Hey guys, this chapter took me forever even though it's really short. Sorry about that. Hope you're not too mad. Total filler. Don't own anything! Enjoy!
I groan, opening my eyes to a bright room. I'm in the hospital. "Holy c*** it never ends..." I whisper, squeezing my eyes shut. "Austin..." Someone else whispers and I snap my head toward them. "Ally?" I ask and I look around again. Wait. "Am I dead?" I ask and she grabs my hand. "No." She tells me and I sigh, pulling my hand away. "Then why are you here?" I ask her and she sighs. "I guess forgetting about each other isn't an option." She says with a humorless laugh but I stare at her. After a minute, she begins to cry. Hard. "Ally..." I whisper but she turns away from me. "Ally." I say a little louder and I grab her hand. "You did drugs." She states and I nod slowly. "I did..." She swallows hard. "You did all of those?" She asks in a tiny voice. I could barley hear her. "Yes." She lets out a sob. "I'm sorry." She tells me and I nod. "I know..." I say and she bends down to kiss my lips, then pulling me back quickly.
"What did it feel like?" She asks and I'm slightly taken back. "What?" She sighs. "What did the drugs do to you?" She asks and I shrug. "It made me feel... Not as sad , I guess. It made it harder to think straight. Harder to think about you..." I say and she nods. "Was it worth it?" She asks and I shrug. "I guess it did what I wanted. So yeah, it was..." I tell her and she bites her lip. "Did you get drunk?" She asks and I look away, ashamed of myself. "Quite a few times actually... I think I scratched the car..." I say and she gnaws on her lip harder.
"What if I told you, I did drugs?" She asks and I sit up quickly, groaning in pain and being pushed down by a nurse. "Ally, are you crazy? You can't d-do that to yourself!" I scream and she shrugs her shoulder. "You did it!" She says and I run my fingers through my hair. "That's different." I tell her sternly but she raises her eyebrows. "How?" I growl. "Because I wanted to kill myself!" I scream and she sighs. "I'm not killing myself, just relieving myself of pain." She says and I laugh an angry laugh. "What are you doing then?" I ask and she shrugs. "Well, I drink beer, patron and vodka, like you were plus bloody Mary's. I don't know what's in them... Then I started smoking..." She says and my eyes widen. "Are you crazy?!" I ask and she shakes her head. "I chew tobacco and smoke it. And um..." She says and I groan. "Alls." I say and she shakes her head. "I do weed, marajuana and meth..."
"Are you crazy Ally?! Are you trying* to kill yourself?!" I scream and shrugs. "It d-doesn't seem completely out of the question anymore..." She trails off and I yank my hair. "Ally. Your life is too precious to give up." I tell her and she laughs, grabbing something from her purse. She pulls out a cigarette or something of that sort and lights it. I stare at her in shock. "Want one?" I rip the wires from my arm and stand up. "You can't f****** do this to yourself Ally!" Doctors rush in, pushing me to sit. "Ariana needs you! Ariana needs someone." I say and as soon as I say Ari's name, she starts to cry.
"What's wrong?" I ask but she cries harder. The doctors and grabbing my arms, pulling me to the bed. "Get the f*** off of me! What happened to Ari? How long ehave I been out?!" I scream and everyone in the room freezes. "You've only been out for a week but Ariana was in a car accident..." Someone says and I freeze. "What?" I whisper to myself. "Is she okay? What happened?" I ask as I clench my hands into fists. "She's hurt*, but she's alive. She's supposed to wake up within the next week." Someone says and I look down at Ally. "A drunk driver hit us... We were on our way here to see you..." Ally speaks up. "It hit her side. I-I tried to cover her but... I couldn't get to the back soon enough." I bend down to pull her in for a hug. "She's still asleep. She hasn't woken up yet." She says and I feel tears slip from my eyes. "Ally..." I say and she hugs me back. "She's strong... She'll be okay." She keeps crying. "I'm sorry that I did this to you..." I tell her and she squeezes me tighter. "I'm sorry too... I-I had no one left. You and Ari both were away from me..." I nod, rocking her quietly. "Let's go see Ari..." I tell her and she nods.
We walk, well I limp, my leg is worse now than when I first got shot, hand in hand to Ari's room. When we get there, she's awake. "Ari!" Ally says and jogs to her, kissing her head. "W-who are you?" She asks and Ally steps back. "Me? I'm your mom..." She says and Ari scrunches her eyebrows in confusion. "I'm sorry... I don't know... You..." She says and Ally looks back at me. "Daddy! I thought you said you were leaving!" Ari screeches and I bend down to be eye level with her. "You remember me?" I ask and she says yes. "But you don't remember mommy?" I ask and she replies a no. Ally had no walked away, crying, looking for a doctor.
"What do you remember?" She thinks for a minute. "I remember you, I remember my boyfriend, Aust," my eyes bulge out of my head. "B-boyfriend?" I ask and she nods. I swallow the lump in my throat and let her continue. "That's all I remember..." She says and I grab her hand. "Well I want to tell you a little about your mommy..." I say and she nods, then whimpers. She has a brace around her neck, stitches in her forehead and a cast on her arm. "Shhh... Don't move..." I tell her and she sighs. "Well, your mommy is a beautiful girl. She's very smart, just like you and she helps you with everything. Both, me and mommy, protect you with everything we have. We love you very much and even though you don't remember her, I want you to treat her like you treat me... Don't be afraid to ask her for help, okay baby?" I ask and she she replies. "Okay daddy... I hope I remember soon..." She says and I sigh. "Me too..."
"So you're my mommy?" She asks Ally when she walks back inside. "Yes sweety..." She says and I sigh, smelling the smoke on Ally. "Can I see your purse?" I ask her, giving her a knowing glance and she glares at me. "No." She tells me and groan. "Ally please..." She sighs and hands me the purse. "But don't you dare take anything out." She says and I let out a humorless laugh. "That's why I want it..." I say and she gasps. "All of that cost me about three hundred dollars Austin, you better* not." She tells me and I grab all of it from her purse. "Jesus Ally..." I mumble, grabbing it and chucking it in the garbage. She gasps. "Austin! Give that back!" I shake my head. "No. That's final. Go sit down." I tell her and she screams loudly. "Ugh Austin! I hate you!" She turns on her heel and walks out.
I sigh and sit down on the chair besides Ari's bed. "What was that daddy?" She asks and I put my had through my hair. "Nothing sweetheart..." She closes her eyes. "Everything hurts..." She whines and I nod, grabbing her hand. "I know baby but you're being very strong about this. I'm proud of you Ar." I say and she gives me a half smile. "Thanks daddy..." She says to me and drifts off to sleep.
"Where are you Ally?" I ask myself as I walk around the hospital. Ouch. My leg hurts. Like really badly. I'm supposed to be in bed now but I don't care. I need to find Ally. I've been walking around for a half an hour so I walk up to the women at the desk. "Have you seen Ally M-" I clear my throat. "Ally Dawson?" I ask and she nods. "She left a while ago sir, sorry." She says and I groan. I'm stuck here, without Ally, Dez, Trish. I have no phone and this just stinks.
I sigh and walk back up to Ari's room, she's still sleeping. It's my fault she's in here. If they hadn't have to come to the stupid hospital, they'd both be fine. If I didn't start doing drugs, Ally wouldn't have either. If I weren't here, everything would be better. I hear the door crack open to reveal Ally's small, fragile body. "I need to talk to someone Austin. My songbook isn't letting me reveal my feelings the way I want to. I don't want you to say anything or do anything. Just sit there and listen to me. Please." She begs me and I nod.
"I feel like... A horrible mother. The things I've done. The things I've tried to help her with but failed. How I couldn't protect her the way I should be able to. The way a mother should protect their child..." A tear slips down her face. "I'm the worst fiancé in the world..." I go to cut her off but she puts her hand up, shaking her head. "I've forced you into depression. To go on tour. To cut yourself. To attempt suicide. Three. Times. Three f****** times Austin..." She sniffs in and I wipe her tears. "I'm a horrible person that needs to control her emotions and needs to stop being so selfish. I don't deserve you. I hate my life Austin. That's why I did the drugs. The alcohol. I realized that... I feel like there's nothing left for me to live for... Without you..." She says and I squeeze her as tight as I can without hurting myself or her.
"I love you Ally. You are not a horrible person. I want you to know that, okay? You're a great mother and you did what you could. You're a great fiancé. If you weren't, why would I love you so much. And I don't deserve you. Not the other way around. You, Ally, are amazing. I love you. Let's start over okay?" I ask and she grins a little. "I'm Austin Moon, how are you?" I ask her and she laughs, playfully shoving my shoulder. "Not that far back..." She says and I smile. I bend down and brush my lips against hers and she puts her arms around, pulling on my neck to bring me closer.
"I love you."
"I love you too..."