Hey guys, um fanfiction was being really weird but I hope this one works! Shout out to a guest review, BU, for making me really that I have to get my butt into action for this is fanfic! Anyway, the next chapter will be up within the next two days. I don't own anything!
It's around noon when she wakes up again, I guess she didn't sleep much last night. Yet again, I don't blame her. "Morning daddy..." I laugh and lift her from my lap and bringing her to her room. "Morning? It's twelve o'clock! Here, go get changed and were gonna do whatever you want. We can invite Aust too if you want." Her eyes light up and I laugh a little. "Really?! Will you take me to dave and busters daddy? And then go take me to see mommy?" I give her a sad smile and nod, kissing her cheek. "Of course baby..." She leans up, pulling me in for a hug and giggles. "Will you help me pick out my outfit?" I laugh out loud, which I haven't done in awhile. Not a full loud laugh like that. "Yes, c'mon..." I pull her into her room and bend down, going into her dresser. I pick out a little yellow dress with white polka dots. I'm not good at this... She laughs at me, grabbing the rest and goes to change.
"Daddy, will you French braid my hair?" I scrunch my eyebrows at her and look at the now she placed in my hand. "I don't really know what that means... But I can do a regular braid if you want me to and um... Learn how to French braid somehow." She smiles, nodding her head and I laugh. "Mommy will be surprised when she wakes up and you can braid hair..." She giggles and I laugh again, braiding her hair. "Yeah I know..." She giggles again as I finish braiding her hair. I lift her up and we go down to the hospital to get Aust because Trish is already there with Dez. When we get there, I grab her from her car seat and walk her to the doors. "Do you wanna go see mommy now or do you want to come back later?" I whisper, fixing her skirt. "Can I see her now?" I nod and walk to Ally's room, setting Ari down.
"Hi mommy..." She says walking closer to her. "I know you can't hear me but... I miss you already and I'm sorry about yesterday. Daddy does love me, I was just being mean..." I sigh, walking over to and putting my arms around her waist. "Ari..." She turns around in my arms and throws her hands around my neck. "Daddy I'm sorry!" I sigh. "Shh shh... It's okay baby it's okay..." She sobs into my shoulder, a thousand apologies coming from her lips. "Ari, stop apologizing okay? I'm sorry too, I didn't mean to yell like that. I shouldn't have." She sniffles and lets out an angry puff of air. "It's not fair. Why mommy?" I grab her had, her little fingers fitting perfectly with mine. "It's not just mommy. Uncle Dez got hurt too... He's awake though..." Her eyes widen and she gasps. "Uncle Dezzy! Can I go see him please? Please, please, please!" I nod my head, leading her to Dez's room. When I get there, him and Trish are talking to Aust, laughing and smiling. Like a family should be. "Uncle Dezzy!" Ari runs to the side of his bed. "Are you okay? I heard that you got hurt!" He gives her a smile, nodding a little. "Yeah I'm fine. Just a little bruised is all..." She kisses his cheek, where he has a small bruise. "All better..." She whispers and I sit down besides Trish. "She's exactly like Ally..." I whisper and she nods. "How is it going with Ari? You guys okay now?" I close my eyes and nod, thinking about last night. I regret yelling at her and sending her to her room. Her mom was just in a car accident for gods sake! What's wrong with me?! "I yelled at her... It was really bad Trish. I wish I could take it all back..." I whisper and she pulls me in for a hug. "I was just so frustrated and she was just... She was sarcastic and she was crying and yelling and I sent her to her room. She cried herself to sleep and this morning when she woke up... She opened her doors, tears rushing down her face (she's like Ben you've loved girls since before pre-k... Haha Macklemore 3 I love him... Sorry...) and asked me if she could come out. I felt so horrible." She pats my back and sighs.
"Don't be, it's fine..." I nod and pull away. "Doesn't look like you've been getting any better Austin..." I nod. "I am! Really!" She rolls her eyes. "Trish, I'm getting better." She sighs and looks into my eyes. "The fact that it still looks like you haven't eaten or slept in months tells me differently..." I sigh. "But my depression is getting better! I laughed for the first time in years. Like a full, loud laugh." She smiles at me. "Really?! Austin, that's great!" I smile and pull her in for a hug. "I know. I'm really trying to get better. I need to get better for Ari..." I whisper, looking over at her laughing with Aust and Dez. "Oh yeah... How's Ally? I haven't even..." I take a shaky breath in, trying my hardest not to cry. "She's in a coma. They said that she'll most likely will be down for at least a year and... If she's not awake in 7 months, which they doubt, the baby probably won't make it..." Trish sits there in shock as I wipe my tear off my face. "Oh my gosh..." She gets really quiet. "Does Ari know?" I look at Ari again. "She knows that Ally will be 'asleep' for a year but she doesn't know that she'll most likely lose her baby brother or sister..." She nods, hugging me comfortingly and I cry into her shoulder. "I love her so much Trish... I don't know what I'm going to do for a year without her..." She runs my back and rocks me back and forth like a child.
"I know Austin... But... I talked to Dez. She didn't have s*x but she was kissing and 'touching'... Um... It was Elliot I think. The guy she went on..." I rip away from her suddenly. "Elliot?!" She nods, flustered from my outburst. I wipe my tears and look at her angrily. "He could've killed her! He was the one that blackmailed me, kidnapped me an-" she cuts me off. "Relax..." She grabs my hand but I pull away. "Don't tell me to relax! He tried to kill me and he's the one that held our children hostage that day and you have the nerve to tell me to calm down?! You shouldn't be so calm! He almost killed our kids! He traumatized them for life! Yet, I have to relax!" I flip out and step back, away from a now crying Trish. "Oh god Trish I'm so sorry... I've been trying so hard not to do that to Ari and it came out on you and I didn't mean to. Please I'm so sorry." She doesn't calm down but Dez speaks up.
"Austin, please just... Go..." I take a deep breath and nod. "Figure out your problem and when you get your life back together... You can get Ariana." Wait what? Are you kidding me right now? He can't do that! "She's my daughter y-you can't..." I trail of as he gives me a look. "You've gone to jail for illegal drug use Austin! It's not that hard to have her taken away from you!" I look down at Ari, looking at me with sad eyes. "You're right..." I whisper, keeping my eyes on her. I bend down to her height and she runs into my arms. "I'm so sorry daddy... Please don't leave me!" She sobs into my shoulder and I squeeze her tightly. "Princess, you didn't do anything... It was me... I have to leave or I'll lose you forever..." I swallow the large lump in my throat as she chokes down her sobs. "Please daddy! You're all I have left! Mommy's gone..." The tears that threatened to fall finally dripped down my cheeks. "You've got auntie Trish and uncle Dez now okay? I promise you'll be okay... Just for now..." She nods and shoves her face into the crook of my neck but I pull her to face me. I wipe her tears and she wipes mine at the same time. "You be good for them, okay?" She nods and kisses my cheek. "I love you daddy." She pulls me in for one last hug. "I love you baby..." She lets out another sob. "To the moon and back." She squeezes me tighter. "Forever and always..." We both say and she pulls away, tears falling from her eyes. I turn around and walk out of the room without even glancing back at Dez or Trish.
I go to Ally's room, watching her sleeping form. "Hey Ally..." I whisper as I shut the door quietly behind me. "I... I lost Ariana..." I sob quietly as I put my hand in hers. "Well, Dez threatened to have her taken away from me until I get my life back together... I- I have no one left..." I look down and our intertwined hands, a tear falling on to them. I'm staying with her at all times. I have no one to go home to and there's no one left to love me even if I love them.
I stay there the rest of the day until Trish comes in, leaving Ari and Aust outside to get the keys to my apartment for Ari's things. I hand the keys to her without even looking up. I stare down at Ally's broken down and lifeless body. I stay, hunched over with my hands over Ally's for the rest of the night, whispering to myself. Ugh Dez. Doesn't he realize my only motivation to get my life together was Ari? Obviously not. But now? Now when he asks me why I'm not better I can look him in the eyes and tell him. I'll tell him that he took the only person left worth getting better for. That's the reason I'm not better and he's the reason why I'm not getting my life back together. He's the reason...
A week later
I haven't moved an inch since the day Ari was taken away from me. I haven't eaten and I haven't slept. I literally just stay here and stare at Ally and I's hands. I feel very... Woozy... Lately and I'm not sure why... Maybe I just don't feel good. I might be getting sick... It's possible, right? Or maybe it's that I haven't eaten anything in a week... Yeah that's probably why... Whatever. I don't care... Someone walks in and I let out an annoyed sigh but don't say anything. After about five minutes I feel myself start to fall forward. "Mr. Moon?" I blink a few times but keep falling anyway. I groan in pain as I hit the ground but lie there, not having enough strength to lift myself up. "Oh my... Get a doctor! Get a doctor!" My eyes drift shut and I lean my head back. "Wh-what's happening?" I whisper but by the time the person answers, I'm already passed out...
Dez's POV
I get out today. Finally. It's been a week.. I just want to get home. I don't know how Austin deals with the pain he does. I'm in so much pain right now and I have like three stitches in my arm. I also have a broken leg and a slight concussion. As I'm walking in the hallway, I decide to stop at Ally's room but panic when I don't see her. Someone else is in there. I sprint as fast as I can, with a broken leg, to the front desk. "Where is Ally Dawson?" I ask, slamming my arms on the desk in rage. I'm sure if Ally or Trish were here, they'd yell at me but I'm alone. Trish is at home watching Aust and Ari. "She's in room 119 sir..." She says and I look back at her in shock. "B-but someone else was in there. It was a man a-" she cuts me off, speaking as she looks down at her paper. "Um yes. That's her fiancé Austin Moon. Something happened while he was in there with her so they put him there. I don't know all the details though. Sorry sir." I groan and nod a thanks. "Da**it Austin!"
I slam the door open and what do you know? It is Austin... A nurse is there, checking his pulse and doing a bunch of tests on him. "Excuse me?" She turns around and smiles at me. "Hello sir, how can I help you?" I sigh. "What happened to Austin?" I cut to the chase immediately, not bothering with any small talk. I'm not in the mood. "Um, he was in here with his fiancé and... He hadn't eaten or slept since he got here... And he finally collapsed. He hadn't even moved except for when he fell this morning." I sigh. This is my fault. I shouldn't have taken Ari away from him but seriously? He needs to get his act together! Ari needs him and he can't be there for her if he's out smoking weed and getting drunk! Or killing himself... As of right now, Ari will be staying with us but... Should we tell her that Austin's in here too? Ugh I don't know. Ill call Trish and ask her.
"Hey Dez, you okay?" I look at Austin and Ally, both unconscious in their separate beds. "Austin's in the hospital." I whisper and she groans too. "He wasn't eating or sleeping. At all. He collapsed. He's such an idiot..." I whisper and she sighs. "I'm coming now with Aust and Ari. Ari hasn't been very... She's acting different. She hasn't been eating a lot so I think we need to leave them be. I think what we did wasn't right. Shes his daughter and he's a great father whether you believe that or not... But it doesn't matter. When he wakes up, she'll stay with him again." I look at Austin as I see his arm start to move. "I think he's waking up now... I'll talk to you later, love you." She says love you too and hangs up.
Austin groans and brings his hand up to his face. "Austin?" I whisper and he groans again. "What happened?" He whispers with his eyes closed still. "You passed out." He finally opens his eyes and looks at me. "Why? I- I was fine." I roll my eyes. "You hadn't eaten or slept or done anything for a week. What did you expect?" It's his turn to roll his eyes and I laugh a little. "But why didn't you? I told you to go figure everything out so you come in here and almost die?" He turns and his eyes fall to Ally's broken body. "Because... Ally's gone. You know that it's taking all of my will power to not just go kill myself. Ari was the only thing from stopping it, she was the only thing to keep me somewhat sane. And you took her from me. The only person I had left out of my life. That's why I didn't getter better. I just got worse. Because..." he finally looks at me, tears falling past the dark rings around his eyes. "The only thing worth getting better for was taken out of my life." I stand up angrily. "Because you can't raise your daughter if you're off getting high or killing yourself Austin!" He clenches his jaw and groans. He stands up, ripping all of the wires from his body and I step back. "Au-" he cuts me off. "No! I'm not doing this anymore! Congratulations Dez, you won." Doctors are surrounding him by now but he shoves them away. "You got Ariana. Are you happy now? Are you f**king happy?!" he sprints into the bathroom, locking himself in. All of use trying to open the door but there's no use. "Austin open the door!" I bang on the door over and over but nothing happens. Except the fact that a mirror broke. After that... It all just collapsed. He starts groaning, his sobs clear as day even though we're all yelling, a janitor on their way with a key. He starts getting louder, you can tell that he's in pain. Whatever he's doing is hurting him. I hear him collapse onto the ground, screaming in the process. Oh my god Austin! Where the h*ll is the janitor?! He finally comes and when he opens the door, it's not what I expected. I thought there'd be blood coming from his arm, maybe from his stomach a little. But nothing like this...
I look down at him and freeze. I don't even know what to do or say. The shattered mirror is shattered on the ground below him but... Also inside of him. He took the shards and... Shoved them through his body... He... He put the glass through his cheeks, all the way through to the other side. There's one piece that's plunged into his neck, another that's gripped tightly in his hand, cutting him. Even one in his temple. Another in his eye...
The doctors immediately get him lifted to a bed and start operating immediately, pushing me out the door. I collapse to the ground, kicking myself for doing this to him. I did that to him! I did it! I burst to tears as I sit in the hallway, waiting for the doctors to finish. Someone walks up to me and places their hand on my shoulder but I don't acknowledge them. "Dez." I sigh. It's Trish. "What happened?" She whispers and I sob even harder. "I- I told him t-that he co-couldn't raise A- Ari if he was t-trying to-" I cut myself off with yet another sob. "To kill himself o-or getting high and-and he.. He got up. He screamed at me and ran in-into the bathroom." I stop talking for a few minutes, crying too hard to even breathe. "He broke the mirror and... A-and he put the shards into his body... H-he-" I break into another round of sobs as Trish pulls me into a hug. "Shhh... Shhh... It's okay Dez. It's okay..." I sob into her shoulder for god knows how long until a doctor walks out.
"Are you waiting for Austin Moon?" He asks and I nod. "He will be fine, just very sore but he'll be on a breathing machine until the end of today. He'll be able to go home shortly." I take a deep breath and walk inside, Austin turning to me in the process. I'm surprised he's awake. I sit down next to his bed and stare down at my hands. Neither of us say anything as we sit in silence but it's soon broken by Ari. "Daddy?!" She screeches, running over to his bed. "W-why are you in here too? Are y-you leaving me? No daddy no. Please.." She sobs and he sighs. "I'm not leaving baby..." He grabs her little hand with his wrapped up one. "Im coming home tonight..." She smiles and he gives her a sad smile back. "I missed you daddy..." He nods. "I missed you too..."
"Can I...?" I whisper to Trish and she immediately understands, nodding. She takes Ari and Aust down to the cafeteria. I look at Austin and swallow the lump in my throat. "Austin-" he cuts me off immediately. "No offense, but I'd rather not hear, once again, that I can't go kill myself. Because I'm going to. As soon as I'm out of here, when I get home. And you can't f*cking stop me this time. Don't say anything about it." His jaw is clenched and his fists are in tight balls. I watch him, tears streaming down my face but he visibly relaxes. "Just take care of Ariana until Ally wakes up." I start sobbing but he doesn't turn to look at me. "Wh- what if she... Doesn't?" He slams his eyes shut, groaning. "I don't think she's going to... Adopt her when... Ally dies..." We both let out a sob at the same time. He's right though. The doctor told me this morning that she's most likely not going to make it and neither is their baby. He suggested putting her down but I obviously didnt allow it.
"Austin, I'm- I don't even know how to explain how sorry I am!" I scream out to him and I start bawling. Literally. I don't even know what to do. "It's fine." He says coldly and then he sighs. "It really is Dez." He says it sympathetically now. "I shouldn't have flipped out like that it's just been... So stressful." I stand up angrily. "It's hard because of me! I was the one who got Ally into a car accident. I made you almost die. Twice. It one day! And a third time in about seven hours! I can't-" He groans. "Dez, it's not your fault okay? Really..." I sigh and so does he. "You know I love you right? You're literally my brother." He says and I smile a little, but frown again. "Please don't kill yourself. Ari is going to-" I cut myself off with a sob but quickly speak again. "She's going to lose her mom. How would you feel if you were three and lost both of your parents." He sighs and pulls on his hair. "This was a mistake. I should've thought of her before I did this. I-" he's sobbing as well as me. Manly right? "I know that Ally and our child is going to die... I just- I- I can't live without her. But Ari can't live without one of us." I scoot closer to him as he starts to whisper. "I'm blind in my right eye... Most likely forever. They said I'm probably going to have seizures constantly. And they can't stop them. A-and they said... I can probably never sing again... H-how am I supposed to... Do anything. I-I can't support Ari without a job Dez." He starts coughing violently and I don't know what to do. "I'm fine I'm fine." I nod. "It's gonna be okay Austin. I promise." He sighs but nods. "Thanks..." He whispers.
Austin's POV (later in the day)
Ari walks into my room and squeezes me as tight as she could. I pull her to me as she cries into my shoulder. "Mommy's going to die. Isn't she...?" She whispers in between her sobs and I squeeze her tighter. "Ari..." She continues to sob and I wipe my tear before facing her. "Ari... Look at me." I whisper gently and her sobs quiet down as she looks back at my face, tears streaming down her face. "Don't lie to me daddy..." She says and I swallow the lump in my throat and kiss her forehead. "She is..." I pause, thinking of a way to organize my words in a cautious order. "I don't want to say that she definitely is going to pass away but-" she cuts me off. "But there's really no chance of her actually living..." She whispers and turns her head away from me. "Where'd you hear all of this?" I push a strand of hair behind my daughters ear. "The doctor. I was outside with Unca Dezzy, waiting to go in to see her and I heard them talking." I nod and pull her in for another hug. "Ar, no matter what happens, mommy will always be with us okay? She will always be in our hearts and looking down at us. She would never want you to be upset about this..." She lets out a sob and tears flow down my face as well. I couldn't hold it in. "Are you gonna replace her daddy?" I shake my head as I pull her tighter. "I would never in a million years, even think about replacing mommy. Never. I want you to know that." She nods and we stay silent for the next twenty minutes just hugging each other until she falls asleep and so do I.
Dez comes in and I look up at his face, red and tear stained. "What's wrong dude? If this is about this whole thing I want you to stop worrying about it, it's f-" he shakes his head. "No it's not about that..." I raise my eyebrows, silently asking him to explain but he shakes his head again. "Ally..." I stop breathing and then violently shake my head back and forth. "No, no, no. Sh-she can't be gone. She can't be. Dez. She's n-" I begin crying and he cuts me off. "She's gone Austin! She's gone! And it's your f*cking fault! If you werent such a dumba**, we would have never gotten into that accident! I hope you put this on yourself forever. And you can't kill yourself now, because you're the only one who Ari has. This will be on your conscious forever. Not mine, not Trish's, not her parents. On yours." He turns around and slams the door shut as I cry, holding a still sleeping Ari on my lap. This is my fault. She's gone. She's gone! Forever! I groan and start sobbing uncontrollably, squeezing my eyes shut as tight as I could until someone starts shaking me...
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