Summ.
Roxas never cared what his dad did with his life. Until he fell in love with the boyfriend's younger brother. They're engaged to be married, but will the young lovers stand up for their relationship? I mean it's not REALLY incest!
It is written in first person, chapters switching viewpoints from Axel to Roxas. Axel for odd numbered chapters, Roxas for even numbered chapters.
The first day of senior year, and I was already dreading school. I had grown so accustomed to spending every moment of every day with Axel over the summer, that just the thought of sitting in a classroom for eight hours without him made me feel lonely. I didn't have any friends at school, Axel was the only person I wanted to be around anyway, and the idea of coming home to him not being there was daunting. I would probably only see him on the weekends now, or on days where my dad went on dates with Reno in the evening, because Axel and Reno shared a car and the younger redhead couldn't just take it to come and visit me. I seriously considered asking my dad for a cell phone, but thought better of it. Axel didn't have one, either, so it wouldn't do me any good. I would have to just call his house phone when I wanted to talk.
I was ready for school, and Axel had me pinned to the bed and was kissing my neck ferociously, even though I knew it was a really bad time to be doing that.
My dad's voice called up the stairs. "Roxas! You're going to be late! Hurry up or you'll miss the bus!"
"Coming, Dad!" I called back, turning to Axel and kissing him lovingly. "I love you."
"Love you too, baby. Be good," he kissed my forehead gingerly.
"I'll think about it," he pulled me in for another kiss.
"That's my Roxy~" Axel cooed, smiling into my lips.
We kissed one more time, absorbing each other's warmth as if it would be all we had to live off of throughout the day, and I rushed downstairs, popping a piece of toast between my teeth. "Bye, Dad. Love you," I said hurriedly and was out the door, just catching the bus as it pulled to a stop in front of my house.
Sitting on the perpetually uncomfortable bus seat, I munched on my toast as I opened my backpack to check that everything I needed was in there.
"Hm?" I spotted a piece of paper poking out of my science book and grabbed it, unfolding it curiously.
Don't forget to think about me today, babe.
Love you.
-Axel
I laughed under my breath. "How childish…" I smiled warmly at the note. "Though it was really sweet of him to do that for me, being the big, mushy lover he is~ Love you too, Axel…" I breathed, folding the paper and putting it in a smaller pocket where I usually kept my lunch money and other little things like my student I.D. and my bus pass.
"So your lover wrote that for you?" a soft voice said from the seat behind him. Roxas yelped, turning around to face a slate-haired boy who was only half-looking at him, most of his focus remaining on the open book he was holding in his left hand. "Interesting."
"Who are you?" I demanded to know the identity of the snooping teenager.
"My name is of no importance, but if you so request one, you may call me Zexion. Zexion Lexicon. And from what I can gather, you are most likely Roxas Strife; a senior such as myself who up until partway through last school term never spoke to anyone. I'll go out on a limb and say that this 'Axel' is the one who changed you."
"Have… have we met?"
"Positive. However, as I mentioned before, you never really interacted with anyone, but then again, neither did I. We were paired up in Chemistry last year. You held impressive skill in sciences, which I am fairly certain you still do. Well, since we had this little chat, I may as well tell you that I am more than willing to speak with you any time you request. And for your sake, I would also carry out a conversation with your Axel if the need arises. However," he looked up into my eyes with electric blue ones, "I request in return that it remains between us that I have spoken to a student. You are an exception, as you are intelligent."
"Oh… okay… So… you mean we're friends?"
"Correct," Zexion looked up again. "Ah, it would appear we have arrived at the school. I will see you around, Strife."
I caught his sleeve.
"Yes?"
"Call me Roxas."
He smiled softly, and I felt warm inside seeing him smile like that. "Alright. Roxas."
Zexion was in all of my classes apart from homeroom, where he had Library Aide and I had study, though I went up to the library to kill some time and met with him there. On the bus ride home, we talked about the science fair from fifth grade where the RC robot had knocked over another experiment and caused an explosion. We laughed about how everyone looked like wet cats because of the fire sprinklers being set on too high and drenching all the people there before many even had a chance to react to the explosion.
The bus stopped and Zexion glanced out the window. "I believe this is your stop, Roxas."
Not believing him because of how short the ride was, I looked for myself, and, sure enough, Dad was walking out the front door to get the mail. "Alright… I'll see you tomorrow, Zexion."
"Take care," he waved at me and I smiled back before running off the bus and up to my dad.
"Hi, Dad!" I said cheerily before heading into the house and grabbing the phone. "I have to call Axel and tell him about Zexion!"
I dialed his number and waited, frowning when I heard their answering machine. The resounding 'beep' went off in my ear.
"Hey, Axel, it's Roxas. I was just calling to talk to you about school because I have some news and I wanted to tell you first… call me back…"
I hung up, now noticeably less excited as I grabbed a Fruit Rollup from the closet and ate it. It surprised me that Dad knew I had no preference when it came to food, but he bought me junk food and snacks regardless. But I would admit that a Fruit Rollup was a lot more of a pick-me-up than a celery stick.
Dad walked into the kitchen and noticed me standing there with a frown on my face as I ate the chewy snack.
"Roxas? What's wrong, son? You seemed really happy a few minutes ago and now you're depressed…"
"I was just really excited to tell Axel something but he didn't answer the phone… It's no big deal."
"You can always tell me, you know. I'm always here for you to talk to, okay?" he ruffled my hair, placing a kiss in the mess of spikes on my head. "I love you, Roxas."
"Love you too, dad…" I sighed.
"I have something to talk to you about, so why don't you go take a shower and get comfortable. We'll discuss it over dinner."
When I slipped on my pajamas, knowing that I wasn't going anywhere tonight, so I might as well, I looked at my bed with a grin.
'That bed was where Axel took my virginity,' I chuckled under my breath at the memory.
I flopped down on my bed, burying my face into Axel's pillow and taking in his still-strong scent that lingered from this morning. I sighed happily, hugging it tightly as I inhaled his aroma, smiling that his pillow was still a little warm, Axel's body heat seeming to have melted in to every fiber of the cushion. "Axel…" I breathed, curling up in a ball on my bed and taking a nap.
Dad was sitting in the dining room, waiting for me with a nervous look in his eyes when I sat down.
"You wanted to talk to me, Dad?" I looked at him as I ate a forkful of shepherd's pie.
"I know I've asked you this before, but I was wondering what you think about Reno… as a person, you know…"
Shrugging, I looked down at my plate as I took another bite. "I guess he's a good person, though I don't like his attitude. But I have two strong enough reasons to tolerate him, so I don't pick a fight with him," I looked at my dad's eyes. "Why?"
"Well, you see… Reno asked me something today and I wanted to get your opinion on him…"
"What did he ask?"
"When we went out today… he proposed."
I nearly choked on my food as I shot out of my chair, eyes wide. "Wh-what? No!"
"Roxas, please don't overreact like this. Reno really does want to get along with you, he doesn't hate you. I know you aren't fond of him, but you really need to give people a chance before you decide you don't want anything to do with them. Roxas, I'm asking for you to just think about what's best for all of us. You realize that I won't be working as much if we have Reno here, and we'll all be able to spend more time together."
"You know what? You're being ignorant, Dad! He doesn't like me! He's USING me to get to YOU! And you're willingly wrapping yourself around his little finger! I thought you were a smarter person than that! Reno doesn't even want me in the picture! You would marry him in a heartbeat if you didn't have me, and ever since you started dating him you've been caring less and less about what happens to me as long as you get your nightly fuck!"
"Roxas! Watch your mouth! You're better than that!"
"No! I won't! You don't even know me anymore! I am most certainly not better than that, because as much as you want to believe otherwise, I'm not a fucking angel like you want me to be! Reno hates me, and you don't care what happens to me, do you? You don't care because you don't even love me anymore because you have Reno!"
"Roxas, don't say that! You know that's not true, I love you more than anything!"
"No you don't, Dad! You know what? I think Xemnas was right about you. Why DIDN'T you notice that I was getting molested? Why DIDN'T you say anything back then? My TEACHERS noticed, and I was in that nurse's office at least once a week, but you didn't even SEE anything! You didn't WANT to see it! You don't know anything about me, do you? I bet you didn't even know that I'm not a virgin anymore!"
My dad visibly wavered at this. "You're not?"
"No, dad, I'm not! I haven't been for a long time! But you wouldn't know that, would you? Why should you? You never pay attention to me anyways!"
"Roxas, you don't understand. I love you, and I know you feel like I don't care, but do you have any idea how difficult it is to raise a child on your own? When your mother died, I… When you came to live with me, I did everything I could for you, and you didn't respond, but I tried, because you were all I had!"
"I'm just a hindrance on you, then? I was just a replacement for mom! You never talked about her, but you know I look almost exactly like her and that's the only reason you kept me! And you felt guilty because IT WAS YOUR FAULT MOM DIED!"
Tears were running down Dad's face. "I… I had no control over the situation! She insisted on going, I tried to stop her…"
"But you DIDN'T! You failed her, and because of that, she died!"
"Roxas!"
I suddenly felt a sting on the side of my face and collapsed to the floor, taking a moment before staring at my father with wide eyes. He looked like he was in shock at what he had just done, and his cheeks were streamlined with tears. It registered in my head after a few seconds that he had backhanded me.
"Roxas, I… I'm sorry, I didn't mean to…" he gasped, frozen in fear of himself.
I pulled myself up and glared daggers at him. "I hate you. I hate you and Reno and Xemnas and even Mom! You all… I hate all of you!" I screamed. "You said that you would break if you lost me. Well, consider me lost! I fucking HATE you!"
"Roxas!" he called after me as I ran up to my room and locked my door, flopping down on my bed and sobbing into Axel's pillow, the familiar scent had grown stale and it only made me hurt more. I was vaguely aware that my dad was crying too, but I didn't care. I even had the passing thought that he deserved it. I wiped my eyes and eyed my backpack before getting on my knees and dumping everything out, leaving my money, bus pass, I.D., and note from Axel in the other pocket.
"I… I want to see you break, Dad."
THIS IS SUCH A SAD CHAPTER!
Roxas seems to be obtaining a lot of backstory recently...
REVIEWS ARE LOVE AND HUGS AND KISSES AND CANDY AND ALL THE GOOD THINGS IN LIFE.
