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*Caitlin's POV*
I felt my head spinning in circles as I walked out of the med bay. I marry Barry and we have Natalie then I die when shes's just a little girl. Just like how Barry grew up, motherless. I didn't stop walking until I reached the hallway leading into the cortex. I leaned back against the wall and took a deep breath. It's going to be okay. I'm happy that I marry Barry, I love Barry but he loves Iris. Please don't come after me Barry, I can't take the rejection from you right now, I pleaded silently to him. My prayers went unanswered when I heard Barry and Cisco talking in the cortex.
"I have to say that I didn't expect that like at all" Cisco said his voice echoing to the hallway. That's an understatement.
"I didn't either" I heard Barry mumble out. Oh no, he's disappointed it's me. I felt my heart breaking. Barry spoke again, "I'm gonna go find Caitlin".
I didn't want them to know that I'd been listening so I walked hurriedly to the pipeline and sat down where I'd cried about Ronnie being Firestorm months ago. With tears bubbling in my eyes I sank to the floor and tried to pull myself together. I'm happy Natalie is mine, she's such a beautiful girl and I already know how smart she is just by the way she talks. I can tell she really loves all of us. Not only is Barry disappointed that he marries me but I'm also dead by the time my daughter is five years old. How is this happening? I wish that I never fell in love again, I hate the heartbreak. I can't take this over and over again.
"Caitlin" I looked up to see Barry standing by the entrance to the pipeline with a concerned smile on his face. I sniffled and wiped my tears quickly.
"I don't wanna talk about it, Barry" I answered looking back at the ground.
"Cait, I..."
"Please don't break my heart, I can't take it again" I interrupted finally looking up at him. Confusion, sadness and something I couldn't really decipher graced his handsome features. "Please don't say it. I already know that you love Iris and wanted her to be Natalie's mother. I'm sorry that you're disappointed so please don't say it". I finished then looked back down as tears threatened to spill from my eyes.
"Is that what you think is going on, Caitlin?" Barry asked walking closer to me. I stood up and faced him brushing the tears away again.
"That's what I know is going on, Barry. So can we please-" I was interrupted by Barry putting both his hands on my face and kissing me. I froze for a minute then started to kiss him back. I was so confused right now but all rational thought was thrown away with his lips on mine. My heart felt like it would burst with how happy I felt kissing Barry. It was a soft and gentle kiss and I didn't want it to stop but I needed answers so I pulled away. Barry looked disappointed but when he saw the question in my eyes he smiled that wonderful smile that makes my heart beat at a mile a minute.
"I'm not disappointed that it's you, Caitlin" He said with conviction, total sincerity shining in his eyes.
"I don't understand" I whispered out staring into those emerald orbs. Barry chuckled and kissed my forehead.
"I'm not in love with Iris anymore, sure I'll always love her but don't we all always love our first loves" I nodded slowly, I still love Ronnie but I'm not in love with him anymore, "When I first realized that Natalie was my daughter, I felt this weight come off my chest. It's like seeing her made me realize that I didn't love Iris like that anymore and I couldn't help but hope that it was you that I have a future with, that I have that beautiful little girl up there with. I love you Caitlin, God, I'm so in love with you. I'm just sorry it took me so long to realize that".
"Really?' I asked not bothering to hide the hope in my voice. If I thought that kissing Barry made my heart burst then hearing say he loved me made me feel like my whole body would explode. Barry chuckled again and nodded.
"Really" he confirmed. I leaned in to kiss him again and he gladly obliged. After a minute I pulled away with a smile on my face.
"I'm in love you too" I whispered our noses barely touching. Barry smiled so wide I thought his face may crack.
"I'm glad" he replied and we both laughed lightly before connecting our lips again.
"Not that I'm not really excited for you guys but Natalie is awake and crying her eyes out" Cisco's voice called through the intercom system. Barry and I shared a concerned look before he picked me up and flashed us to the cortex.
"What happened while we were gone?" Barry asked concern radiating through his voice.
"I don't know man, I was just sitting here, not ease dropping on you guys at all, then I hear Nat start whimpering so I went to calm her down and she just got worse". Barry and I exchanged a blush but then quickly ran to the med bay. When Natalie saw us, she flashed out of the bed and into my arms.
"Mommy" she whimpered and rubbed her back soothingly, Barry came to stand next to us and put his hand on her back. We shared a look then turned back to our distraught daughter.
"What's wrong sweetheart?" Barry asked as we walked to the bed and sat down. Natalie sniffled then pulled away from me to look at us both.
"I had a ni-nightmare about th-that d-d-day" She stuttered out tears still streaming down her face. Barry reached forward and wiped the tears from her face.
"About what day, honey?" He asked rubbing his thumb on her cheek. I continued to rub her back as I listened. Natalie hiccuped then turned her eyes up to me then looked back to Barry.
"The day he took Mommy went away". I felt my heartbreak at how broken she sounded. Oh my god, was she there when it happened to me, whatever it was?
I looked at Barry who looked like he was gonna cry too. I had forgotten that I was dead in Natalie's time.
"Natalie," Barry started his voice shaking, "were you there when your mommy died?". She nodded sadly, my heart broke and I could tell by Barry's face that his did too.
"I shouldn't say anymore. You told me that no matter how much we want to change the past, we can't. You said that you would go back and do that day over to save her but you were afraid it would've been me instead" Natalie said looking Barry straight in the eyes like she was begging him not to talk about it anymore.
"I'm so sorry sweetheart" I said when Barry didn't say anything, "but let's not dwell on things we can't change. We need to get ready to meet Joe". Natalie perked up at least a little bit.
"We are going to see Grandpa Joe?" she asked a little happiness in her voice.
"Yes we are" I said bopping her nose, causing a giggle to leave my daughters lips. I glanced at Barry to see a half-smile on his face. He forgot about that part of the future too.
"We might need to get me some new clothes though" Natalie said gesturing to Barry's STAR Labs sweatshirt that she was wearing, which is much to big for her. I have to say that she looks adorable like this. I noticed the dry blood in her auburn hair too.
"And wash this out" I added on. Natalie scrunched up her nose.
"But I don't wanna take a bath" she pouted, Barry and I exchanged a look and laughed lightly.
"Too bad, missy" Barry teased picking her up causing her to giggle again. He spun her around then plopped her back down on the bed a smile on both their faces. My heart warmed at the sight. After I took Natalie to the bathroom and helped her wash off and Barry went to get her some clothes after asking Natalie for her size and she was dressed in the dark jeans and little white sweater, we were ready to go meet Joe.
"You don't still use a car seat, right Natalie?" Barry asked while he carried her to my car. Natalie looked a little offended and playfully hit Barry's shoulder with a giggle.
"No, Daddy! I'm five, not two!" she exclaimed. Cisco and I laughed as Barry shook his head with a smile.
"I just wanted to make sure, honey" He replied tickling her, earning another flourish of giggles escaping her lips. He already loves being a Dad.
"Daddy!' she shrieked and almost fell out of his arms. i gave Barry a look and he stopped tickling her.
"Be careful with her Barry!" I scolded as I unlocked my car. Barry raised the hand not holding Natalie in defense and our little girl began to giggle again. She's such a happy kid. Once we were all situated in the car, Cisco at shotgun and Barry and Natalie in the back, we were off to Jitters. The car ride was relatively quiet except for Natalie talking about the clouds outside the window and how different the city looked. When I looked at Barry in the review window, he was looking at Natalie in awe the whole time. He loves her just as much as I do.
"We're here" I announced and Natalie's face lit up.
"Good, I'm starving. Daddy will you help me with the seatbelt?" Natalie asked yanking on the seatbelt. All three of us laughed then Barry nodded and flashed to the other side of the car to help Natalie out of the car. He picked her up and held her on his hip looking very much like a dad. Natalie rested her head on his shoulder and played with her necklace as we walked inside.
"Looks like Joe's not here yet" Cisco commented looking around.
"Let's just sit down and get this munchkin some food" Barry said kissing Natalie's forehead as she perked up for food.
"Can I have hot chocolate Daddy?" she asked after we'd sat down at a round table for five. Cisco was to my left, Natalie to my right, Barry next to her and one empty seat for Joe.
"Of course you can honey, is that your favorite?". Natalie nodded with a big smile then turned to look at Barry and asked another question.
"Can I sit in your lap Daddy? This seat is too low for me". Barry and I smiled at each other while Cisco chuckled.
"Sure, come here" Barry replied moving his menu to the table and Natalie crawled into his lap leaning against his chest.
"Can I have three of these sandwiches and a cookie?" She asked again after looking at the menu, pointing at Jitter's PB&J from the kids menu. Only 2 hours with her and he's already wrapped around her little finger. I couldn't help but smile at how polite she was, we certainly raised her right.
"Order whatever you want". Natalie nodded and when the waitress came we all ordered.
"Your daughter is adorable" She said to Barry and I, we both looked at each other and blushed.
"Thank you" I said back politely.
"Your welcome. She looks just like you both" The waitress replied back then walked away to grab our drinks. Barry and I smiled at each other while Natalie colored on the kids menu. Cisco was watching us all with a smile on his face.
"We should play 20 questions but Nat answers them" He proposed leaning forward on the table towards Natalie. Natalie looked up at him and put down her crayons.
"Okay but no asking future questions Uncle Cisco" She said giving him an icy warning look. She is defiantly my child. Barry chuckled obviously thinking the same thing.
"Deal, first question when were you born?". Natalie leaned forward.
"April 25, 2020" was her simple answer. I filed that information away later. She turned five 6 months ago, with it being October.
"Are you in kindergarten?" Barry asked and Natalie turned around with a smug look on her face.
"I'm in 3rd grade. I skipped three grades and I look older than five anyway" All of us looked surprised, our daughter is a little genius. The waitress came back with the drinks and Natalie and Barry's food.
"Mommy, it's your turn" Natalie said picking up the hot chocolate to take a sip. I couldn't ask the question I really wanted to answer, How long have I been dead?
"What's your favorite color?". Natalie smiled and giggled.
"Red, like Daddy's suit" she answered, Barry, Cisco and I all exchanged smiles. Natalie really just adores Barry. Natalie turned to the sandwiches and started to eat them quickly. Well as quickly as she can without using her meta abilities.
"Wow, you really like food don't you?" Cisco laughed. Natalie nodded.
"Mmhmm, if I don't eat food every two hours then I'll pass out. It used to scare you a lot when you forgot to feed me constantly" she stated with her mouth full. Cisco looked a litle sheepish and Barry gave him a disapproving look.
"Natalie Nora Allen, don't chew with your mouth full" I scolded and she smiled guiltily.
"Sorry Mommy" she answered sheepishly.
"Why is your skin so cold?" Barry asked, the question had been bothering him I could tell. Natalie finished her food then wiped her mouth with a napkin before answering.
"I can't tell you that one, Daddy. It's a top secret future thing but if I start to feel warm then theres a problem", Barry furrowed his brows but before he could ask Natalie's face lit up.
"Grandpa Joe" she whispered excitedly and I could see the struggle for her not to go hug him. He was giving us a curious look as he took the seat next to Barry.
"I see you've already eaten half the menu" Joe joked then turned his eyes to Natalie who was still in Barry's lap, "and who is this adorable young lady?" Barry looked at me and I smiled in encouragement grabbing his hand under the table.
"Joe, this is Natalie. Natalie Nora Allen" Joe looked confused, "She's my daughter from the future.
That's all for now! Next time, Joe's reaction! Thanks for reading and please review:) More soooonn!