It wasn't that bad. Why do people always say sleeping in something else then in a bed is too low to stoop? It takes some getting used to but if you lower the backseat, put a mattress or something in the car and you sleep like a dream, almost. A big plus was that I normally drove around and when no one was around I parked the car back on the school parking ground. So I got to sleep longer and everyone thought that I just arrived early. Just like today.

Leaning against the wall I stared everyone down that passed me. Since last week that was one of the only joys in my life. Ryder didn't talk to me anymore, not honestly. All because Beck and I were trying to work it out. I just wanted happiness and love. I've always wanted love.

"Ms. West?" Taken out of my thoughts I looked up to see Anthony. "Class is starting. C'mon."

"Okay." Sighing I pushed myself of the wall and walked into class. Today would have been my turn to perform the song we've written. Anthony doesn't usually let people perform against their will as long as they pass and perform for just him. That worked for me. I dumped my Gears of Wars bag on the seat next to me. Normally Jake would sit there but after what happened last week I didn't think he would this time. He probably would take the seat next to Laura. Where the boy that normally sat there would go wasn't our problem.

"Jade." With a bump my bag landed on the ground. Surprised I looked up and saw Jake grinning at me. "How was your weekend?"

"Great." The surprise ebbed away and changed into suspicion. Why was he smiling like that? And why in the name of any god was he being nice?

"Good. You shouldn't let that thing from last week put you down." He threw an eye blinding grin my way. "You still deserve better."

God, I rolled my eyes, that was what I expected. "Shut your mouth Jake. I don't care if everyone thinks I deserve better, which by the way only you three think. I want him back."

"Come on Jade! He sucker punched you in the face and still you trust him? He cheated on you."

"So what? It's my decision to make."

"He threats you like a kid with time-outs, he guilt trips you into agreeing with him and when that doesn't work he threatens that he won't speak with you for a week. That's just plain wrong. No woman should be treated like that." Before I could interrupt him he went on with is rant. "I don't give a damn if only Laura, Ryder and I think that it also applies to you. If you were Cat or even that Vega girl everyone would be on Beck for treating you that way. Don't pay for their fault. Please Jade."

"Care to share it with the class?"

For the second time I was interrupted and I glared at Anthony for it. Through gritted teeth I answered him with a curt; "No".

"Oh yes, she wishes to share. Jade has written a song to perform."

"No, I haven't." Underneath the table I kicked Jake in the shins, hard. "I will not share anything with the idiots in this room."

Anthony backed away. As every smart person he was terrified of me. "You know that we don't push people to perform, Jade."

"And that's wrong." Jack counter attacked. "How can people learn to perform in front of a million people audience if they don't even want to perform in front of a twenty people class? It's a teaching method that will affect the lives of your students. We all are going to this school because we want to become famous and we've got the talent to prove we can make it. It's your job to teach us how to reach our dreams. How can she reach that if you don't even make her perform in front of people?"

"You have a good point mr. Castle. Jade," Anthony looked me straight in the eye and I would have growled at him if that wouldn't have gotten me suspended. "Can you go to the front of the class and sing one of your songs."

"No, I will not do that. I don't give a damn about his little speech. These people," I spat the word out "do not deserve to hear me express myself. Not one of them."

"It wasn't a question miss West. Go on stage and perform."

"Go to hell." I slammed my hand on the desk and stood up. "I will not let you force me to do anything that I don't feel comfortable with. You can't make me."

Anthony swallowed and looked like he was going to pee in his pants. There was no way he would still force me.

"Yes he can." Jake also stood up and pushed me to the front. "You will sing otherwise he'll give you an F. And you and I both know what will happen then. And because you're putting up a fight I get to choose what you'll sing." With a bit of force he pushed me down on the piano seat. "The first song is 'You lost me'."

"No! There is no way I am going to sing that!"

Jake sighed and leaned in a bit. "Please Jade. Don't make me force you." His voice was almost too low for me to hear. "It's just one song."

Damn it. This was the punishment for going back to Beck. I knew it. Even the persons I thought of as friends wanted me to be someone I'm not and feel something I don't. "I hate you."

"I know." If I didn't know any better I would have sworn there was regret in his voice. "Now play."

I hated him with all my heart. He knew that if I got one F my scholarship would go through the window. He outsmarted me.

"Jade."

"Shut up, Anthony or I will haunt you and no one will find your body." I didn't even glare at him when I said that. My fingers were hanging above the piano keys. With a sigh I started playing.

"I am done.

Smoking gun.

We've lost it all.

The love is gone.

She has won."

That stupid Vega girl ruined everything. She ruined my life.

"Now it's no fun.

We've lost it all.

The love is gone."

The violins I inserted on this point started playing. At this point I didn't even care who was playing and how they knew the music. I was lost in the feelings of betrayal and hurt.

"And we had magic.

And this is tragic.

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself."

I couldn't keep back the tears at this point. Beck betrayed me. Just like everyone else.

"I feel like our world's been infected.

And somehow you left me neglected.

We've found our lives been changed.

Babe, you lost me."

And we tried.

Oh, how we cried.

Oh we lost ourselves, the love has died."

Except it didn't die. I still felt the love for him surging threw my body. Sometimes I just wished it would disappear, so it wouldn't hurt so much anymore.

"And though we tried.

You can't deny.

We're left as shells.

We lost the fight."

From the first moment we started dating people thought we would break up. They never supported it, saying that the boy will get his wits together and would leave the girl when he did. And he did.

"And we had magic.

And this is tragic.

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself.

Oooh, I feel like our world's been infected.

And somehow you left me neglected.

We've found our lives been changed.

Babe, you lost me.

Now I know you're sorry.
And we were sweet.
Oh, but you chose lust when you deceived me.
And you'll regret it, but it's too late.
How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected,

And somehow you left me neglected.

We've found our lives been changed.

Oh babe, you lost me."

The last note left my fingers. With a tear streaked face I looked up and saw everyone staring at me. Breathing in I closed my eyes and grabbed all the strength I had left together. Opening my eyes again the look of betrayal was replaced with anger. "If one of you wants to live a happy, non-scarred life you do not say a word about this."

The seat fell when I stood up and stalked out of the room. If I could just reach the Janitors Closet everything would be okay. It has to be okay. The tears started up again and I started running. Right into someone's arms.

"Jade?" Soft fingers tried to wipe away the tears. "Babe, what happened?"

With my fists I hit his chest as hard as I could. "You! You happened! You did this to me!"

"Oh baby." He wrapped his arms around me and pulled my body against his. "I'm so sorry. So, so sorry."

Through gasps of air I managed to get one sentence out; "You kissed her."

"I know. I know." Beck's hand went through my hair in a comforting motion and he pressed a kiss on my scalp. "It was a mistake, a stupid mistake. I wish I could do it all over so I wouldn't kiss her and hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you."

I hid my face in his shirt and cried my heart out. We lost everything because of it.

The song Jade sung is 'You lost me' from Christina Aguilera. Here is the link for people who want to hear it. watch?v=WOKI_tIBWVI