It was five when they went back to the cabin, they had decided to go out for dinner. They got to a restaurant and they were having so much fun with Eli, her child was such a flirt. The chef made him some mashed potatoes and pudding for desert, when they were leaving the blew kisses to all of the ladies.
"You no we will have to keep him in the house , he is too much of a flirt" she signed. He laughed " I have no clue where he gets it from".
When they got back to the cabin he had fallen asleep in the car, " I'll put him to bed", he signed.
She got them each a beer and went sit outside on the swing, he walks out side and goes sit beside her. She reached up and kissed him, " baby we need to talk about last night, I would have never held you like that if I had known how you felt".
She had tears in her eyes, " I should have told you how I felt when I you did it before but you had just had sugary, but I did not want to upset you".
"Bay I thought it was only the truth we told each other, I went and cried on the beach how can you ever trust me" he signed.
"You know how I feel about you, I have to trust you" he hugged her . "Bay you need to tell me how hard it was for you while we were apart, I have to know what you went through". She started crying, he just held on to her.
After about twenty minutes she got up and went into the cabin. She walked out and sat in the chair, " I have to tell you something, please don't freak out, I am much better now", she takes a breath.
She looked at him, she is about to tell him her secret. " When was at the hotel in Chicago, I already told you the police came to make sure I was alright, when they left I cried so much I felt like I could never get past it". She took a breath " I cut my scars".
He was so lost, she was feeling so much better and he ruined her. He was just staring off into space, there was no way to make this go away, she was never going to be alright.
" Emmett please it was not your fault, it was all Tank's, you can't even imagine", she signed. He started crying, she got up and sat on his lap.
" That is my only secret, I was in a bad place and from what the Dr said pregnancy hormones, that was the only thing that would make me feel better".
" I need to see them , I need to know what you did". She got off of his lap and took his hand, she walked to the bedroom and made him sit. She took her clothes off and stood in front of him, " the tattoo artist I had gone to with Ty was not happy, he couldn't believe I did it again, he did what he could but it was the second guy that made them just about invisible".
She showed him her arms, they had and X cut in to the top of where he had cut her and her legs were cut across again.
" Did Ty see them," she was shaking her head, " I made him go outside when we got there, It was my secret".
" How can you say it was not my fault baby, I had another girl in our bed, she was where you were supposed to be". he signed.
"You have no idea what it was like in my dream, I felt like I could not stop him, I was so afraid to go back to sleep", she wiped her tears, "if I had only listened to you I wouldn't have had to be alone".
He ran his hand along every scar, " I don't think that you can ever imagine how much I love you, thank you for telling me, I will go walk on the beach for a little while", he kissed her and left.
She put on her pajamas and got into bed, about thirty minutes later he comes in to the room he puts on his pj's and gets into bed. He puts a pillow between them " Bay" he say's, she turns around " you have to know how much I trust you".