Hey guys! I'm trying to remake these chapters as quickly as possible! I don't own anything.
It's been three months since Austin got in the hospital. Three months, alone, waiting for Austin to wake up. I have no contact with anyone because I haven't charged mine or Austin's phone since he got in here. I haven't talked in about a month or so... I know it's not really like me but every time I go to speak, it's like I'm being choked or forced to stop speaking, so I stopped.
I hear the door burst open, opening to a disheveled Trish and Ally, breathing heavily. I glare at Ally, not looking at Trish and turn back to Austin's sleeping form. "We've been looking for you..." Trish whispers as Ally gasps, walking over to the bed. The doctors walks up next to Austin and checks his wires and cuts, sighing. "I think it might be best to put him down... The amount of pain he will be in will be unbearable if he wakes up..." He says and I shake my head as Ally gasps. "No..." I say, my voice super raspy. "He'll wake up, he's strong enough to deal with the pain." I say and the doctor shakes his head. "Okay..." He says, walking out of the room. "W-when...?" Ally trails off, stuttering. "Your anniversary." I say and her breath hitches. 'Camera', I mouth to Trish and she nods, grabbing her phone and recording it. I want Austin to see this when he wakes up. She loves him so much but he doesn't think so. "I-I'm s-sorry Austin..." She whispers, grabbing his hand and falling to the ground. "You d-don't deserve any of this..." She trails off, crying even harder than before. "I deserve to feel the pain you're in. I never deserved you and I put you through so much pain... I don't know why you would put yourself through so much... I deserve to die... I'm sorry Austin. I love you..." She whispers, one of her tears falling onto his hand. She stands up, wiping her tears and running out of the room, handing Ariana to me on the way out. Before she leaves, Trish slips the phone, still recording, into her purse.
Ally's POV
I deserve to f****** kill myself. I hate myself so much at the moment, it's unbearable. I go up to the lady at the front desk, tears still rushing down my cheeks. "Do you h-have a scissor or something that I can have?" I ask and she looks around, grabbing a pair and handing them to me. I nod a thank you before heading to the bathroom. I just want to know why Austin does it and if it's worth it. I guess I'm about to find out...
I look in the mirror, grabbing the scissor and making a disgusted face at myself before looking away. I look at my wrist before slowly bringing the scissor to it. I press it hard to my skin before dragging it across hard. I gasp as I feel the blood pours out. I sigh, letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding. "Wow..." I whisper to myself and look at the scissor again, bringing it to my wrist. I bring it across my wrist harder than before and gasp again, but this time because I feel kind of relived. "I guess I know why Austin cuts himself..." I trail off and clear my throat, dropping the bloody knife into my purse and rinsing my rust as someone walks in. I quickly rinse everything and pull my sweatshirt over my wrist, walking back to Austin's room.
When I walk into Austin's room, I see him sitting up, gasping for air even though the mask is on his face. "Austin, relax. Ally's fine." Dez is saying and Trish nods along with him. I pull my sleeve farther down my arm and Austin's looks up at me. "Ally..." He gasps, eyeing my up and down. I jog over to the bed and slowly take his hand. "Al-Ally..." He says again, still gasping for air as I put a finger to my lips. "Shhh... Shhhh... Calm down, okay?" I ask and he nods, his breaths becoming slower. He squeezes his eyes shut, groaning. "Alls, can I get my phone from your purse? I put it in there in the car." She tells me and I nod, not really paying attention to anyone but Austin.
"Can I talk to Austin alone for a minute?" Dez asks and I sigh, but nod anyway, walking away. "I wonder what they're talking about..." I say to Trish and she nods. "I wonder..." She says suspiciously.
Dez's POV
"You okay Austin?" I ask him and he nods. "Ally loves you Austin..." I say and he lets out a humorless chuckle. "Yeah, that's w-why I moved t-to Miami..." He gasps, making me sigh. I grab Trish's phone out of my pocket and hand it to him. "This was when they got here this morning..." I say and I hold the phone in front of his face because he's still too weak to do anything. He watches the video in silence. "S-she loves m-me..." He whispers and I nod. We both listen quietly when she leaves the room. "Why did s-she need a s-scissor?" He asks and I shake my head. "I don't know..." I say as the video continues. "Wow..." Ally says in the video and I watch Austin, his eyebrows scrunching in confusion. A few seconds later she gasps, then speaks again. "I guess I know why Austin cuts himself..." I feel my eyes widen and I look at Austin, frozen in shock. "A-Ally!" He screams as loud as he could, which wasn't really loud. "Al-Al..." He trails off, coughing. He takes a deep breath, trying to call her again with no use. He glares at the door before ripping off all of the wires and his mask and walking to the door. "Alls..." He whispers falling to the ground. "Austin!" I yell, all the doctors running in, lifting him from the ground. Ally and Trish come running into the room also. "What happened?!" Ally yells, starting to cry. "He went to get you... Alls... What's going on?" I ask her and she looks at me in confusion, then back at Austin. "What?" She asks and I roll my eyes. "Are you cutting yourself?" I ask her and her eyes widen. "What? Why w-would you...?" She trails off and I hand her the phone. She listens and I watch her eyes widen again. "Dez... I know it's-it's... I'm fine..." She says and I pull her in for a hug. "Ally please, don't do this anymore. You see Austin... We all love Austin but... He's not healthy. No one can act normal around him anymore. Don't do this to yourself." I tell her and she lets out a sob. "I deserve it Dez!" She yells, getting everyone's attention, including Austin because they already have him in his bed. "I deserve to do this to myself! Do you see what I've done to him?! You! You told me that I was a horrible person and you are one hundred percent correct!" She screams and Austin groans. "A-Al..." He says and she walks up to him, grabbing his hand. "Don't... Don't cut yo-yourself..." He whispers, closing his eyes. "Austin..." Ally says and he shakes his head. "P-please. I c-can't... I can't..." He trails off, coughing violently and a tear slips from my eye as Ally nods. "Okay, okay Austin. Just please. Please stay with me. Don't go..." She says, her and Trish full on sobbing. "I'm-I'm trying... I p-promise I'm g-gonna try to st-stay for you and Ar-Ari." He says and I look at Ally. "C-can I see h-her?" He asks and I walk over to pick Ari up.
"Daddy!" She yells, jumping from my arms and running to him. "A-Ari?" He says as a question and we all stare at her in shock. "She just took her first steps..." Ally says, looking down at Austin. He gives a sad smile to Ari. "Good j-job Ar." He says and starts to cough. "Where you been Daddy?" She asks and Austin sighs. "How-how long have I...?" He asks and I tell him three months. "I've b-been sick Ar. I pr-promise I'm go-gonna come h-home soon..." He stutters and Ally kneels down, looking at Austin. "I recorded her first words... It was about a month ago..." Ally trails off and Austin nods. "Can I t-talk to Al-Ally alone?" Austin asks and we nod, heading out the door.
Austin's POV
D***. I feel like c***. "P-please Ally. Y-you can't c-cut yourself." I tell her, stuttering and she shakes her head. "I'm fine Austin..." She says and squeezes my hand. "Please Al-Ally. I need t-to know t-that you're o-okay before..." I trail off, not knowing what to say. What if I do die? I mean... We don't know... "Before what Austin? You're not going to die. You're not. I know it because you love me an Ariana too much. I love you too much for you to die. If you die, I'm going with you Austin. Don't die on me... Please..." She says, full on sobbing and I nod. "I'll t-try..." I say and she nods. There's a knock on the door, who Ally lets in. "How are you feeling Mr. Moon?" The doctor asks and I shrug. "It's h-hard for me t-to breath..." I stutter and he nods. "I know, that should heal in about a week. Even though it heals, you'll be in here for at least another two months." He says and Ally squeezes my hand as I nod. "So he'll be okay?" She asks hopefully and he smiles. "He'll be perfectly fine." The doctor says and he walks out the door. "You're gonna be okay..." She says and I nod. "Promise tha-that you won't c-cut your-yourself anymore..." I say and she sighs. "I'll stop when you stop..." She says and I groan but nod anyway. Anything to keep Ally safe.