I Am Happy

Leah's POV

I swear I'm not a hermit. I love being active and around people. I just feel people should know when it's time to leave. It was nearing 10:30 PM and a few members of my family were having a hard time getting the hint. I had retired to the kitchen to start washing dishes while the rest of them conversed with Jacob. I wasn't so mad about Seth and Nessie hanging around but I really wished Emily and Sam would leave. Sam kept finding a way to remind everyone of the past and he was smart enough to do it a way that didn't upset Emily. However I was quite annoyed my hands kept beginning to shake but something I don't know what would calm me from the inside. I was beginning to think Jacob was right maybe I was becoming human again. I did fill heavier at times. I just didn't know. I dried my hands off all the dishes were clean. I had no excuse I had to rejoin the crowd. All the seats were taken so I took a seat on Jake's lap. He rested his hand comfortably along my thigh as he continued his conversation with Seth and Sam. Emily chuckled and whispered something to Ness. I wasn't supposed to hear her but she said it simple and plain.

"They just don't look right together do they," Emily whispered and Ness looked at her like she was crazy. My whole body tensed and I began to shake.

"Leah," Jake said hesitantly. I stood up and quickly searched for an exit because the familiar rush of heat was threatening to rush through my body. However, as soon as I stood up the feeling disappeared and I mellowed out. Some power unknown to me was controlling the fire within me.

"Weird," I whispered as I looked at my hands.

"Are you okay Leah?" Emily asked and I glared at her and my flesh heated again. I knew I wasn't going to be able to let this slide. I knew my mother wanted peace but I had to confront her.

"No I'm not okay. I don't get you Em. I'm finally happy and you are creating this bitter cloud around my life. You are so determined to put the focus back on you in one way or another. You seem so quick to compare your relationship to mine. I just don't get why? We are not in competition. Why can't you just be happy for me?" I fumed and the silliest thing happened. Tears started to stream down my face. I wasn't the type the cry … ever but I was standing in front of everyone blubbering like a baby. "Shit!" I wiped the tears away.

"I wish I could be happy for you Leah but I think this is all a front. I think you are putting on a front to make my husband jealous. I don't see how you could possibly love Jacob and Sam in the same breath they are completely different. I mean look at them," Emily explained. I looked at everyone Sam who seemed to be enjoying the stupid scene here and my Jake who felt compassion for me but lost on what to do. I could also see in my peripheral vision Seth hang his head and Ness cover her mouth.

"You're right they are completely different Jacob is a million times better than your husband! Why are you and Sam so stuck in the past? I have moved on I don't even remember what it's like to be with Sam nor do I care to. I am happy and I don't truly think you are!"

"Misery loves company," Ness whispered and Seth hushed her.

"Please Leah you are being childish! Of course I am happy I have a loving, providing husband and a sweet little baby girl. You have Bella's sloppy seconds and I'm supposed to believe you're not bitter," Emily snapped in her own passive aggressive and my jaw dropped. How could she say that when she was sleeping with my sloppy seconds. I held my hands up and closed my eyes and took a deep breath and looked for the words to be respectful but firm.

"Emily I love you and I truly hope that one day you're as happy as you pretend to be but right now you really need to get out of my house," I said quietly and Sam got up and ushered his wife towards the door.

"I'm sorry Leah I wasn't trying to disrespect you. I just want you to be true to yourself," Emily said before leaving my house.

The door closed and everyone was quiet I think they were waiting for my response. I had no words I just stood there and stared daggers in the door. During my rage a memory of Emily and me when we were younger flashed before my eyes. We were standing in the mirror and I was pulling my hair into a ponytail getting ready to play basketball with the boys as she brushed her own hair.

"One day Leah I will be as pretty as you," she mused as she stared at me.

"You are just as pretty Emily." I smiled and hugged her close and put faces side by side. "See damn near identical," I lied but it was for a good cause.

"No, all the guys like you Lee plus you can play sports! You're like the perfect girlfriend. One day the same guys will like me just as much as they like you watch and then you'll be jealous of me too!" I frowned as she smiled. That's what she's always wanted. She wanted me jealous but I never have been. Even when she was with Sam I wasn't jealous of her I was hurt by their betrayal. Now they have little Eden, I do want a baby, but I'm not jealous of her I'm just hurt fate doesn't think I'd make a good mom.

"I'd make a damn good mom," I whispered and another tear rolled down my cheek. I felt two arms wrap themselves around me and pull me into a massive bear hug.

"I'm sorry Betagirl, I didn't want to get in the middle of it. I knew you Emily were close so I kept my distance so you could handle it the way you saw fit, but I will if she ever talks to you that way again I will finish it," Jake whispered. I sighed as I buried myself into him.

"Yeah, the whole thing is just awkward. I don't like to speak ill of family but Emily is really jealous of you right now. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because she's aging and you're not or maybe it's the fact that you have a career and she doesn't but she is bitter," Seth assessed and Ness rolled her eyes.

"It could be a little of all those things but the main reason is because her husband looks at Leah like this." Ren came over and touched both Jake and me. Jake let a growl and held me tighter and I just chuckled. I don't how many times I was going to have tell Jake I had no interest in Sam. The look on Emily's face proved she was not oblivious to the extra attention Sam had decided to bestow upon me. I was certain it was all a phase. It was an annoying phase but I was sure it would be over soon.

"Living in the past will get them nowhere," Jake said with a sour tone.

"I know that's what I just said to her weren't you listening." I tickled him a bit to lighten him up. He went to tickle me too but instead sprawled his hand out across my stomach. He knitted his brows at bit and then swooped me up and sat down with me in his lap.

"I hated that the evening ended up being such a bust," Jake apologized to Seth and Ness. They both sat down on the couch across from us.

"It wasn't I learned a lot," Ness corrected him.

"Yeah and the work out back is almost done. Plus who doesn't love a little drama," Seth joked. The rest on the night went on pretty well Seth and Ness kicked back with us for a while and watched a movie. I made some kettle corn it. I think we all wanted the night to end on a happier note and it did. Jake alternated between toying with my fingers and rubbing my belly. I didn't get why.

"You know I'm not … right?" I whispered during the movie.

"We'll talk about that later," he retorted in hush tones before kissing my cheek. What was there to talk about? I was frozen in time no bun was in this oven and all of this attention on my childless nature only served sadden me. I hopped Jake would forget about whatever he thought was going on because I couldn't stand disappointing him.

Author's note: I hope you all liked the chapter!