31. Raining Emotions

Tomoe ground his teeth as he tossed and turned in his bed; he couldn't sleep. It wasn't happening after he did something so stupid to his best friend. She didn't even know what touching his ears was like; he practically asked her to 'Kiss him'

He chewed his lip and stared at the cold ceiling. The dark colors of the room used to sooth him and relax his nerves, The dark blue walls and soft toned cream roof. The carpet with it creamy yet white softness. Nanami often joked that his hair could be mistaken for it. He rooled his violet eyes in the dark.

The carpet wasn't exactly perfect; There was some blood drops on it from the night he cut himself. Tomoe had learned that everytime he had to urge to slit his wrist he would snap his rubber band.

That or rub an ice-cube on his wrists. It stung like crazy and in a way it hurt more than a cut. Tomoe stared at the roof some more and paused.

His hand drifted to his ear and he tugged lightly; It felt nice to have his ears touched..

Wait.

Wha?

Tomoe shook his head and decided there was better things to think about; like how he still had to stop his hands from shaking when he wanted to feel physical pain. This was one of those moments...

The fox clenched his teeth over his blanket and pulled; biting done as hard as he could. He snapped his rubber band over and over again.

This was an addiction that he had taken on to way to fast. It shook his core and it made his sweat for the tingling sensation of his claws digging into his pale skin. It wasn't bad like he had to do it or he would die; but he wanted to do it... His body wanted to feel it again. It wasn't Rehad bad, but it was going to take him some time. He bit down harder and decided that staying near a bathroom wasn't a good thing at the moment,

The fox tossed his covers off and walked out of his room. He walked slowly down the stairs and then paused when he saw the kitchen light on. Who would be up at three in the morning? ( Other than him.. -_- )

Tomoe walked towards the kitchen and froze when he saw his father sitting in a chair reading a book called, ' Your Teen and Self Harm; Best Friends Under Contract'

The fox narrowed his eyes and scoffed at it; he wasn't exactly doing it anymore; He wondered if he should be honored that his father was trying to help or offended. His foot tapped against the tile floor and he cusred mentally.

Mikage looked up and fixed his glasses; Their eyes met and the father soon looked at Tomoe Wrist. It was red from his rubber band snapping and it still stung harshly; The father looked away and the fox wondered if it was from disgust.

"Your fighting it?" He questioned almost a little to quiet.

The fox sighed loudly as his feet hit the cold, cream colored tile, " Yes."

The father shood his head and Tomoe felt something rise up in his chest; maybe it was pain.. The pain of his father being digusted..

"What?" He spat out, " If you were here then it wouldn't have happened! You promised that you would be there; but.. I FEEL LIKE I RAISED MYSELF!"

"YOU AT LIKE YOU DID! I DID NOT TEACH YOU TO DO THAT!" Mikage stood up and slammed his hands on the counter. They stared at each other; but before Tomoe could start cussing or swearing Mikage out..

A Slap sounded in the air.

The fox blinked as pain stung his face; he blinked in shock and when he looked a his father the god himself looked shocked. He lowered his hand and Tomoe felt a new type of pain well up. Did his.. Father just... Hit him?

He swallowed; tears stinging his throat and burning his eyes as he bit his lip; his hand clenched as he glared the god in the eye,

Mikage looked at him in shock; he did not want to do that.. He didn't mean that.. He would never.. That wasn't his intention; but then words left his mouth that made him snap his mouth shut. The words made Tomoe stare at him in shock; his eyes glassed over as tears ran down his face.

He never thought something so cruel would leave his own mouth,

"I am ashamed of you."

The room grew quiet and Tomoe stared at him; his tears ran down like wet ribbons; hot against his skin yet s cold as it hit the floor. His body shaked and his heart froze, A whimper escaped his mouth as he stepped back. His face stung as his tail flattened.

"T-Then.." Tomoe paused and tried to recompose himself, " I guess I'm not.. Your son then!" He screamed; hot tears running down his pale face.

Mikage didn't say anything and he looked away; He didn't know what was wrong with him; he wanted to hold the fox close but for some reason his pride was holding him back. Tomoe was crying, A sight that was rare to everyone in the world, But his body wouldn't move. All he could think was,

'Elisa; What would you do? Tomoe was so close to you honey; What does a father do?'

Tomoe choked as Mikage looked away; he put a hand over his mouth as he ran into the living room, shoved some shoes on his feet and grabbed his jacket. He zippe dit up as Mikage ran into the room; his legs finally letting him move,

"Where do you think your going?"

"AWAY FROM YOU!" Tomoe screamed, He stated for the door and burst out it; running down the street. his shoes kicked up rain water and Mikage looked up at the sky. Lightening flittered across the night and he swallowed, his eyes wideneing in fear,

"TOMOE!" He screamed and called but the fox wouldn't stop. He didn't want to hear his fathers calls He didn't want to feel it anymore. Tomoe didn't want his judgmental stares or his shamed remarks.

He couldn't breath in that house, so here he was letting his feet carry him away from his burdens...

Tomoe plopped down on a park bench and breathed out heavily. Rain was coming down and even though he pulled his jacket hood on his head, He was soaked to the core. His hair clung to his face as the lightening crashed over his head and thunder roared.

He swallowed and breathed, trying to calm down from his outburst. Was this his life? Running around at night, screaming at his dad and wishing he could bleed? He shook his head and pulled his knees to his chest; His breath hitched as the rain turned cold.

The fox didn't know what to do but he knew that his hands were shaking,

He didn't answer him when he said that one sentence... It was like he was saying that he really wasn't his son. Maybe Tomoe should have thought about his ears afterall. Then he wouldn't know how much his life really was messed up.

His hands shook as he grabbed at his rubber band and snapped it as hard as he could; sadly after he did so it broke and slipped off his arm. He blinked and swore loudly. There was no ice around and he couldn't find any other rubber bands.

He whimpered as he looked up at the sky. It was a night like this that he mother died... A stormy night, a cold night.. Full of blood and hatred towards the man who hurt her. He ground his teeth and looked around the park.

It was lit by street lights and full of beautiful flowers; all of them were being pelted with rain and damaged.

Tomoe felt the same way...

He was being pelted by life and his family; and now? He was damaged..

The fox ground his teeth as the want of pain took over his body. He clenched the side on the bench and bit his lip. He didn't want to... Not now.. It would only take a few weeks and then he wouldn't have to hurt himself anymore. A few more weeks and he could break this addiction.

He whimpered as he yanked his sleeves up and looked at his almost healed arms. His arms had pink marks from recent scars that healed.. His wrists was red from the rubber band but it was more numb than anything. Rain mixed with his tears as he started to angle his claw.

He closed his eyes as the pain gushed through his body; making his moan as the addiction was filled.

Thats when he felt anger rile up in him and he slit his wrist in a different spot. He sit his other one too; taking his time as he made several marks on each arm... Blood dripped down and was slowly washed and stung, By the rain itself..

"TOMOE!"

The fox looked up, his eyes wide. What was his father doing here in his house slippers? He blinked and swiped at his face, even though it didn't do much good sense it was raining. Mikage heard his sniffle and he turned his head to look at his son. The fox cowarded a bit and tried to hide the fact that his amrs were sratched and clawed up with multiable cuts.

The god saw it anyway and sat down in the bench; rain soaked into his pants as he gently grabbed the teens arm and looked at the cuts. He made sure it wasn't serious as he patted on them lightly.

"Why are you o-out h-here? Go home!" Tomoe screeched out as he yanked his arm away.

Thats when the god sighed and looked up at the rain, it splattered against his glasses and he shook his head, " Not without you.."

Tomeo looked at him as his ears flopped over; " W..W-What?" He muttered out, his violet eyes wide.

"We don't have to talk.. Not yet; But I will not let my Son be ut in this weather.. Bleeding like that." Mikage pointed at his arm and Tomoe looked away. His eyes flashed with hurt and he ground his perfect teeth,

"You woudn't understand."

Mikage looked at him, " That right. I don't... So give me time to understand. I'll buy all the rubber bands and ice-cubes you need." He smiled lightly and Tomoe choked, His eyes watered as he looked ahead. He didn't want to look at Mikage; Not yet anyway..

He didn't even turn his head as his father said," Lets go home..."

Tomoe stood and then looked out as he walked forward; then he stopped and shuddered, " I don't know if I can forgive you... For.." He paused, Pain going through his chest.

"For Hitting me.."

Mikage wrapped Tomoe arms to the best of his medical ability ( Which is not saying much.. -_- ) He wasn't the god of medicine or doctors, he was the god of match-making and lovely things. Like earlier that night when he almost disturbed another kiss between his son and Nanami.

He almost smiled but then realized the seriousness of the situation. Tomoe winced as he tightened the bandages and looked at his sopping wet son. He smirked; Tomoe disliked water with a passion. When they went to the beach? He stayed home..

He grabbed a towel and handed it to him; Tomoe grabbed it and let it sop up the extra water, Then Mikage grabbed his old newspaper and handed Tomoe the rubber band. The fox grabbed it quickly and slipped it on with ease. He looked at Mikage and then started to get up.

"I should.. Go to bed. " He muttered quietly.

Mikage nodded; He had overheard Nanami talking to Tomoe about going to the park tomorrow after Mizuki and Kurama got out of school. The fox seemed heisitant but he agreed and nodded slowly. Mikage smiled at the memory.

Tomoe and Nanami had been together since they were little, it was a good thing since Tomoe used to hate humans with a burning passion. When they got got older they started to hang out more and act like real friends... Now... Mikage wasn't to sure, But Tomoe seemed to have his mind made up that he hated romance and all things in that section.

Mikage wondered if it was because that was his job and Tomoe was hating it for taking him away? He wasn't sure but it was a high possibility. He hadn't meant to slap him though. He knew his wife would have never hit their son; but he lost control of his anger and he lashed out. To hit Tomoe? That was something that made him sick with himself. Mikage winced and ran a hand through his hair..

What had he done? And how could he fix this without making it worse?

Tomoe walked out of the room; rubbing his sore arms and cursed to himself about giving in to a stupid addiction. He went up the stairs and into his room. Mikage only relaxed when he heard the lock click into place and he knew Tomoe was tired.

He sighed and then looked around the kitchen as he started to clean up Tomoe's blood.

'What am I gonna do?'

Tomoe looked around, His eyes wide. Where was he exactly? He was in an alley? No.. A park? He blinked and looked arund before feeling something pull at his lips. He moaned in satisfaction and his eyes slitted passioantly.

He looked at the person kissing him but she was blurred out; even her words seemed muffled and distracted from his mind. Their tongues rubbed toegther and the fox whimpered as his hearrt raced harshly.

They pulled away and Tomoe looked at the blurry girl, " Who... Are... You.." He panted, His mouth gasping for air.

The girl only shook her head and looked up at the sky. Her face seemed blank and he couldn't make it out; then a bright light hit his eyes'

Knocking him out of his slumber...

Tomoe moaned as the sun hit his eyes and something hit his bed. He blinked in shock but opened his eyes.

"GOOD MORNING!" Nanami giggled and tugged at the foxes ear playfully. She sat on his legs and he jumped in shock. Tomoe propped himself up and looked at her dumbfounded,

" I locked the door!" He sqreeched in shock.

The girl nodded, His messy pony tail bobbing up in down, " Yep! And I picked it!"

Tomoe gasped and shoved her off, who knew someone so innocent could be so evil? The girl laughed but then looked at his arms. Her eyes flashed with concern and the fox sighed.

"I got in a fight." He muttered. it wasn't a lie but also wasn't entirly true. The girls face lit up as he grabbed his hand and yanked him out of the bed. He shuddered and looked at her and she threw a shirt at his head and a pair of pants.

She posed with her hands on her hips as she looked at him, " Go ahead." She cheered, waving her ahnd innocently," Get ready! We have a long day!"

Tomoe blinked and clenched his shirt in his hands, He stared at her and then gulped at the awkward, ' Um , Your still here?' Pressence. He looked at her and arched his brow; Tomoe chewed his lip and looked away.

"This isn't going to work." He muttered; his face burning slightly with the subject on his mind.

Nanami stopped her pose and pouted, She grabbed the shirt and looked it over," Why? Is it not your size?"

The fox looked at her blankly and then rolled his violet eyes, he gripped his shirt and started to pull it over his head making Nanami gasp.

"I guess.. If you don't see anything wrong with this picture then." He paused and looked at her from the side.

The girl flushed in embarrassment.

"I have to change and your still standing there... pfft, and all there years you call me a pervert?" He started to go for his nightpants when the girl sqreeched and ran out of the room, slamming the door. Tomoe chuckled to himself..

Classic, Innocent Nanami..

Tomoe stepped down the stairs and looked at Nanami who was still brooding like a little kid. She was sulking with her lip stuck out for the world to see. The fox rolled his eyes, " Your so Childish." He muttered as he grabbed a cup from the kitchen cabnit and pouring himself something to drink.

He took a sip of some of his juice and looked at Nanami who was now glaring at him.

"Your cruel, Playing a prank like that on me!" She wailed fakely.

Tomoe rolled his eyes," Your the one that stood there and ordered me to change; I only did as you told me to do." He said, Matter of factly.

The girl pouted and sighed as Tomoe looked at her from the corner of his eyes.

Nanami caught the glance and paused, That look was something that he always thought was admirable. His eyes shone with a serious but playful look, His kanines showed only because his perfect mouth was opened to let in his daily liquid. His hair fanned his face and shifted all in the right places.

His shoulders were broad and his neck was smooth; His amrs showed that he worked slightly but not to much and his hands were gentle. Yes, He had some scars on his wrists but they were still so beautiful.. His ears were soft and his tail was cuddly.

Nanami blinked in shock. Maybe this is why Tomoe ahd so many fan-girls? He had a yokai's charms? His white hair and his perfect body. The way he showed his emotions on his face and nowhere else. A smirk could tell the world something he was or was not thinking.

He was caring when he wanted to be; and Nanami often remembered when he would protect her in school. They ate they're bento together when they were small and now even to that day, They did so.

She was happy to have a best friend like Tomoe; Good-looking or not, He had a heart that no one else was allowed to see. Nanami knew that she had never really seen it herself.. Because Tomoe didn't like showing emotions. He called it a waste of precious time.

She paused and snapped out of her gaze to see Tomoe in front of her face, looking confused.

"You know.." He began.

Oh Great, Here it comes. A sarcastic remark by yours truly

" Your eyes get big and look like a stinking owl; Or a pervert." He smirked and Nanami screamed,

"BAKA! STUPID FOX!" She hit his head and he chuckled to himself. Nanami suddenly smiled, She was happy that Tomoe was acting like himself again.. She was so cheerful.

She brushed her fingers over his ear and she felt Tomoe tense harshly. He jerked his head away and snarled.

"STOP THAT!" He sqreeched and turned around, His tail wagged and Nanami looked at it. Her eyes followed it until she grabbed it, catching it in her hands. Tomoe yelped loudly and literally ran to another side of the kitchen. His face tinged pink as he held his tail close to him'

'That was worse than the ear thing!' He blushed and let his tail tuck between his legs; He didn't want to tell her about his ears.. Or his tail.

1. His ears was equal to , 'Kissing Passionatly'

2. Pulling a foxes tail was a call to... Mate.'

Tomoe flushed and backed away from Nanami. His ears flattened and a whine escaped his mouth; Thank goodness the door swung open and Gwen walked in. She saw the scene and arched her brow at the questionable behaviour; but then again.

Gwen didn't know about Tomoe's ears either; She wasn't exaclty a doctor of Teenage YOKAI and they're hormoneal patterns..

Thank god..

Tomoe relaxed and then looked at the clock on the wall. His eyes widened at the time and he looked at Nanami,

"Shouldn't we be there by now?" He pointed blankly at the clock.

Nanami looked at the clock and then gasped," OH GOD! TOMOE! WE"RE GONNA BE LATE NOW!"

The foxes ears pinned," And this is my problem because?"

She glared at him before he was pulled out the door and yanked towards the park, Oi. This was already so annoying..

Hhaha, A little Splash of Drama, Romance and Humor. More to come; Plus.. The next chapter is gonna have Kurama and Mizuki; Won't that be fun? Hehe.. Hope you enjoyed this chapter!

Author out! PEACE! Hehe, Next Chapter coming soon! XD