Hi there! Sorry I haven't posted in a while! Still debating the ending of the story... I'm close to 200 views agh! We're going back to the abnegation girl herself, Nasti. The chapters title is debatable but I chose it because she's experiencing her first time being free and not living as her faction expected her to!
Nasti's POV
When I arrived here I felt guilty, but the reason was kind of dumb. I felt guilty for not feeling bad about leaving my parents. I've made my first friend here, her name is Elin. Our friendship was unlikely at first because I swore to myself that the erudite were bad and they can't be trusted, but standing there watching her shoot was one of the best feelings I've ever had. It wasn't until I saw Amar's rage that I knew I must intervene. The other friendship that was unlikely was Melly and Steffi, candor and amity have a type of hatred towards each other. The candor say that those who seek peace are willing to lie to do so.
I can't even think of life at dauntless, I'm too focused on passing initiation. "We'll go through technique today and tomorrow you will fight each other. I must warn you all that this is a trial year and nobody will concede in a fight" Amar says as we finish throwing knives. Elin has been quiet since after lunch, she appears to he deep in thought. I wonder did Amar threaten her again, but I really don't think so, I would have noticed.
As we practice fighting techniques I need a few tries to figure out how to hold my body. No matter how hard I punch, the punching bag barely moves. "Come over here" Amar calls me. When I'm over he begins to talk "Listen Nasti you're weak, later I want to train you with my friend and your fellow initiate, Jana. You will learn self defense. Have you ever heard of the term 'kickboxing'? Its getting late, meet me at 7:30 here and make sure nobody sees you, tell everyone were done for today.
"I want to get a tattoo" Melly announces from in front of me as we exit the gym. "I just want to feel that candor was a thing in the past. I'm surprised that Melly isn't addressing the group, she's addressing me. "I'm not going to cut my hair or dye it strange colors, or pierce my face." I reply. "How about your bellybutton?" All the other initiates laugh. "They're just teasing you" a candor born who is named Andromache laughs, I think it may have been him that was crying last night. He pokes my ribs playfully "Yeah I'm in" I laugh. "A tattoo would be nice" I whisper. This surprises everyone. "Well that's Andromache, Nasti and I. Anyone else?" she asks. Everyone else shakes their head.
Andromache, I want to go back to the compound with Nasti, I'll meet you up there in a few minutes." Jana says as we walk, directing me in the other direction. "Please change your clothes now" she says as we enter our compound "You're not in abnegation anymore" she says while staring at my abnegation clothes. "Please change your clothes now, just take this" she says while handing me a black, knee length dress. A minute later I'm a completely new person. I look in the mirror and I see not a girl, but a young woman in front of me. Then she holds up a black pencil "Eyeliner" she says. "You can't make me pretty" "I'm going for noticeable, by the way I know there's something going on between you and Andromache." I go completely red, he's only my friend, I barely even know him. "Absolutely not!" I shout. "You're lying, but its cute, I think he likes you too but he's scared of rejection." I can't believe I'm having this conversation "Shut up Melly" I stutter. She let's down my hair and it falls into waves, I stare into the mirror, I do look noticeable. "Thank you" I put my hand out for hers to shake mine but instead she laughs and hugs me, I laugh too. Its good to feel joy again.
A few minutes later I see Andromache gritting his teeth, there's a ring on his arm in dark ink. I barely even notice him behind me a few minutes later. "The pain isn't that bad" he laughs. A picture of a bird in front of me reminds me of home. "Its an owl" a woman behind me says. "Pretty, right?" I turn to see the girl who did my aptitude test. "Oh, I remember you, I did not expect to see you again" she says. I look at her face, she is the woman that did my aptitude test for me "Can I have two owls on the side of my neck?" I ask. She sits me down and tilts my neck to the side and begins to draw "You need to talk to Amar later." She whispers. I'm puzzled by this "How do you know Amar? I'm meeting him later and what's so important?" I ask, wondering do I know my own trainer at all. Until I realize, I don't. "I lied about your aptitude test result, don't worry you got dauntless, but there's something else" "Something else?" I ask. But I am already leaving, the tattoos are on my neck and I didn't even notice the pain. I look on my neck and see two owls waiting on a branch. "Its perfect, thank you" I say back to her.