A/N: This is a one shot type thing I came up with a while ago where Alec is a musician and Magnus is a writer. Each part is a glimpse into their relationship over the course of three years. Each chapter shows snapshots of their life together over one year.

I hope you like it :)

Comments are welcome and appreciated.

YEAR TWO:

"You're up early."

Magnus looked up as Alec walked into the living room. The shorter of the two yawned and ran a hand through his hair.

"Never went to bed." Magnus picked up his coffee cup and finished off the contents. "Was working."

Alec frowned. "You have got to stop pulling all-nighters babe. It's not healthy."

"I'll be fine once I've finished." Magnus waved off his concern and got up to get some more coffee.

"Please tell me you've at least eaten," Alec sighed starting a fresh pot of coffee.

Magnus looked into his empty coffee cup and didn't answer.

"...when was the last time you ate?"

"Monday..."

"That was three days ago!"

Magnus winced a little as Alec raised his voice a bit. He sighed and ran a hand through his hair shaking his head.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to raise my voice like that it's just, you cannot survive on coffee and nothing else babe. It's not healthy for you."

"I know..." Magnus nodded feeling guilty. "I just forget sometimes is all."

Alec made a fresh pot of coffee and got him a clean mug, making it the way he liked it and dropped wo crushed up sleeping pills into the liquid when he wasn't looking and carried it over to him.

"Will you at least take a break while I make breakfast?"

"Alright," Magnus accepted the coffee and sat down on the couch reclining a little bit and drank his coffee. Alec whistled a little bit as he made them some breakfast and looked over a little after and found the other man fast asleep.

He walked over and took the cup before picking him up and carrying him to the bedroom and laying him on the bed covering him up.

"The perks of living with your writer boyfriend," he chuckled.

"Alec what are you doing? I'm trying to work," Magnus frowned and tried to, gently, push Alec away as he worked on his newest book.

"You've been working for so long..." Alec huffed a little and ran his hands under his shirt. "Spend some time with me."

Magnus jumped at the cold hands running down his chest and shuddered a little bit. "And what will we do?"

"I can think of a few things," Alec kissed his neck and playfully nipped at the skin. "But you have to come with me."

"I just need five more minutes," Magnus pushed his glasses up as he looked at the computer screen.

Alex reached over and closed the laptop.

"Enough, your deadline is not for three weeks, you have been working yourself to death, we haven't had sex in a month!"

"Fine you want to have sex?" Magnus asked standing up.

"I would yes," Alec nodded.

Magnus grabbed the other man's hand and started walking back to the bedroom. He turned and kissed back half pushing half easing him onto the bed and getting on top quickly removing their shirts, pants following soon after and being discarded onto the floor.

Alec made no complaints as he was manhandled in whichever way Magnus chose to have him and was content to lie back as the man straddled him.

Alec hadn't so much as blinked before he was all the way inside his boyfriend with Magnus biting his lip hard. He gripped his hips tightly to keep himself from coming right then and there and barely had time to regain his composure before Magnus started to move. It was a quick five minute burst before both men reached their release and Magnus carefully got up pulling his pajama pants back on and going back out to work.

Alec blinked and grabbed his boxers tugging them on before going after him.

"What was that?" Alex asked.

"I believe that was what people called sex," Magnus answered going back to his lap top.

"No, I get that part. But what I don't get is why we didn't just lay there after and why you came back to work."

"Because I did."

"Have I done something wrong?" Alec asked walking over. "Because if I did. Please tell me."

"It's not you..." Magnus shook his head. "It's nothing."

"Bull shit. What's wrong?"

"Nothing. Just drop it okay?"

"Fine," Alec through his hands up in frustration. "I'll just sit here until you decide to stop being such a workaholic."

Magnus shrugged and sat back down at his desk. The room was silent for a while. Alec had switched to a lying down position on the couch with his arm thrown over his face to block out the light.

"I ran into my ex a few days ago…" Magnus finally said after a while. "And…And I almost made a really stupid mistake…"

"What happened?" Alec asked.

"I was having a drink while I was waiting for you and he walked into the bar and saw me…we started talking and one thing led to another and I suddenly found myself with his hotel room key…And…I was honestly tempted to go up there, I was still upset about you and the blond, I know I shouldn't be but I was and-"

"It's okay, I understand," Alec got up and walked over. "I did a lot of shitty stuff to you and I would not have blamed you if you had slept with him. I'm glad you didn't, but I wouldn't have been mad if you had."

"I don't deserve you…" Magnus ran a hand through his hair.

"No, I don't deserve you," Alec smiled and leaned down to kiss him. "Come on. You should really get some sleep."

"You are probably right," he nodded and stood up. "I'm sorry…"

"Don't be," Alec shook his head and took his hand.

Alec inhaled deeply and leaned back on the couch and wiped his nose off. "Shit that's good."

"Figured you might like it," Sebastian smiled. "Consider this just a taste of what's been brewing."

"How much?" Alec asked.

"First one's on the house," Sebastian answered handing him a small plastic bag. "Heard you were seeing someone."

"Yeah. Nice guy."

"He into this sort of thing?"

"Not really. He let me do a couple lines off him once but that's about it."

"Sucks dude," Sebastian patted him on the back.

"Not really…he's just not into the whole drug thing…he writes a lot of kid's books and novels so," Alec shrugged and stood up. "I should get going. We're meeting for dinner in an hour."

"Course. Let me know when you want another," Sebastian called after him.

Alec nodded and headed out.

"Fuck don't stop," Magnus groaned and wrapped his arms around Alec's neck. "So close."

Alec smirked kissing him as he thrust. He gripped his thigh with one hand and used his other to keep his from crushing him with his weight. He slowed a little, teasing him before picking up the pace again bring them both to release soon after.

Magnus panted and loosened his grip a little. "I'm going to miss you so much."

"I'll only be gone a month. It'll go by fast," Alec chuckled and pulled out lying down next to him on the bed.

"What am I supposed to do if I get horny? I am way too old to be jacking off," Magnus said reaching over him to grab a cigarette.

"You are not that old."

"I am going to be 36 years old…and you will, you will be 25…"

"What's the big deal? You're going to be a very sexy 36 and I will be a hot 24. And everyone will be jealous when I got to parties with you on my arm because you are so drop dead gorgeous and-"

"You are high as a fucking kite aren't you," Magnus interrupted looking at him.

"It's just weed. Jace made some pot brownies and brought a few over. I swear to god that's all I'm on," Alec said starting to sit up.

"…You had pot brownies and you didn't offer me one? I feel a little insulted," Magnus looked at him.

"I didn't think you'd want one. The only thing you do is smoke…" Alec shrugged. "Do you want one?"

"Did we just have sex?"

"I will go and get you one then."

Alec chuckled and got up pulling on his sweats and went into the kitchen and grabbed him a brownie and some water from the fridge and went back into the bedroom.

"One pot filled brownie for one sexy man. Did I mention it comes with shirtless service," Alec said getting back into the bed.

"Ooh shirtless service, may have to make that a rule for the apartment," Magnus replied accepting the treat and taking a bite. "I didn't know Jace could bake."

"This is one of his best specialties. When we first started out, we got nervous before live shows. Split one these before a show, nerves completely gone," Alec answered putting his arm around him.

"My mother…Overdosed on drugs when I was in elementary school…it was suicide…" Magnus told him taking another bite of the brownie. "That's why I get…when you…fuck I'm gonna start crying now."

Alec pulled him close and kissed his temple. "I swear to you Magnus. The only thing in my body at this time, is this pot brownie. I will never do something like that to you. I promise."

Magnus nodded a little bit and kissed him.

Alec yelped and staggered back a few paces as Magnus hugged him wrapping his arms around him tightly. He smiled and wrapped his arms around him and spun him in a small circle before setting him on his feet again.

"Glad to see you too," Alec kissed him.

"As much as I love all the camera's currently cataloging our every move, could we have some time alone?" Magnus pulled away.

"Course. Is this all you brought?" Alec asked picking up his carrying.

"You know me. Make up only so I can buy an entire new wardrobe while I'm here. It's been ages since I've been in London after all," Magus answered.

"We can lose them at baggage claim," Alec murmured giving him another kiss. "There's a taxi outside waiting."

"Let's not keep the taxi waiting then," Magnus smiled.

They mingled with the people at baggage claim before making a beeline out of one of the side doors and quickly got in the waiting taxi and were promptly all over each other once more.

"Hotel first sir?" the taxi driver asked.

"The nearest will do," Alec answered managing to pull himself away for a brief moment.

They got to the hotel and paid for a room after telling the taxi driver to return in two hours. Alec pushed Magnus onto the bed and got on top quickly relieving both of their clothes

"Fuck what about prep?" Alec panted a little worried.

"You should've seen the look on the TSA securities faces when they had to search me," Magnus blushed a little bit.

"You didn't…" Alec raised an eyebrow.

Magnus pulled off his briefs and parted his legs. "Not for the entire ride. But for the last two hours. The perks of flying first class on a learjet~"

"God I've missed you," Alec grinned kissing him again and quickly removing the small device and thrusting in.

Both men groaned at the action. Magnus wrapped his arms around his neck and kissed him as Alec began thrusting in earnest.

"Fuck so tight," Alec groaned as he kept going.

"I…could never reach it quite like you!" Magnus cried out as Alec thrust right against his prostate.

Alec smirked and did it again as he kissed him.

Later when they had finished and were coming down from the post sex high Magnus sat up and grabbed his wallet of the floor and settled back down against Alec.

"What have you got in there?" Alec asked curious.

"For you and your siblings," Magnus answered handing him some tickets. "I'm doing a private reading for my latest novel this weekend."

"You mean the novel that you won't let me read or buy?" Alec asked taking the tickets.

"That'd be the one," Magnus answered smiling.

"How do I know I didn't read it already?" Alec asked.

"Trust me. I would know if you read it," Magnus answered. "Now that we've had a good and very thorough four rounds of sex. I believe eating and then shopping is in order."

"And then more sex," Alec nodded. "Don't give me that look. I need my daily dose of Magnus or I'll explode."

Magnus kissed him. "Eating, shopping, and then sex. Sounds like a good day to me."

Alec inhaled deeply and sat back rubbing his nose. He leaned forward and repeated the process three more times and wiped his nose once he finished.

"Alec. Are you finished in there? I need to shower," Magnus said knocking on the bathroom door.

"Alright just a second," Alec told him.

He cleaned up his mess and put the stuff in his bag and zipped it shut stowing it under the bathroom sink. He unlocked the bathroom door and stepped out of the way as Magnus walked in.

"I was thinking…we should consolidate to one apartment," Alec leaned against the counter as Magnus turned on the shower.

"Really? I thought you liked the independence when I worked," Magnus took off his clothes and stepped into the shower closing the curtain.

"I do. But I like being around you when you work…sides, my lease is almost up and while I did enjoy living with you at my apartment, I like yours better."

"So we're moving into my apartment now?" Magnus asked.

"If you have no objections," Alec answered.

"I have none," Magnus chuckled. "Course we'll have to go through your things, my apartment only has so much room."

"And your things?"

"What about my things?"

Alec rolled his eyes. "Nothing, nothing. I'm going to order some room service."

"Love you too," Magnus called after him.

Alec quietly crept into the apartment and quietly shut the door behind him and set his keys down on the table. He hung up his coat and was half way to the bedroom before the light came on and he found Magnus waiting for him.

"You're home late. Or rather early I suppose," he said drinking his tea.

"And you're up late?" Alec replied trying to remain nonchalant.

"Insomnia," Magnus shrugged. "So, where were you?"

"Oh um just out…Jace and I went out for a few drinks…lost track of time…" Alec answered. "I'm going to go take a shower."

"Before you do, I was doing some laundry earlier and well this and this and these were in the pockets of your jeans…funny right?" Magnus said holding up the small baggies. "Now if my memory serves me right, this is acid, this is ecstasy and this one here. The one that seems to be your favorite, coke. Am I right?"

Alec ran a hand through his hair and kept his mouth close knowing that once Magnus got started. He wasn't finished until he got it all out. And he could tell he wasn't anywhere near being done.

"You went to rehab Alexander. You completed rehab. You told me you were clean and yet these were in your jeans. What the fuck are you doing with this in your jeans? I can't believe I listened to you. Ragnor was right. Dating a musician who does drugs is not the smartest move.-"

"It's not mine..." Alec managed to cut in. "At least not the other two...I don't...I don't do acid or ecstasy. We went to a party a few nights ago and these girl stuck them in my pocket."

"I really want to believe you Alec. Honestly, I really want to, but I just can't..." Magnus shook his head and set the small baggies on the coffee table. "I think it's best if I go and stay with Ragnor for a few days."

"What if I quit cold turkey. Will that make you believe me? I...I can't lose you Magnus. I need you, please," he walked over and grabbed his hands. "I'll throw it all out, just please. Please don't leave me."

"Oh sweet pea..." Magnus gave him a sad smile and shook his head kissing his forehead. He wrapped his arms around him and ran his fingers through his hair. "This is for your own good. You need time to think this through...I need time to think this through...You're still young, I'm not...I'm to old to be dating a drug addict."

Alec gripped his shirt and shook his head. "I don't need the drugs, fuck them, fuck them all. I need you Magnus. You're the only one who makes me feel alive and whole, like my life actually means something. You don't see me as Jace and Isabelle's older brother. Just give me another chance, I'll do anything."

"Come with me to Indonesia then...I have a small house that's outside of town, just the two of us. No drugs, no Jace. Just us. Can you do that for me?" Magnus asked cupping his face.

Alec nodded. "I...I can do that. And I'll even let you inspect every inch of my suitcase before we leave."

Magnus gave him a kiss and sighed pulling away with a small smile. "This is your last chance Alec. Use it wisely okay?"

"I will. I promise."

"What are you doing out here?" Alec stretched as he walked outside. He hugged Magnus from behind and rest his chin on his shoulder.

"I always forget how serene it is," he answered. "Everyone is still stuck in the age of telephones with a cord in them, no TV, record players and records...I missed it..."

"Did you grow up here?"

"For a few years when I was younger...after my mother killed herself, my step father and I moved to Spain and he put me in foster care, moved to New York when I was eighteen. The first time I came back here was when I was twenty six after I published my first book. I bought my mother's old house with the money and fixed it up and rented it out for a few years before I decided to use it as a little vacation home when things get to stressful."

He put out his cigarette and turned to face him giving him a kiss. Alec kissed back and slid his hands into his robe stroking his sides. He pressed against him and deepened the kiss.

Magnus moaned softly as he kissed and sucked at his throat rocking their hips together. They took their time, going slow. No one was around for miles, no one could see them. They were alone. Everything quiet except for the sounds of their breathing and panting and soft noises of pleasure.

"Can we come back?" Alec asked running his fingers down Magnus back after they finished.

They were wrapped up in a few blankets and laying in the hammock on the porch.

"I'd like that," Magnus smiled and sat up a little to kiss him.

"I don't like you."

Alec coughed and looked up from his drink. "Pardon?"

"I don't like you," the man standing in front of him said. "Magnus doesn't need another drug addict in his life. Not again."

"I'm two months clean..." Alec told him.

"And all it takes is one slip up," Ragnor replied.

"Ah Ragnor, there you are green bean," Magnus smiled walking over. "What did the producer think of the changes?" He put his arm around Alec and squeezed his side in a friendly manor.

"Liked them of course. They're starting tomorrow afternoon," he answered.

"Alec, this is Ragnor. He's my editor and I suppose you could say agent as well," Magnus told him. "And he's also one of my bestests friends."

"Bestest friends? Really what are we in elementary school?" the other rolled his eyes. "And how much have you had to drink?"

"I'm a grown man, I can drink alcohol," Magnus made a show of downing the drink in his hand before handing it to a passing waiter. "Loosen up Ragnor. It's a party, a party that I am paying for and will drink as much as I damn well please. Now if you don't mind, I'd like to dance with this very attractive looking young man at my side."

Magnus took Alec's hand and led him to where there other people dancing. He finished his own drink and set it aside as Magnus wrapped an arm around his waist and took his other hand while the song changed to a slower one.

"I don't think your friends like me..." Alec said as they danced.

He let Magnus lead him around the dance floor not missing how he subtly moved closer to him eyes closed as they moved.

"They tend to not like anyone I date, well no, that's a lie, they liked Etta but then they hardly really knew her I suppose," he replied.

"Etta?" Alec asked.

"She was a jazz musician. She and I dated when I was just starting out as a writer, I was a waiter in the club she sang at. But we wanted different things, she wanted someone she felt she could grow old with and have children..."

"What did you want?"

"I wasn't so sure at the time."

"Is...there anyone else you dated before me?"

"There were a few, Etta, Woolsey Scott, though that was more physical, Isamu, lovely young man I dated briefly in the summer one year in Peru...Axel a history major who talked about the french revolution a little to much, and-"

"Magnus," a female voice cut him off and Magnus pulled away from Alec as if he'd been slapped tensing up.

"Camille..." He turned to face her a fake smile plastered onto his face.

She walked over, in a tight black floor length dress that moved when she did and left little to the imagination. Her hair was platinum blond and done up in ringlets around her head.

"It's been to long," she smiled.

"Not long enough," He replied. "What are you doing here? I don't remember inviting you..."

"I was hoping I could talk to you concerning a little matter," she answered.

"He can't," Alec answered before Magnus could. "We were just leaving."

"And who might you be?" she asked raising an eyebrow.

"I'm his fiance," Alec answered.

"But you're just a baby."

"And you're just one dye job away from split ends."

Magnus covered a laugh with a cough. "He's right though. We were just leaving, if you need to talk to me, leave a message with Ragnor." He took Alec's hand and led him out of the party and outside where a car was waiting for them.

"Was that an ex?" Alec asked once they were in the car.

"One of many," Magnus answered.

"What happened?"

"Nothing you need to concern yourself with."

Alec started to say something but was cut off as Magnus slid into his lap straddling him. He raised an eyebrow and put his hands on his hips. "You know we're in a car right?"

"I know, and it's a town car, there's is a closed off window that separates us from the driver," Magnus told him.

"Happy anniversary," Alec grinned kissing Magnus's cheek. "I got you something."

"You didn't have to get me anything," Magnus replied.

"Really? Because I can take it back," he teased holding out the box.

Magnus set down his pen and took the box. "What is it?"

"Open it and find out," Alec told him rolling his eyes.

He watched him open the box and bit his lip watching his reaction.

"It's a ring," Magnus looked up at him. "Alec...why is it a ring?"

"Because I want to get married to you...why else would I get you a ring? Do you not want to marry me?"

Magnus didn't answer for a long time and Alec grew a little impatient. He sat back in his chair balancing the ring on his knee. He ran a hand through his hair and looked at him.

"I do...want to marry you..." Magnus said breaking the silence.

"Then wants the problem?" Alec replied sitting up.

"...I'm scared..." Magnus admitted.

"Of getting married?" Alec frowned sitting up more.

"Of getting left at the altar...it happened once before...Camille. You met her at the party..." Magnus told him.

Alec got up and moved so he was sitting on his knees on the floor in front of him. He took his hands in his and squeezed gently. "I promise you, I'm not going to let anything get between us, I'm four months sober, I'm going the programs like I swore to you I would. I want to marry you. I want to make you happy. I'm not going to fuck this up and leave you at the altar like some woman who couldn't how valuable it is to have some like you in her life. But I'm not going to make the same mistake. I promise you that."

"You mean it?" Magnus asked.

"Of course I do," he answered leaning up and kissing him.

He picked up the ring box and opened it again. "So, Magnus Bane. Will you marry me?"

Magnus nodded and smiled as he slid the ring on his finger.

"Oh Magnus this venue is so pretty," Isabelle smiled as she looked around. "It's perfect for a small wedding."

"With room for the paparazzi of course," he deadpanned and wished his could close the curtains to block out of the scattered flashes from the camera's.

"You're marrying Alexander Lightwood. Lead bass man and singer for one of the hottest bands, and son of Maryse and Robert Lightwood," she answered. "And despite the fact the band is still on break, we're still on the radar because of our parents, so seeing as you two are engaged, you're going to have to used to all the camera's," she gave him an apologetic look.

"Then I suppose it's good thing I brought you with me instead of him," he answered giving her a smile.

"I sense an ulterior motive, but I do love planning a good wedding, no matter how small," she teased.

He rolled his eyes and smiled. "Shame Clary couldn't tag along. I notice that you two have been getting close since she and Jace split up."

She blushed a little and gave a small shrug. "Just...you know, getting to know each other is all..."

"Oh yes, because I played with my hair and bat my eyelashes when I wanted to get to know you're brother," he smiled. "I know flirting when I see it and you my dear, are laying it on thick."

"I'm not laying it on thick," she crossed her arms over her chest. "Laying it on thick was Alec when he first tried to woo you. That was laying it on thick."

"Really? I didn't notice...I thought it was cute," he smiled at the memory. He sighed and sat down in one of the window seats. "He slips up..."

She sat down next to him and took his hand. "But he's getting better. He's so much better than before he met you. He's really wised up in the past few years because of you. He's trying Magnus. He's really trying and it's all because of you."

He squeezed her hand and nodded. "Thank you for coming with me..."

"You're going to be my brother in law and the only one I like, and seeing Alec is terrible at this sort of thing, you seem like you could use all the help you can get," she told him.

"I take offense to that," Alec said walking into the hall. "I came here to see if I can lend a hand and I hear that. I'm wounded."

"The only thing you're lending a hand to is the savages with camera's outside," Magnus said standing up and letting go of her hand.

"I tossed them a little something about Jace, they should be dispersing soon," he replied kissing his cheek. "I thought we could take a break from all this wedding stuff and go out for lunch?"

"We have a meeting with the cater, you are welcome to tag along," Magnus told him.

"Is this our wedding, or are you secretly planning to marry my sister," he teased.

"Oh damn, you foiled our plan," Isabelle sighed. "We've been found out Magnus."

Alec rolled his eyes. "Ha ha, very funny."

She smiled. "Magnus is all yours. I have a thing I need to do."

"Thanks for your help today," he told her.

"Anytime." She waved before heading out.

Alec smiled and kissed him. "Love the venue by the way. It's perfect for a small wedding...you sure you're alright with a small wedding?"

"Friends and family, strict guest list, and no paparazzi...I went all big last time and it wasn't worth it," Magnus told him. "Something small and simple will suit me just fine."

"Just tell me where to stand and I'm good to go," Alec chuckled and gave him another kiss.

"You want to what?" Alec blinked.

"I want to cease our sexual activity-"

"You can be such a prude," Alec couldn't help but tease.

"Until our honeymoon. It'll be more special..." he blushed a little from embarrassment.

"I suppose I can live with that..." Alec sighed and wrapped his arms around his waist but can I still kiss you? And touch you?" he asked sliding his hands under his shirt. "Tease you a little?"

Magnus shuddered a little and cleared his throat. "At this rate, I'm going to have to move in with Ragnor. Knowing him and how he feels about you, he won't let me leave unless I sneak out the window."

"Mmm I kinda like that idea," Alec smiled kissing his neck.

"I...I have to. I'm going to be late for my fitting..." he managed to pull himself out of his grasp.

Alec pouted and picked up his coffee before handing him his phone. "Send me a few pictures. I'm going to need something to help me last through this little dry spell."

"I...will see what I can rustle up," Magnus cleared his throat still blushing as he pulled on his coat leaving.

Alec smiled and finished off his coffee. "He is so not going to last."

"Dude, chill, I'm pretty sure that dummy is nothing but the post now," Jace picked up his water bottle. "I take it you're whole dry spell is still going on?"

"I don't know how he's managed to last this long. It's been three months already!" He punched the post and winced rubbing his hand. "I have to get home. I promised Magnus I'd call the florist at three. If he finds out I didn't I'm screwed and not in the way I want."

"Hey, look on the bright side, the wedding's on two and a half more months away," Jace teased.

Alec rolled his eyes and grabbed his duffel bag on his way out. He got back to the apartment and dropped it on the floor as he shut the door. He paused as he heard some sounds coming from the bedroom. He took off his shoes and tiptoed quietly and pressed his ear to the door. He tried the door knob and finding it unlocked quietly pushed it open.

He had to cover his mouth to keep from groaning. Magnus was on the bed, leg's spread, eyes closed, one hand wrapped around his length and the other deep inside himself. He was biting his lip moaning softly.

"You little sneak."

He hadn't realized he'd said it until the words were out of his mouth.

Magnus made a startled noise and went to grab the blanket but Alec beat him to it and held it from his grasp. He leveled his gaze at him with a smirk. Magnus swallowed a little nervous as Alec shut the the bedroom door with his foot.

"No one told you to stop."

"Any word from your parents?" Magnus asked pushing his glasses up. "We really need get this final head count to the venue owner."

"They're not coming," Alec answered pouring himself of coffee.

"Oh..." he nodded a little.

"Funny enough they can get past the drugs, but they can't get past the fact that I'm gay," he shrugged a little. "It's alright though."

"Are you sure?" Magnus asked.

"I'm sure. It's their loss right?" he answered. "And besides, the people who really matter are going to be there. That's all that matter's to me. So you can send that final head count to the owner when you're done."

"If you're sure," Magnus replied and finished counting before getting up to put it in the mail. "Only one more month til we say I do. How are your vows coming along?"

"Finished," he smiled. "Don't worry. I got it covered."

"You're just on top of it aren't you?" Magnus asked sitting back down next to him.

"Well someone's gotta make sure you don't turn into a bridezilla," Alec teased putting his arm around him.

Magnus rolled his eyes and poked his side. "Oh hush."

Alec smiled and kissed him. "Love you too."

Alec inhaled deeply as he sat up and smirked down at the brunette laying across the coffee table on his back. "I'm getting married tomorrow."

"Congratulations," he smiled back.

"He's a great guy," he nodded.

"Then why are you doing lines of coke off of me?" the guy asked.

"Why wait to fuck up when you can fuck up now," Alec answered with a shrug.

"That's a really shitty reason," the guy chuckled a little.

"I'm a really shitty guy who's going to do another shitty line of coke off of you," Alec replied. "It's what we shitty people do."

"You bastard!"

Alec ducked as a vase sailed over his head and shattered against the wall. "I can explain."

"Really? You can explain why you didn't show up to our fucking wedding?!" Magnus yelled. "You promised!"

"I know and I'm sorry. I-"

He ducked again as his alarm clock followed the same path as the vase.

"Get out."

"Magnus-"

"Get. Out."

"Babe please-"

"Get out! Just get the fuck out!"

Alec winced at the way his voice cracked and started to speak but thought better and grabbed his jacket as he left closing the door behind him. He ran a hand throug his hair as he walked down the stairs.

"I didn't think anyone would be here..." Alec said stepping into the apartment. "Magnus told me no one was going to be here."

"Yeah well I told him I didn't want a druggie in his apartment alone," Ragnor answered crossing his arms over his chest.

"Half the things in here are mine," Alec pointed out picking up some of this things and putting them in the boxes. "Where is he anyway?"

"He's out," he answered.

"Look, just say what you're going to say to me and get it over with. I fucked up. I know I did."

"I'm not going to say anything. I'm just gong to sit here with my beer and smile because Magnus is never going to take you back. And because I was right, dating a drug addict will never work out. I tried to tell him, I tried to get him to call off the wedding but he loved you so I sat back and I waited for the hat to drop and it did and it was not pretty."

Alec nodded a little bit and went into the bathroom to grab his things. He picked up the small prescription bottles lining the sink and set them back. He set his things by the door and made sure he had everything.

"If I know Magnus...like I know I do, he hasn't been sleeping...I usually put his sleeping medication in with some tea for him to drink and just let him pass out where he passes out and then put him to bed..." Alec told him.

"The key," Ragnor said holding his hand out.

"Right..." Alec nodded and took the key off his key ring and sighed putting it in his hand. "I know to you it won't matter...but I really love him and I really care about him and the fact that I did hurts more than you will ever know...I know you won't tell him I said all this, but I mean. And, I'm going to be back because I'm going to prove to him and you just how much he means to me."

Ragnor snorted. "Yeah, sure."

Alec loaded all of his things into his car and snagged one of the pictures on the wall when the other wasn't looking and shut the door behind him.