So this is kinda short, and probably horrible. I'm on antibiotics and lots of pain meds, and have been in and out of the hospital this last week so haven't had much time to write this. Hopefully you enjoy it.

For the second morning in less then a week Will woke up with a massive hangover. Unfortunately this time it wasn't his screaming cousin that caused him to be pulled from his slumber but instead his blaring alarm clock. The alarm clock letting him know he had to be to work soon. He groaned as he got out of bed and headed for the shower to scrub last night away. While in the shower bits of the evening came back to him, he remember he didn't have Ari so thankfully he didn't have to rush getting her ready for school. As he started to wash his hair he remembered why his daughter hadn't spent the night at home, his stupid insecurities. He struggled with insecurities his whole life and yesterday they had come back full force. He now realized he was being stupid, yea his daughter was going to have a hard life, but what kid didn't. Unfortunately kids get picked on all the time, whether their parents were straight, gay, married or divorced. His sexuality, choices or decisions he made couldn't control the way other children behaved, all he could do was remind Ari everyday of the reasons she was special and that she was loved. She may become upset sometimes not having her mother around, but Will had no control in that, even if he wasn't gay he couldn't force Gabi to stay. His being gay had nothing to do with her leaving, her own selfishness did. Will could not put himself down, and blame himself when he did the right thing. He stepped up and has given his daughter everything. He has sacrificed so much of his life to make sure Ari was happy, healthy, and cared for. He gave up his big city dreams for her to have a stable environment, to have a parent around and not be raised by nannies and babysitters. Ari was loved and when it came down to it that's all that mattered. Will shook his head at himself as he stepped out the shower, sometimes he could be a real idiot. Standing at the sink staring at his refection in the mirror, he finally remember the rest of the night and the most idiotic thing he did.

Sonny laid in bed staring at the ceiling above his head, while an internal battle ragged on in his head, did he call Will or not. He had his phone in his hand and had pulled up the number probably a hundred times but kept stopping himself right before he hit the call button. Finally he put his phone down and got out of bed, he needed to distract himself, he would deal with this later when they could talk face to face.

"I...I'm a horrible father." Will sobbed into Sonny's shoulder.

"I don't understand...why would you think...?" Sonny began but was interrupted when Will quickly pulled away from his shoulder, and vomited all over his shoes.

"Oh, god. I'm...fuck...I fuck everything up. Shit!" Will said sitting down on the curb in the parking lot. Sonny sat down next to him and began to rub his back as Will continued to vomit and mumble things in between about him being horrible, and always causing problems.

"Will.. please tell me what's wrong?" Sonny asked once Will finally finished emptying his stomach.

"I puked on you." Will said when he turned towards Sonny and noticed his shoes.

"It's fine. Really." Sonny said trying to help Will stand back up. "Let's get you home, and we can talk about what's gotten you so upset."

"No..just leave Sonny. Leave me here...everyone seems to leave eventually.."Will said stumbling to stand again

"I'm not just going to leave you here. Come on. Let me take you home" Sonny pleaded wrapping Will's arms around his shoulder and leading him to the car. Once he had Will strapped inside he ran over to the driver side of the car, and started the engine. As he navigated the roads he watched Will out of the corner of his eye. He sat quietly staring out the window. Sonny couldn't understand what was going on and didn't know if he should try to find out or let the man be, but he didn't have to contemplate for too long, because Will began to speak.

"I'm an asshole." Will informed

"Why would you say that?"

"I ruined my daughters life."

"What happened?" Sonny asked grabbing Will's hand as he pulled up to a red light and turned to look at Will. Will didn't turn away from the window still staring out the passenger side.

"I slept with a woman Sonny." Will said pulling his hand away

"I'm hoping you mean Ari's mother and not someone tonight." Sonny said confused.

"Eww..of course Ari's mother. I would never sleep with a woman again." Will said making a disgusted face

"Good, because I wouldn't be ok with that." Sonny tried to joke and lighten the mood but when Will didn't respond he continued "How does that make you a horrible father?" Sonny asked turning back to the road as the light turned green.

"I knew I was gay when I slept with her. I couldn't admit it though, I was too much of a coward to admit to anyone."

"Coming out is not easy, Will. Just because you were scared for your life, and the way people saw you to change doesn't make you a coward."

"Sleeping with Gabi, knowing I could never love her the way she loved me makes me an asshole."

"It doesn't. You were confused Will. A lot of gay men sleep with women, it doesn't make them all assholes. You were a confused teenager."

"It doesn't matter, if I was confused, a coward, or an asshole. My actions ruined Arianna's life."

"We are going around in circles here Will. I don't understand how you sleeping with Gabi ruined Ari's life. In fact the only thing I know is you sleeping with a woman gave Ari a life."

"A life where she is going to be picked on and put down because her dad is gay. She doesn't have a mother and never will because of me."

"I don't know the story behind Ari's mom but I don't think her not being in the picture is strictly because your gay. The sexuality of a parent does not justify the other parent not being in that child's life."

"If I could have loved Gabi back, maybe she would have stayed."

"Then you would have both been living a lie." Sonny said as he pulled into the driveway of Will's house and turned the car off.

"This is a mistake Sonny. You deserve more then someone like me. I'm nothing." Will said as he got out of the car and stumbled towards the door.

"You are not nothing Will. You are everything, I don't know what happened today or why you are feeling this way, but it isn't a mistake." Sonny said following Will into the house.

"Just go home, Sonny." Will said heading upstairs. Thankfully Sonny didn't listen and followed him because when Will reached about the third step he almost fell backwards but Sonny caught him.

"I said to go home Sonny." Will said not acknowledging the help he desperately needed.

"I'm not leaving you alone to break your neck. At least let me help you to bed." Once they reached Will's room he spun around to say something to Sonny, but the action must have been too quick because the next thing he knew he was rushing to the bathroom, hand over mouth. When he finally finished vomiting again, he leaned back resting against the wall and noticed a hand come into view holding a cup of water.

"Drink this." Sonny said sitting down on the side of the tub next to Will, he took the drink and swallowed it all in one gulp. "Do you think your done being sick?" Sonny asked, and Will just nodded. Sonny helped him to his feet and back to his bed where he tucked him in. "Get some sleep Will." Sonny whispered and kissed him on the forehead before turning and leaving.

As Will stood at his kitchen counter making a cup of coffee, remembering all of last night the only thing he could think was that he finally let his insecurities win. He ruined everything with Sonny.

Thanks for the reviews, follows and favorites. I really was not expecting anything from this...kinda thought I would have stopped after only the first chapter. Anyways hopefully I can write more soon!