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The next morning Riley woke up and dragged herself out of bed. She waited in the breakfast line and gave the nurse her name and she was given a small cup of pills and a water to wash it down. She hid the pills yet again, got her breakfast and turned to find Max but he wasn't anywhere to be found. She spit up her pills into a napkin in hopes he'd come. He never showed. She put the pills in her pocket just in case.

She didn't have an individual therapy this morning, they had given her some time to hang out in the common room. She sat down at a table with a chess set on it, she listened to the girl who was playing the piano, she was good and there wasn't much to do alone. All of the sudden there a seductive whisper in her ear "Need an opponent?" It sent shivers through Riley's fragile body. Max had already sat across from her, smirking at the fact that he had rattled her.

Riley tried to regain her composure. "Hi, Max."

"You like the piano?"

"I do, I plan on asking Dr. Gallagher about music therapy."

"Riley, Riley, if you wanted to spend more time with me all you had to do is ask."

"Max, Max, if you want these pills you're going to have to cut the bullshit and help me."

"I like this feisty Riley."

"I need to do something reckless but I also need to get out of here. As you can see, I am very conflicted."

"Well, you can be one of those people who pinch or scratch themselves. But then people will think you're a meth addict. You can starve yourself but they already look out for that in depression patients, especially ones that are as thin as you are. You can start hitting yourself with stuff, but they don't give you things that could actually hurt." Max let off a small smile knowing this advice wasn't really good but he still wanted those pills.

Riley had thought of something wild to do. She would keep one of her pills and give the other two to Max. Eventually, she would have a decent stash of pills.

Max grinned and looked around before accepting and swallowing the pills. He never needed water; Riley wondered how long he'd been abusing pills for.

After talking for a bit, the two headed to group.

Dr. Moskowitz asked for Max to come up and talk today. Max didn't argue got up to where there was a small podium, and started.

"Hi, I'm Max. I've been here for 4 weeks now. I was diagnosed with BPD. For those of you who don't know that is borderline personality disorder. My parents suggested that I come here because of my behavior and mood swings. I didn't argue. What else do you want to know Doc?"

"Thank you Max, can you tell us of an instance where you had a mood swing or where your behavior would have been indicative of your BPD?"

"Sure, the last time I acted out before I came here. I was arrested at a bar because I was screaming at the bartender for fucking up my drink. Sorry, excuse my French. Either way, I punched a cop in the gut after he reached for my pockets. He put me in handcuffs and found some coke in my pocket. My lawyer dad got me out of all charges, don't know how he did it but he did. In exchange, I decided I wouldn't argue with him on this."

"Anything else you'd like to share in particular?"

"Not right now, thanks doc."

"Thanks Max, you may sit down."

Max sat down next to Riley. He whispered "How did I do?"

Riley whispered back to him as seductively as she could. "We are definitely going to help each other."

Riley was in her individual meeting with Dr. Gallagher.

"Hi Dr. Gallagher"

"Hello, Riley, take a seat. How are you feeling?"

"I'm tired but I feel like I've calmed down."

"Good that's your medication working, we've got you on a few anti depressants and an anti anxiety medication. With the information we've got from your parents and from you in our previous meetings, we can confidently diagnose you with major depression. With treatment and medication, it is a very manageable disorder. If you are willing to meet us halfway, we'll get there much faster, are you?"

"I want to not feel this way anymore, I want the help."

"That's great Riley. I feel as if you're doing better than when you first showed up, even though that was only a day ago. Because of your cooperation and good behavior you'll get the clothes your parents gave you."

"Thank you Dr. Gallagher."

"Now, I want to know how are you feeling with regards to self harm."

Riley reminded herself to not move too suspiciously fast. She tried to buy herself more time, "Can you be a little bit more specific?"

"Have you thought about doing while you were here?"

"Yesterday, yes." She decided to be semi-honest.

"I appreciate your honesty, why would you want to hurt yourself?"

Riley had looked up self-harm before she started doing it months ago, she remembered some of the reasons why but decided to choose the one she thougth she could identify with. "To feel something again."

At dinner that night, Max was there before Riley. Riley went through her normal routine and stashed one random pill for her hideaway. "The pills will be waiting for you in the utility closet, 5 minutes."

Riley walked back out and asked the nurse to be excused, he excused her.

Max followed suit 5 minutes later. He walked in and Riley was waiting for him.

"You want them? Come get them." With that she showed Max the pills in her mouth.

A smirk on his face, he inched forward until Riley grabbed his neck to pull him down to her. They kissed, impassioned and rapidly heating up. Max pulled his head back to swallow the pills he had retrieved. Quickly, he dipped his head back down and started to make out with her again. He picked her up and she wrapped her legs around him, his hands under her ass hoisting her up. He moved from her mouth to her neck, lightly biting it and she loved it. He pulled back and looked at her face and she gave him a face to let him know that she wanted him, all of him.

Mouth to mouth again, Max put down Riley and pushed down her baggy NYU sweats and then her underwear and he picked her back up again. Riley had her hands around Max's neck until one arm found his hips and she pulled down his black sweatpants. Once more, Max pulled back to make sure it was okay with Riley.

"Do it." Riley said with confidence.

He kissed her again and put her back against the wall and fucked her. He went back to her neck noticing how much she enjoyed it. Max looked down.

"Fuck Riley, you're bleeding."

"I don't care, keep going."

Max gave her a bewildering look but continued anyways, not slowing his fast pace.

Riley was in one of her pain induced highs, she loved the way it hurt but felt good at the same time. She loved the sight of her own blood. She loved the way that Max wasn't gentle, they weren't making love or any bullshit like that they were having sex, purely bodily sex.

With one final thrust, Riley lost whatever innocence she had left. She didn't care about the sentimental value of her virginity she needed this.

She found a towel in the closet, "Take this and clean yourself off and I'll leave after you. Meet you back at dinner."

Max cleaned himself and was about to leave until he turned back to Riley for one more intense kiss. "Thanks Matthews, I needed that."

So that's a first, let me know what you think haha

Disclaimer: still don't own GMW