Sorry for not updating! Don't own anything!
About a year later
"F*** you Austin. I'm done here and I'm done with you!" I scream at him in yet another argument. I walk to Ariana, who is now turning two tomorrow, and silently lift her up and walk out of the bedroom again. "Ally, that's not what I meant! You know it too! I don't know why you took it that way!" He screams and I roll my eyes.
He pretty much just told me that guys would only want me for one thing, if you know what I mean. Of course I'm furious! Who wouldn't be?!
We've been yelling at each other everyday and today, this is about our fourth fight. "Anyone would've understood what you were implying! You're such an a******!" I scream as I place Ariana in her stroller. "If I'm such an a******, why the h*** did you agree to marry me?" He yells at me and I look into his eyes and see a sad dark brown. His depression hasn't gotten any better beside the fact that he does no more self harm.
"I don't know! I honestly have no idea why I would agree to marry someone like you!" I scream and his face loses all color and his eyes get slightly darker. "Then why did you stay with me for so f****** long?" He asks as I start packing Ariana's stuff. "Because I loved you! I was helping you because you were hurting yourself! Now that it's over, I can leave!" I zip up one of the bags, a tear slipping from my eye. "Well you didn't do a great job at it!" He screams and I look at him in confusion. He mumbles under his breath and I stare at him. "What are you talking about?" I ask and he just shakes his head. "Nothing." I get furious as I grab another bag to pack more of Ariana's things.
"This is just another reason why I have no idea why I stayed with you for so long! You don't tell me anything that's going on!" I scream at the too of my lungs and Austin grabs my arm to turn me around. "Fine! You want to know?!" He yells and goes to the bathroom and I hear the sink turn on. He comes back a minute later and he lifts his sleeve up. "It hasn't ended! It never will! I still feel the same way as when I tried to f****** kill myself in the hospital but I can't get alone long enough to ever even try!" He screams and I zip up the last bag.
"You're such a b****! I don't know why you stayed here so long if you hated me so much!" He says and we both freeze, saying nothing. He's never said anything like that before. Ever. "Maybe it was the fact that I couldn't raise a child on my own but I practically did anyway!" I scream and go into the living room. "You know I helped you raise Ariana." He states and I shake my head. "Oh, I must have missed it when I blinked!" I say and I shake my head. "I hate you Austin! I honestly have never hated someone as much as I hate you!" I scream and I see his shoulders slump, his eyes now completely black bore into mine. "Now you're silent? Really? Say something!" I scream at him and he starts breathing heavy. He stares at the ground, his breathing getting faster with every breath. "D*** it..." He whispers and he starts hyperventilating. I look into his eyes, with my panic filled ones. His cold eyes stars into mine for about a minute before he sprints to the bathroom. I hear him slam the cabinets. "Austin what are you doing?" I ask walking toward the door but he doesn't respond. "Austin!" I scream, banging on the door repeatedly. Think Ally, think. The spare key! I jump up and down, touching the top of the door frame, where the key eventually falls off. I slip it into the doorknob and jiggle it around. "Hurry up..." I mumble to myself and it finally unlocks.
I slam the door open and stumble at the sight. "Austin, y-" I start but he shakes his head, cutting me off. "No Ally. Don't tell me it needs to stop. Don't tell me that everything will be fine. Don't tell me anymore c*** Ally because I know that they're all d*** lies and you know it too." He says and a tear slips from my eye. "Please Austin, you can't do this anymore." I say sternly and he snaps his head toward me. "Do you think I want this?! Do you really think that I want to be someone with scars and cuts on his body?! Do you think that I want to be known as someone who can't even go a f****** day without hurting himself on purpose?! I don't want this Ally! I'm weak! This shows that I'm weak. That I can't handle pain." He says, screaming at first then ending in a whisper. "Don't you think that I want to be happy? Don't you think that I want to be someone who actually wants to be here?" He asks, getting louder again. I see his breathing become faster and heavier again. He grabs the razor and slices it through his wrist again and sighs, as I gasp. "Austin!" I yell and he shakes his head. Squeezing his eyes shut for a second and then snapping them open. "Don't you think I want to be loved again? Don't you think I would take it all back if I could?" He asks and I try grabbing the razor from his hand he pulls back immediately.
"Austin, I love you. Dez loves you. Trish loves you. You are loved, and not just by us." I say and he shakes his head. "You hate me! I haven't spoken to Dez, Trish or my parents in months! I don't perform anymore, I don't sing anymore..." He says and I take a step toward him as he steps away from me. "Austin! They understand what you're going through!" I yell and he gasps at my outburst, squeezing the razor tight in his hand. Blood drips from his hand and I burst into tears. "Austin, let me see your hand. That needs stitches, I'm sure." I say and he shakes his head. "I don't care..." He says and I sigh. "Can I at least wrap it up?" I ask and he groans, shaking his head. "Fine Austin. If you're going to even refuse to let me touch* you, I'm leaving." I say, walking out of the bathroom. "Go to h*** Austin. Go burn in f****** h***." I say as I make my way out the door. "I'll be there sooner than you could imagine." He says and I slam the door. I hear something break as I knock on Trish and Dez's door.
"Hey Al..." He trails off and looks at my bags. "Make sure he's okay, don't let him do anything stupid." I say and he nods his head, understanding what I mean and he walks into our- Austin's- apartment.
I walk to Trish who is rocking Austin, their baby boy who is now the same age as Ariana. We call him Aust for no confusion. "Another fight?" She asks and I nodded. "This time it was so... Official... We're done." I say and she sighs and pulls me into a hug. "It'll probably work out, don't worry. Okay?" She says and I cry harder. "No Trish, it's over. For good, I took all of my stuff out and told him to burn in h-" I get cut off by a round of sobs. "Shh-shhhh..." She says rubbing circles on my back. "I told him t-to burn in f****** h-h***..." And I shake my head at myself. "All-" I cut her off. "His response was I'll be there sooner than you can imagine..." I said, bawling and she pulls me in for another hug. "Trish... I c-can't do t-this anymore..." I say and she rocks me back in forth. "Alls, what else could you do? You already left..." She says and I sigh, pulling away from her. "I'm moving." I say wiping my tears. "Ally..."
Austin's POV
"I'll be there sooner than you can imagine." I say and she slams the door in my face. I kick the end table and the lamp falls and breaks. I step on the broken pieces on my way to the terrace. I look down at the small area for people to be if they live in the building. No ones down there, that's easier for me. No one will see what's about to happen.
I swing my feet over the edge and sigh. I pray to myself and confess all of my sins. This was meant for me. This was what was supposed to happen. My fate was decided for me and this is it. I think about my life. My parents, who by the way, I never told my dad about Ally or Ariana. Ariana. My little girl, my little princess, Ari. I remember the first time she smiled, the first time she crawled, the first time she said 'dada.'
"Don't" I hear from behind me and I freeze. "Please Austin." He says and I look down at my hands. "Dez..." I say, my voice strained. "I-I don't know w-what I'm gonna do..." I say and he walks up to me, putting a hand on my shoulder. "You'll be okay..." He says and I shake my head. "No. Ally's gone. This time it was so official. It's over and she took Ariana. I have nothing left." I say, my voice cracking. "Austin, come to my apartment please. I just want to talk." He says and I sigh but nod, getting up to turn to him.
My breath hitches when I walk in and see Trish and Ally hugging. "Why'd you bring me here?" I whisper and he shakes his head. "You guys need to talk this out." I go to turn the other way but he grabs my shoulder and turns me around. Then I hear something that I never wanted to hear. "I'm moving." She says and I feel my heart drop.
"Ally..." Dez says and she turns around, throwing me a dirty look. "Look Ally, I'm not asking you to forgive me but I'm sorry. Okay? All the fights, all the names I've called you, anything that I ever did. Putting you through so much s*** that you shouldn't have gone through. You're too good for me and I knew that and that's why I was so protective over you. You deserve better than me and that's why as soon as this is over, you'll never see me again. Don't move away from Dez and Trish. I'll move, just let me pack up my stuff... You know what? I don't even need my stuff anymore. I just needed to tell you that I love you and I love Ariana. That will never change.
I just needed you to know that..." I trail off, heading toward the door. I gently close it behind me and I start making my way down the stairs.
I get outside and it's pouring rain. I shove my hands in my jean pockets and walk around. I look for something to stand under but give up when I see nothing. "Please, just let me die. I don't know what you don't understand. I've been asking you this for almost two years now. I don't want to be here anymore..." I say and I keep walking. I walk for about fifteen minutes before I call a cab. They'll be here in about five minutes. As I sit there waiting in the rain, I think about Ally and Ariana.
When the cab pulls up, I stand up and the drivers eyes widen. "You're Austin Moon!" The man says and I nod. "My daughter loves you and Ally! She loves Ariana too, she's beautiful." He says and I squeeze my eyes shut. "Can you take me to the airport?" I ask and he nods. The rest of the ride is silent as I watch out the window, my phone in my hand. When we get there, I hand him money and he asks for an autograph, which I give him. "Thank you." I tell him and he shakes his head. "No, thank you" He says and I nod.
I buy the ticket and head off to the gate. I'm hoping I don't miss it. I start walking a little quicker to make sure I make it there on time. As I approach the gate, I hear the loudspeaker. "Last call for flight 121 to Miami, Florida." I sigh and jog to the gate, handing the women my ticket and I look around one last time. "Goodbye New York." I say and turn around.