Author Note: Thanks goes to xSamiliciousx for the wonderful review. Thanks also goes to okaloosa for becoming a follower to this story. Well demon Finn has come out, you're going to get a small taste of what he's like and I hope you all will enjoy it. As always let me know what you think.
"Breathe for me
Don't wake me from this slumber
Stay with me
Possession taking over
Possession taking over
Waking the Demon"
'Waking the Demon' by: Bullet For My Valentine
Chapter 14:
"Do you really think it was a good idea to show yourself?" Sera asked turning to face her brother.
"I couldn't pass up a chance to see my daughter. I may never get another one." He replied lowering his head away from her sharp gaze.
"Don't say such things? She will be just fine. It's me that may not be so lucky."
Sidriel cocked his head to the side, unaware of what she was speaking of. Sera's dark chocolate eyes quivered for a moment just thinking about what Ayva could have seen in her vision. Aluxia would strike; but the question now was when she would. The feeling of a firm, comforting grip on her shoulder brought her back to the grim reality. "Ayva foresaw my death..."
"That won't happen."
"You can't be sure of that. You know as well as I do visions are sometimes unchangeable."
"This one one will be changed...trust me little sister."
Sera wanted to trust him, to trust him with everything she had left; but it was getting harder and harder to trust anything anymore. Her niece was fated to be with a half-demon that had once been a lover to the very woman that would eventually kill her. How was that justified? Though, she had no problem with Finn in general...it just seemed odd that Ayva, a Nephilim, would be his soul mate.
Sidriel took a step back away from her, listening to the cries of the humans below. He was trying to find Ayva. The way her eyes spoke of worry and fear left him feeling agitated. There was more to the problem than he initially thought. "What are you doing?" Sera asked.
"Searching for Ayva..."
"Why?"
He ignored her question and weaved through all the cries of humanity frantically searching for his daughter. There was nothing but silence and it was beginning to worry him more. He wondered if Ayva was purposely blocking him out. "How would she know how to do that? Unless...she's unaware that she's doing it..." He mentally told himself.
"Sidriel, what the hell is going on?" Sera asked jerking his arm.
"I don't know...I can't find her..."
Becky attempted to reach for Ayva; but again, she couldn't get passed an invisible barrier. Finn stared a hole right into the woman standing before him. The sly smile on his face reminded her of the past. A past where he was the leader of the inner circle and slept in Aluxia's bed at night. Dean slid his fingers through hers, attempting to calm her shaking body. "We need Rowana...I'm afraid for Ayva..." She whispered.
"I've tried to leave...she's preventing me from doing anything."
"How is this possible? Just yesterday she couldn't force energy out at will and now she has us trapped in here."
Ayva realized that it was no longer human Finn speaking to her. It was the demon he had been so desperate to hide from her. Remembering that she had told him that she cared about all of him, human and demon; she swallowed the lump in her throat, knowing that now was her chance to prove that very thing to him.
Finn pulled at the shackles around his wrists, causing Ayva to take a step backward. She wasn't going to deny that he scared her. The look in his eyes was unlike anything she had ever seen before. His power rolled off his skin in waves, tangling with hers. It was threatening to ignite around them. "So you are the demon part of him..."
"I am. I mean we are the same person just a little different...as you can see..."
He shrugged his shoulders, presenting himself quite differently than she was used to. The chain links rattled against each other with every movement he made. Scowling at the confinements, he shifted his back towards the woman that made his blood boil. He knew that it was going to be hard to explain the difference between the demon part and the human part considering they were the same person theoretically.
"I need you go back and allow the human side of you to take over..."
"Now why the hell would I do that? I think you need me to help with the Aluxia problem."
His smile widened even further. Ayva couldn't help but feel drawn to him. The way he looked at her was animalistic. If he could have devoured her, he would have in the most primal way. The shivers of desire caressed her sensitive flesh, bringing goosebumps to the skin of her arms. Without thinking, she took a step forward. "Maybe you'd help; but maybe you wouldn't. You have a past with her...a pretty intimate one from the sounds of things."
"Oh you have no idea how intimate; however, I don't dwell on the past and she cut her loss' a long time ago."
"How can I trust this side of you?"
"I'll say this...I won't harm you, because for some reason I can't bring myself to want to. Is that trust enough for you?"
She wondered if he was telling the truth or not. Taking another step closer to him, Ayva reached her hand out to touch his cheek. The simple touch engulfed her in emotions she never thought she could feel. All the hate. All the anger and resentment. The demon side of him was a representation of all the negative in his human life. "You want to know why he keeps pushing you away?" He commented with a half laugh, enjoying the fear he was seeing on her face.
"Enlighten me..."
"I'm the reason your mother is dead..."
"That's not true. She died in a car accident six years ago."
Another laugh escaped his mouth. He was beginning to get annoyed with her naïve way of thinking. She didn't want to believe that he had done anything wrong. She had hope that he would be the one to save her from all the chaos in her life; but the reality was he would just create more if she remained with him. "That's how it was perceived by the humans; but Aluxia was angry with me for walking away from the inner circle, so she took her frustrations out on several innocent humans."
"Stop..."
"You need to see it for yourself..."
He closed his eyes and forced the memory into her mind. Ayva fought against it, clamping her eyes shut tight. In attempts to fight against the memory, her power loosened the shackle that kept his right hand against the wall. Realizing that he had an opening, a wicked smile curved his lips as he easily broke the chain from the concrete brick. With a gasp of air, Finn took a firm hold on her arm. She could no longer hold the memory out of her head.
The sound of screeching tires were deafening and the sight of Aluxia standing in the middle of the road with pure rage radiating off her her fear into overdrive. A single car had collided with a telephone pole. It was then that she caught sight of her mother. An innocent bystander on an empty road, trying to get back home.
"Aluxia!" Finn's voice shouted.
"You are just in time to have a little fun..." She replied.
"You don't need to do this..."
"Oh I think I do. You walked away from everything, so it's only fair that I take away something precious to you..."
Finn turned to see the woman that had been driving come to a stop, seeing the accident. He instantly recognized the woman. She was the mother of a girl that was rumored to be a Nephilim. Now he understood why Aluxia was being unreasonable. He lifted his hands up submissively. "Please...let the woman go, she's got nothing to do with any of this. Take whatever frustrations you have with my leaving on me..."
"No, dear one...I think I'd rather watch you suffer..."
Aluxia conjured up a ball of flames and tossed it in the direction of the unaware woman trying to help. Finn rushed in defense; but he hadn't been fast enough to reach her in time. The ball of fire connected with the running vehicle, setting it ablaze. The leaking gas from the other vehicle ignited, causing it to explode.
The force of the blast sent Finn back onto the pavement. Once he got back to his feet, he realized that he had failed to protect the woman. Slamming his hand down on the hard surface, he screamed. Turning to face Aluxia, she simply smiled before vanishing from sight. It didn't take long before sirens could be heard all over the city.
"Damnit! Damnit! Damnit!" He shouted over and over.
What else could that woman do to him? He questioned if had been a good thing to leave. If he had known that things like that would happen, he might have thought differently about the decision. Now he was going to have to worry more about the humans than he ever had in the past. The demon inside remained quiet, right when he needed someone the most.
Ayva opened her eyes with a scream. Tears rolled down her cheeks uncontrollably. She knew that her mother's accident had been horrible; but never thought it was that horrible. It was someone else Aluxia had taken from her and blamed it on Finn. After seeing it for herself, she knew that Finn had tried to save her mother no matter what he thought. "You see...I am to blame for all of your pain. I am the reason every single bad thing that's ever happened to you has come to pass."
"No..." She whispered softly.
"No, what?"
"You are not the reason...she is..."
Finn snorted out of disbelief. The woman still wouldn't blame him for anything, so why couldn't he feel good about that. He tensed up and swiftly jerked his left arm outward, severing the chain from the wall. He was now free to walk independently much to the dismay of Becky and Dean. They still couldn't move from the barrier Ayva had placed around them. "You are stubborn..." He stated staring her down with curious eyes.
"If I'm such a burden, then why don't you kill me. It's what everyone wants anyway..."
Her question took him by surprise. The demon markings were rapidly taking shape on his skin. Black across the top part of his face, around the eyes with a small red strip across the nose. White and black stripes formed around his mouth and neck. The rest was hidden under the fabric of his t-shirt. Her scent waved under his nose, intoxicating him to the effects of desire. "Not everyone wants you dead. Aluxia may; but that's because she fears you."
"Now I know you're lying. That's something human Finn would say to make me feel better."
"We are the same person, Ayva. We think the same and feel the same. The only difference is that I don't sugar coat things...I do what is necessary without questioning it."
Becky could feel the energy around them dissipate; enough that she could shatter the rest on her own. They were free. Finn looked away from Ayva to eye them. It had been a long time to see them in his current form. Becky studied him curiously, rightfully so. "You wanted to test her, didn't you?" She questioned placing a hand on her hip nonchalantly.
"No, I didn't..."
"Then why come out now after all these years?" Dean asked.
"I wanted to see for myself. I wanted to see you...Ayva."
He closed his eyes, allowing the human side of himself to reemerge. The demon markings slowly started to fade away, letting his tanned flesh to come back. Dropping to a knee, he groaned in what seemed like pain. Ayva knelt down with him, taking his hands into her own. "Finn..." She called softly.
There was silence for a few moments before he lifted his head up to meet her gaze. Sweat droplets rolled down the side of his face and dripped off the curve of his chin. She didn't care; she threw her arms around his neck. His familiar scent was comforting and it was all she wanted. The demon scared her, yes; but it was still a part of him and she embraced it fully. "I'm so sorry..." He apologized against the crook of her neck.
"It wasn't your fault...never was..."
Becky smiled at the display of affection. Dean rolled his eyes, not caring to see anymore of it. He took her hand and pulled her up with him, exiting the basement. Despite everything, Dean still cared enough about Ayva to consider her family. Especially now that he learned that she was Finn's intended soul mate. There was nothing more unbreakable than that. "You know I love you right?" Dean asked once they got up to the kitchen.
"I know. I love you to. What's up with you?" She asked leaning against the kitchen island.
"She is so willing to die to keep us all alive...and she barely knows me. I've never met anyone so full of life like she is..."
"Is this your way of saying that you want her to live?"
He revealed the desperation in his eyes. Becky smiled and reached out for his hands. The rarity of him showing emotion for another was astounding; but in that moment he was showing her the a vulnerable side of himself. She leaned up to kiss his lips gently. "She will be fine. Finn will never let her die nor will we..."
Ayva helped Finn back to his feet. They stood staring at each other for an awkward moment of silence. She wanted to tell him about meeting her father, to tell him that she had been in heaven; but most importantly, she wanted to tell him that she knew that he was her soul mate. That it was okay to feel things for each other. Of course, none of that came out.
The guilt was still swirling in his eyes and making her empathy work overtime. She didn't know how to get him to stop blaming himself for what happened to her mother. Aluxia was the one who pulled the trigger, not him. "How are you still here?" He asked taking a step away from her.
"What do you mean? Why wouldn't I be here?" She asked confused at to what he meant by his question.
"You've seen it...the darker side to me. You've seen that I was the reason you lost your mother."
"I told you once before that the demon side is a part of who you are...just as the angel is a part of me."
Looking over his shoulder at her, his pure blue eyes were tinted with red around the pupil. His demon half was still fully aware of the conversation. Standing her ground, she swallowed the lump that was lodged in her throat and took a step closer to place a gentle hand on his arm. "It's not the same thing. Ayva...I've killed innocent people. I'm the reason your mother is dead. Damien to..."
"From what I've seen and from what I know...you aren't the same person anymore."
"Just stop making excuses for me!" He shouted shrugging her hand off his arm.
She never got another word out, because he vanished from the basement. Letting out a saddened sigh, she started her climb up the wooden stairs that would lead her to the kitchen. Once she got there, there was no one around. The house was utterly silent. The smell of food from the oven was met with a sudden growl of her stomach. "I'm glad you decided to come back..." Dean stated from the connecting passage the lead to the living room.
"Why does everyone think that I wasn't going to? Finn asked me the same thing..." She replied cracking the bottle of water in her hand open.
"He believed you weren't going to. He thought once you had time alone with Sera that you wouldn't want to come back."
"That wasn't going to happen. I belong here and that's not going to change."
He smiled, pushing himself away from the wall to close the distance between them. She studied him for a moment, trying to feel what was making him actually talk to her one on one. The only thing she was feeling from him was brotherly love for her. Her heart skipped a beat knowing that he cared enough about her to think her family. "Here, I found this by the front door..."
Dean handed her the bracelet Sera had pointed out was no longer on her wrist. A smile curved her lips up as she took the simple object from his hand. Looking at him again, she could see that there was something else he wanted to say. "Thank you...I'm glad that I didn't lose this. It means a lot to me..." She said wrapping her hands around his neck.
He was dumbfounded by the gesture, hesitating in wrapping his own around her back. He knew that he should say something to her about Finn. There was no way that she wasn't affected by what happened in the basement; but he honestly had no idea what to say or even how to go about it. Ayva broke contact and stepped out around him. "Hey..." He called out.
"Yeah."
"Give him some time. There is so much he's learned over the last few weeks that's made him question a lot of things."
"I don't plan on going anywhere. He needs me as much as I need him."
"He does need you. Maybe more than you need him. Finn's demon side caused a lot of heartache for him in the past when it came to Aluxia. Our demon sides are like another personality altogether, even though we feel the same things from one side to another. It's really hard to explain..."
"Thank you for trying."
He nodded, allowing her to walk passed him. She held her bracelet tightly in her palm as she walked up the stairs. Giving Finn some time to sort things out was good; but she missed him already. His touch was something she craved more and more with each passing day. Remembering the way he looked at her while in demon form sent a shiver up her spine, pure bliss.
Opening the door to her room, she kicked it closed behind her. Fumbling with the bracelet a few times, she finally latched it together snugly. The clock on her nightstand read 8:00 o'clock and she never did bother to find something to eat. Walking to her closet, her hands sifted through all her clothes until she found a top that would match her favorite jean skirt. Black satin tank top with a low scoop neck, showing off the perfect amount of cleavage.
Finn lay on his bed staring at the white ceiling. He ran a hand over the top of his head, wondering what would possess him to snap at Ayva like he had. The fact that she continued to make excuses for his actions in the past irritated him enough to not think rationally. Her face flashed before his eyes, accelerating his heartbeat. There was nothing he wanted more than her; but there was so much risk to it and he wasn't sure he wanted to take it, for fear that the same thing that happened to Damien would happen to him and it would leave her alone once again. He couldn't bear the thought of that.
"Finn..." Her voice entered his mind.
The sound of her voice caused him to tense up immediately. He wanted to answer her call but opted for not doing so. The excuses were more than enough for one day and the fact that his demon side made her see the death of Nicole was far too much. "I know you can hear me and I know you're upset about what happened, so I'm not going to push you to talk to me about it. I just wanted to let you know that I'm heading out to get some dinner and that you were welcome to join me."
Just like that, the connection went dead. He appreciated that she wasn't going to push him to talk; yet at the same time, there was a part of him that wanted her to push. He listened to her walk out of her room and down the hall towards the stairs. The urge to leave the room and go with her was overwhelming. It wasn't just going with her, it was the urge to kiss her again and what it would be like to actually be with her for the long haul.
Hearing the front door close, he stood up from the bed and made his way to his dresser for a new set of clothes. It didn't take him long to change into a pair of black casual pants with a belt and a black t-shirt with a tribal design. The demon side encouraged him to do what he wanted, which was unusual. Without much more coaxing, he willed himself to Ayva. Wanting to be at her side.
Ayva turned the volume knob on her stereo clockwise, increasing the sound of the current song playing. She wondered if Finn would actually come. Tucking a chunk of hair behind her ear, she opened her mouth to sing along to the song. Flipping the turn signal upward, she gently turned the steering wheel onto a different street.
Driving under an overpass, she felt Finn presence. Turning her head slightly towards the passenger seat, he was seated properly staring out the windshield. She jerk out of fear, sucking in a sharp breath of air. "Oh my god! Finn, you scare the hell out of me..." She commented turning back to keep her eyes on the road.
"I'm sorry. I figured this was the fastest way to catch up to you."
"I'm glad you decided to come."
"I wasn't going to; but the reality is that none of this is your fault."
"Nor is it yours..."
He shifted his gaze from the window to her sitting figure. She was wearing a black satin tank top that showed off her supple cleavage and a short jean skirt that came to her mid thigh. He couldn't stop staring at the length of her legs, never really noticing before now. His mouth instantly became dry and the nervousness returned. "Finn..."
"Yeah..."
"You can relax. I'm not going to bring up what happened today. You already know how I feel about it, so when you feel that you are ready to talk to me about it...I'll be there to listen."
"Thank you..."
Finn tried desperately not to look at her, because all he felt was an undeniable urge to be near her. His fingers itched to touch the bare skin of her leg, to inch them up under barrier of her skirt. It was driving him insane both human and demon. The night sky flashed with the heat lightning, giving him a glimpse of her angelic features.
Ayva tapped her fingers on the leather of her steering wheel to the beat of the song playing. Inside, her body was buzzing with the tension rolling off him. He was doing a pretty good job blocking her from his thoughts and most of his emotions, which frustrated her because she simply wanted to know what he was thinking without having to ask him.
"So where were you thinking of going?" He asked trying to make simple conversation.
"Honestly...I have no idea. I just wanted to get out of the house. A lot the happened to me today."
"Do you want to talk about it? About what happened with you and Sera?"
The temptation was there and she really did want to talk about it. There were questions she had that she couldn't ask her father. Thinking about Sidriel got her wondering what he really thought about Finn being her soul mate. There was no secret behind the fact that Angels and Demons were enemies by blood. How it would even work between Finn and her was anyone's guess. "She took me to heaven...or at least the first layer of it anyway."
"Why would she take you there?"
"My bracelet was missing and it was to keep me off the radar."
Finn instantly looked over at her hands to see if the bracelet was intact. He relaxed when he saw the sparkle of the blue diamonds against the streetlights. She smiled, knowing what he was looking for. "Dean found it by the front door and gave it back to me." Answering his unspoken question about the bracelet.
"So what did she tell you..."
"Nothing that I didn't already kind of figure out on my own; but I met by father."
"You...met...him...and you still wanted to come back..."
Ayva pulled into an abandoned parking lot. Outside was about a ten minute walk to her favorite beach in Miami. Ignoring the fact that she was still hungry, her priority was getting Finn to understand that he was not to blame for things and that there was no question in coming back to them. To him. She put the car into park and shut the ignition off. "Ayva, what are you doing?" He asked.
"We are going for a walk. Come on." She stated opening the door.
The warm humid air was quickly crimping her hair back from straight to wavy. Not really caring what her hair looked like, she stopped in front of her car to wait for Finn. He hesitantly made his way to her side with a want to know what she had in mind. She continued on towards the waters below the hillside. They could hear the calming waves rush onto the sandy beach.
Finn followed closely behind her, stepping where she stepped to get to their destination. The water was dark absolute with no reflection from the sky on such a cloudy night. Ayva stopped right at the edge of where the waves would crash down. Her back was to him. The wind flowing through her hair, lifting it up off her skin.
"There was no question that I would come back. I never once thought that I would leave." She admitted turning to look him in the eyes.
"There is so much you are risking by sticking around with us."
"I belong with you guys and there is no thinking twice about it."
Finn felt like he wasn't in control of his actions, because he found himself walking closer to her. He reached out to brush the back of his hand across the soft skin of her cheek. Her eyes sparkled with angelic energy just by the mere touch. She believed that things would turn out okay and that fact gave him comfort. "Ayva...I never wanted to hurt you in anyway; but that night...with your mom..."
"Stop. Finn, I saw the memory for myself. Aluxia killed her, not you. What matters is that you tried to save her and if she were here, she'd feel the same way."
"How can you still see me as a person?"
She took a step forward, placing her hand on his heart. The pounding pulsed under her skin syncing her own heartbeat with his. Her father had told her that whatever he was feeling she would feel herself. That's what it meant to be soul mates. "That question doesn't even hold logic, because when it comes to us...there is no logic. I feel just as strong for you as I have before I even knew about my mother."
"I don't deserve you...never have..."
"Yes, you do...I'm not perfect either."
Taking another step forward, her head tilted upward. Wetting her lips with her tongue, she waited to see if he would capture the moment. As if he could read her thoughts, he tugged onto her lower back to bring her even closer to his body. Forgetting about everything that happened earlier that day, he wanted to relish in her embrace. Her touch was everything he ever needed.
His mouth crashed down upon hers, desperately wanting to get closer. Her fingers curled into a fist around the fabric of his shirt, enjoying the feeling of his skilled lips upon hers. His tongue caressed her parted lips, begging for access. She granted him what he wanted, allowing his warm mouth to invade hers. "You will be my reason to fight for peace." She mentally told him.
"Thank you for believing in me when I can't..."
"Some things are just meant to be..."
Finn's free hand cradled the back of her head, tangling his fingers in her thick strands. He was drowning in her essence and couldn't seem to get enough. Leaving her lower back, his hand moved down her backside and touched the bare skin of her leg. A soft moan erupted from her throat, encouraging him to continue.
With a tug on his shirt, she pulled him down her to the sand below. He hovered over her, sliding his hands up her sides brushing his fingers across her breast. She broke the contact of their lips for a moment. The red returned to swirl in the blue of his eyes. His desire was quickly escalating the longer he was with her.
"No matter what you think, I am not going to leave your side. I accept all of you and that includes the demon you've tried to so hard to hide from me."
He couldn't find the words to answer her, so he dipped his head back down to recapture her lips. She automatically leaned back into him. Sliding away from her mouth, he placed soft chaste kisses along her jawline descending to her collarbone. He could hear the pounding of her heart inside his ears. "Maybe we should head back home..." He whispered.
"Are you sure?" She questioned with a raised eyebrow.
"As much as I would love to continue this, we can't. There is still the fact you saw Sera die at the hands of Aluxia. We need to prepare for that. I'm not about to let someone else you care about die."
"You're right."
Pushing the desire aside, he stood up and offered her his hand. In a matter of seconds she was to her feet and heading back to her awaiting vehicle. All he could do was watch her walk away with sand all up her back and through her hair. Once they got back to the car, she brushed off the sand before getting inside.
The drive back to the house was spent in silence, with their hands locked together. It was an odd feeling for him to behave in such a way. Aluxia had been his first and there was no relationship beyond the bedroom. He knew little of what a human relationship entailed. Going with what his instincts told him to do, he was proud that he hadn't offended her yet.
Ayva pulled up along the curb and shoved the car into park. She turned her body to look at him. There was something different about her. He wondered if Sera had told her the truth. That he was her intended. "Thank you for coming with me."
"Don't thank me. I wanted to be with you."
"Good."
She kissed his cheek before vanishing out of the car. He sat there, eventually letting out a soft chuckle to himself. Ayva was the light at the end of the tunnel of a sea of darkness. She had no idea just how much he needed her to believe in him. Fighting against all the feelings he had for her was a loosing battle.
He shimmered out of the car and appeared in his bedroom. His mind went straight back to Ayva beneath him on the sand. Her body felt perfect there and he found himself fantasizing about what it would be like to actually make love to her. To love her without any restraints from the outside world. He stripped down to his boxer briefs and tossed the covers down the bed.
Crawling into bed, he pulled the tossed covers up to his neck and with flick of a finger the light went out. He closed his eyes trying not to think about her; but of course, that was all he could think about. Rolling onto his side, he begged to be allow to sleep peacefully.
After an hour of tossing and turning, he accepted that he just wasn't going to be able to sleep. It was then that her voice caressed his ear. "You still awake?" She asked softly. Of course he was; but did he really want to tell her that?
"Yes..."
"Can I stay in your room tonight?"
With a smile, he agreed. It didn't take her long to appear in his room. She wore a simple navy blue t-shirt and black jersey shorts. It wasn't anything fancy but he still found her to be beautiful. He slid over to allow her into his bed, forgetting about his lack of clothing. She lay facing him, touching the bare skin of his chest.
His arm snaked around her, pulling her up against him. Lips found hers effortlessly. The warmth flowing off his body, caressed her skin sending pleasurable chills throughout her entire being. "You are so beautiful..." He whispered against her wet lips.
She smiled, resting her head onto his chest. The exhaustion of the entire day took over and they could finally sleep soundly. There were still questions she wanted to ask about the whole soul mates concept; but it would be for a different time. Sera's life was the most important thing at the present moment. She had her entire life to figure out things with Finn.