Author Note: Thanks goes to EyexLinerxWhore for following this story. Thanks also goes to Metalgrl29, danicrouch860, and alibob687 for the wonderful reviews. I absolutely love all of your feedback on how I'm doing with this. The official cover for this is complete; but unfortunately I can't seem to link it for viewing, so if you want to see it I will probably have to email it. This chapter is a lot lighter than the last couple, so enjoy and as always let me know what you think.

"I've been waiting, for a lifetime

In the search for something real

To turn up and save me

From the empty and the loneliness inside

When I dream at night,

I can see where I belong

So I'll close my eyes, I'll follow my feet

In hopes that somehow they'll take me home

Someday"

'Someday' by We Are Harlot

Chapter 8:

Becky led Ayva downstairs to the living room where Dean and Finn were talking amongst themselves. Both men lifted their heads up in greeting. Finn noticed Ayva sticking fairly close to her friend and he didn't really blame her. After everything she had learned in the last day, he was surprised to even see her walking around.

Seeing her again, after he left her room no more than an hour ago to get away, only brought back the warm feelings in the pit of his stomach. Her staying in the house with them was not going to be easy on him, knowing that his growing affections for her were completely forbidden.

"What's up, Becky?" He asked trying to avoid Ayva's gaze.

"If Ayva is going to be staying here, she's going to need clothing of her own. She also needs her car." Becky explained.

"As long as you go with her, I don't see the problem with it. I just haven't gotten the ward yet to keep her off the radar." Finn answered.

"Thank you..." Ayva said before following Becky out of the room.

Dean eyed his superior questioningly. He trusted Becky enough to keep the girl safe; but it was Finn he was more worried about. In a day's time, his exterior had been completely unraveled by the Nephilim. "She's gotten under your skin, hasn't she?" He asked taking note of the look of longing upon his friend's face.

"I tried so hard not to. I tried not to let her in..."

"But she has..."

"Yes."

Becky and Ayva walked outside. The sun's warm rays kissed their skin, making Ayva's appearance look more ethereal than before. Becky couldn't help but stare at her newly transformed best friend. It wasn't just the powers that developed within her that created the change. Her affections for Finn were also changing, growing. It didn't take a psychic to figure that out either. "Take my hand." Becky stated.

"Why?"

"I'm going to take you to get your car."

Hesitantly, Ayva took her hand. A sudden feeling of heavy suction wrapped around her and before she knew it her car was parked only a few feet away. Taking a step towards the silver vehicle, she stumbled. Lightheaded and hazy. "It takes some getting used to, trust me." Becky said holding onto her with a smile.

"This sucks...I lost everything...I'm lucky that my purse was still in the car." Ayva said opening the unlocked back door.

She quickly grabbed the small black bag and searched for the keys. Becky looked around cautiously, making sure that there was no left over demonic action to endanger Ayva's life. If something happened on her watch, Finn would never forgive her. The sound of keys clanging against each other alerted her to get inside.

Ayva unlocked the doors and quickly got inside the car. She turned the key in the ignition and off they went down the road. Pushing a single button music started to play, making Becky aware that she didn't want to talk at the present moment. A rock cover for the song 'Hello' by Adele came on. The guitar and drums instantly relaxed her from the chaos swirling in her heart.

"Are you alright?" Becky asked.

"As good as someone can be in this situation. I assure you that I will be just fine with some time under my belt."

Tapping her fingers on the top of the steering wheel, she began to think about Damien's goodbye. He seemed happy to just let go of what was keeping him around and she couldn't fault him for that. His blessing for her to move on was unsettling at first; but the more she thought about it, the more it made sense. She couldn't stay alone forever. Finn's face was the next thing that came to mind. He couldn't even look her in the eye and she couldn't understand why that upset her so much.

"So why couldn't Finn look me in the eye before we left?"

"I think you know the answer to that, Ayva..."

Shifting her eyes away from the road to take a glance at the woman that occupied her passenger seat. Her eyes were closed while her head was resting against the window. The tingling sensation on the two fingers Finn had kissed returned. Whether she wanted to admit it or not, they were connected and he was fighting against it because of the rules against demon and angel pairings.

She turned the wheel to pull into the crowded parking lot of the local mall. She figured a crowded place was safer for her. Reaching back, she pulled her purse up onto her lap. Her wallet was still intact with her credit cards and a hundred in cash. It would have to do to get her started. Becky got out of the car and returned to her side, wrapping an arm around her shoulders. "Come on, lets go get some new clothes."

Finn pushed opened two large heavy doors. A large pentacle was etched into the floor. Someone in a black hooded cloak was kneeling in front of the circle with several items scattered outward. A thick chunk of bright red hair fell out of the hood as her head rose up to greet him. Energy infused blue eyes winked at him. "Ah Finn Bálor, the great prince. What brings you to my domain?" She asked with a thick Scottish accent.

"Rowana, I'd prefer if you'd not call me a prince. That title is long extinct."

"As you wish..."

"I need a warding bracelet. I believe Aluxia has a seeress working under her. Ayva was found."

"Is she safe?"

"Yes; but she lost everything. She's safe at the house; but I can't keep her a prisoner."

Rowana stood up and walked back to the altar behind her. Finn watched intently, making sure that he was going to get what he came for. Witches weren't exactly the most trustworthy species in the world, though Rowana had been loyal to him since the time he ran from the inner circle; but he had no doubt that there was a personal reason for siding with him.

"Do you have a bracelet for me to mark?" She asked turning back around.

He held out the delicate piece of jewelry for her to take. The band was made of white gold and there were several blue diamonds added to make it stand out. She eyed him for a moment. She was either confused or she was reading him, which ever it was he didn't care. As long as it was able to block the seeress from find Ayva. "Beautiful...did you buy this for her?"

"Does it matter?"

"Not really..."

Her voice was low; but the feeling of magic had his skin humming. No matter how many times he watched her do the same spell, it caused the same reaction within him. Words of Latin rolled off her tongue. The piece of jewelry in her palm was now glowing, soaking up the magic it was given. Closing his eyes, a flash of Ayva's face appeared before him. It urged him to talk to her mentally, even if it was to ask if everything was alright. He didn't get a chance to.

"It's finished."

"Good."

Rowana handed him the warm item back. Finn gave her a rolled up tube of money as payment for the spell. She smiled before tucking it safely in the front of her dress. He turned away and proceeded out of the room without saying another word. In a flash he was gone. Rowana slouched back, letting out a sigh.

"Oh Finn, there is so much about her that you just don't understand." She stated to herself before returning to what she was doing before the interruption.

Ayva was hanging up all of her new clothes in the large closet. When they got back to the house Dean was the only one home; but he was so engrossed in training away from everyone else. She supposed the basement was the perfect place for that. Becky wanted to stay down there with him, so she went up to her room alone. There were so many things on the walls she wanted to ask about; but didn't know who would even answer the questions.

Once all her clothes were hung, she turned back to the bed with other little things that needed a home. Her fingers opened the box to her new alarm clock. Taking the item to the nightstand, she plugged it in and set the current time. "Can I come up and talk?" Finn's voice entered her mind causing her to stop dead in her tracks.

It was the first time he had spoken to her all day and she had no idea how to respond to it. "Sure, come on up." She replied opening the box to her bluetooth speaker radio. She expected him to just shimmer into the room; but when a soft knock sounded against the cherry wood, she smiled.

"Come in!" She shouted.

"Hey, how did the shopping go?" He asked closing the door behind him.

"Good...I think..."

Ayva turned to put the speaker on the other nightstand opposite the one with the alarm clock. Finn noticed the room was beginning to smell like her. He sat down the two boxes he had been holding on the dresser and took a few steps further into the room. His blood was surging through his veins and his heart was racing a million miles a minute just by the mere sight of her. "So what did you want to talk about?" She asked sitting down on the edge of her bed.

"Well I acquired the ward, so you can now go where ever you want without being tracked."

"Really!"

Her voice sounded so happy in that moment he couldn't help but smile. He reached over to take the top box off the other. Handing it out for her to take, their fingers brushed against each other in passing. Lifting the lid up, the blue diamond bracelet sat neatly just waiting to be worn. Her breath was instantly taken away the second her eyes come in contact with it. It was so beautiful that there wasn't any words she could use to describe it. "This...this is beautiful..."

"Well I'm glad you like it since you have to wear it everyday to keep the warding working."

"Finn...please tell me that you didn't buy this just for the spell..."

He closed the distance between then and took the bracelet out of the box. Lifting her hand up, he securely locked it around her wrist. He was hoping that she wouldn't persist on an answer to that question because he didn't want to get scolded for buying it for her. "There...it looks good on you..." He complimented.

"Finn..."

"Oh and I got you a new phone to replace the one you lost..."

"You didn't have to do that."

"Well it was kind of my fault the explosion happened in the first place."

Ayva stood up from her bed and took the box from his hand. Without looking at it, she placed it on her bed. She held his gaze, feeling all the blame he was putting on himself. If blame wasn't enough, she could feel self loathing. "Don't blame yourself for what happened. There was no way you could have known they were coming for me."

"There were so many things I could have done to prevent it."

"So what! Its over and done with. There is nothing you can do about it now. I am fine...safe and sound. Isn't that what really matters?"

Her question struck something deep within. She was right. That was what mattered to him. He reached up to tuck her hair behind her ear before resting his hand against the shallow of her neck. "I can feel everything...you can't hide it. I get that you don't understand and its going to take some time to figure it all out; but please don't hate yourself for caring about me. I...I need to know you care right now."

He had no idea how to respond to that. He was doing everything he possibly could to not act on the growing feelings he held for her and now she was asking him to care. What was he supposed to do? The conflicting emotions raged bringing the intense red to his eyes. Ayva could feel his resistance and her heart skipped a beat, realizing that he did care for her even if he was fighting against it.

She lifted her hands up to touch both sides of his face, her palms glowing with a dim white light. Finn could feel the warm energy caressing his skin, she was healing him. There were several injuries he had sustained in the explosion that his body hadn't healed yet, how she knew of them was anyone's guess.

"You learn quick..."

"I've found the trigger to make it work."

Love. The trigger was love or caring enough about the person to want to heal them. Closing his hands around her, he pushed them down away from his face. The healing energy was still flowing through him, no matter how much he wanted her to stop. "I promised Damien that I would keep you safe and I intend to do that; but it just...can't be..."

"No! I get it!" She interrupted pulling her hands away completely, severing the healing energy.

"Ayva..."

"You can go now..."

It didn't take a genius to know that he had upset her a great deal. He couldn't bare to look at the damage he had created, so he shimmered out of the room. Letting out a frustrated sigh, she collapsed upon her bed taking a pillow into her arms. Burning tears rolled down her cheeks as she buried her face deeper into the pillow, trying to hide the sound of her cries.

"Are you a moron!" Becky yelled from across the living room.

"Becky...please don't..." Finn replied walking passed her.

"Don't you walk away! The point was to try and make her feel like she belonged her, not freaking chase her away!"

Finn closed his eyes, hearing her muffled cries from her room. Becky yelling at him was not helping; but when Dean walked into the room with his arms crossed over his chest, he knew that he was outnumbered. "I don't think that was the best approach, Finn." Dean stated.

"You think!" Becky snapped.

"Finn, I know I said that caring about her was a bad thing; but now...I'm not so sure."

"I'm supposed to believe you had a change of heart overnight?" Finn asked started to walk away.

Both Dean and Becky appeared before him, blocking his path. Ignoring them both, he shimmered to his room. The only place they wouldn't dare follow him. They had made their point and whether or not Finn listened was up to him alone. He paced along the floor in front of his empty fireplace. Hurting Ayva was the last thing he wanted to do and apologizing was something he wasn't prepared for in the least; but he had to do it or he wasn't going to be able to live with himself.

Taking a deep breath, he left his room and walked down the hall towards her room. Lightly tapping his knuckles against the thick door, there was no response. He tried to turn the knob; but it was locked from the inside. Swallowing the lump in his throat, he shimmered into the room to find her already sleep.

Ayva was snuggled up against the pillow in her arms. Dried tears were caked to her cheeks along with black streaks from her make-up. It didn't even matter, because to him she was still beautiful. He walked across the room and gently sat down next to her. The force of his weight on the bed caused her to stir awake. "What are you doing in here?" She asked sleepily.

"I'm am sorry for hurting your feelings..." He replied.

"Doesn't matter...you said what you needed to..."

"Ayva...I didn't want to say that..."

She slid further away from him to get out of bed from the other side. Her legs carried her to the bathroom connected to Becky's room. Finn heard the water start to run out of the sink. He had no doubt that she was washing her face from the make-up and tears. "You were my best friend's wife...I shouldn't care this much about you..."

"Is it because of that or is it because I'm half angel." She replied coming out of the bathroom.

"A little of both..."

He shifted to look directly at her, seeing her now cleaned face. Her bright eyes swirled with energy and it scared him a little to think about the power she might actually have under her novice status. Ayva walked around to sit down next to him. Despite feeling angry at him, she wanted to understand why he was fighting against everything. "Damien thought so highly of you. He always talked about you, so much that I felt like I knew you without ever meeting you."

"He did the same to us about you and then when I actually did meet you, everything fell into place."

"Caring about me isn't wrong, Finn. It's human nature to care."

"I'm not just human, Ayva..."

Everything she said, he always had a negative answer to go with it. "Why do you push me away?" She mentally thought without realizing he could hear it. He shied away from her once again; but this time she wasn't about to let him leave. She took hold of his hand and laced her fingers through his. "I don't care that you're part demon. I don't care that I'm part angel and that it's forbidden to even speak to one another. Ever since you came into my life again, I've...I don't know..."

"Cared...cared so much that it makes you confused."

"Yeah..."

He gave her hand a gentle squeeze. She leaned into him, resting her head against his shoulder. Her sudden closeness caused him to panic. He couldn't give her what she needed. He was so out of touch with his human side since Aluxia lured him in and tossed him out like a bag of trash. "I care, Ayva...I will always care and that's just going to have to be enough."

"It is..."

He kissed her temple before standing up, breaking the connection of their hands. She smiled before laying back down in her bed. He returned her smile, "Goodnight..." He whispered before vanishing from her room.