38. I'm Afraid of Your Touch

'NANNNAMMI-CHAANN!"

The girl froze, her highschool book slipping dangerusly to the ground with a loud and deadly thud. He was home again.. He was home.

She swallowed and tried to breath as she stood up and tried to make her way to the closet. It was the only place she had in a one room flat; This was the only place where she would hide and hope he didn't find her.. So that he..

Didn't touch her again..

Her father was home and he had an act for gambling and drinking. Her mother was at work as the girl whimpered and shut the door, huddling in the corner. She was sacred, Why you ask?

Well..

The door slid open and Nanami started to whimper as hot tears streamed down her face and her father yanked her out onto the floor; he picked her pick by the hair if her head and dragged her to a wall; forcing he into it and then pushing his body to hers.

The sixteen year old wailed as he glared at her and smirked like a evil being from the underpits of Yomi. His hands trailed to her wrists as he pinned her and brought his mouth to her ear.

"Nanami-chan... Do you you know how long its been since me and your mother-"

"STOP IT!" Nanami wailed out; not wanting to hear anymore as the man gripped at her harshly. His glare deepened and the girl felt a slap go across her face before he reached forward at her. She tried to back up but the wall was in the way...

"Be a good girl Nanami-Chan.. And play with me."

The girl gulped back bile as she started to scream and cry out for help; but her father just smiled and looked her over, muttering Gwen's name as if all he saw was his wife. He was a drunkard and Nanami was trying to get away.

But she was alone.. and no one was going to walk into the door and help her. No one was going to stop this man from raping her and taking away everything; but then again.. he already did that since the day she turned thirteen.

He never went to far; He just touched her, never evading her or even going overboard; but she still hated the wandering hands..

She felt sick, Her stomach turned and she whimpered at the feeling of being disgusted. This was violating her... and she hated it.

She hated it!

Nanami gasped and jerked out of her sleep as she grabbed at her chest and prayed something was till there. Her shirt was still in place and when she threw her covers aside her lower half still carried its shorts and long socks.

It relieved her; but it also shook her up and made the sick feeling come back. He had touched her; but in his drunken state he was muttering her mother's name in a Sick manner. Nothing went to far; not enough to make her pregnant.. god if he went that far she would kill herself..

The girl stood up and tired her brown hair up in a messy pony tail; her feet shook as they touched the cold floor. It was carpeted and yet so chilly to the touch; the girl sighed loudly before making her way to the door and resting her head against it.

She breathed in a out; trying to take on her innocent mask that she had made. She was innocent to mst things but.. to Being touched? She wasn't... Not since the age of thirteen; Even then she woudl be in pain and Tomoe would ask her why.

She would say, Puberty or something like that; Nothing really apealed to him to talk about it more and Nanami was relieved that her friend didn't question her in these things. Her fingers brushed against the door and her breath quivered in the cold.

She hadn't had that nightmare since the day it happened; she had pushed it back and yet.. The other night when Tomoe pushed her into the wall? She had a flashback.. The only thing was that Tomoe wasn't touching her; The only thing he was doing was licking and biting at her soft neck.

She remembered his groans and how the noise of him licking and tasting her sounded. It sounded shill sdown her spine... It didn't remind her of her father, no.. Tomoe was far to gentle to be a molester of any sort.

But the feeling was scary and she knew that he could do what her father did when she was younger. It seemed to hit her like a ton of bricks..

Tomoe could hold her still and talk to her; he could force her to do things that scared the crap out of her; because he was stronger than her. She knew he would never do that; but it still lingered in her mind and scraed her to a new level of high.

The girl paused and run her finger over her body, Her shoulders first and then her legs... She could feel the scars and everything else that scared her at night. Nanami swallowed the bile that rose up in her throat and threatening to emtpy..

She had to focus on the matters at hand; And how..

Tomoe tasted..

The girl blinked and then stared at the door bumdfounded for a few seconds; why did she think that? Thegirl wasn't a yokai or anything like that but his skin was sweet; just like his lips. It was smooth and steady just like his seductive tongue and prolonged touches.

Nanami froze up and then slowly shook her head; trying to take away the thoughts that evaded her and made her feel completely out of it.

She blinked and fell over slowly on her bed; her body bounced and it reminded her of how she would jump on Tomoe's bed. He would glare at her and tell her to fix the sheets since she was messing up everything.

She giggled into the dark and then sighed; She was tired but her body was screaming and saying things like; He'll be there; Stay awake..

And so this made the girl squrim about and moan at her predicument. Nanami pulled her blaket over her head and hoped that she could sleep soon... Sadly her body was too awake and it was drizing her crazy..

Why it that everytime she feel asleep... That she had a nightmare of that time?

Tomoe groaned and ran a hand over his neck as he looked in the mirror and tried to release some steam. Those idiots!

Kurama and Mizuki were so dead when he got his hands on them! He ground his teeth and looked at HER teeth marks that had been planted on his neck the night before. It made his body shiver with an unknown and terrifing feeling.

The feeling wasn't terrifing because he was scared; no it was terrifing because it made his tail wag and he wanted to feel it again.

The foxes face burned hot as he stared dipodentaly at himself adn tried to think straight as to why he was acting so childishly. He grabbed a shirt and started to pull on; quickly hiding his bare chest and upper arms. He snapped his rubber band and then yawned.

He was tired but then again it wasn't early in the morning, when times were rough even for him. He buttoned his shirt and pants and then made his way to the door of his room; When he opened it he nearly let his eyes widen. His hand went to slam it back before he stopped himself and chewed his lip as his father looked at him and his high collar shirt.

"Can I come in?" Mikage muttered quietly.

The fox stiffened as he looked down; his hair shading his eyes, " I don't want you to-"

"I'm coming in." Mikage choked out as he pushed his way past the fox and then stood with his face towards the window. He folded his arms and pushed his glasses up on the bridge of his nose before turning to look at Tomoe.

Tomoe stared at him through his bangs before the godgrabbed his shirt collar and yanked it down to show off the blueish red mark that was on Tomoe's skin. The fox blushed and pushed away the rather shocked god and then looked at the ground as his breathing picked up.

"I knew it was strange of you to be holding you neck last night." Mikage sputtered and then tried to recompose himself from the recent scene.

Tomoe looked at him and then froze when his fathers cold glare penitrated his body. He swallowed as his violet eyes widened and then god clucked his tongue before shaking his head about in shock, " WHAT IS THAT ON YOUR NECK!? WHY IN THE NAME OF ALL KAMI DO YOU HAVE A HICKEY!?"

Tomeo blushed at the word and then tried to cover up the mark once more; He looked at Mikage and then swallowed, his throat completely dry.

"It was Kurama's idea to-"

"KURAMA GAVE YOU THAT!?" Mikage gasped in horror and then Tomoe glared at him for asuming the worst of him.

" No, Nanami did." The fox cursed out, his fists clenched. his father was making it out like a girl couldn't see him like that or even touch him with a kindness only lovers shared. He glared and then paused when he saw his father freeze up and look at him in complete shock.

Thats when Tomoe realized what he said; and how causlly he said it. His face burned and he quickly looked away, his heart stabbing him with a painful but wonderfully comforting and exciting pain.

The fox swallowed as he stuttered to explain, " Kurama told Nanami that if a female akes me bleed then my Full Moon Night will be cut short.' He looked away as Mikage took this information into play.

He grabbed Tomoe head an djerked it the side before clucking his tongue, " Oh hard did she bite you? You have a nice sized hickey..." The man touched it and then blinked when Tomoe let out an animalistic moan. he groaned and then the god let go of his head.

Mikage tapped his chin as Tomoe started to breath rapidly in embarrassment. That happened when he touched it too... It brought back the memory and it drove him completely crazy. He could even smell her.. and it made his mouth water shamelessy.

" You liked it didn't you?" Mikage slwoly pulled off a creep smile as the fox looked at him and started to color a shade of red he had never seen before. Tomoe whimpered and looked away; his body was shaking and then man chuckled at how his son was remotely acting towards a hickey mark.

His first one to be exact...

" I d-did not!" Tomoe glared but this voice shook; He didn't have time for this childish behaviour! He just wanted to take a walk adn relax today; and possibly get his mind off the constant dull ache in his neck.

Mikage nodded and then looked at his arms before smiling at the dulling marks. Yes, It was becoming scars but at least it was better then having to bleed to death. He patted his sons head and noticed how insecure Tomoe looked. His ears flattened and he looked completely confused.. As if he was fighting something off in his mind.

The father sighed and then patted the teens head; He knew Tomoe was till distant from him because when he ususaly had something on his mind he would share it. Expect for now.. Mikage would just give him time.. and maybe he would tell him one day.

He ruffled Tomoe's hair before he walked out the door; He looked back and saw Tomoe beat red and pouting. Mikage chuckled, he would hug him if Tomoe didn't want to murder him right now.

Mikage walked out and soon saw Tomoe walk out and throw a jacket on. He glanced at Mikage and then darted out the door as if he was trying to clear his head. The god chuckled and then blinked when Nanami ran past him and took off out the door towards Tomoe's direction.

He blinked and then paused, Nanami gave him that hickey and now they were both leaving the house and acting strange. He furrowed his brow and put on his shoes..

Maybe he should follow them, just in case..

" Leave me alone blockhead!" Tomeo fumed in annoyance for the fifth time.

He wanted peace and quiet; but no! Nanami just had to come and make his life even harder than it already was! He walked forwards; His white hair blowing about and making his eyesight hard. He growled and then stopped; letting Nanami bump into his back.

He was ticked off and he didn't know why. He hated having to have her follow him where ever he went. Even when they were younger she had this habit; as if he was something to cling too...

"NO!" Nanami growled and clenched his jacket in her hands; bundling up the cloth so that he couldn't walk off without her. He looked her in the eye and growled like an animal.

"Get off." He spat out annoyed. He was irriatated at the moment and having her cling to him was making it a new level of worse, in fact it was even more irritating because he had too smell her scent..

"NO!" She screamed again and then gripped his face so that it came to her eye level, " Don't tell me what to do Tomoe-Mikage!" She spewed out leaving Tomoe completely surprised that she even had the atittude to scream at him. He furrowed his brow as sparks seem to fly from her honey brown eyes.

Maybe it was the fire in her? Or the sun as it shone on them with its warming and welcoming rays..

She patted his head and Tomoe looked at her annoyed beyond compare.

"Why must you follow me? I want to be alone.." He closed his eyes and almost let himself lean into her touch; but he thought better of it and pulled back. He had to be out it since the earlier experience between them..

Plus things were not going to well with his Friends; Mizuki's mother had cancer and Kurama's brother Jiro was being taken back a grade for some odd reason. ( Fighting in school.. It can give you bad grades; believe me. ) That only meant that Jiro would be coming to their classroom and ticking off Tomoe even more.

He was like a big old galoot. He had no thought in his senses and Tomoe feared for Nanami when he was around her. He had sprained her arm once by just reaching forward and accidently twisting it.

His father was staying home now and for Tomoe it was odd; since he didn't have to cook meals all the time and the god was always there talking about his digital prayer service. The fox didn't want to listen since all it was about was idiotic people and how they seemed to gloat over how much they loved each other.

It made Tomoe gag in disgust, He hated relationships and things like that. Love was strange to him and it made no sense at all. All they did was get married so they could reproduce right? But then again... If he wanted to know what love was?

His Mother and Father was a prime example.

They had loved each other with no problems attached. If love could be like that? Then he would would settle for it...

The fox sighed and looked awya from the girl who was looking at him in annoyance, ' Says you. I want to be alone at times to but your the one that always tags along." She pouted and the fox felt his body go rigged wth pain.

"Well Then, Sorry That I am an add on to your pain." He mumbled under his breath and started to walk forward, Sadly Nanami latched onto his sleeve and he felt two slender arms wrap around his torsoe. The fox blinked as he felt her hot breath against his jacket..

" Neer think you are a add on. " She muttered quietly. His ears pikced up her soft tones and oh how his heart melted slightly at her touch. He wanted to grab at his chest and make the pain go away before he started to breath heavily.

Nanami turned the fox around until they were bth looking at other, " Tomoe.. You have always been my best friend. To be truthful... When things were hard you were the only friend I could look to. I didn;t really have Kurama and Mizuki at the time." She smiled weakly as her brown hair whipped in the cool that threatened to take Tomoe's breath away.

She was acting strange; almost to vulnerable.. and her air of innocence, even though it was there, she seemed to be experiencing something that was confusing..

The fox wanted to fidget away ; to look away from her sad eyes; but... He had been very protective of his friends, especially Nanami. She was the only Friend that took the pain of his absent mother and stored it back into his mind.

Tomoe stood there with his eyes unreadable for a few seconds. Then Nanami hugged him close to her; his heart started throb at her conduct but he did not care. He slowly returned the hug and paused when she took a deep breath.

his eyes grew wide but he didn't exactly know why; maybe it was the fact that he was shaking in her arms.. Or the fact that Nanami let out a shaky breath as if on the verge on tears.

The fox cursed mentally and buried his face into the crook of her neck; wanting to stop the tears before they came.

What was wrong with his best friend, And why did her purity smell tainted to his animal like senses?

He couldn't make it out.. It was too hard for him; but he did hold her closer, Pressing her against him so that he could keep her warm. Her form was shaking and it had to be from the cold winds whipping about them.

He gripped at her hair and sighed in her neck; trying to breath and recollect his fuzzy thoughts; But it was in vain.. Nothing was helping him think straight at the moment. He pressed his mouth softly against the top of her ear and held her tightly.

The girl apused in his arms and he felt her hands come up and clench his jacket with his fists. It made him whimper and for some reason he coudln't stop himself... He flicked his tongue dangerously over her ear and then blinked when the girl screeched and pushed him away.

His body was forced from hers and the girl looked at him with pertrifed eyes; something Tomoe had never seen before. Come to think of it why was she acting like this when he had been carried away by his shamless animal instincts before?

He had to admit that licking her was wrong, even to him, A person who thought that showing emotion was stupid, was a little out of his own range. His animal instincts were stronger then usual and even though he wasn't on Full Moon Night he still felt slight side affects. Doing this to his best friend made his stomach churn.

It ticked him off to think that he couldn't control his body as much as he used to. Being like this was strange for him and downright embarrassing. He hated doing this; he hated the thought of touching her like that..

His eyes glassed over as he tried to think straight; He was shamed by his actions but there was something off. Maybe it was the fact that he usually would lick her, ( Not that he was proud of this fact; it madd him sick ) And she would throw it off like it wasn't anything.

So why after only using a small lick.. Did she look at him like he was hurting her?

"Nanami?" He questioned as she shook violently in front of him; Yes.. Her air of innocence was definatly not there; and her purity... Smelled tainted and messed up.

He paused as they stared at each other as the wind whipped their hair about. Their breath seemed to fog and it made Tomoe wonder how cold it really was..

" We should head back.." Nanami mutterd slightly. She turned her back on the fox and started to walk back...

His eyes traveled to her and he paused in confusion. She wasn't skipping about like usual; if fact she was walking with her hips swaying back and forth; She looked more like a woman then the girl he grew up with and for some reason it sent his heart plummeting to his stomach.

There was somthing wrong; He didn't know what but she looked at him as if..

He was a monster..

Nanami shivered as she walked away; her body was stiff and all she could do was walk in a straight line without straying and trying to understand what just happened.

When he hugged her back she felt comforted; but for some reason she felt sick to the stomach as he buried his face into her neck. It wasn't like him...

He was being to affectionate; and to be truthful it was scaring the crap out of her.

She heard him whimper and when she tugged at his jacket his grip tightened. Her heart had picked up a beat. It was like a strange excitment went throughout her body; leaving her frozen stiff. Then the excitment mixed with fear as his mouth pulled at her ear and his delicate tongue flicked aross it like it was something tasty.

She had felt her face flush but that was not what bothered her. It was the fact that he was a guy... The way it settled in her mind made her push him away before she go agianst the thought.

Yes, Tomoe was a male; but that didn;t mean he woudl try to hurt her. Not all men were like that.. Especially not Tomoe. The fox was her best friend since grade school and they knew amost everything there was to know about each other..

Almost anyway..

Tomoe didn't scar her... But the excitment that went through her and made her heart pound? That scared her...

He was a male and he could gain power over her with a flick of his wrist; But she knew he wouldn't. It was the fact that he was a male that struck her and made her weak at the knees. It was like a strange sense of fear and anxiety went through her body. As if she was afriad of the male kind and what it coudl do to someone as defensless as her.

Thats why she pushed away and screamed; It felt like Tomoe was holding her to tightly and his body heat was bothering her... She knew he wouldn't do anything to hurt her; especially not phyiscally... but.. It was like she got afriad of him because he was a male and had to upper hand in the situation.

Yes she believed woman could do anything in their own way; They could be anything and defend themselves. She wasn't sexist.. But she did know for a fact that Tomoe was stronger.. not just from being a teenage boy; but from being a yokai with a gods blood as well.

She had gotten frightened and pushed him away without even thinking about how Tomoe would react.

He had looked ather confused and maybe hurt? She wasn't sure but he did seem confused at the moment.. She had to get away from here.. She had too.

Mikage blinked as his son hugged the girl to his body and started to run his tongue over her ear. The god was pretty sure he did NOT teach Tomoe how to do that. He got so many traits from his mother that it made the blond god whimper with pride.

He had watched Nanami clench his jacket and his son made a muffled moan. It surprised him and for some reason even the god was embarrassed from watching a scene. Especially since it was in public and Tomoe seemed out it.

He was surprised when Nanami pushed him away and a silence hung between then. The god didn't know what to do and for some reason conflict stormed in the foxes eyes and then twirled to a hault.

When Nanami walked away Mikage knew something was going on; And the look on Tomoe's face proved it also.. It was like she was afraid of his touch..

His son watched her walk away and Mikage almost snorted when Tomoe stared truned pink. He crused at himself and looked at the gorund like it was his enenmy.

Sadly that one fact still laid on Mikage's mind..

'Was she afriad... Of Tomoe's Touch?

Hey guys! Okay, Just to explain, Nanami is not afraid of Tomoe. Its the flashback of when she was younger that she is afraid of.. That and Men. Tomoe is not really included in this since he's her Best friend and she trusts him and his better judgment ( Even after kissing her several times and licking her neck a bit.. )

And, Please R &R! I loved writing and hope to write more... As soon as I overcome this fever.. I feel like I could pass out from the heat coming off my body.. Wah..

Credit to : Ai-Star for helping me out in this chapter! XD Thank you friend.