Hey guys! I am so horrible! I'm so sorry! I hope this was worth it though. I couldn't think of anything to write. Anyway, sorry, enjoy. I don't own anything!
"Austin, you have to trust me!" Ally yells at me and I let out a frustrated sigh. "I trust you Ally, I just don't want you to get hurt..." I tell her and spins on her heel. Ari still doesn't remember Ally but it's only been two days and she's been good about it. The doctor she should remember in a few days. "You're constantly treating me like a five year old!" I glance in the direction of Ari's room. "No offense Ally but..." She screeches. "What?!" I sigh. "I can't be putting all of your f****** pieces together anymore d*** it!" Time seems to freeze as neither of us dare to even move before I step forward. That was the meanest thing I've ever said to her. Especially when it's not true. It's the exact opposite. "Ally.. I'm-" she cuts me off and she glares at me. "Austin, I want you out of here." She says and I groan. "Ally, I'm sor-" she shakes her head, pointing to the door. "Ally... Please." She shakes her head again. "Go to Dez and Trish's. Don't do anything stupid. You know what? Do what you want! I don't care anymore Austin! I can't be worrying about your every step either!" She screeches and I bite my lip, putting my shoes on. "I honestly hate you Austin. This is over. I'm not kidding this time. I can't do this anymore." She says and I nod. "I didn't mean it like that... I do love you..." I say and I walk out the door to Dez and Trish's.
"Hey man!" Dez says happily and I sigh. "Ally and I got into another fight and she said she didn't care what happened to me but... I guess if I'm here I won't be trying to kill myself of something..." I tell him and he nods. "I was really a d***... And an a******. And any other word you can think of." I say and I sit cross legged on their floor. "I'm really sorry that I'm intruding... I just... I wanna know what happens with Ari before I..." He groans, glaring at me. "You're staying with us until you and Ally get back together." He says and I let out a humorless chuckle. "She literally told me that she hated me. We're over." I say and he rolls his eyes. "Did you eat dinner?" Trish asks me from their small kitchen. "No but I'm not really hungry... Thanks anyway..." I say and she sighs. "Okay, well I'm gonna go check on Ally... I'll be right back."
"People who love each other shouldn't fight like Ally and I do. Maybe... Maybe she never loved me... I guess..." I sigh at the same time Dez does. "She loves you Austin. You love her. You'll get over it..." He tells me and I nod. "You look exhausted." He's right. I haven't slept more than five hours since Ari got out of the hospital. "I know. It's been... Hard..." I struggle for the right word. Hard doesn't describe the half of it. "I know man, it'll get better. You guys fight so much because you love each other so much." I shrug. Impossible.
Trish's POV
I walk into Ally and Austin's apartment to find Ally cleaning out her and Austin's room. "Ally?" I call out and she looks at me with big, red, puffy eyes. "What are you doing?" She continues to fold the close. Well, stuff them in a luggage. "Getting Austin's stuff out of here. I can't live like this anymore Trish..." She sobs out and I pry the clothes from her hands and pull her in for a hug. "Did you see him?" She asks me and I nod. "He's staying with us until Ari is better and then he said... Well, implied that he was gonna..." She chokes out another sob. She continues to stuff his bags and zips the last bag up angrily ten minutes later. She pulls a bunch of things from the bathroom and places it in the bag. Then she grabs her ring and she goes into the kitchen. "Ally... You're gonna regret this. Don't you dare..." I say and she shrugs. She dumps the ring into the sink and we both watch it go down the drain. I let out a gasp. "We're over. I'm not doing this anymore." She says and shrugs, like 'who cares?' "When the Ally I know and love is back, call me because this cold hearted b**** isn't her." I tell her and I walk out.
Austin's POV (the next morning)
I push the eggs around on my plate and sigh. I didn't sleep at all last night especially after Trish told me Ally threw her ring down the drain. There's a drain stopper, so it's not gone completely but it doesn't matter, just the fact that she did it... She doesn't want it and neither do I. "Austin, you need to eat." Dez tells me and I stare down at the bacon. "I'm really not hungry..." I tell the, and they both sigh in frustration. "But thanks... I appreciate it..." They nod. I quickly excuse myself and walk into the hallway with my phone.
"Hello?" My moms voice says through the speakers. "Hey mom." I say and I hear her let out a cry. "Oh my gosh! Austin! Are you okay? You haven't spoken to me since before..." She trails off awkwardly and I sigh. "I'm fine..." I lie and I sigh. "You sound upset..." Of course she noticed. She's my mom. "Ally and I got into this huge fight and well..." I stop when I realize that I don't really have a reason for calling her. "Aw, honey... I'm sorry... You'll get over it soon, you guys love each other." I laugh a little at my mom. "No mom. It's over." Silence overcomes us as we stay on the phone. "I'm sorry... Do you wanna talk about it?" She asks me and I groan. "Not really." She sighs and I frown because she sounds very sad. "You know that... I moved... Right?" She asks me and my eyes widen. "What?! Why?! When?!" I screech and she starts to speak. "Honey, your father and I..." I gasp. "No! No no no. You and dad were fine. You love each other." I say and I hear her cry. "He was having an affair..." That b******. I'm going to f****** kill him. Literally. "Where are you? Do you even have a job?" I ask her and she sighs. "I'm all the way in Washington Austin. I have some money left but... I'm still looking for a job with better pay. Honey, don't worry about me, okay? You've got enough going on at home." I shake my head. "You're my mom. I'm not gonna let you sit out there without money or a home. What's the address? I'm coming." I tell her and she argues a little while longer before giving me the address of her apartment.
I walk back into Dez and Trish's apartment and I sigh. "I've gotta go guys... I love you, I really do..." I walk up to them both and hug them. "Austin, where are you going? You can't go k-" she cuts herself off and I shake my head. "My mom and dad split up. She has no money. I need to go help her." They both gasp and I sigh. "Maybe I'll see you guys again someday. Tell Jimmy what happened. I'll miss you guys..." Trish starts crying and I can see Dez having one of his small panic attacks. "Dez, I'll call you. I promise but I can't let my mom sit out there poor." I tell them and they both hug me. "I'll call you when I get there..." I tell them and I tell Aust goodbye too. He cried a little but he was fine. When I walk outside with my luggage, I walk into Ally. "Sorry..." I mumble and I start to walk away. "Don't do anything stupid. Please." She says and I shrug. "I thought you didn't care." I say and I walk away before she finishes what she was saying.
It takes me around five hours, maybe six, to get there by plane and it takes me about an hour to get to her apartment. I run to her room, on the fourth floor and knock. "Come in!" Her voice calls and I open the door, letting myself in. "Austin!" She yells and runs to me, tackling me in a bear hug. She's gotten much skinnier and she looks exhausted. "Mom..." I breathe in her smell for the first time in what seems like forever. "I missed you..." I smile. "I missed you too..." She won't let go of me and I sigh. "When's the last time you ate a decent meal? Of actually slept?" I ask and she looks at me in shock. "I'm you're son, I can tell." She laughs a little and I give her a small smile. "Lets go out to eat..." I say and she sighs. "Austin, please don't waste money on little things." She tells me and I shrug. "I'm gonna get a job tomorrow, don't worry about it, okay? I still have some money left from performing. It's been awhile so it's not a lot anymore but I do have some." She nods, knowing she won't win the argument. We go out to eat at a diner. It's just like the melody diner where people sing to you. They need entertainment. Maybe I could... "Austin honey, you need to eat." I look into my moms sad blue eyes. "I'm not hungry mom. I'll be fine." I push the plate away from me and excuse myself from the table.
"Excuse me, I see that you need entertainment... May I apply?" I ask the woman and the desk and she nods. "All you have to do is sing for the mana- oh my gosh, you're Austin Moon!" She screeches and I nod. "May I apply?" I ask and she screeches again, going into the back. Another woman comes from the back, smiling. "You've got the job kid, your shift is from..." She looks down at the paper in her hand. "8 pm to 4 am." She tells me and I nod. "Start tonight. It's twenty bucks an hour..." I smile and thank her, walking back to my mom. "I got a job..." She smiles. "That's great honey!" I see a little more happiness in her eyes than when I first got here. "It's the night shift though, so I'm gonna apply for a day job too." She groans. "Austin. You don't have to do that." I give her a reassuring smile. "I want to." She sighs, pushing my plate back toward me. "Austin, eat." I shake my head. "Honestly, I'm not hungry. I'll be fine." She nods as I place the money on the table.
We walk around for a little while and a few places need workers. I applied to be a cashier at rite aid, to push carts around at the supermarket and I applied to stack at the deli. They all had different times so I got all three and my mom won't have to worry about getting another job. The cashier pays ten bucks an our but the shift is from 6 am to 9 am, so it's not that much. They're right next to each other. The supermarket would pay me nine bucks an hour, minimum wage, for two hours, 9 to noon. The deli is from 1 to 7:30 so I'd be working all day, literally, but that can't be that bad. I'll be fine. That pays twenty five bucks an hour. Amazing. My mom keeps complaining but I'm fine. I'm twenty five now. When we get back to the apartment she sighs, telling me to sit on the couch with her. "Mom..." I whisper and she shakes her head. "You don't have to do this. I'm your mother and you're my son. You shouldn't have to take care of me. It's the other way." She tells me and I grab her hand. "Exactly. You're my mom. I can't let you live here alone and poor. Trust me mom." She lets out a small whimper. "I want to see you happy. It's been awhile." I nod. "I know. I'm fine though, really..." I say with the most convincing smile I could give at the moment.
"Tell me what happened with Ally." She says and I swallow the lump in my throat. "Well... There's not much to explain. Except the fact that I was a complete d***." She gasps and I shrug. "I raised you better than that! And watch your language mister!" She says and I laugh. "Great to have you back mom." She grins. "You too..." Her grin widens to a full smile nod she hugs me, then pulls back. "What are these marks all over your face honey?" She runs her thumb over the mark on my forehead. After a minute, I sigh. "Something I'll tell you eventually... Just not right now..." I whisper and she nods, understanding that I really don't want to talk about it. She pulls me in for a hug and I groan in frustration when my phone interrupts our first hug in what feels like forever.
"It's Dez." She smiles and tells me that she said hi. "Hey man, you okay? How about your mom?" He asks me and I shrug. "I'm fine. She's fine. We're... Fine." I say and he laughs. "She says hi." I say and I could practically see him smile. "Hi Mimi!" She laughs. "Take care of Austin, will ya? I'm worried about him..." He says and I sigh. "I'll be fine Dez." I say and he sighs too. "I can tell. You don't sound like the last few times you..." He trails off awkwardly and I frown, taking him off speaker. 'One minute' I mouth to my mom and she nods. "How's Ally?" I ask and he lets out a frustrated sigh. "Do you really wanna know?" I groan. "Is it that bad? Does she already have a boyfriend?" I ask jokingly and I realize he's not breathing anymore. "She does, doesn't she?" I ask sadly. "She's going on a date with Elliot tomorrow..." I can feel my face turn a furious shade of red and I take a deep breath. "Good, she deserves to be happy." I swallow hard and look back at my moms look of confusion. He groans like I did before. "So do you!" He all but screams and I shrug. "You need to come back..." He whispers and I run my fingers through my hair.
"I can't. My mom needs me." I talk quieter and walk outside the door. "I've already got jobs here. She needs my help. I probably won't talk to you a lot because of work." I say and he begins to speak, confusion in his voice. "How much are you gonna be working that you can't talk to me?" He asks, with hurt in his voice as well. "It's not you Dez. I've got full time jobs now. I work as entertainment from eight at night to four in the morning, I'm a cashier from six in the morning to nine in the morning, I push carts around from nine to eleven in the morning and then I have to stack at the deli from noon to seven thirty. At eight, my entertainment shift starts again." I explain to him and he groans. "Are you crazy Austin? That's only..." He pauses as he does his calculations. "Three and a half hours of break in a twenty four hour day! You'll be dead on your feet!" He yells and I roll my eyes. "I need all the money I can get especially since I haven't performed in so long. Now I quit Starr records, have to have money to feed me and my mom both and pay for child support for Ari. I don't really have a choice man." I tell him and he sighs. "Look, if you came back with your mom-" I cut him off with a groan. "No Dez. I'm staying here. I'll talk to you tomorrow. Tell Ally I said... Good luck on her date." I hang up without another word.
I walk back inside, probably looking like I was kicked a few times. It feels like it. "Austin, what happened?" She asks immediately and I feel my heart shatter again and again. "Ally has date tomorrow." I tell her and she sighs, walking up to me to hug me. "Don't worry baby... You'll find another girl eventually..." I sigh and pull away from her. "I don't want another girl." I say and she looks up into my eyes. "I know honey, first heartbreaks hurt b-" I cut her off. "No mom. It's not just heartbreak, don't you get that? I've lost everything! Ally and I were together for eleven years. I've never liked anyone else. I've never loved anyone else. I've never kissed anyone else. I've never had anyone else... Everything I've ever done was with her. I don't want anyone else. I want her!" I yell at her and she turns on her heel and walks out. I push everyone away. I sigh, running a hand through my hair before I get ready for work. I look at my mom on the small balcony and sigh, grabbing her jacket and laying it on top of her shoulders. I order dinner for her. I leave her a small note before heading out.
Going to work. Heres money for dinner. I already ordered it. Shift ends at four in the morning. Don't wait up. ~Austin
I head out to the diner and jog inside, not wanting to be late. "Ah, Austin. You're here. Grab the mic and well, do your magic." A woman tells me, showing me a piano. "You don't have to sing the whole time. I know that your shift is long. We record all of your performances and we give you a recording of it every night." I nod and walk up to the piano. I take a deep breath and look at the keys. The last time I played piano without Ally? I have no idea. I mentally scold myself. Don't think about her. She doesn't need you like you need her. She has a date tomorrow. With Elliot. Not you. I sigh and bring my fingers to the keys, beginning a soft melody. Lyrics flow to me on the spot, writing as I go.
Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down
'Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name
Every time I hear her name... I break a little more inside. Like I shouldn't be here. But I need to be. My mom needs me.
It all just sounds like oooooh…
Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should've bought you flowers
And held your hand
Should've gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
Take you to every party
'Cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby's dancing
But she's dancing with another man
I think of Ally and Elliot on a date and the thought makes me immediately scowl but I sigh.
My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, ohh…
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes
I close my eyes again, hearing her words echo through me. 'I honestly hate you Austin. This is over. I'm not kidding this time. I can't do this anymore.'
It all just sounds like oooooh…
Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should've bought you flowers
And held your hand
Should've gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
Take you to every party
'Cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby's dancing
But she's dancing with another man
Although it hurts
I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know
I knew I was wrong as soon as the words left my lips.
I hope he buys you flowers
I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours
When he has the chance
Take you to every party
'Cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man
Do all the things I should have done
When I was your man
(When I was Your man: Bruno Mars)
I hold out the last note on the piano and bite my lip, opening my eyes at the sound of applause. I forgot I was here, performing for people. I sigh and glare down at the keys, constantly reminding me of Ally. I perform for the next few hours, a few just small little tinkering with keys, others full blown emotion I put into them. I didn't sing any of my songs because they were all written by her. I scowl as soon as she pops into my mind and walk out of the restaurant with the recording of my songs after my shift. I walk into my moms apartment and see her lying on the pull out couch with a note on the table. 'Sleep in my room. You'll need the nice bed. You don't get a long enough break. ~Mom' I sigh. So we're gonna communicate through letters from now on? We didn't even do that when we didn't live together. I walk over to my mom and lift her up easily and bring her into her room, setting her on the bed. I set my alarm for five fifteen because rite aid is ten minutes away and I need to shower and make breakfast. I fall asleep almost immediately with that stupid frown that seems permanent.
I wake up exhausted and get ready with my eyes practically closed and I quickly make breakfast. Only eggs. They take five minutes. I write another note before leaving. I made enough for the two of us but I'm not really hungry.
Going to work. I made breakfast, just heat it up quickly. ~Austin
Rite aid wasn't packed but you can guess why. It was six in the morning! Geez. I walk across the parking lot to the supermarket and punch in with my new card. I then go around and collect all the carts that people left sprawled out everywhere. How hard is it to put carts away people?! I mean, really?! I don't feel like doing this. I'm exhausted and it's just my first day. I sigh out loud and grumble to myself. I finish at eleven and groan. It's fifteen minutes to get home and then I have to go back out another twenty minutes. I drive back to the apartment and see another note. Great. I'll never see my mom if this is my life now.
'I went to go shopping. I don't know if I'll be back before your break. Thanks for breakfast. Don't work yourself too hard sweetheart. ~Mom' I roll my eyes and grab a piece of bread, but then sigh, my appetite still gone. I haven't eaten anything since yesterday Ally and I's fight. I check the time and realize that I don't have to go yet but I'll leave now so maybe I can end early. I run out the door, jogging down the stairs when I see my mom struggling with the groceries. I pry them from her hands and she gives me a grateful smile. I walk up the stairs and open the door, setting them on the counter. "Thank you." She says and I smile at her. "You look tired..." She starts off as we unpack the groceries. "A little but I'm fine." I say and she sighs. "When's the last time you ate anything?" She asks and I raise my eyebrows. "Why...?" I ask her and she frowns. "Yesterday morning but don't worry. I'm fine." I tell her and she sighs. "Do you want me to make you anything now?" I put the last thing in the cabinet and sigh, checking the time. "Nah, I'm not hungry and I've gotta go anyway. See you later." I say, kissing her cheek and jogging out the door. Before I know it, I get my break and I speed back to my moms apartment.
We go through days of living like this. It's been thirty six days since Ally and I fought. But... Who's counting? It's getting harder and harder everyday to keep up the act of being somewhat happy for my mom. I'm always exhausted and I haven't eaten more than a thing here and a thing there. It's currently my half hour break from seven thirty to eight. "Austin. You need to eat!" She exclaims for what feels like the hundredth time. "Mom... I'm just not... I just..." I trail off and push the plate toward her again and she sighs, getting up and grabbing her phone. She dials a number and puts it to her ear. "Hello?" She asks and I hear a girls voice answer. "Hi, it's Mimi... I really need to talk to you about Austin." She says walking away and I sigh. I wonder who it is...
"Honey, it's Ally. She needs to speak to you about Ariana." My eyes widen at her name. I grab the phone from my mom and smile a thanks to her. "Is she okay?" I ask immediately and she sighs. "She remembers me now." I take a deep breath. "That's good." We sit in awkward silence for a minute before she speaks again. "We need to talk about who gets custody..." I sigh. "You do, of course..." I tell her and she hums in confusion. "You don't want any custody?" She asks and I sigh. "Ally, I'm across the country and Ari makes you happy... Whatever makes you happy is what makes me happy..." She groans in frustration. "Look Ally, I've gotta get to work..." I trail off as I check the time. "Your mom said you just got back from work. I've been trying to call you all day." She tells me and I sigh. "I have three jobs Ally. It's hard for me to find free time. I work from eight pm to four am, six am to nine am, nine am to eleven and then noon to seven thirty. My next shift starts at eight. Sorry, I really gotta go. I'll talk to you this time tomorrow?" I ask and she groans. "No Austin, I need to talk to you now." She says and I groan. "Call my phone." I hang up and go to my mom. "I'll talk to you later, okay? Sleep in your room. I'll be fine." She sighs. "You didn't eat dinner." She states and I nod. "I know, I'm not hungry." I tell her, handing her money she might need for anything. "Love you." I say and run out the door, dialing Ally's number.
"Austin?" She asks and I nod. "Yeah, what do we need to talk about?" I ask her and she sighs. "You should come home. Look, Ari misses you a lot." She tells me and I groan. "I can't. My mom is living out here, poor and alone because my a****** of a dad had an affair." I tell her and she sighs. "I'm sorry..." I nod, even though she can't see me. "Maybe I should come there... Ariana needs you." She says and I run a hand through my hair in frustration. "Look Ally, even if you did* come here, you heard my shifts. She'd never see me anyway. There's no point Ally. Of course I love her and of course I miss her but... I have three and a half hours of break out of twenty four hours and two of those are from four to six in the morning." I say and she groans again. "Why do you have three jobs that gives you no time to yourself?" She asks and I sigh. "I barley have any money left from performing, it was such a long time ago. I had to quit Starr records and I have to pay for me and my mom. Then I have to pay for child support too. My mom has a job but I can tell she hates it when she spoke about it once. I'm just trying to help her out..." I say and she sighs again. "Ally, I've really gotta get to work." I say and hang up after she says goodbye.
"Finally Austin! People are here to see you! Go go!" She yells, handing me the mic. I played for hours and they make me stay an hour later because people just kept coming in. I mean, who comes to a diner at five in the morning?! I finally go home and on my way, Ally's calling me. "Hello?" I ask into the phone and she sighs. "Look Ally, I love you, okay? I'm sorry for what I did and I get that you don't love me anymore. I get that you're not going to forgive me and I get that you went on a date with Elliot but please, for the love of god. Please stop trying to talk to me. It makes my life that much harder because then I have a reason to think of you when I have to be working to get money for my mom. I get that we're over but I'm not just gonna get over you. I'm sorry. For everything." I say all in one breath. "Elliot's my boyfriend now..." My air gets cut off and then I breathe in deeply. "Good for you Ally. I'm glad you're happy." I try to convince her. I guess I'm not really lying. I'm glad she's happy but... I wish it was with me. "Austin..." She whispers and I feel my heart tear into two. "H-how does this effect me?" I ask and she sniffles. "Austin..." I sigh and stare out the window.
"What did we need to talk about Ally?" I ask and she takes a deep breath, trying to calm herself down. "Austin... I'm pregnant." She whispers mad I freeze. She's pregnant? She's pregnant... She's... Pregnant. I hear her calling my name but I'm too hurt to move. After a few minutes I finally lean my head back. "Um... Well... Congratulations I guess..." I tell her and she stops talking. "Congratulations?!" She screeches and I tilt my head in confusion, finally pulling up to the apartment and I jog inside. "Yeah..." My voice cracks as I speak. "Congrats..." I whisper, trying not to wake my mom up. "Congrats... How about... Maybe... I'll come help you raise the child?!" She screams and I turn a furious shade of red. "Why the h*** would I come to raise Elliot's f****** child?! I've got enough problems on my hands Ally!" I scream at her until I'm blue in the face and my mom runs out of her room startled. "Austin pl-" I cut her off. "No Ally. No! Okay?! You* decided this! You! I'm still f****** wondering if I'll ever be able to kill myself without worrying about my mom while you're getting knocked up by a guy you've been dating for a month. It's great to know it took you eight years to finally do it with me but a month to put out for him. You really* loved me." I say harshly, sarcastically and she screams at me again."You haven't even listened to a word I said yet! Just let. Me. Finish!" I shake my head. "I've heard enough to know that you're a f****** slut and that I f****** hate you too b****." I say and I hang up on her. I collapse into the kitchen chair behind me and smash my phone into the countertop. The screen cracks and now you can't even see the screen anymore but I don't care. Ally calls my phone again but I sigh, declining it.
I stomp to the open window, ignoring my mom and look down. We're only on the fourth floor. It won't be enough to kill me. Maybe to cause some pain. It's about one hundred foot drop onto grass. I look back at my mom and see her staring at me, tears flowing down her face and I look back outside. I saw her lips moving frantically, panics written all over her face and I walk over to her, pulling her in for one last hug. "Austin. Please. Please. Don't. Please. I love you..." She whispers and I kiss the top of her head. "I love you mom..." I walk to the window but my mom follows me. "Austin stop! I can't live with myself if anything happens to you right now!" She continues to scream and I give her a sad smile. "I'll call the police Austin! Stop it!" She tugs on my arm and I turn away. I sit on the ledge of the window and kiss my moms cheek before staring down, no longer hearing her screams. I lean forward a little bit and free fall to the ground. I hit the ground with so much force and I groan in agony. I'm still alive. Great. S***! This is worse than being dead. "C***..." I whisper to myself, huddling into a ball and I hear sirens. A bunch of people come toward me and I hear my moms high pitched voice. That's the last thing I remember before I black out, for what I'm hoping is the last time...
Ally's POV
"H-he told me that I w-was a f******* slut a-and that he hated m-me... And then he called me a b-b****..." I'm currently sobbing my eyes out, telling Trish the story. He's such an a** sometimes! I can't stand it! It's his f****** child! I haven't even kissed Elliot! I dial his number for a fifteenth time since he lashed out on me and finally, someone picks up. "Ally?!" Mimi's voice screams through the speakers and I flinch. "I-I don't know w-what happened between you but I kn-know that he loves you and he j-just..." She stops short and I try to calm her down. "He jumped... Out of the window and w-we are on the fourth f-floor of the apartment b-building." I stop breathing and I hear her sobs from the other side. "Mimi, calm down. I'm coming okay? Relax..." She sobs out an 'okay' and I hang up. I grab my stuff and stare at Trish's curious face. "Get Dez okay? Tell him it's an emergency... Go pack. Go. Go!" I scream and she nods even though she doesn't know what happened. "Ari! We're going to see daddy!" I yell and she comes out, screeching. "Yay! Daddy!" She laughs and I wipe my tears. "Stay here and wait for Auntie Tish okay?" She nods and I go to pack stuff for the both of us.
"What happened?" Dez asks once we. Gt into the can and I look out the window, Ari sleeping in my lap. "He jumped from the fourth floor." He puts his arm around my shoulder and lets me cry, trying to comfort me but his fast beating heart gives him away. "I know you're nervous too Dez. He's your best friend. You don't have to act like a hero all the time. Just... Let it out..." I whisper and he looks down at me in shock and then wraps his arms around my waist. I cry into his shoulder as he cries into my hair. "What happened this time?" He asks when we both calm down and I wipe my tears. "I old him I'm pregnant..." I smile a little and so does Dez. "But he thought it was Elliot's. He wouldn't even let me explain..." His words ring thro ugh my ears for the hundredth time in the cab. "His exact words before he hung up on me were..." I bite my lip, choking down a sob. "I've heard enough to know that you're a f****** slut and that I f****** hate you too b****..." I whisper and I look down at my hands. "Ally..." He pulls me in for a hug but I shake my head. "I don't know why we're always fighting... We're both willing to kill ourselves for one another but..." I trail off and he sighs. "He cares about you too much Ally. Too much for his own good. Whenever you fight, it always starts with so,etching about your safety. You know it too! Next time, try not to yell. Just try to... Rationalize..." I sit back and bite my lip, tears coming again. "Did you not hear what I told you?! I f****** hate you too b****! Those were his words. His exact words Dez." I tell him and he laughs humorlessly. "He said he hated you but then he tried to kill himself for you? Ally, open your eyes! This is why you're always fighting! He loves you so much and you don't give him enough credit for it Alls. He loves you." He says and I attack him in an awkward bear hug and he laughs. "Thanks..." I whisper and he smiles. "No problem. He's gonna be okay..." I nod, actually believing him this time.
I know it's so short, I'm so sorry.