A/N Okay everyone. First things first Clexa is end game, just for the people who asked. I love that the last chapter was so controversial in who to blame or if someone should be blamed. Or who lied or was it a lie. The feedback was amazing. This chapter breaks everything down more including Clarke and Lexa. PS: Don't hate anyone just yet. PSS: With a Side of Voss has an update coming soon. xoxoxo
Octavia sat on the bed going over what Clarke had just told her. The story was ridiculous and everything was just a mess of mistaken information. Lexa obviously was just outraged about the lie and the fact that her father wasn't her father but the amazing guy who was always by her side actually was her father. Clarke had rambled on about Finn and the meeting and how she was sorry about it all. She even apologized for not telling her and Raven about seeing Finn. Octavia was mad about it but it wasn't something that was going to ruin their friendship. She couldn't live without Clarke. Raven was also coming around because of the short amount of time Clarke had actually known and then when it came out.
"O I'm sorry." Clarke opened her eyes. They had been sitting in silence for about thirty minutes now.
"I know you are Clarke." Octavia pushed her best friends hair out of her face seeing that her face was still puffy and red.
"No I'm sorry Gustus text you and that you are now involved in this mess." Clarke pushed herself up feeling the slight tilt of the room and the world spin from the whiskey she pretty much chugged earlier.
"Don't be sorry Clarke. I am your best friend I am glad he text me." Octavia smiled at Clarke who closed her eyes again.
"Remind me never to chug whiskey." Clarke closed her eyes trying to steady herself hoping she didn't throw up.
"Please let me know if you are going to get sick because I don't think Lexa would appreciate throw up on her bed." Octavia could tell that everything in her room was top notch.
"Screw her." Clarke lifted her hand like she was waving it off.
"That is your job not mine." Octavia smiled hearing Clarke laugh just a little.
"O she wouldn't even give me a chance to explain." Clarke opened her eyes again looking at her best friend.
"I didn't really give you a chance to explain either Clarke." Octavia knew it was true they all had just thrown Clarke under the bus by herself.
"I didn't lie. I wasn't trying to lie. I know it seems like a lie and yes I didn't tell Lexa right away about meeting Finn but I was going to the second I walked out but then Gustus and the father thing came out and he begged me not to say anything because he wanted it to come from him." Clarke stuck her head in her lap trying to figure out how and where she fucked up.
"I think Lexa is just in shock Clarke. You have to remember how she is seeing this." Octavia thought about Raven and how she took it that night.
"I get that. I even get it if she needs space but to walk out that door with Echo. To leave me crying in your own room without giving me a chance to explain is a low blow." Clarke felt the tears start to slide down her cheeks again.
"Don't cry Griffin. You are strong and your relationship is strong. You will work this out." Octavia wrapped her arms around her best friend feeling her body start to shake again from crying.
"You don't understand O. Echo told me straight to my face that I was just like every other girl and that Lexa would always go back to her and she just proved it to be true." Clarke shook her head.
"You are not just any other girl. You are Clarke Griffin the most badass person I know." Octavia smiled hearing her best friend bust up laughing.
"God you are cheesy. No wonder why Raven fell for you." Clarke laughed pulling away from Octavia she pushed her hair back reaching to the nightstand she grabbed one of her hair ties and yanked her hair up.
"Got your own station and everything up in here." Octavia winked at the blonde watching her make her way around Lexa's room only stumbling a few times.
"Yeah well that is about to change." Clarke started grabbing her things. She didn't think it would be smart to be in the room when Lexa decided to come back.
"What are you doing?" Octavia stood up watching Clarke in Lexa's closet grabbing things.
"I'm getting my stuff and were leaving." Clarke grabbed her shirts and jackets that some how migrated to Lexa's room with time.
"I don't think that is so smart Clarke. Let's not jump to conclusions just yet." Octavia tried to stop the blonde from yanking all her clothes out of the closet.
"Octavia she left me here to go with Echo, mad or not mad at me I am taking my stuff out of this room. I don't want to have to come back if this is the end." Clarke jerked her arm away from her best friend finding a bag to shove her things in.
"Okay what ever you say Clarke." Octavia stepped back searching for Clarke's phone why the girl dug all her stuff out. She was hoping she could get a text off to Gustus about what was happening.
"I'm ready let's go." Clarke stood in the closet looking at her favorite hoodie that Lexa had stole in the beginning of their relationship. She grabbed it smelling it, it smelled like Lexa she was torn between taking it and leaving it. Walking out of the closet she seen Octavia grab a bag heading for the door.
"Wait one second." Clarke walked into the living room area finding the small painting that was hers yanking it off the wall she walked back into Lexa's bedroom tossing the hoodie and painting on the bed before walking away. If anything she was going to make sure Lexa knew what she just lost.
Clarke sat in Octavia's car silent. She wasn't sure what to think or expect now. She kept thinking back to Lexa letting her go and hearing her words. She couldn't stop thinking of what she was doing now. She didn't want to think the worse but knowing Echo god knows what the two could be doing.
"Stop thinking so negative." Octavia looked over at her best friend knowing her wheels were spinning in her head.
"They could be having sex Octavia." Clarke looked at her best friend shaking her head.
"Lexa wouldn't do that to you." Octavia was hoping it was true.
"I just want to sleep O. Just let me out and I'll text you tomorrow please." Clarke heard Octavia unlock the door to her car giving her permission to leave.
"Please don't make me regret leaving you alone." Octavia looked the blonde in the eyes seeing she really was going to just go cry herself to sleep.
"Thank you." Clarke swung the bag over her shoulder already crying as she headed up the stairs unlocking her apartment and closing the door only to sink down to the ground where she stayed for a long time.
Lexa sat in Echo's car in front of an apartment she had never been too. Something didn't feel right she wasn't sure what emotions she was running off of but all she could think of was that Clarke had lied to her. They had laid in bed together all afternoon and not once did she mention seeing Finn or what Gustus had told her. Watching Clarke break down and cry was hurting her even more, for some reason she felt guilty. Was she wrong to not sit down and listen to the blonde. Was it right for her to walk out on her. Was it right for her to leave with Echo of all people. She couldn't decide if anything she was doing was right but all she knew was she was getting out of the car and heading up to an apartment she didn't know with a person she also couldn't trust.
"What are you thinking?" Echo looked at Lexa who had been quiet the whole time minus the occasional sniff from crying.
"I don't know. I guess how I could have missed all of this." Lexa looked at Echo who for some reason seemed genuine but you could never trust that because she has proven to be a great liar as well.
"You didn't miss anything Lex you were lied too." Echo figured if she was going to get anywhere she needed to keep the lying part a fact.
"Why are you doing this?" Lexa stopped waiting for Echo to open her apartment door.
"What do you mean?" Echo wasn't sure on what the brunette wanted to hear.
"This all of this Echo. Why are you doing this? Is it to get back at Clarke or me or what?" Lexa knew there was something hidden in all of it.
"Lex I am here for you. I told you I might be all about money but I do truly care about you." Echo opened her door letting Lexa come in.
Lexa was surprised the apartment was actually very nice. The money Clarke's mother had been paying her must have been paying off due to the amount of sophistication in the
apartment that usually wasn't Echo's style. Looking around she didn't spot anything that she should be worried about it really just seemed like a normal apartment.
Echo watched Lexa walk around her apartment as if she was looking for a reason to leave. Echo knew anything incriminating wasn't in her apartment she had kept her business separate from her personal life. End game no matter what happens she really was back in Lexa's life to win her back. She might be destroying someone else's life to benefit hers but she fucked up with Lexa and she knew it.
"Do you want anything? Something to drink or eat?" Echo walked into the kitchen opening up her refrigerator.
"Do you got a beer or something heavier?" Lexa sat down leaning against the couch closing her eyes.
"I got both beer and whiskey." Echo watched Lexa think it over.
"I'll just take the beer please." Lexa figured being where she was might not be smart to get drunk.
"Here you go." Echo handed Lexa her favorite beer and she could see the surprised look on the brunette's face.
"I didn't forget Lex." Echo took a drink over own beer sitting down on the couch with just little separation between the two.
"Shocking you seemed to forget everything else." Lexa closed her eyes letting the beer slide down her raw throat from crying.
"You act like I didn't care about you Lex." Echo snapped a little.
"Do you not remember who you are sitting with Echo. You ripped my heart out and stomped on it and then you come back only to take a check to break up my current relationship." Lexa sat up looking the girl in the eyes.
"Did you ever once think that me breaking you and Clarke up was more about you then the money Lex." Echo was actually speaking mostly the truth.
"It doesn't matter Echo you've still done it all." Lexa all but yelled at her.
"I'm just here trying to help you Lex. Are you forgetting Clarke just lied to you about everything not me." Echo scooted closer putting her hand on Lexa's thigh.
"No I haven't forgotten but I also know Gustus lied to me and my father lied to me but I seem to only be blaming one person right now." Lexa put her head in her hands trying to grasp everything.
"Clarke is suppose to be your girlfriend Lexa. You shouldn't have secrets." Echo inched even closer slightly happy Lexa hadn't moved away.
"That is kind of hypocritical of you to say you know that right Echo" Lexa tipped her head to side looking at the brunette.
"I'm not talking about me or our past Lex. I am talking about here and now and look at who you are with." Echo reached down lifting Lexa's chin so they were eye to eye.
"Do you have a point?" Lexa watched Echo look down at her lips.
"I mean after everything in our past and everything that happened today you left with me Lex. You came here with me. Doesn't that mean something to you." Echo watched Lexa look at her lips knowing she had given Lexa the cue that it was okay to kiss her.
Lexa had seen the look in Echo's eyes. She knew what the girl wanted. They might have been broken up for awhile but she could still read the girl especially when she was giving the green light as much as she was now. Lexa could feel Echo's hand creep up her thigh as she tugged on her hand trying to get her to lean forward to seal the kiss she was all but begging for.
"Echo I'm still dating Clarke." Lexa was honest. She was still with Clarke and nothing was clear between them right now but she wasn't a cheater no matter who she was with.
"What Clarke doesn't know won't hurt her Lex." Echo leaned forward whispering the words on Lexa's lips.
"I will know though." Lexa went to pull back before she felt Echo grab her shirt and pull her in crashing their lips together. Lexa was stunned she didn't know what to do or what to feel. Echo's lips were familiar but all she could think about was Clarke and how this was all wrong.
SLAM
Echo and Lexa jumped away from each other hearing her door slam open. Lexa watched Gustus step into the room and it was more than obvious the man didn't approve on what he just walked in on. She wasn't sure if she scream and yell at him or cry. Seeing the look of disappointment on his face hurt her. He may have lied about being her father but she still deeply cared about him. He was the one guy in her life who was always there for her.
"Alexandra." Gustus couldn't believe what he had just witnessed. He knew Lexa was beyond pissed and hurt but he never expected her to come to Echo's apartment and let alone kiss her.
"Get out of my apartment. You have no say so in her life." Echo stood up trying to keep Lexa in her apartment.
"This is true, but you are no better of a person than me." Gustus spoke the truth knowing he had just made several mistakes when it came to his relationship with Lexa.
"Oh so you feel you can force her to leave due to your lies right along with Clarke's." Echo stepped around her couch seeing Lexa thinking everything over.
"Clarke has no part in this. She has made mistakes but it was my mistake for asking her to keep something from Alexandra." Gustus yelled at Echo.
"She lied it's plain and simple. Clarke is a liar." Echo tossed back trying to put Clarke down as much as possible seeing Lexa stand up.
"Who do you think you are little girl. You are the one staying in this city to profit off of someone's heartbreak. To work over Alexandra again for money. Didn't you have enough of that before when you walked out of her life taking her money and telling her she was just a sport. Just a game who was nothing more than a fun time." Gustus felt his anger boil to the surface.
"Coming from the man who has stood by her side almost every day of her life lying to her." Echo spit back.
"I have my reasons for the choices I made. They had nothing to do with money or being a game. I put her well being ahead of my own. I made the selfless decision which is nothing compared to what you have sucked from her life." Gustus looked at Lexa who was taking in all of the information.
"Alexandra you can hate me forever. You can never give me a chance to explain why I did what I did but you need to speak to Clarke. You are blaming her for a lot more than she deserves." Gustus watched Lexa think it over.
"I need time to think Gustus." Lexa stood tall not sure what else to say.
"I understand but you will not be thinking here with that." Gustus pointed to Echo.
"She is more then welcome to stay at my place tonight." Echo stepped up wrapping her arm around Lexa giving the man a smirk.
"What I just walked in on was not thinking." Gustus kept his tone flat seeing Lexa look at him trying to read his expression.
"I can find my own place to stay Gustus. The last I checked I fired you." Lexa could see Echo smile like she had just won the battle.
"Fine Alexandra as you wish, but believe me when I say this to you. If you do this, if you ruin what you have with Clarke over her you will be making the biggest mistake of your life." Gustus turned and slammed the door on his way out.
Lexa stood staring at the door. She thought over what he said. Could she be throwing away the best thing that has ever happened to her. Was she doing that by standing in this apartment with Echo. She could have simply lost Clarke by walking out. It's exactly what Finn did to her. Not listen and walk out when she needed someone the most. Maybe she didn't need someone now but she did ask to explain herself and Lexa had denied that to her.
"You can stay here. You can have the bed and I will sleep on the couch." Echo wrapped her arms around Lexa trying to hold her in place.
"I don't think that is smart Echo. I appreciate you getting me out of there when needed because I was upset but I really do need time to think and I think doing it by myself would be smarter." Lexa grabbed the girls hands and unwrapped them off her body pushing back just a little.
"Will you at least let me drive you?" Echo turned her head just a little looking out the window knowing her plan had just worked better than expected but no one knew it but her and one other person.
"I can grab a cab or if anything I am sure that Gustus left a driver downstairs for me." Lexa tipped back the rest of her beer before heading to the door.
"I'm always here for you if you need it." Echo smiled leaning against the door frame watching Lexa walk out of her apartment.
"Thanks I guess." Lexa gave the girl a small smile before heading down the stairs. She was lost and for some reason she wanted to go find Clarke but she wasn't sure if that was smart just yet. They had just fought and Lexa was still pissed about being lied to but everything in her body craved Clarke. She heard what Gustus had said about how he asked Clarke to withhold the information from her but that didn't explain the Finn part of the deal. Seeing the car parked outside she figured it would be waiting for her. Even though she fired Gustus he still seemed to be around. She swung open the door and was shocked to see who was in it.
"Get in" Octavia looked at Lexa was obviously shocked at her sitting in the car waiting for her.
"What are you doing here?" Lexa stood on the side of the street looking into the car to see if Clarke was also inside.
"She isn't here. It's just me." Octavia tapped the seat next to waiting on Lexa to get in the car.
"I don't really feel like talking Octavia." Lexa took a seat in the car closing the door. She felt the car start to move but had no idea where they were going.
"You don't have to talk but you are going to listen." Octavia turned in her seat seeing that Lexa was also a little red in the face from crying.
"What the fuck is wrong with you." Lexa jumped hearing Octavia randomly yell.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" Lexa yelled back not sure why she was the one being yelled at.
"Did you not once think of how stupid you are leaving with her Lexa." Octavia could understand the rest of it and why they were fighting but for Lexa to walk out with Echo made her want to punch the girl herself.
"She lied to me." Lexa shouted turning to face Octavia this time.
"She was asked not to tell you and out of respect for someone she actually cares about Lexa. You act like you are the only one who looks up to Gustus. Clarke lost her father and seeing how she is with that man means the world to everyone. Clarke never opens up Lexa. You should know this by dating her. She didn't open up to you easy and the fact that she is so open with Gustus that she was willing to hold out for just a little bit means something. Even if it meant spending a few hours with you not knowing" Octavia had seen it before most the way Clarke actually cared about Gustus. It was the first man she had seen Clarke actually smile at like she use to with her father.
"Octavia….ughhhh." Lexa punched the back of the seat thinking over what the brunette was saying about Clarke. It was true she did seem to have a soft spot for Gustus. She also never seen Gustus warm up to anyone else like that but herself.
"Stop that shit. You both broke some trust Lexa. This isn't one side. Maybe it was with her holding out and maybe it was with meeting Finn without you kills some trust but you walked out on her Lexa. I know that doesn't seem as bad as being lied to but to Clarke it means the world." Octavia was pleading that the brunette would understand anything she was saying.
"I was pissed Octavia. What can I say. Sorry doesn't actually cut it when it comes to breaking trust between the both of us in our relationship." Lexa was starting to understand why the guilt had been sitting in earlier.
'Why Echo Lexa please just tell me that?" Octavia didn't understand that part of it.
"I don't know it was convenient and I was hurting and I knew if I walked out that door with her maybe Clarke would hurt too." Lexa listened to herself hearing how stupid it sounded and how much she sounded like Echo herself.
"Please tell me you just heard how stupid you sound." Octavia punched her in the arm being even angrier.
"Ouch! Octavia I was in bed with Clarke all afternoon and she didn't say anything to me." Lexa kept going back to every conversation they had that day and nothing was mentioned.
"I get that Lexa. I didn't say she was innocent she broke some trust with you as well but you walked out with another woman. You walked out with the girl who told Clarke she would be just like any other girl in your world and how she would never win against Echo with you." Octavia watched her words sink in with Lexa.
"When did that happen." Lexa looked at Octavia in shock at what Clarke was told and how what Echo said to Clarke had just happened.
"Echo told her in one her drive by meetings Lexa. Clarke is a strong person she can hold her own but you can only take so much when it comes to an ex who you obviously have a extensive past with." Octavia wanted to punch Lexa again but she refrained.
"She kissed me." Lexa spit it out knowing what was coming.
"She what?" Octavia swore she misheard the brunette.
"Echo in her apartment she kissed me." Lexa looked at Octavia who had rage written on her face.
"Did you kiss her back?" Octavia was ready to get out of the car she knew it wasn't safe for Lexa's sake that they were so close at the moment.
"No never. I told her I was still with Clarke and I don't cheat." Lexa turned trying to show Octavia she was telling the truth.
"You do realize you are going to have to tell her Lexa and if you don't I will." Octavia threatened the girl.
"That or Gustus will." Lexa thought of the disappointment she seen on his face when he seen what had happened.
"He seen?" Octavia threw her hands up in the air in disbelief.
"This is a repeat of the same damn story but now it's us who know and Clarke doesn't. Who is going to be the liar now Lexa." Octavia tapped the window of the car telling the driver she wanted out.
"Where are you going?" Lexa wasn't even sure where they were.
"I'm home but if I were you I'd go figure your shit out before someone tells Clarke first." Octavia was praying this wasn't going to end as bad as she was picturing it.
"Octavia I don't know what to do." Lexa scooted across the seat looking at the brunette who also look defeated.
"Go talk to Clarke." Octavia pointed in the direction of Clarke's apartment.
"What do I say." Lexa wanted to take Octavia with her but she knew that wouldn't happen.
"Think about it Lexa. Clarke's mother paid Echo to ruin your relationship. Do you really think she doesn't know you ended up with Echo and that you two shared a kiss and god knows what her plan is." Octavia thought it over herself knowing something bad was going to happen.
"Octavia." Lexa for once got scared about how this could end.
"I don't know Lexa but I'm warning you right now if I get a call an hour from now with her crying I will hunt your ass down." Lexa listening to Octavia's warning knowing it wasn't a joke she had a target on her back.
Clarke heard a knock on her door making her jump. She was still sitting against it. She had stopped crying but she had no energy to move. She had pulled out one of her hoodies that smelled like Lexa and had just been sitting wrapped up in it. The whiskey had wore off for the most part and she was hoping whoever it was on the other side would just leave.
Knock knock
Clarke rolled her eyes hearing the knock again she pushed herself up looking out the peephole of her apartment she seen Gustus standing on the other side. She slid the lock off opening the door before walking further into her apartment to sit on the couch.
"What do you want?" Clarke watched the man who wasn't standing as tall as usual and seemed like he was also hurt.
"I'm here to check on you Clarke. I know most of this is my fault and Octavia had text me that you took all of your stuff from Lexa's room and came here." Gustus seen a pile of her clothes and things on the ground as he looked up watching the blonde close her eyes.
"That bitch." Clarke shook her head laughing a little. Of course Octavia would set her up some how but at least it was Gustus and not Lexa.
"She is worried about you. I am worried about you." Gustus stepped further into the apartment actually taking a seat on one of the stools.
"You sit? That's a shocker." Clarke laid her head on her knees staring at the man. She knew it wasn't all his fault. She agreed to keep his secret for the time being but it had backfired on both of them because of Finn's big mouth and her mother's manipulation.
"I sleep as well." Gustus smiled seeing Clarke laugh.
"What are we going to do?" Clarke wiped her tears that started to fall again. She knew it wasn't just her who lost someone.
"I am not sure regarding myself but I believe she will come around with you.I hope she isn't that stupid but I do know she is no longer at Echo's." Gustus had made sure she left and with Octavia's help hopefully she smacked some sense into the girl.
"How do you know that?" Clarke sat up looking at him. She could tell he wasn't telling her everything.
"I just know." Gustus stood heading towards the door. He now knew Clarke was safe and at home and now it was time for him to go handle Clarke's mother and Echo.
"You know you can't just leave like that." Clarke stood up standing on her couch.
"Sit down before you hurt yourself." Clarke shook her head in disbelief watching Gustus walk out her door without even looking back.
She sat back down listening to him. She wasn't sure why she was so fond of the man. Maybe it was because he reminded her of her father. He was just a gentle giant who cared so much about people even if you couldn't tell. It also helped he was part ninja and she still needed to learn that from him. Hearing a knock at her door again she walked to her door not seeing anyone she opened the door but not sliding the lock this time. Looking on the ground she seen a yellow envelope. Looking back and forth she grabbed the envelope and closed her door. The last time this happened and she looked inside it was nothing she wanted to see. Throwing it on her counter she sat back down on the couch staring at it. She hated knowing there was probably something in the envelope that was going to hurt her even more and after the night she had she just couldn't handle that. Laying down on the couch she wrapped up in the hoodie letting herself drift off to sleep. Maybe and just maybe it could all just be a dream.
Lexa sat outside of Clarke's apartment. She had been there for about an hour not sure of how to go up and knock or if she should even try. It was a little past midnight and she hadn't moved she just watched the time click pass minute by minute. She had read every message she had gotten. It was almost like every text was a stall tactic for her not having to walk up the stairs. Her own heart hurt thinking of Clarke crying by herself. She now realized the girl she loved hadn't fully lied to her she just hadn't told her the whole truth. She should have just listened she should have just given the blonde a chance like Clarke had given her so many times. She thought about Clarke's explanation on love and how she hoped this would just be another bump in the road for them. Trust was broken but the love was not, but could they actually work past it or was this the last straw being pulled to ruin them.
Octavia: I haven't heard a word. Did she kill you or are you still in the car.
Lexa cracked a smile at the text just a little seeing how well Octavia had come to know her as well.
Lexa: I might still be in the car.
Octavia: Gustus text me and told me he was there and seen her.
Lexa felt her heart skip a beat thinking that Gustus had been to see Clarke. She wasn't sure when because she knew she had been in the parking lot for more than an hour and she hadn't seen him come or go. It scared her to think that maybe he told her already about the kiss. That it was going to be coming from him and not her. Just like how she found out who her real father was.
Lexa: Does she know.
Octavia: No he would never do that to you, but you need to get your ass out of the car now.
Octavia: Also brace yourself to be hit, just saying.
Lexa rolled her eyes knowing exactly how Octavia's face had to look. The threat was real coming from the brunette regarding her best friend. Lexa thought about Octavia and Raven were still in Clarke's life even after her mistake. It seemed that Clarke had been holding on to a little of everything to help save her friends heartache or to take it on the heartache herself. Lexa took a deep breath opening the door she heard the front window roll down.
"Are you staying the night Miss Voss." Lexa looked at the driver and then back to the apartment door.
"Umm let's have you stay and if I don't come back down in a bit you can just leave. I don't even know if she will answer the door." Lexa seen her driver slightly cringe and that gave her a clue on how fucked up everything really was.
"Good luck." Lexa shook her head hearing him before rolling up the window
Lexa made the walk up the stairs standing in front of Clarke's door. It felt like it had taken a year to get there. With each slow step she tried to think of what to say. She couldn't ask Clarke to listen to her because she denied the blonde that choice so why would she get it now. Holding her breath she knocked. She could slightly hear someone groan on the other side but nothing after that. Knocking again she heard stomping and what seemed to be like maybe Clarke had tripped before she heard all movement stop.
"I'm sure you can see me by now." Lexa spoke through the door having a feeling Clarke was on the other side not saying anything after she seen her through the peephole.
"I'm not going to ask for you to listen to me or to give me a chance to explain because I didn't give you that chance earlier but I was hoping you could at least let me in." Lexa wasn't sure what to do or say because Clarke had yet to speak.
"What do you really want Lexa." Clarke stood leaning on the other side of the door. She could feel the tear in her eyes. She did fall asleep but waking up just seemed to make it worse.
"To see you." Lexa took another deep breath.
Clarke hated the fact that she wanted to see the brunette as well. She wanted to yell and scream and hit the girl for everything she had done tonight. She knew they both had faults in the situation but Lexa had left with Echo and she would never get that image out of her head. Hearing Lexa tell her that she needed to get as far away from her and then leaving with that bitch just burned into her heart.
"If you won't let me in or see you I am going to camp outside your door." Lexa had a feeling that would get Clarke to open the door and she was right hearing the lock slide on the other side. Clarke swung the door open looking beyond pissed but you still tell she had been crying by how red and puffy her face was.
"Happy, now what do you want?" Clarke stood there almost holding her breath. She hadn't expected to see Lexa for awhile. She told herself she didn't want to see her for awhile but yet she opened the door.
"Can I come in." Clarke slammed the door in Lexa's face she couldn't even believe the situation at the moment. She couldn't believe Lexa actually ended up at her door only hours after walking out on her with another woman and then had the nerve to ask to come in. She was pissed. Nothing between them was going to get solved even if there was a chance due to how they both were running off emotions. She heard the door click open behind her. She told herself she didn't purposely leave it unlocked for her to come in but she knew she did. She was sitting back on the couch wrapped up refusing to look up when she heard the door shut. She knew Lexa was in her apartment now she could feel it. She didn't hear the girl move until she heard the slide. Looking up Lexa had slid down the door just like she had earlier and was just sitting on the ground staring at the bag of things Clarke had taken from her room. Placing her chin on her knees she watched the brunette try and process what she was looking at. She could tell she was hurting and it made her want to comfort her but she reminded herself she was hurt too.
"So is this it?" Lexa didn't know what to say seeing all of Clarke's things in a bag. She recognized all of them because she had personally hung them up in her closet. It made her feel like she had given a space for Clarke in her life just like the blonde had given her a drawer in her apartment. Looking up she seen Clarke was staring at her. She couldn't read the blonde for the first time ever. Clarke showed no emotions like either she had shut down or lost them for the moment.
"Ask yourself that Lexa." Clarke stood up off the couch heading for her bedroom. She spotted the envelope on her counter she figured if anyone needed to see it first it was probably the brunette.
"What does that even mean Clarke." Lexa for some reason wanted to push the blonde to talk to her even though she knew it wouldn't work.
"You walked out Lexa not me." Clarke yelled back but didn't turn around to see the brunettes reaction.
"This was on my doorstep earlier. The last time I got one of those it was a disaster and I have a feeling you might already know what it is." Clarke tossed the envelope at Lexa before walking away shutting her bedroom door. Crying herself to sleep for the second time in one night seemed impossible but it happened.
Lexa sat against the door closing her eyes. She so badly wanted to get up and go into Clarke's bedroom but she knew that wouldn't be a smart idea. Just the fact that she was leaning against the door at the moment she was surprised she wasn't dead or if anything she figured she would at least get smacked. Once again Clarke had let her in. Once again Clarke had not walked out but she had walked out the second it got rough. Even after the lies and the unknown Clarke hadn't walked out she begged to talk and to try and refused to think that tonight was the end of them but now it all seemed like it could be and it wouldn't be because of Clarke. Lexa reached down grabbing the envelope Clarke had thrown at her. She wasn't sure what it was. Opening it up she was stunned by what she saw. It was pictures from when she was in Echo's apartment. One was of them sitting on the couch together, one of them to what seemed to look like they were hugging and the last one was of the kiss. She hadn't kissed Echo back but from the looks of the picture it seemed like it was a mutual kiss. How they were even taken and developed so quickly made her realize she was set up. They had been in front of the open window and once again Echo had gotten the best of her and knowing this was given to Clarke and she hadn't opened it made it clear to Lexa that Clarke knew it was something bad. Lexa wasn't sure how she was going to explain the pictures to Clarke. Putting them back in the envelope she felt the tears start to fall again, refusing to leave the door she just rested her head against it knowing this could be the beginning of her losing Clarke.
A/N OUCH I know that just happened and like I said don't hate me or anyone just yet. Or maybe one or two people depending on your opinion. The road is going to be bumpy. Will they get back together will see but are they even broken up will see.. How do you think Clarke is going to react to the pictures? How is Lexa going to tell Clarke or is she even going to tell her? What do you think. Also Gustus and Clarke how do you feel and where does Lexa and Gustus stand. Also who likes Abby? Who likes Finn? or who likes Echo? Please review and hit me with your opinions. Thanks for the support. xoxoxo