Chapter 4

*Back at the camp*

Clarke had another seizure after she went to sleep. This time foam didn't come out her mouth, blood did. Scaring Jasper and Monty who were on duty to watch her. Raven calmed her down and cleaned the blood off her chin. Clarke was laying down sweating with two blankets on her but still shivering. Finn sat with her for ages, which meant Raven never left the drop ship. Eventually Monty needed help with the radio and called Raven away, giving Finn his chance to speak to Clarke freely.

"Clarke" Clarke fluttered her eyes opened and turned her head only slightly to avoid getting dizzy and throwing up again.

"Hey" she croaked. He smiled looking at her like this, so weak, physically hurt him. He couldn't bear it. She was the strong one, the one that kept everyone together when they couldn't do it themselves

"I'm sorry" he said

"I told you I'd take the arrow for you again" she whispered

"Not for that. For Raven" he said looking down "what we had" he shook his head "what we have isn't nothing to me" he corrected.

She looked back up tears now falling out the corner of her eyes. He moved closer and wiped them off "I forgive you. But she's here now. For you. It's only fair you give it a shot with her" she smiled "not that you have a choice considering I won't be there anyone"

"Don't say that. They're bringing back a cure" he said convincing himself more than her

"What are the chances that they'd make it in time? And even if they do I think the poison has spread enough" Clarke said accepting her fate

"Clarke stop it. Don't give up on me okay. You have to make it. We can't do this with you. I can't." he said letting a tear out and then quickly wiped it when he heard Raven walking in talking about Monty almost ruining the radio. She saw the intensity on their faces and moved to Clarke to change the rag on her forehead.

Clarke breathed in as she felt the coolness on her face. She closed her eyes and let it sooth her throbbing headache. Jasper ran in then "they're back" he said happy Clarke would live. He owed her his life for never giving up on him when he got skewered.

Raven then saw Lincoln and Octavia walk in with Bellamy behind them. Lincoln moved closer to Clarke and Finn stood up as if to protect her stopping Lincoln.

Bellamy came and put a hand on his shoulder and nodded forcing Finn to move. He knew that if Bellamy was letting Lincoln into the camp it must be for a good reason. Lincoln stood at Clarke's head and saw how gray and cold she was. She was shivering and sweating at the same time. He lifted her eyelids with his fingers and checked how responsive they were. He then pulled up her shirt and checked the bandage. He saw the white and yellow liquid Octavia was explaining to him.

"She's had two seizures and she's coughing up blood now" Raven said breaking the silence.

Bellamy looked up at Raven, he wasn't there to comfort Clarke. But he had to be with Octavia. He pushed down the voices arguing in his head and registered what Lincoln was saying.

"Because the arrows out we have to crush the herbs make it a paste and pour it into the wound. Then you can close it." he explained

Octavia nodded "Monty go get what we need to crush it and Jasper get the moonshine, needle and thread" she ordered.

"Wait" Lincoln said stopping Jasper and Monty in their tracks. He turned to Bellamy "the poison has spread. The chances of the cure working are not good. She will be in a large amount of pain and it will be worst before better." it was like there was only a list of cons and everyone in the room was frozen.

"Either way she won't make it. I say we take the chances. It's Clarke" Monty said.

"Why don't we ask her" Bellamy said stepping forward. He brushed his hand on her cold cheek making her eyes open

"Hey, you're back" she whispered.

He smiled "Yeah. We got the cure"

"but" she waited for the bad part of that sentence

"It's gonna be really painful and there a chance it won't work" he said quickly.

She nodded before she could say anything Octavia moved closer "Clarke you have to fight. Take the cure" she looked at Octavia. She nodded again and then looked at Bellamy

"Okay. I'll do it."

"We don't have anything to knock you out. But you can have some moonshine if you want" Jasper commented.

She smiled "I think I can take it without the moonshine"

Bellamy smirked "brave princess" he whispered only for her to hear.

Jasper and Monty crushed the herbs per Lincoln's instructions as Octavia pulled up Clarke's shirt halfway. She opened the bandage and began cleaning it making Clarke contort her face in pain.

Monty handed Lincoln the bowl of crushed herbs and waited for him to add just the right amount of liquid to make it a paste. He then mixed it and turned to Clarke "Okay. Are you ready?" Clarke looked at Bellamy with tears in her eyes.

"Hey it's gonna be okay" he said stepping forward. He was gonna hold her hand to comfort her then realised everyone was looking at them.

"Listen if I don't make it-" she started

"Don't say that. You're gonna make it" Finn interrupted

"If I don't" she carried on "Octavia I need you to carry on in the drop ship, you're the only one I trust to do it" she said looking at Octavia smiling "also don't listen to your brother about Lincoln" she whispered making Lincoln smile too.

She then turned to Raven "I'm sorry for coming in the middle of you and Finn" Raven let a tear escape realising she's been so worried about her and Finn she hadn't registered she might lose someone who saved her. Someone she considered a friend "Don't be silly. I don't blame him, you're beautiful and strong. And I know you can beat this" Raven said holding Clarke's other hand.

"Okay" she nodded. Bellamy was kind of hurt she never said anything to him.

Lincoln stepped forward Raven and Octavia moved out the way and before Bellamy could move she grabbed his hand.

"You can do this. I know you can. I believe in you Bell. You're not the monster you think you are" he knew she was talking about leading himself.

She closed her eyes preparing for it gripping his hand tighter. "I need someone to hold her legs down too" Lincoln said as he put a clean rolled up bandage in Clarke's mouth for her to bite down on. Finn held one and Jasper held the other. Lincoln tipped the bowl over her wound and let the paste drop into the wound.

At first the slight burn of something in the wound made her grit her teeth. Then it all hit Clarke in one go. The pain was blinding making her see spots. She spat the bandage out her mouth and could hear herself screaming, but it wasn't enough to stop the pain.

"Please! Please make it stop. Bell" she cried blood splattering out her mouth and sticking to her chin. She then tried to kick her legs away from Finn and Jasper. They held it down while Bellamy held both her hands ready to start crying by the pain he was in just seeing her.

He couldn't take her begging him. "I can't" he said letting go of her hands. Raven held onto her hands and began trying to calm her down as Bellamy walked out.

Octavia followed him "Bell, what are you doing?"

"I can't. I can't just see her in pain like that. This is all my fault" he said sitting down.

Octavia moved closer to him and knelt to his eye level "Bell-" before she could carry on Monty ran out "she's not breathing" he shouted wide eyed.