's help. You're the only one I saw. Please..." I beg him and he looks down at my bloody hands and nods. "He's in the bathroom..." I trail off and I run toward the bathroom. Austin's unmoving body still lay on the floor and Trish gasp comes from behind me. She starts to cry and I hug her, not putting my hands near her. "Get out of here, okay?" I tell her and she nods, walking out of the room.

"Can you help him?" I ask the doctor as he is sitting on the floor next to him. "If we get him hooked up to machines immediately, he has a chance of living." He says and I look at him. A chance? A chance? Why Austin?! Why would you do this?!

Ally's POV

I scream out in pain and frustration. Where is the doctor?! Why is Trish crying her eyes out? Why won't anyone tell me anything?! Where is Dez? The doctor walks into the room with tools and gloves on. "Ready?" He asks me and I shake my head. "Where's Austin and Dez?" I ask and his eyes go wide. "No one told you?" He asks me and I groan. "Would I be asking if someone told me?!" I screech at him but he doesn't seen phased. He probably gets a lot of this from pregnant patients.

"Austin was found in the bathroom with a knife in his stomach... He was attempting suicide... I'm sorry." He tells me and I stare at him. "What? A-are you sure it was Austin Moon?" I ask he nods his head. Tears slowly fall from my eyes. "What? No. No. He was j-just okay!" I scream and he shakes his head. "I'm sorry." He sighs. "You're ready..." He says and I cry even louder. "I can't do this without Austin." I tell him and he shakes his head. "He's still unconscious, he hit his head... You have to have this baby now Miss. Dawson." He tells me and I look up at him through tears. "It's Mrs. Moon..." I say and he nods, giving me a sympathetic glance.

LATER

Later on, at 3:18 in the morning, August 25th, 2013, Ariana Melody was born. The same day Austin and I started dating... I sit in the room alone, sweating and crying. I can't hold Ariana, she had to be immediately hooked up to wires but she was healthy enough to be breathing. "Excuse me, doctor?" I ask as he walks in the room. "Yes Mrs. Moon?" He asks and I give a small smile. "Will you please tell me what happened to Austin?" I ask and he sighs but nods anyway. "Your friend... Dez?" He asks and I nod. "Found him lying on the bathroom floor. He had 86 open cuts on his left arm and he had a knife in his stomach... We think that he lost so much blood, he passed out and hit his head on the counter." He tells me and tears rush down my face. "Is he okay?" I ask in a rush and he looks back at the door. "I don't know... He has a pretty bad concussion and has a faint pulse. I think he will be okay, but I couldn't know for sure..." He says and I nod, crying harder. "A-and it was d-definitely a suicide a-attempt?" I ask and he nods. "We also found his phone but neither of us know his password. Do you know it?" He asks and I ponder for a minute. He hasn't ever told me but I can probably guess. "Can I guess?" I ask and he nods, grabbing Austin's phone from his pocket but it's in a plastic bag. It's covered in blood. "Umm..." I say out loud and I put in his birthday. "No..." I whisper and try my birthday. No... 0825. That's it. I love him so much. Of course our anniversary would be his password. "Oh, and we found this ring..."

I open the phone to see a message. 'Ally, I love you. The ring is for you' I start crying again and frown at myself. How could I do this to him? It's my fault he did this. He really tried to kill himself. I can't believe it. I just hope he's okay...

Three Days Later

"Mrs. Moon, you may now get up and walk around." The doctor tells me and I jump up and go straight to Austin's room because I'm still not allowed to see Ariana. My dad still hasn't showed up because he still lives in Miami and couldn't get a flight yet but Mimi has been here. She visited me and Austin but had to go back to the mattress store. She didn't tell Mike because he would be furious. Him and Austin never had a great relation

I walk into his room and just stare at his broken down body. I sit next down next to him and grab his hand. I look up and down his arms and burst into tears. This isn't fair! I hate my life! If Austin dies, I don't know what I'll do. I grab my hair and pull in frustration to keep myself from screaming. "Please Austin... I am so sorry, I didn't mean that. Any of it. I love you. I need you. I can't raise Ariana by myself Austin..." I say and I smile. "We had a little girl Austin. She's beautiful but I have only seen her once. You'll love her." I say with a sad grin. "Just wake up and we can get over this stupid stress and get on with our lives. I miss you. I miss your smile. I miss everything about you..." I say. "You just have to wake up first..."

Two Days Later

I can see Ariana tomorrow. I am so excited! I mean, wouldn't you be if you could finally see your new born child?! Yes!

Austin still hasn't woken up... The doctors say he should wake up soon. Trish, Dez and I are all sitting in his room, around his bed. No one says anything. No one knows what to say anymore. It's become too overwhelming to say anything. We were all deeply effected by Austin being in the hospital and the fact that news reporters are constantly trying to see Ariana or Austin. It's all over the news and it's just frustrating you know? I just w-

My thoughts are interrupted when Austin moves. I think he's waking up! We all watch him intently and Dez leans closer to him. Slowly, Austin's eyes flutter open and see Dez. He thinks for a minute and so many emotions flash through his eyes. Guilt, sadness, fear, pain, hurt... Not one happy emotion though. Not one. He squeezes his eyes shut again and groans. "Will someone just kill me please?" He asks through clenched teeth. He grabs his hair in his hands and pulls his knees to his chest. I silently watch and cry as they talk. "Austin, you can't do this anymore. Stop hurting yourself." Dez says and Austin shakes his head.

"I screw everything up! I hate my life! No one wants me here! Everyone is better without me! Can't you see that?!" He yells and Dez steps back. "Are you kidding? We all need you Buddy!" He says back forcefully but not loudly and Austin shakes his head. "No you don't, you know you don't. You don't need me, you'd probably be better without me! Trish doesn't need me! She'd probably have a better job without me! Ally..." He gets quieter but keeps going. "Ally doesn't need me. She'd be happier, more famous... She wouldn't be living in an apartment... Our child... She probably doesn't even want me in the baby's life but who could blame her? I wouldn't either..." He says and his eyes snap open for the first time since he woke up. "Oh m- what happened?! Is the baby okay? What happened?!" He yells and Dez turns to me as does Austin. His eyes widen, noticing Trish and I for the first time.

"She was fine. I can see her tomorrow..." I say and he looks at me. "She? The baby was a girl... I am the father of a baby girl..." He says and looks down at his hands. "Austin, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say any of that, I was just in pain. I never meant to hurt you but I did and I shouldn't have." I say and he shakes his head. "No... Don't be sorry. I wouldn't have done what I did if you were just frustrated. I did it because what you said was true. How would I know what you did? I was never there... Just like you said." He says and a tear slips from my eye. "Please Austin, don't feel guilty because I didn't mean it like that, I was just in pain and I took it out on you! I promise, I love you more than anything and you can't ever do this again. Our baby girl needs both of her parents. Ariana needs a daddy." I say and pulls his knees tight to his chest.

"I'm sorry..." He says and shakes his head. I take a deep shakes breath before speaking again. "Austin, I love you. We all do. We all need you." I say but he stays still. After two minutes, he takes a deep breath and groans. He grabs his hair and pulls it, groaning again. "I'll help you get through this. I promise." I say and he nods.

He looks like he's going to speak but the doctor comes in. "Oh Austin, I see you're awake!" He says and turns to me. "Nice to see you again Mrs. Moon." He says and I can see Austin's head snap toward the doctor. "Mrs. Moon?" He questions and I shrug my shoulders. "Sorry... I told him to call me Mrs. Moon, not Miss. Dawson." I say and I feel Austin's hand grab mine and I grin, looking down at them. "Don't be..." He says, rubbing soothing circles on my knuckles. "Mr. Moon, how are you feeling?" The doctor asks and Austin shrugs. "Okay." He says and looks back at me. "Are you feeling well enough to see your daughter?" The doctor asks and both mine and Austin's eyes widen.

"I thought we couldn't see her until tomorrow!" I say and the doctor smiles. "You can hold her tomorrow, see her today." He tells us smiling and I smile too. I think I even see the old smile Austin used to smile all the time. "Follow me..." He says. Austin and I stand up, and I look up at him. I bring my lips to his and he immediately kisses me back.

"I love you Austin." I say when we break apart. "I love you too." He says and puts his forehead to mine. "You ready to see Ariana?" I ask him and he nods, grabbing my hand.

We walk into the small room with a bunch of babies. That's when we see her. "Oh my gosh..." Austin says, walking over to the small place where Ariana is. He puts his hand over the thin piece of glass and gives a small smile. "She's beautiful..." He says and looks over at me. "She looks just like you..." He says, reaching his hand out and I walk toward him, grabbing his hand. I rest my head on his shoulder and look down at Ariana.

"I'm sorry to intrude but you have to leave..." The doctor says and I groan. "Okay." I say and pull Austin out of the room with me. "She's beautiful." I say smiling, looking at Austin. "She is..." He says, looking at me. He lean down to kiss me but the doctor interrupts again. "Mr. Moon, you have to get back in bed." He says and Austin groans but nods anyway. He climbs back in bed and Trish, Dez and I look at him. No one knows what to say. "Guys, I'm the same Austin... You can talk." He tells us and we all share glances with each other. "Austin... That's the thing. You're not the same Austin as before." I say and he looks at me with sad eyes. "Can I talk to Austin alone guys?" I ask Dez and Trish. They both nod, understanding and walk out of the room together.

"Austin, we need to talk..." I state and he looks at me. "About?" He asks and I give him a look. "Austin. You know what. This is serious... You can't do this... I want to know why you're doing this." I say and he groans. "I just- I feel like I mess everything up, like everyone would be better without me... No one needs me." He tells me and I shake my head. "That's where you're wrong Austin. Dez needs you, Trish needs you, I need you. Ariana needs a father..." I say and I feel a tear slip from my eye. "I can't do this without you." I tell him and he grabs my hand. "You can't do something like this ever again." I tell him and he looks down at our hands.

"I'm sorry Ally. You shouldn't have to deal with this." He tells me and I shake my head. "I know we're not married yet but... Through sickness and health, remember?" I ask and he groans. "I will be here for you all the time but I can't have you trying to kill yourself when whenever something goes wrong!" I screech and I look up at his face. He seems hurt and guilty. "Oh my gosh Austin, I'm sorry. That was so insensitive me." I tell him, panicking. "Don't be sorry Ally. When you say things, don't be sorry. Especially if they're true..." He trails off and I start to cry. "Look, when you said that I was never there when you were pregnant, I was only hurt because I knew it was true. It's not even that I was hurt because you said it, I was only hurt because I knew that I wasn't there for you. Going on that stupid tour was just... I missed the growth of my child*. I-I'm sorry..." He says and I shake my head.

"Look Austin. You did absolutely nothing wrong, okay? I love you and I can't live without you. You can't hurt yourself anymore, okay? I can't live with myself if I knew you hurt yourself because of me." I tell him, hysterically crying now. "I'll help you get through this, you just have to work with me..." I say and he nods. "We'll do this together." He says and I reach to give him a hug but stop. Her has stitches in his stomach. "Ally?" He questions and I look at him with sad eyes. "You have stitches in your stomach..." I say and he shakes his head. "I don't care Ally, come here." He says and I nod, carefully hugging him.

"Together." I say and he nods, squeezing me tighter. "Together..."