Note: Okay , I might of scared a few people with the last chapter! Let me just say this! I do NOT write lemons so none of you have to worry. I swear.. This si part of the plot and it adds on, I promise. So, Just to let you guys know.. I do NOT write lemons.. Enjoy this chappie guys!

61. Love Me, For Me

Tomoe moaned and yawned and winced out, he was exhausted and he didn't feel like moving. He couldn't really think about why he was so tired.. he hadn't this tired in a while.

The fox stretched slightly, twisting his back a bit, his tail curling a bit as he yawned. His ear twitched a bit as he snuggled his face into his pillow, not understanding why his pillow smelled like vanilla.

This made his pause as he opened his eyes slightly; things were a bit blurry as he moved to see what he was holding, His vision slightly clearing enough for him to see a splash of brown. He blinked his sleep out of his eyes and looked down slightly at what, or should he say who.. was beside him.

Nanami slept in his bed again? He almost rolled his eyes until he noticed her deshelved appearance...He paused for a minute until his breath sucked in. W-Wait...

Wait, WAIT! Tomoe backed out rather quickly, suddenly noticing his loose clothes and scuffy hair. His eyes grew wide as heat grew up his neck, making him whimper in hope. It couldn't of been...

Tomoe ran his tongue over his kanines and blinked, They weren't sharp anymore, They weren't bared in fact his tail wasn't even tender. The fox bit his lip as memories rushed to his head making him feel unexplainably sick. No... He slowly looked at Nanami and Noticed a few red marks near her collar bone. Her shirt collar slightly loose..

No, No... NO! Thats when Tomoe yelped and fell off the bed backwards, His gasp filling the air as his body made contact with the floor. His eyes were wide as he stared up at the roof, his skin growing pale as he remembered EVERYTHING. Oh No...

What had he done? What had he been thinking? His Full Moon week.. Everything.. The fox choked and nearly puked, what had he been thinking? He stared up at the roof, his heart slowly sinking into his stomach. What had he been thinking?

Oh Yeah..

His father had hurt him again.. and he... Was making him mad, With...Tomoe choked and froze up a bit, his stomach churned with a sick feeling and what made it worse was when Nanami poked her head from on the top of the bed and they both stared at each other speachless.

Tomoe looked away, his hair shading his eyes as he started to feel more and more sick. What had he been thinking.. With Nanami, He.. He covered his mouth slightly and rolled on his side, forgetting about the roof and the fact that Nanami was staring down at him from where he fell off the matress.

Her eyes were wide from each others appearances.. What had happened? They both stared at each other before scrambling up and making a large distance between them,

" What The.." Tomoe choked as he looked at himself, His clothes loose, He looked up at Nanami with terrified eyes, they both stared at each other slightly. Not knowing what the other was thinking, but Tomoe did say something that expressed his shock,

" What the heck!?" He choked out and Nanami blinked. Tomoe looked down as his face burned in shock, he knew exactly happened last night.. Everything happened so fast that he could't control it when he wanted it to. What had they done?

What did they do!?

Earlier

Mizuki bit his lip as he looked up at the clock, his eyes groggily from having his music in his ears and turned up full force all night. His body was heavy but the snake had been scared all night long. He didn't think Tomoe and Mikage had a bad relationship, but what he saw proved a lot of pain had been going on with them all..

Mizuki woudl have slapped himself for not knowing, but he was the youngest and he didn't know much as to what happened, he was still slightly morotifed by the fact that Tomoe and Nanami made out a few nights ago and Nanami confessed she liked Tomoe, it might of not of been to the fox; but it was to herself..

That was a big step in itself.

The snake winced as he stood up and made his way to the hallway, last night he and Nanami had went out their doors to see if Tomoe was okay; all the screaming that was caused made the snake shudder slightly as he made his way towards the girls room.

He streched a bit and scratched his neck as he lifted his hand to knock on the door; but when his hand hit the said door? It slowly slipped open, reveiling a untouched bed and a lamp. He blinked in confusion but said nothing, He was going to check on Tomoe..

Maybe he knew where Nanami-chan was? Besides he had to check on him anyway; he had been so mad last night that it shcoked him. he wasn't used to seeing Tomoe cry like that, in fact it was shocking.. Of couse he had seen it before, but it was rare to see it like that.

The snake sighed out and knocked on Tomoe's door, of cousre he didn't get an answer so he jiggled the handle and found it unlocked, her arched his brow. Tomoe was far more causious then that..

Mizuki sighed out and waved it off as he opened the door and walked in slightly; but when he looked up to say something? He sqeauked and backed up a bit, his eyes wide in shock. There in the bed.. with messy hair and clothes was Nanami and Tomoe..

No way..

Tomoe had his arm around Nanami possessivly and his face was buried in her neck, he was breathing slightly, his white hair covered his eyes only slightly. Nanami looked completely out of it, in a deep sleep.

Of couse Mizuki knew this was habit between them, but there was something different here that he couldn't explain, and he didn't want to explain it either. The snake covered his mouth and almost gasped out as he quickly backed out of the room and closed the door.

His hands shook in shock, last night Tomoe was really mad, That woudln't mess with his better judgement right? And Nanami-chan like Tomoe-kun.. So..

No..

The snakes eyes grew wide before turned around on his heel and ran back into his room, being careful not to slam the door ; He slid down the door with wide eyes. His innocent eyes shaking in shock as he hugged his knees and quivered,

He had to keep this a secret, he had too! But.. he hoped they woke up soon, Gwen was almost home since it was almost time for her shift to end. The snake winced and suddenly felt sick, Nanami was so innocent and he used to think that Tomoe-kun was to; but what he just saw made him shiver.

They were his friends, no, they were more like family. So what was he going to do? When he saw that he made him go sick slightly.,, This was hi sfamily, but... His family was growing up to much for him.

And He felt like he was the youngest in the group, they didn't know what he was going through at the moment.. His mother was dying, but Maybe Tomeo would understand? But.. Tomeo and his dad was fighting! And now he saw Tomeo and Nanami..He covered his mouth and bit his lip,

What was he going to do? Everyone he knew was pain, and he wanted to help.. but he couldn't.

Because he was in pain too..

Back To Present Time

Nanami had fixed her hair and got up rather quickly when she realized the time, Tomoe on the other hand? He was in the bathroom; she honestly didn't know but she had to hurry.. The girl pulled her hair in a pony tail as she rushed downstairs, The girl sharged into the kitchen and started to scramble something quickly,

Hopefully her mother was late coming home.. but as for Tomoe?

Well...

The fox choked and puked again, his eyes wide. He was shaking, his clawed hands shivering and his body shaking from the shell shock of all of this. There was no way! Was he drunk, drugged? Slightly insane!?

The fox slumped and sliped to the floor, laying his thordding head on the cold tile of the bathroom. He didn't feel well, but of course his puking proved all of this. The fox whimpered slightly, not wantitng to think about last night, regretting every minute of it.

He had a motive of course, but...

That didn't stop him from being unexplainably guilty. Nanami was his best friend for the love of everything! She was innocent and sweet, she had always been there for him; but what had happened last night.. It made the fox sick, He had done something so wrong.

Lats night was wrong! He knew it was, but his anger at his father and his full moon night twisted together only made his situation worse. Tomoe hugged his stomach as he goraned out in pain... he felt sick.

He coudln't look at her right now! She woudl be so mad at him, he.. He used her as a tool. A tool of revenge, and now his guilt was so deep that he coduln't get it to go away. He felt like everything was crashing around him, hating him for what he had done.

And he didn't blame it one bit.

He hated himself too..

His best friend, that little girl with that sweet smile. She was innocent and kind, and he just.. Tomoe got sick again, he ran a hand through his white hair, his violet eyes shaking.

What had he done? Nanami never deserved ANY of this! And to make it worse.. If she gound out she was used by him? That this was all for revenge!? She would be reminded of her sexually abusive father, and their friendship would tear and break..

Tomoe felt hismelf go pale as he whimpered and choked slightly, the guilt building up. He couldnt tell her that. He woudl never forgive himself, In fact he probably never would, and Nanami.. She had went through something like that. If she.. Found out..

She would never forgive him!

Yes he had wanted to make his father mad and angry at him, he wanted his father to hate him and leave him alone for good; but.. He didn't think that he would do something as stupid as this,

He just,

Made a bigger mess around him...

And Now his best freind had been invovled in such a vulgar act that if she ever did forgive him?

He wouldn't be able to forgive himself..

Nanami sighed out in relief when she finished making the eggs, And on time too. Her mother had opened the main door by jiggling the keys in the lock and walking in with her brown hair everywhere.

She looked exhausted, and Nanami didn't blame her. Working late and not being able to rest? That was hard in itself.. The girl sighed out, Plus she missed the big blow out argument last night.

But there was one thing that made Nanami pause..

It was a really heavy feeling in the pit of her stomach when she saw her mother; like an anxious, Guilty feeling. The girl suddenly swallowed and blinked. Oh gosh.. Last night. Her mother was a very logical woman, but she had rules.

And Nanami broke several HUNDRED of those within the Night Tomoe kissed her and then last night was icing on the cake. This wasn't good..

" M-Mom!" Nanami smiled as her mom looked at her with a tired smile. She reached out and hugged her daughter slightly, to tired to see the choked necklace Nanami wore to cover her hickey mark. She blushed a bit as her mother sighed out and patted her head,

" I'm sorry I'm late.. they needed extra work.' She patted her daughters head and then winced, " Honey.. Can mama go get some sleep?" The woman pouted and the girl nodded slowly, not understanding what to do but say yes. Her mother was a hard worker.

It was good this house was paid off and Mikage was letting them live there; but he was hardly home, and last night he had stormed out. In fact she didn't know where he was, but she did know that he scared her.. and..He..

Hurt Tomoe.

She pouted lightly as her mother climbed the stairs to her room, leaving the girl to sigh until the front door banged open and Sobo rushed in screaming at Mikage who was dragging behind with a lost look on his face.

But something made her stomach turn as she backed up and gagged slightly,

He was drunk? But.. That wasn't Mikage! Not to her, she was kind and a slightly goofy man! The girl yelped a bit as she backed up a bit, not seeing the glass coffee table as she tricked backwark and let the glass slice a large cut down her leg.

The girl out in pain as Sobo jerked her kind eyes towards her, " Oh Dear! You really should be careful.' The older woman sighed out as she helped Nanami up and looked at her leg, She clucked her tongue and then looked up with a smile,

" Ah Mizuki! Come here.."

The snake hesitated when he saw Nanami, and the older woman knew why too; but she woudln't say anything yet. No, She was going to deal with her grandson after she got her son to bed. He had to get Sober in a nice dark room...

Mizuki finally relented as he walked down the stairs and towards the brown haired girl, he sat down slightly and looked at Sobo as she pointed at Nanami's leg, he looked at it and then gasped,

" Nanami-chan! What ever happened!?"

Thats when Mikage laughed, " Shes ALWAYS clumbsy!" he laughed a bit crazly as Sobo sent him a dark glare. She hit him and he wailed out before cracking up laughing. The older woman rolled her eyes as she looked at the snake,

" She fell dear, can you patch her up?" She smiled as Mizuki blinked with tears in his eyes. Nanami's blood dripped out but the girl didn't care, her eyes were focused on Mikage ad his drunk frame.

Sobo noticed thsi and winced, " I'm taking him to bed, Please patch Nanami up for me Mizuki.'

Mizuki blinked before saluting her and jumping up, he sprang up rather quickly before going off to the kitchen to grab the bandages, Sobo then led Mikage up the stairs as he started to sing, ' 99 Bottles of Coke on the wail' In a horrible off tone way.

The woman's eyes twitched, She coduln't believe he got drunk, she didn't raise him like this; but sadly he was a grown man and she coduln't tell him where to spend his money. If it was her money that would be a different story, but sadly it wasn't anymore once Mikage got with Elisa and started being a god.

Sobo had liked Elisa, she had spunk and a beautiful character, her eyes were innocent but she feisty. She thought things through though.. Tomoe inheritated all her looks and personailty traits but sadly he made rash decisions like his father was known for doing. So he did have the Mikage family curse..

A bad temper and a whole lot of Rash childlike behaviour.

Sobo pushed Mikage into his room, not even bothering to tuck him in. She just slammed the door, and before he could turn aroudn she locked it. She knew he was to drunk to unlock it, Hopefully..

So right now she was just going with the fact that he was stuck in his room with his half empty bear bottle and his depressing pop songs. She sighed out and then cracked her back befre getting a rather harsh look on her face. Sobo knew where she was going next.

She was going to Tomoe's room, weither he like it or not...

The older woman stormed to the room and harshly knocked on it; but of cousre not enough to alarm Nanami, who, Sobo couls already sense was feeling guilty for this whole mess. No one answered which worried the old woman before she placed her hand on the doorknob.

It shined blue and then a loud click coudl be heard, making the older woman smile.. She still had the magic touch. She chuckled before becoming serious again and stomping into the room.

The lights were out and the curtains were pulled, confusion played across the womans face before she saw the bathroom light on. She slowly waddled towards the door and turned the handle, but what she saw made her gasp..

" Tomoe! " She shook in terror as she kneeled down and felt the foxes head.

Tomoe on the other hand looked at her with wide eyes, before laying his head on her lap and starting to wail out in pain. She was shocked at first, He had made a rather harsh mistake.. and she was coming to scold him for it. He deserved it but...

What was wrong?

He was wailing out, his claws clenched into her dress as he tryied to calm down, his ears were flat; his tail limp.. Hsi sleeve hung off his shoulder and he looked sick, what made it worse was the blood smell that almost made the old woman gag.

" Tomoe.. What did you do? Did you do it again..' She whispered making the fox quiver and wail out into her lap, his warm tears soaked into her skin making her sigh, She helped him up and patted his white hair. His heart was pounding in confusion and his head was throbing. His throat hurting from all his dry heaving..

His wrist was slightly bloody but it wasn't as bad as some things the woman had saw, she had visions of his cuts before and they were far worse, but then again.. His hands were so shaky she was surpised he even took the risk to try and cut.

But he did and it frightened the older woman, Tomoe whimpered out into the tense air, choking and screaming out.. He was alone, or so he felt he was. Mikage wasn't going to help, he was afraid of telling Nanami to truth and he felt like a sicko. Kurama had been silent for a few days and Mizuki's mother was in the hospital.

He felt alone.. he was shaking and cutting and doing all these things but nothing seemed to work! He graoned out as he wanted to get sick again..Hsi tears trailing down his face as the woman started to stroke his white hair.

He leaned his hot head against her shoulder as Tomoe started to chant,

' Sorry, Sorry, Sorry, Sorry.. Over and over again. She knew he wasn't talking about the time Mikage had hurt him. No, he was talking about last night, the one thing the woman had wanted to kill him for... But now.

" I'm So Sorry!" Tomoe wailed out, his tears trailed mixing with his blood and stinging harshly. The woman choked slightly herself as she kissed the top his head and rocked back and forth with him in her arms..

" Sweetie just cry..I'm here."

And she meant every word of that promise, as Tomoe shook in her arms and wanted someone to just 'LOVE" him. Maybe that was the reason he really made that mistake.. because he wanted love even though he denyied it, saying it only caused pain.

He just didn't know what type of love he needed, he was ignorant to that type of love. He didn't want physical love..

He wanted someone to love him..

For him..

Okay! So That Explain a lot I hope! O.O Phew.. But There is still more to come with tons of twist and turns, and for the next chapter? I'll just give you the title, Since it tells you all you'll need to know..

Chapter 62. Child Abuse ( Coming Soon...)

So, be ready to be hating on someone! If you know what I mean! T-T And Please rate and Comment! I love to hear what you guys have to say! XD Also?

There will be a guest character coming soon, not in a while.. but it is in the plan. In fact there will be TWO guest characters. ' Heheh.'

T : HATE YOU!"

Me: Shut up!' Pouts' It fits the story line and you know it! Don't go hating on me!:

T ; "Pouts and whimpers'

Me: Its not working.. -_-

T : Shoot!