Hey everyone! Sorry about the Lonnngggg wait. I've been busy but that's really no excuse. I edited this one my self soo uhhh, hehe if you see any misspelled words then sorry. I will be trying to post a new chapter every Monday, hope you guy's like that Idea. And again, I'm so sorry for the long wait, but don't worry I didn't let this time slip by with me doing nothing. I've got more idea's for the story so that's always good.
Thank you to all who have commented, Favorited and or followed the story! Some even followed and Favorited me and I am sooo happy about that! Really you guy's put a smile on my face :)
I hope you like this chapter, sorry for my rambling and all. Please enjoy, r&r and follow this story if you'd like so you won't miss out on any new chapters. Also I have an Account on Wattpad. com Its the same name, I'm posting new stories and Poem's on there, so please check it out!
Please enjoy!
Nicolette Tano's P.O.V.
12 years ago…
Days have gone by sins I've let the Jedi take Ahsoka from me, away to the Jedi Temple so she could become a Jedi. First a Youngling, then a Padawan and then I hope... a Jedi Knight. Maybe even a Jedi Master.
I smiled at the thought of her becoming a youngling. Years will go by of her growing up, years that I will miss out on sadly. Then when she's 13, she'll be a Jedi Padawan. Oh I hope she gets a good Master, one that she can look up to and follow no matter what. I can just see the smile on her face when she meets the Jedi that is ready to train her.
Her whole life will be as a Jedi now. Her milestones will be...
1. Her building a light saber for the first time.
2. Her finishing her training as a youngling and becoming a Padawan.
3. Her getting assigned to a master.
4. Her Passing the Trials and Becoming a Jedi Knight.
5. Maybe even her getting a Padawan herself.
6. Training her Padawan Till the Padawan Trials.
7. Her Padawan Passing the Trial.
8. Her Becoming a Jedi Master.
9. And who knows, maybe she'll get another Padawan.
Yes everything changes for her. She will never get married like I've always wanted her to. She will never have children either. She will never be a Wife or a Mother, and I will never be a Mother-In Law or a Grandmother.
A month ago before Ahsoka was taken; I told her that one day I wanted grandchildren. Then I told her that my wish was to be the best grandmother ever. She told me "Of course you will mommy!"
I knew Ahsoka would have loved to be a mother someday. She loved pretending she was a real mother to her dolls, and that her dolls were her children. She loved pretending to feed them and change them and do everything a mother does.
Ahsoka had a Doll she loved very much named "Chrissy". She also... believe it or not... had a baby sitter for Chrissy, which was her Best friend, almost sister Ana.
I had to laugh at this! Ahsoka is so creative and smart, and acts like a real mother. Ahsoka won't act like Chrissy is just a doll for one second. She handles her really gently like a real baby. And if you even say the word "doll", Ahsoka will say "No she's not a doll! She's real!" So Ahsoka can't just leave Chrissy by herself, but has to get a babysitter, who I'm sure Ana acts the same way with Chrissy.
Ahsoka and Ana basically grew up together. They're actually like twins! The only difference is they're not related and Ana is 2 months older than Ahsoka.
Ana was born in October and Ahsoka was born in December. I remember everyone was so excited when they found out I was carrying a child. And since she was to be born in the winter (and since I didn't have nor wanted a husband) lots of the men in our tribe made sure we would have plenty of food to eat. They went hunting for us as well as for their own family that year since usually the men in each family did the hunting. But since the man in our little family wasn't there all the time I usually hunted for myself and Ahsoka.
Not like Nathanial (Or Nathan as I like to call him) ever knew how to hunt animals for us anyways. He was an outsider, a human outsider. He had other things to do as well outside of Shili on a planet he called "Coruscant", unless he be caught with a family he was never allowed to have in the first place.
"He did these things for us." I had to keep reminding my parents the day after he left to go to the Jedi Temple after Ahsoka was 3 months old.
I know though my father and mother didn't like this one bit. They kept insisting I marry a real Togruta man from our tribe, and not wait around for a man that isn't even my husband. But they didn't understand. They didn't understand the fact that I loved him.
No matter how many times I told them I loved him they didn't care. They said I needed a real father for Ahsoka and a real husband for me, one that would look out for us and be there for us and love us. They didn't think Nathan did any of those things, but he did! Oh how he did! He did look out for us, and he was there for us and he did love us! He loved us more than any man would. And when he said he had to go away for a long time he promised he'd come back for us.
My parents just thought he abandoned us when they found me crying on the floor the day he left and thought I would do as they've asked me to do and marry a man from our tribe. But they were very surprised when I said I still didn't want to. I wasn't crying because he had broken my heart or anything, I wasn't crying because I thought my parents were right.
I was crying because I loved him...
Flashback-
1 Month after Nathaniel Left
"Shh Shh Shhh, there there. Everything will be alright. I've got you. Momma's got you." I whisper in my darling baby girl's ear while she was crying. She woke up from her afternoon nap and got scared when she didn't see me in the room.
I walked around our hut with her in my arms, rocking her back and forth slowly, trying to calm her down. And when she finally stopped her crying I looked down at her and smiled. She smiled back at me and reached out with her tiny little arms and hands and tried to stretch. I laughed at her still sleepy form. She was trying to wake up but was doing a poor job of it as she nestled her head back in my arms and fell back to sleep.
I looked down at the sleeping 4 month old in my arm, who was surprisingly tinier for her age which scared me when she was born. I've had to take care of her very carefully these 4 months.
I looked at how tiny her montral's and lekku were, I looked at her rare but beautiful markings as well. She was just a doll, really. Like a glass doll. I was afraid to break her...
"Your father will come back soon... I know he will. Fear not little one, daddy will be home soon." I said to the little sleeping form I held in my arms.
I'm only 16, yet now a mother. If anything, I was supposed to meet another Togruta man and get married... have a kid when I'm 20 or older.
But no... Something much more wonderful happened. I fell in love with the most charming and handsome human man I have ever met. The only human I have ever met actually.
Even though he's a Jedi... Even though I don't see him as often as I wish... I still love him. And I know he loves me AND Ahsoka. For the first 3 months of Ahsoka's life, he has been the most wonderful father. I can't say he has been the most wonderful husband because we aren't married yet... but if we were he'd probably be.
Being a 17 year old father that's also living as a Jedi Padawan is probably hard for him. But hey, we live with the consequences of our actions, together.
Besides, Nathanial and I don't really see Ahsoka as a Mistake or Consequence at all. She's our daughter, and we love her very much. We'll always love her no matter what.
I can't imagine what Nathan is doing right now. I wish he was here with me and Ahsoka. I wish we could be just a normal Family. But we can't.
If anyone knew Nathanial Sage- The most powerful Jedi Padawan to ever be, who must have had a lot of enemies… had a secret Togruta family living on Shili, a Togruta Lover and a Togruta Daughter. There would be so many people wanting to kill me and my daughter or enslave us both. No! I cannot even bear the thought of Ahsoka growing up as a Slave. It makes me sick to my stomach that people would even do that.
The day Ahsoka was born, Nathanial talked about how he could move the two of us off of Shili, and to live on Coruscant that way they'd all be together more often. I thought it was a wonderful Idea! It might seem dangerous, but the closer we are to the Jedi Temple (Even though I hate the rest of the Jedi) then the more we'd be safe.
From time to time, Nathan does these secret missions bounty hunters usually do. But the missions he does are almost impossible to complete. He's completed a mission once that was 20 years old, older than him. He was the first to ever complete it without dying. So of course the guy paid him well. Gigs like that pay a lot though, enough to move me and Ahsoka into a very nice house in the classy upper levels of Coruscant. I worry about him constantly though.
But we agreed with the plan. Even though I know nothing about life with humans or their off worldly ways, I knew I would learn and survive. Nathan says that he'll pay for any bills too. Also for the clothes we will need so we don't stand out too much. He says I look much more beautiful without wearing what all the other human girls are wearing. Simple Animal Skins is fine to him, surprisingly. But he didn't want to bring any suspicion to us.
Actually today would have been the day we moved in to our new home, if it wasn't for that stupid mission Nathan was called away on. I suspect he will be very busy from now on, so who knows when we will actually move in to Coruscant. I doubt anytime soon…
End of Flashback-
Yes I remember the day everything was supposed to work out so well. But it didn't.
Nathan became busier after that mission. Not being able to see us a lot anymore because of how much crime was escalating. But it was enough for us to be put in deep danger.
The Day before I let this Jedi take Ahsoka, these bounty hunters attacked our tribe. The Raenbew Tribe.
They killed many of us… all because of two people they wanted… me and Ahsoka.
But that day, the Jedi sent help to us. They sent a Jedi Master by the name of Plo Koon. Master Plo was a very skilled Jedi, and saved the rest of my people that day. But I was trying so hard to hide Ahsoka from him after his work was done, because I knew Ahsoka had been showing signs of the force recently, levitating Chrissy up in the air shouting "Momma! Momma! Look what I can do!"
But it was no use. The Jedi Master sensed it, and asked if he could take Ahsoka back to the Jedi Temple so they could train her in the ways of the force and make her a Jedi… to help the galaxy.
So you know what I did. I shouted at him. All I wanted him to do was leave! His job was done, he had no right to ask for my child, to basically say right in front of my face in a formal matter as if I'm stupid and I don't know what he meant, that I was never going to see my child again if I accepted his offer.
I didn't know how in the world a mother could offer up her 3 year old daughter to a Military Base that would put her straight in to the front lines of war, still as a young child! 13 year olds are way too young to be fighting for… not only their own life... but for the galaxy as well.
"No!" I had said "I will not let you take her away from me! She is my child, barley 3 years old! I will not part with her!" I had said in Togruti, not knowing how to speak Basic. Luckily Plo Koon knew Togruti, must have been why they thought he was the more suitable Jedi to send.
He explained to me though, "For some reason Miss Tano… you and your daughter were a direct Target for these bounty hunters. I don't know why that is so… do you know of anyone that would want to harm you and your family in some way? Maybe a person you know that has enemies that would like to settle a score, by kidnapping or… killing the two of you?" The Jedi had said… looking straight at me.
I had shaken my head and said, "No, I do not." in a frustrated tone.
He nodded his head "Well for whatever reason you and your daughter were their targets, Ahsoka is obviously not safe here. There might be a day where the Jedi won't be able to make it in time… who will save your daughter then? I don't wish to scare you Miss Tano, but Ahsoka is not safe here. It is your decision whether you'll allow us custody or not, but we can also send you somewhere else, with your family if they are willing, somewhere safer so you yourself don't get hurt."
He then left, leaving me to think.
I thought and thought and thought. It was all I did that day. But I suddenly came to a conclusion.
Nathaniel might be mad at me for doing this… but ultimately I had no choice. The Jedi was right! Ahsoka was NOT safe here. And if I had her stay with me here she could have gotten kidnapped or even died.
I decided it was for the best, and though I hated what I was doing so so much, though I love Ahsoka with all my heart and I always will… I had to let her go.
I haven't even seen Nathan in 9 months! We've sent letters back and forth when we had time, but that was it. Ahsoka doesn't even really know him and I couldn't just write a letter right now asking what to do, because the Jedi Master was leaving tomorrow.
Nathan was too busy, and though I love him, I knew he wouldn't be able to protect Ahsoka right now, and I couldn't do it alone. I didn't want to move anywhere. I'd stay right here whether I'm in danger or not. But Ahsoka needs to be safe. And though the Jedi life isn't exactly 'safe' or even if the Jedi are the last people I would EVER want, raising my child. It was for the best.
That day I spent all of my time and energy with my sweet baby girl. I cooked her favorite Lunch and Dinner, and played every single game you could think of with her.
I told her that we were going on a little vacation for a while. And yes I feel bad for lying to her, but there was nothing else I could do. I had let her play with Ana for a while and then they said they're 'good byes for now', not knowing it was a 'goodbye forever', but I told Ana's mom the truth. As they were playing that day for the last time we had silently cried together, knowing we, Ana's mom and me, will both never see Ahsoka again. That Ahsoka and Ana will never see each other again…
Then I had taken her around our tribe to let her see everyone for the last time.
They were all sad to see her go, loving Ahsoka to death. Ahsoka just chose to accept it as though they were sad that they won't see her till she gets back. How wrong the sweet little Angel was.
The next day I had kissed her face so many times over and over again. Ahsoka didn't know why I was doing that, because she thought we were both going on a vacation, but she kissed and hugged me back anyways.
I then packed some of her things, including Chrissy and grabbed her in my arms and started walking out the door. We walked and as we walked all the way to the Jedi Master's ship Ahsoka fell asleep in my arms. I had hugged her tighter, not wanting to let go.
We finally got to the ship where the Kel Dor was waiting for us. I guess he sensed we were coming.
I remember I shook Ahsoka a little, and then awake in my arms. She opened her eyes and looked at me.
"Momma, where are we?" She had asked looking around, then suddenly seeing the Jedi, got scared.
"It's okay baby girl, just listen to me for a second… please. Remember this… Remember that I will always love you no matter what. You will always be my little girl, and I love you very very much. Please, someday relies… that I did this for your own good. You're going to be ok love. I know it… And remember, Daddy loves you… soo much! He would do anything to see his little girl again! Don't you ever think for a second the he doesn't love you, because he does!"
I took a deep breath, feeling tears fall down my cheek.
"Please Master Jedi… please take care of her." I said to him. I wanted to make sure that if Nathanial couldn't look after her at the Temple, then he could.
"Of course… I promise." He had said to me, he himself not wanting to tear apart a family.
Ahsoka started crying.
"What you mean momma? Where're you going?" she had asked, sadness filling her.
"I have to stay here baby, but you're going somewhere very special, the Jedi Temple. And I know you'll love it there. Please baby, don't cry. Be strong and brave for me, and please be good. You're going with this man and his name is Jedi master Plo Koon. You can trust him. He'll take care of you Angel… I promise."
And then I whispered so the Jedi Master wouldn't hear, or at least I had hoped he didn't hear "Say hi to daddy for me. I love you baby girl."
And then I handed her off to the Jedi.
Ahsoka started screaming as she was put in his unfamiliar arms. I remember seeing them off, Ahsoka in his arms looking back at me with tears running fast down her precious face, just screaming and crying at the same time, yelling out "NO! Mommy please! Don't let him take me! Momma! I don't want to go!"
Just tearing my heart to pieces… I started crying…
"I love you!" I had called out to her.
Plo Koon carried her to his ship, her trying desperately to get out of his arms. They went inside and as the ramp closed, I fell on my knees. I looked up as the ship ascended… not knowing anymore if I had made the right choice. All I knew was that I missed her.
I yelled out in pain, the pain of losing my daughter was unbearable. I cried and cried, not knowing what to do next.
Later that night I had gone home tired and depressed. I looked around our hut as I walked in, and saw some of Ahsoka's now old toys lying on the floor. I had quickly turned my head and went to my room. I turned on my gas lamp that Nathan gave me, since we had no electricity on Shili, this had to do.
I sat at my wooden hand carved desk my father gave me and pulled out a piece of paper, that again Nathan had provided me with. I wrote him a letter, telling him everything that happened. I know he'll be mad, but at the same time… when he hears that his little girl is actually living in the Jedi Temple, the same place where he's living. I know he'll be a little happy. Even though he'd rather not let her become a Jedi.
Days have passed and… here we are. Nathan wrote back immediately that he had a plan, but he didn't tell me what it was. All he said was "I have a plan; you'll see your daughter soon love."
All I know is, somehow I'm going to see Ahsoka again soon.
What does Nathaniel have up his sleeve this time…?
Okay guy's please tell me what you think, comment and Follow and yea haha you know the drill.
I also want to thank-
Skyrela Tano (Thank's a Ton for everything you've done! :D)
yodacakes118 (Just some Twin brother of mine ;) )
swfan101 (Miss you)
ahsokafan9683
Mystery99
iSparks
and 4 other guest's for Commenting!
Thank you to-
PotatoPieChik (My lovely Sister!)
Skyrela Tano (Again Thank you!)
djrocks
iSparks
rladbfl2002
MYSTERYGEEK
ahsokafan9683
archer71
For Following This Story!
Thank you to-
Maleficent-darkgoodwitch2416
PotatoPieChik (Again!:) )
Skyrela Tano (:D)
ninicamarillo
ahsokafan9683
felisse. alexander68
archer71
For Favoring This Story!
Thank you to all, and I hope you all have a great week. If you have any question's about this story comment or PM me and I'll get back to you right away :) If I miss spelled your name or did something wrong in some way or I forgot you then Please tell me!