Doesn't it Help?
Summary: All it took was one final straw that triggered Reid's downfall. Because of an accident, he falls back into his old drug habit and old nightmares plague the youngest agent. Can he recover with the help of the people he cares about most? (Rated T for drug abuse.)
Disclaimer: Sadly, I don't own Criminal Minds. (I wish I owned Reid.)
"How's your pain, Mr. Reid?" The doctor smiled.
Reid blearily stared at her, slurring, "I don' feel a thing."
"Hmm... We might need to lower the dosage of pain medication we've given you."
Somewhere in the back of Spencer's mind, the words "pain medication" rang some kind of alarm bell, but Spencer couldn't identify it. He couldn't even keep his eyes open any longer to say anything.
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"What are you afraid of?" Morgan pressed JJ. It had all started from a game truth or dare, which was a bad decision to play in the first place, especially with Morgan.
"I am terrified spiders," JJ squirmed.
"Aww, such a basic fear. What about you, Kid?"
"What?" Spencer's head snapped up.
"I said, what are you afraid of? Common."
The question brought him back to weeks ago. Dying wasn't his fear, it wasn't spiders, it was becoming like his mother.
Flashback:
Reid was happily reading a book on the atomic theory on a rare day off when the phone rang. The shrill ring of it made him jump and a wary feeling settled in the pit of his stomach. Normally it was the BAU calling, but this time it was the hospital calling him.
"Is this Spencer Reid?"
Reid swallowed thickly. "Yes?"
"I'm calling about your mother, Diane. I'm so sorry. She had another episode last night and committed suicide."
The lady continued talking about "arrangements", but Reid wasn't listening. It took all of his energy to remain standing. He couldn't believe she was gone. Just like that. She couldn't be. His mother.
Everyone from the team came to the funeral. When Hotch first found out about Diana, he offered Spencer some time off, but as soon as another case came in, Reid was on the plane. He couldn't stand to be in that house alone.
End flashback
"Uh, I'd have to say inadequacy," Reid blurted the first thing he thought of, turning red. "I-I have to..." Spencer jumped up, unable to take the suffocating room any longer.
"Look what you did!" Reid heard JJ hiss, but he had stopped listening by then. He had to get out. He locked himself in the bathroom stall, hiding what he was about to do.
He swallowed the pills dry with a shaky, desperate need. Spencer then washed his hands as it could somehow cleanse him of his sins.
"You need to confess your sins and repent!"
"I-I don't have any."
His own voice mocked him of the lie he told. He was weak, giving in to the drugs he spent years combating. Was being weak a sin?
His bloodshot reflection in the mirror answered in silent, bitter disappointment.
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