Hey guys so last time I got some reviews on how this was unrealistic, it's obviously not meant to be. I don't do intensive research because I do this for fun also I'm not going to write anything remotely close to what's on the show because the show already covers it. I know Riley would never be like this, duh. This shit I write is never ever going to be on the show or even like the characters at all, especially this chapter. Also sorry it's been so long. I had no idea what to do with the story and I'm not sure lol. Don't be mean in the comments plz. Let me know if I make grammatical errors. This chapter will be rated M, the whole story should be rated that too but oh well.
Recollection of the night was shaky at best, she remembered denying Max's drugs but she drank quite a bit and could have went back on her initial denial. The alarm she had set on her phone went off, she expected the noise to sound like death but Riley woke up still drunk, a blessing and a curse. She woke up in Max's arms, surprisingly there were no kids around the hotel like she had expected. Those kids probably had their parents cars come pick them up.
Riley slithered out of Max's grasp, careful to not wake him up. She gathered her stuff, showered and changed into what clothes she brought for school, she threw on sunglasses to hide her booze eyes. She didn't like being that cliché but it was 7 AM and she was drunk and didn't want to cause a scene walking into school. People have done it before, it was high school in New York City, kids drank all the time but it was never expected from Riley. She wasn't sure what her friends besides Maya knew about her current situation but she'd never bring it up.
She walked through the halls with the occasional stumble. She wasn't belligerently drunk strolling through the lockers but she had most definitely not slept it off, she had alcohol and maybe other substances in her system. Riley was spotted by her first friend, Zay. He waved her over so she went over to him.
"Hey Riley, what's up?"
"Nothing much, just dreading school today. I barely slept last night." She took off her sunglasses. Riley thought it would at least cover her ass with Zay, he wiggled his eyebrows in a suggestive fashion. Riley laughed it off "Ew Zay, no. I have to get my stuff from my locker, I'll see you later on." With that, Riley walked away and convinced herself that she had gotten past Zay, the easiest person to fool albeit but it was a small step.
Riley got to her first period class with Farkle and immediately put her head down on her desk. Maya might have said something to Farkle but he didn't seem concerned about her so she assumed Maya opted out of telling Farkle, Lucas is a different story.
"Tired?" Farkle asked and laughed.
Riley just swatted her hand as a sign to leave her alone and that was it. She tried to sleep through first period but the spins hit and she felt slightly nauseous, slightly drunk. Her next class was with Maya and she had to pull her shit together and fast.
If Riley looked rough, Maya looked worse. She was wearing big sweatpants and a sweatshirt to school, sure those were those kids who did that frequently but Maya was never one of them. Her eyes were bloodshot and barely staying open. Maya's eyes had always been windows to her soul but if they were any indication of how she was taking this break up, it was not good.
The two messes of best friends sat down at their seats with a lingering, uncomfortable silence but neither dared to break it.
Maya skipped lunch to go to the art room, Lucas went to the school's track, Farkle stayed in the library so Zay and Riley sat alone, small talk here and there but Riley left early to go to the library, everything was so loud and she was very sensitive to smell now that it was a full blown hangover.
School had ended without anyone catching on that Riley was hungover and they were all packing up their things when Riley caught Maya and Lucas making eye contact. There was sadness in her glassy eyes and anger in his sultry stare. Riley had to intervene, she was the reason they broke up even though she didn't want that to happen. She chose to walk to Maya.
"Hey peaches, want to grab a coffee at Topangas? My treat"
Maya was hesitant but only said "Okay."
The walk to Topanga's was silent until Riley spoke up "Do you want to talk about it yet? I am here for you, you know that, right?"
"Are you really here for me though?" Maya seriously questioned.
"Of course I am Maya, I am sorry. I need to tell you everything you need to know. You are my best friend and I don't want my problems to be yours but you deserve to know what you want to know so let's pick up coffee and go to my bay window."
Maya let the smallest smile slip and agreed.
"So what do you want to tell me, Riles?"
"Everything, that is if you want to know it…" Riley looked at Maya for confirmation.
"I do" Maya answered.
"Okay so I'll start with the Belleview, that's where I met Max and he knows about my depression, he has BPD, borderline personality disorder. He helped me navigate the whole place and he was my only friend in there." Riley stopped and Maya sensed her hesitation.
"What happened with him, he didn't hurt you right?" Maya asked.
Riley scoffed "Oh god no! I, well, I made a move and enticed him into the janitor's closet and I had sex with him."
"You what?" Maya was shocked but giggled at the same time.
"It was sort of crazy I know but I initiated everything and he was always so nice and always was helping me, he isn't a bad guy. He got me to do extra therapy sessions and stuff like that but he's someone I can talk to candidly about everything because when I talked about hurting myself he didn't run or try to change me he just listened. I don't expect you to do that and I love that you care about me but it's just so different with him."
"Okay, I understand, so what happened yesterday?" Maya asked.
Riley was appreciating Maya's kindness and open mindedness about the whole situation.
"We went around central park, talked, did cheesy things like that and for the sake of total honesty had sex in his hotel suite. He got the suite because he was having a party before he had to go back to school, he goes to Columbia Prep, he's a senior there and 17 years old. He doesn't know I'm fourteen but soon I'll be 15 so no big deal. Anyways, That's beside the point. He was in Belleview for a while and now he wanted to hang out with his friends and drink…can I be really honest with you, Maya?"
"I want you to be Riley."
"I drank a lot and I have no idea what I did, drinking silences the voices for a while so I drink a lot while I can. Also at Charlie's party, I had sex with him, it was weird and I don't want to do it again." Riley left out the cuts on herself and about the drugs, she possibly may or may not have taken.
"I am really happy you told me this, you know I won't tell any of this I promise." Maya thought about that and realized how much easier it would be now that her and Lucas were no longer talking.
Riley didn't know whether to bring it up or not but she decided she should try "Maya, do you want to talk about Lucas? If not it's okay but I just want you to know I am really over it. I like Max a lot and I don't know what will happen with him but I do not want to be with Lucas and I want you to be happy. Josh was just really wrong about everything."
"I believe you that you don't want to be with him, I really do but I should have never done that in the first place, been with him." Maya answered candidly.
"You should because you like each other and you both deserve to be happy."
"I think he hates me now Riley, it's okay I can be by myself for a while, plus, I have my best friend with me." Maya let off a weak smile.
"Of course you do" Riley put her arm around Maya's shoulder and pulled her closer to her "but why not have us both? Does this have anything to do with the fact that you guys had sex? Did something happen?"
"No that wasn't it, I mean it was a little awkward but nothing that I would break up with him over."
"Maya, is there something else you want to tell me?" Riley asked.
"No, I was a terrible friend to you by starting a relationship with him, I love him but I love you more."
"You know I want you to be happy and whenever you want to tell me anything, I'm here for you."
"Thank you Riles, for everything today."
"Would Missy Bradford even want us there?" Maya questioned
"Maya, Riley, would I lie to you guys? She doesn't care who goes! It's a party." Zay proclaimed.
"Whad'ya thinkin?" Riley asked Maya.
"I could use the stress relief, count me in." Maya answered. Zay and Maya turned to Riley eagerly.
"Okay, okay I will go too." Riley answered.
"Awesome, text you ladies tonight!" And with that Zay left.
"It's a Friday night and we need to have some fun, even if Lucas goes there too. Where will your boy toy be, will we ever formally meet?" Maya asked.
Riley and Max had been texting throughout the week and even had sex in his driver's back seat yesterday, with the divider up of course. She asked him about what had happened the night of his party but like her, he had no recollection.
"I wasn't going to invite him, he has a lot of work to catch up on." It was sort of true but Riley was scared if he hung out with a bunch of freshman he wouldn't like her anymore.
"Well think about it!" The bell rang separating the best friends and they went to their separate classes.
Maya and Riley were getting ready at Maya's for a change. Katy was working late so they had a chance to pregame before the party without an adult around. Maya chose a dress while Riley chose another big sweater and a skirt. She hadn't cut since Max came back into her life but the cuts were there and they aren't healing as fast as they used to, pink slashes that never seem to clear up line her body.
"Take a shot Maya, you could use it." Riley looked over to Maya who was caking on make up underneath her eyes trying to cover up the evidence of her break up.
Maya didn't need convincing, she held out her hand for Riley to hand her a shot. She took it back fast and held it out again, Riley went to take the glass.
"No, no. That means fill me back up."
Riley giggled and obliged to Maya, she had a feeling tonight would be crazy, but in a good way.
Zay picked the two girls up and they took the subway to Missy's party. Maya was pretty tipsy already while Riley was only a little tipsy, she couldn't be more drunk than Maya tonight. What if Maya needed her? That's not to say that Riley wouldn't drink her fair share, though.
Zay noted the two holding hands and being your typical drunk girls, he laughed and then said nothing about it because the two of them were happy, the happiest he's seen them in a long time.
That genuine happiness that has been missing from Riley's life was coming back into view, she hadn't cut, she was a little drunk, her best friend was here with her, no conflict and she had an awesome guy to take care of her when she just didn't feel okay, this was the start of something good for her, she just felt it.
When they walked into the party they spotted Lucas and Farkle drinking together, Farkle waved but Riley just followed Maya as she dashed toward the drinking games and the cute boys. Missy was very popular, there were kids from other schools and even one that Riley vaguely remembers from Max's party; they smile at each other but everyone at that party was really fucked up so they didn't try to talk. Riley kept a not so vigilant eye on Maya while Maya drank mixed drinks and flirted with the sophomore boy who was in one of Farkle's advanced classes.
Riley asked Farkle "What's his deal, is he up to Maya standards?"
Farkle laughed and responded, "He's a good guy, pretty smart, kinda quiet but he seems to be letting loose tonight. I'd say he fits the bill, don't tell Lucas though."
So Riley let her eyes wander and attempted to give Maya privacy, besides, the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else. But then she realized that hours had passed and it was nearing midnight and Maya was nowhere to be found.
Riley stumbled outside to look for Maya, kids from the party went to the alley on the side of Missy's building smoking cigs or whatever they could get their hands on, really. Riley guessed with Maya letting loose that she might be out there but she only found Lucas smoking a cigarette with a bottle of jack in his hands. He never looked at Riley, he was just staring blankly at the brick wall in front of him.
"Lucas?" that caught his attention.
"Oh look, it's Riley." The anger that was in his eyes before had not left. The alcohol ignited the flame, maybe this was Texas Lucas.
"Have you seen Maya?" Riley asked. Lucas removed the cigarette from his lips just to replace it with the glass bottle.
"I have not, you had her break up with me, remember?" There was venom in his voice.
"I didn't want that to happen, you two were good together." Riley countered.
Lucas took one last hit of his cigarette before extinguishing it below his work boot and he went to walk away silently. That was until Riley spoke.
"Lucas, please talk to her if you find her."
Something that Riley said set him off, one of his hands was wrapped around Riley's throat while the other held his bottle securely.
"You fucked this up for me Riley, you fucked it up real bad."
Riley tried to answer, she wanted to tell him that she'd fix it all but she could barely breathe. Lucas noticed her struggle and let go after a few more seconds. Riley heeled over trying to catch her breath. It was only Lucas, he wouldn't do anything else, right? Wrong.
He wrapped one arm around her waist, bottle still in that hand and one over her mouth and picked her up and brought her around the back of Missy's building where no one could hear or see them. Riley was terrified at this point. He shoved her against the wall, her facing the wall and him behind her, one of his hands covering her mouth. She knew she should bite him or wriggle her way out but she was paralyzed by the fear that he would do worse if she tried that. So he did what he wanted to her. His hand left her mouth momentarily but she was shoved against the wall so there was no running, she appealed to him.
"Please Lucas, don't do this. Please." He put down his bottle and put that hand over her mouth again. That was the last opportunity Riley got to talk. Lucas ripped at her underwear until they were completely off and then unzipped his pants and that was it. Lucas was raping Riley,
she hoped her muffled cries and the tears hitting his hands would be enough to stop him. She didn't want anyone to see her like this, especially Maya. But no one came and he didn't stop until he was finished. He zipped himself back up, picked up his bottle and walked out of that alley leaving behind a broken Riley Matthews.
She gathered herself and sat against the wall, silently staring at the ground while quiet tears fell. Until someone found her, "Riley?"