The long and tedious period finally ended, and I didn't puke, at least not yet. I stood myself up slowly so I wouldn't come up so quickly that everything I ate would shoot up. I was already getting enough of that feeling which was more like acid reflux than vomit. It burned the back of my throat a bit, but it was bearable at least. I threw my backpack over my one shoulder and wiped the crust from my eyes.
The class rushed out like a massive wave and flooded the halls to go to their next class. Don't get me wrong, I was more than thrilled to go the second period since I'd get to see her again. I just couldn't bare the thought of having to walk up a flight of stairs just to stay on the first floor for the rest of the day practically. I found it to be a chore more than anything, though. Maybe the reward of getting to see Neb again was worth it, but with the way I was feeling physically, probably not.
I strolled down the hall in a bit of a drowsy daze with Octavia and Gwen following shortly behind me almost completely silent. I have to admit, I was pretty annoyed by their presence, but what annoyed me more was the fact that people don't know how to fucking move in the goddamn hallway! I swear! If I could run half these morons over with a bus, I think I'd be doing the school a favor.
It took me a while, but I finally managed to make it down the hallway to walk up the stairs by the gym. Despite the urge, I managed not to break everyone's friggin' neck in the hallway, though I really wanted to! I swear that half the people in this school are friggin' brain dead! I glided up the stairs since no one in the school was practically using them now. There's no one here except for me, Tavi, and Gwen anyway.
I strolled down the hall a bit and stopped right outside the classroom door. Gwen and Octavia stopped on the other side of the door frame. I looked at them. "What?" I asked.
"You… waiting for someone?" Gwen asked pretending to look innocent.
"And if I am?" I asked.
"Just admit it!" Tavi burst out.
"Admit what?"
"Just… admit it!" Octavia said frustrated.
"There's no point in denying it, Dew,"Gwen added.
"Deny what?" I said angrily.
"Calm down girls," Nebula intervened while entering the classroom to drop her things off.
Upon Nebula's rearrival, Octavia asked Nebula, "Sooooooo… you two… are… well… a thing?"
Nebula looked at me uneasy and wrapped her arm around my shoulder. I cupped my hands and put them between my legs almost as if I were praying, but I was just merely embarrassed. The hall was practically empty, so she kissed me on the cheek right in front of both of them. "We are," she replied.
"Nebula!" I shouted.
"Dew… they're our teammates," she said in a motherly voice while fixing my hair and trying to realign the cowlicks, "You know them now, Dew. You know that they aren't going to judge." I looked down in disbelief and almost cried. Nebula picked my head up by my chin and kissed me and brought me close. "You can trust them. Even if you can't, you can trust me. Do you trust me?" I nodded. "Then everything's going to be fine," she said before kissing me again and pressing her stomach against mine.
She pressed the palms of her hand against my slightly rounded stomach and cuddled me. We swayed back and forth a bit as if we were dancing at a prom, those typical slow dances anyways. I don't know how to feel. I felt scared. I felt betrayed. I felt love. I also felt numb. I trust though, Neb.
I put my hand over hers on my stomach and kissed her on the forehead. She held me close but not too close. We walked into class smiling, but I wasn't exactly sure how to feel. I felt nauseous. I rubbed my stomach a bit to help relieve the nausea when I noticed both the students move their desks farther away from mine and push their desks so far that they would practically touch the desks right next to them on the opposite ends. It was as if their was so gravitational or magnetic pull that forced them farther away from me.
The announcements came on, so we all stood for the Vacuean pledge as always when I heard someone shout, "Sit down, whore! Sluts like you have disgraced our flag! Sluts like you have already broken your pledge! Sit down fucking slut!" I just stood there frozen in time not knowing what to do. I just felt the teacher grab me by both my shoulders with his gorilla hands and shove me down into my seat nearly breaking my ass on impact. "And stay seated, whore!" was all he said to me.
I felt my stomach spill into my throat. I began to gag in fear, but I had managed to hold it all down and never let the vomit surpass my tonsils. I looked on his computer screen as he was checking his email and everyone's grades. It was hard to see since I was so far back, but I could see a lengthy email from the principals of Shade. I pulled my scroll out since I could feel myself perspire. I used to turned off scroll as a mirror since it was against the rules to have them on at anytime of the day. All the color ran from my face like wet on a vertical canvas.
I pulled my shirt away from my neck a bit to help give me some air because the air grew denser around me and heated itself around me. The whole room was quiet, dead silent in fact. I shrunk into my seat before sitting right back up to choke the vomit back down. Nobody knew what to say, but they all knew at that point. Everyone knew that I was pregnant. I got some looks of shock, some of disbelief, and other of complete disgust. I guess the school never did get rid of that pregnancy test they made me take in the nurse's office after a rumor spread that I was sleeping around which I barely was doing. So many people blew that way out of proportion. Great.
I felt tears begin to well up in my eyes, but I didn't want to cry. All I wanted to do at that point was just curl up into a ball and hide, disappear even. I swear, the baby was doing flips and tried climbing out of me through my mouth and not my lower regions. Sweat was pouring from my face and sting my eyes. I held my baby closer to me, pressed it even closer into me in fact. I just didn't know what to do as the shame just overwhelmed me.
Tavi and Gwen merely sat there silently, but they didn't look too surprised at all. Nebula looked like she felt bad for me for being in the situation I'm in. It appeared to me that the news spread quickly. I didn't pay attention to anything anyone said anymore. I just sat in each class mortified until I got home. Octavia and Gwen didn't say a word about it.