She cried her self to sleep, he held her the entire time. He got out of bed and looked at the time, over two hours since she threw her shirt at him. He goes upstairs and takes a shower, he was convinced that today made them one, he is dressed and text's her mom to see how Eli was doing, she asked him if they can go get him. He texted his mom and asked her if she could go pick him up, Bay was sleeping and she knew that she could not handle being alone.
He made them BLT's for lunch with chips, and he washed the dishes. He walks to the bedroom and opens the door. She is crying again, " baby what in the world are you crying for".
He got her some clothes and put it on her, she was sobbing. "Please say I didn't hurt you baby" he signed, she shook her head," truth always remember ".
"I made a promise I made to myself, you can break me now,I can't handle it if you do it again". He tried to hug her but she would not let him, " I promise it wont happen again, there is nothing I regret more then all of these months, I love you".
" Do you realize that you told me almost the exact same thing when I got back from treatment ". She stopped crying " can you leave me alone for a little while".
He went sit outside, what happened they looked into each others eyes he thought they were forever. . His mom got there with Eli, he was crying for Bay, he hugged his mom and told her he would talk to her when they got back from there trip.
He walks in to the house and she wasn't there he goes to the room and knocks on the door, he opens it and she must be in the bathroom. He says "baby im going in your son is crying for you". She looks so scared when he opens the door, she had on her robe and a was running her a bath. "Bay what's wrong, you look so frightened".
"Leave Eli with me and go please " she signed. He gives her Eli and looks behind her, the side of the tub had razor blades on it. He looks at her and kisses her forehead, " I will pick those up and im sure he would love to take a bath with you".
Finally he leaves the bathroom, he had to convince him self not to cry, he knew she needed to do that as a reminder of the past.
He goes upstairs and gets him some clothes, he goes down to her bedroom and puts his clothes on the bed, so much happened today he just needed to remember the love they had for each other.
They walk out the bedroom thirty minutes later , they look at each other," thank you for not loosing it in the bathroom " she signed.
" Baby I no why you did that but a question, how often do you have the razor blades out".
She put Eli on the floor and got his basket of toys, " every time, since we have been getting close I just need to remember what's important ".
He had tears in his eyes, " why didn't you tell me, I would have been there for you ".
" But I didn't need anyone,this has been going on for so long, I am good now so good".
She hugged him" I have to tell you something and I need you to hear me, this morning we shared an intense moment, you are the only person I will ever love, I still need time to make sure I can trust you".
"So you love me, this morning was intense and you have to trust me ", he kissed her, " we are not back together, but I think if I can make you shake again like this morning, the odds are in my defiantly in my favor ".
She started laughing, " you know I just don't want to get hurt, I really love you , can you not be so full of yourself".
" I will go pack my bag and Eli's too," he kissed her "I will grill steaks tonight".