Liv hopped on a plane to London right after her encounter with Fitz. To his credit he had called off her surveillance at her request. Liv appreciated that he was honoring her wishes. Perhaps now they could both move on from each other. She certainly hoped so. She hoped that by releasing her he would release himself from her and live the life he was meant to live. Before her. Before they threw each other off course.
Fitz was unprepared for the regret Olivia felt. As angry as he was and as hurt and doubtful as he had become he had never felt regret for having met her. For what she had brought to his life. It tore him up knowing that he had pushed her so far that she wanted to erase their whole history. How she no longer believed in the love they shared. He had made her doubt he ever loved her. That was all on him. He knew that respecting her wishes for space was all he could do at that point. Anything more would only aggravate her and drive her further away. He sensed the more space he gave her increased the chances of her not hiding from him completely.
"Liv you know if you don't go home and something happens to Cyrus Beene you'll never forgive yourself." Abby uncharacteristically pointed out.
"She's right Liv. He's one of your best friends." Quinn agreed.
"I can go back with you Liv and if you want to remain untraceable, that can be done." Huck offered.
"I at least would like to be there during the surgery."
"Done. Give me a few and I'll set it up."
Olivia appreciated their support and solidarity. As bad as she felt about having to move them halfway across the world which she knew was their choice, she could see how no longer living the Gladiator life had freed them all somehow. They had all taken to their London life with gusto. Rarely do people get to start brand new and Abby, Harrison, Quinn, Abby and even Huck made the most of it.
"What do you mean he wasn't there?" Olivia asked in disbelief as Cyrus recounted his last day at the White House.
"He had a meeting at the Hill. Liv it's okay." Cyrus soothed trying to placate her trying to mask his own disappointment
"It so isn't Cyrus." She replied softly closing her eyes trying to control her own frustration.
"Maybe not but it is what it is. James, Ella and I are all packed and ready to go."
"Are you sure about coming here? Cy, I'm happy to come home."
"No Liv, we all need a clean slate. Besides I don't want him to find out through the grapevines. I don't want his forgiveness that way. I've said my peace and I gave him a chance to not even forgive me but say a proper goodbye and he chose not to." Olivia sighed.
"Abby and Quinn have moved in with me so their place is ready for the Beene's to take over. I've spoken to your surgeon and he's received all your records from your doctor and he wants to meet with you and then schedule surgery."
"We could have found our own place Liv. The girls didn't need to give up their apartment."
"I have a three bedroom place to myself Cy. You guys could have moved in with me but the girls figure you would need the room to recuperate. It's not a big deal."
Fitz felt horrible for not being there for Cy's last hours at the White House. He had made sure everyone had made a big deal but he couldn't bring himself to be there and watch another person walk away from him. He knew what part he played in the continual fracture of his relationship with Cyrus. Even after his resignation he couldn't bring himself to let bygones be bygones. Liv's visit only highlighted how broken and irreparable some things had become.
Liv was right. Cyrus' greatest fault was he believed in Fitz completely that it left little room to allow for faults that Fitz had. In saying that despite those faults, Cyrus would still undoubtedly slay dragons for him. He realised how lucky he was. He had the faith of two people who despite his actions never waivered their belief in him. Till now. Till he pushed so hard. Too hard.
He had decided that he would go see Cyrus over the weekend and try to repair what he had assisted in destroying.
"Liv..." Cyrus said softly as she hugged him hello at the airport.
"Hey Cy." She replied taking in that he looked like he had aged even from when she last saw him only days ago. It made her hold on to him that little bit tighter.
"I'm fine kiddo." He assured her.
"Lee-vee." Ella said reaching for her godmother. Olivia smiled and released Cyrus to take his two year old in her arms.
"Hi baby girl. Did you miss Lee-vee?" Ella Beene and all her toothless glory grinned at her nodding. Her godmother was her favourite playmate.
"Lee-vee missed you too Little One." Liv said giving Ella an extra hug before kissing James hello.
"Hey J."
"Hi honey," Liv read the gratefulness in his voice. She knew that he didn't want to be alone in dealing with Cyrus' sickness. She squeezed his arm reassuringly. They were going to be in whatever was ahead, together. As a family.
The Beene's had a day to settle into their new home. On the afternoon after their arrival he, James and Liv went to his surgeon who scheduled his triple bypass for the following day.
"Hello," Fitz answered uncertainly picking up his secure line.
"I asked you to make sure you ended his season right Fitz. It was important." The voice laced with disappointment said softly.
"You didn't need to plan a big party. You didn't need to get him such an extravagant present. He just wanted you. What you never understood is that you have always been enough. Yes Cyrus pushed you and seemingly I kept pushing you away but you were and have always more than enough." Fitz closed his eyes,
"I couldn't do it Liv. I couldn't watch another person walk away from me. You all left me."
"You left way before we ever did. Don't make it seem as though we all just up and left you without warning. For almost a year you not only removed yourself from my life you made it a mission to let me know how little I meant to you in the end."
"Defiance changed me."
"Newsflash Fitzgerald. It changed me too. It changed everything. If you knew me at all you would...you know what, it's not important."
"Why did you call Liv?" He asked. Liv took a deep breath.
"Because I don't want you to have one more thing to regret. If we meant anything to you at all, however small and insignificant it is now fix it with Cyrus. If not for him, for yourself. Once upon a time I knew you and if the man I thought you were is still in there somewhere I wouldn't want this to hang over his head for the rest of his life."
"What's your point Olivia..." hearing him call her by her full name had never sat well with her,
"You're intelligent. Figure it out. Do it soon." Without waiting for a reply Olivia hung up.
"Cyrus will blow a gasket," James pointed out however relieved that Liv had done it knowing how much it would mean to him if he and Fitz had ironed out their issues just in case.
"You and I both know that when he goes in for that surgery tomorrow there will be three things on his mind. You, Ella and Fitz."
"Four Liv. You will be too. He loves you like a daughter and he feels responsible for you and would never dare entertain the idea that he may not be there to thoroughly annoy you about everything."
"Thank you J."
Fitz called out for Tom as soon as he put the phone down and began to ask questions. Questions Olivia had prepared Tom for should the moment arise. Fitz's heart dropped to his feet. A rush of regret flodded through him. A feeling he had come too familiar with.
