Author's note: Sorry for the bad sex scene, I tried. I want to get better at it, so please don't hate me. I hope you all like this chapter. Thank you for all the reviews, follows and favorites.
Disclaimer: I do not own Game of Thrones, I own Lyrina. The lyrics are from "So cold by Ben Cocks."
Chapter 25: Painful truth.
"You can't hear me cry, see my dreams all die from where you're standing on your own." "This house no longer feels like home."
Lyrina's p.o.v
It had been almost a month since the wedding, almost a month since Sansa had been taken from them. The men came back with no word of the young girl, and Lyrina could only worry what her brother was doing to her. She had not heard from her brother and she feared that only meant ill for the young girl. Her brother was a sick boy, but she only prayed his worst perversions were saved for herself, that the poor girl would be spared. She thought of running to Kings Landing, she thought of switching herself for Sansa but she knew it would never work. She knew her brother would never let Sasna go and he would keep her as well.
"My fawn." Lyrina looked up from her work on the desk to see Robb enter the tent.
Things had been good between them but she was waiting everyday for word from Jon. The secret was eating her up inside but she did her best to push it from her mind. She was being his wife, being his queen and everything was slowly falling into place.
"My wolf, what can I do for you?" He had been very busy as of late.
"Come here."
Lyrina left the desk and met her husband in the middle of the tent. The wound in her stomach had healed leaving only a nasty scar as a memory but even still they had not consummated their marriage. Robb was off most days hunting, or fighting and when he was in camp they were talking to his men. They had moved their camp countless times, everything was just hectic for them. Her husband was busier than ever and she was driving herself insane.
She didn't say a word when she was standing in front of him all she did was plant her lips on his. She kissed him with need, it had been days since he had even hugged her. She needed to feel his lips against her own, his body pressed against hers. As she kissed him his lips met hers with equal need and she knew he wanted it as much as she did.
"Let me help you." He looked at her confused but she didn't give an explanation.
Lyrina kissed him again before slowly undoing his cloak so it felt to the ground. She began to undo his shirt so she could slip it off all the while their lips pressing against each other in fever.
"What are you doing love?"
"I am staring at my husband. Have I told you how handsome you are?" He stood shirtless before her and Lyrina could only think of things she wanted to do with him.
"Just as often as I tell you how beautiful you are, which is never enough."
"How much time do we have?" Lyrina was used to limited time with Robb.
"As much as we need."
Robb leaned down to crash his lips into hers once more with fire. As they kissed she wrapped her arms around his neck, while his hands found their way to the ties of her dress. She knew it would not be long before she stood in front of him in nothing but her small clothes. Lyrina had been teasing the boy for weeks, walking around the tent naked or in her small clothes knowing he could not do anything. The teasing was over and she could feel the urgency in his kiss, his touch. She let her lips leave his for just a moment to kiss down his neck being silly, but as her lips met his neck she felt the cool air hit her skin.
Robb took her face in her hands and began to kiss her more, she felt like he could burn her lips. His fiery lips let her own to travel down her neck, he slowly nipped at the skin on her collar bone causing her to lean against him as her knees went weak. She felt him laugh against her skin as he continued to lick, bite and kiss all over her neck back to her lips. The fire in which he kissed even surprised her, she knew they were both desperate for each other but she may have underestimated her husbands needs.
Before she knew what was happening she was placed onto the bed and he was crawling on top of her. He still had britches on but Lyrina could see the bulge in them causing her to blush as he body hovered over her own. She reached out and ran her hands over his shoulders, down his back while smiling up at him. The smile was not returned as his lips once more found her neck and the small clothes covering her breasts were removed.
"So beautiful." Lyrina blushed as his eyes fell on her breasts, she was still not used to him saying that.
She felt his rough hands graze from her hips up her sides and over her breasts before he rested his hands above her shoulders. He looked down at her with such hunger for a moment she thought he was a wolf about to eat her.
"You like you wish to devour me."
"Is it that obvious?" His wolfish grin sent shivers down her spine before his lips met her own again.
She let her own hands wonder this time as they kissed, allowing herself to slowly undo his britches. She was not playing the game of how long could either of them last before they snapped, she knew they both snapped days ago. Lyrina knew it would hurt but she wanted her husband, she wanted the marriage to be official. She undid his britches she felt his hands creep toward her thighs.
"Are you sure you are ready?" He whispered in her ear as she slipped off the last of her small clothes.
"Of course I am."
Once they both naked Lyrina let her eyes look down between their bodies, she had never seen his cock and in that moment she blushed. She had truly never seen any man's cock. He leaned down and kissed her gently for the first time that evening letting his fingers travel up her thighs to the warmth that lay between. She was comforted for a moment that neither of them knew what they were doing but as his finger reached the slick fold in her center she began to doubt her husbands innocence. His finger slid up and found a bundle of nerves, with a wicked grin he looked down upon her as he ran his finger against the button.
"Robb." Lyrina felt her face flush as a wave of pleasure shot through her body. "No games."
Her husband took her thighs in his hands lifting her legs slightly as she felt his body press close to her own. She wrapped her arms around his neck as she felt his cock press against her center. She knew she could still back out but she waned it, even if it would hurt. He looked down at her with a fire in his eyes.
"You are sure? We don't have to."
"I want this, I want you." She leaned up to kiss him.
As they kissed she felt him enter her slowly the pain making her almost cry out against his lips, tears stinging her eyes.
"I am sorry, I am sorry. It will pass I promise." His head was buried in the crook of her shoulder and she could barley hear him whisper against her skin.
Lyrina knew she was in pain but she had no doubts that he was not. She was sure he clutched to her not in pain but in pleasure. After a moment she felt him pull out of her slightly only to guide himself back into her core. Her breath hitches in a mix of pleasure and pain as his face was still buried in her neck. His pace continued slowly and she could hear him groan against her in pleasure, her own pleasure soon coming as the pain passed
Robb continues his pace but removes his face from her neck to watch her face. She looks up at the wicked wolfish grin on his face as he pace changes and he thrusts deeper inside her. She gasps and digs her fingers into his shoulders, no longer feeling anything but pleasure.
"I love you."
She could not even open her mouth to find the words because as she did the only thing to leave her lips were moans of pleasure. He took her hips in hands, and held her gaze as he pace sped up and the thrusts got deeper. Lyrina was barley holding herself together as the pleasure took over her, and she could see on his face he felt it too.
Before long she felt a sudden sting in her shoulder has her husband bit into her skin followed by waves of white hot pleasure that took over her. She could not repress the moan and almost scream that left her lips as the pleasure over took her.
When the pleasure passed her husband still lay throbbing inside of her and Lyrina felt spent. The pain she had felt was worth it and she had never experienced such pleasure in her life. When Robb pulled his mouth from her shoulder Lyrina expected to see blood but thankfully there was none.
"Are you alright, love?" His hand gently touched her face as she spoke.
"Yes, I am alright." She laughed as he pulled himself from her and laid beside her.
She rolled so her head rested on his chest not caring that the bed no doubt had blood on it. She had lost her maidenhood to the only man who ever made her feel true love. She fought for him, killed for him and now she would be with him for the rest of their days. She just laid there as his heart beat in his chest, and his fingers played through her messy hair. She loved Robb Stark.
"Robb."
Lyrina let out a groan as Theon Greyjoy made his way into their tent. She pulled the blanket to cover naked bodies just in time.
"Theon, what may I do for you?"
"You asked me to come by your tent so we could write those ravens."
Lyrina glared daggers at her husband, he had asked Theon to come to the tent. What if he had come while they were in the middle of marital bliss? Robb just smiled down at her before leaving the bed to get dressed. She could not help but watch him as he stood naked, she had seen him change and strip but he always had his cock covered in some manner but not this time. Lyrina felt a blush creep on to her cheeks as he caught her staring and winked at her.
"Seems like you finally satisfied your wife."
"Shove off, Greyjoy." It was Lyrina who spoke up causing both men to laugh as they started their work.
In the month since the wedding Lyrina had found time to thank Theon for saving her life, and in that time they spoke. He apologized for never trusting her, but she could not blame him for his mistrust he had every reason to not trust her. Her brother was a King, and her mother was a lying snake. Her family had done nothing but try and destroy the ones Theon cared for.
She watched the two men sit at the desk writing ravens to Robb's men spread across the north and Riverlands. He was so stoic most times, even with Theon and she began to wonder if he acted his emotions for her sake. She worried that he only let his guard down with her to keep her happy but she knew that was not true, she knew what they shared was real. The passionate moments, the silly moments and every moment in between. The love they shared was real and she was sure even her lie about his father could not shatter that love.
Lyrina was still resting two days later from the loss of her maidenhood, she was shocked at how sore she had become. She remained in their tent either in bed or reading up on Robb's battle plans. He would leave for a battle again, they had found a band of Lannister men that had to be dealt with and of course Robb had to go at it. He was not like her brother a King who sat by while his men did the fighting, he was a warrior like their fathers were.
"Lyrina, are you decent?"
"Come in, brother."
Lyrina could not help but smile when Gendry made time to see her. With Robb busy most days she had taken to sneaking off with Arya and Gendry to learn how to sword fight. She knew Robb did not wish for her to learn but after the wedding she felt she had to learn to defend herself. Arya was always up for the distraction, after letting Sasna fall into the hands of Joffrey she had never forgiven herself and Lyrina felt for the poor girl. She tried to keep Arya busy, and keep her mind off of everything. No doubt Robb would send his sister back north again soon, so Lyrina did all she could.
The look Gendry gave Lyrina unnerved it was a mix of worry and something else.
"What is the matter,brother?"
"Theon Greyjoy made a point to tell the whole camp that you and your husband finally consummated your marriage, not that many of them couldn't hear you." Lyrina dropped the parchment in her hands and blushed.
"I am sorry that you had to be told of that. I will tell Robb to keep his pet Greyjoy on a leash." It was a joke but Lyrina did not like that the whole camp knew.
"It is alright, I have something for you. I noticed the seal so I snuck it before Robb could see it."
Gendry handed her a sealed letter from The Wall, and she held it tight in her hand. She knew once she opened it she would have her confirmation that Lord Stark was alive, the man she had risked her life to save, the man she lied about to her own husband. She slowly opened the letter and tears fell from her eyes as she read it. Lord Start was alive and she was allowed to inform only the members of the House Stark. She was informed he would not be riding south until the moment was right, and he was sure Sansa was safe. Jon told Lyrina that his father did not want Robb to turn around and go home, that they had to continue to fight for the freedom of the north.
"Lyrina, is everything alright?" She could hear the worry in Gendry's voice.
"Can you go fetch Robb for me, I know he is busy but I need to see him." She looked up at her brother with a smile, the tears were happy tears. Though she wished Lord Stark would go home.
"I know he is coming by on his way out of camp, he will no doubt be here in moments."
"Good. Are you going with him as well?" Lyrina did not notice at first that her brother was in his armor.
"I am, I will be careful, don't worry." She was always telling him to be careful. He was the closest blood family she had left, even if the ones in the capitol did not know it yet.
She had not made her claim against the Iron Throne, Robb wished to wait until she spoke to her uncles. He believed it would be easier if they had her father's brothers on her side, and Lyrina agreed. So she continued to play the Queen in the North and the Princess of the Seven Kingdoms, different girls to different people.
Gendry left her tent just as her husband entered in his silver armor. She smiled at him and almost jumped on him as she tried to kiss him. She heard his deep laugh as he held her at arms length so she would not crash into his armor.
"I love you too."
"Robb, I have something to tell you."
She had been so excited about the news that Lord Stark was in fact alive that she did not plan for the moment of telling Robb. She knew he would be angry, but she could not imagine how angry he would be. She took a deep breath and began pacing the tent, she was under prepared for it. She had lied to him for two months, two months of being together and she lied through all of it.
"My fawn, what is it?" His voice was full of worry, but she knew it would not last.
"Your father..." She kept catching her words in her throat.
"Go on."
"Your father is alive, he never died."
"This is not funny, Lyrina, stop with your jests." His voice was getting tense and she saw his jaw clench.
"I am not joking. Your father is alive at Eastwatch-by-the-sea, my brother never killed him."
She watched Robb begin to pace as well, she could see the tension in his body.
"You were lied to, I am sorry, my sister saw his head. Your brother showed my sister our dead father's head."
"He killed an innocent man to play a game, to keep his game going. He could not let the people of Kings Landing know he was weak to his sister so he killed someone in your father's place. He sent you father to the Wall, I am sorry I lied but..."
"You're sorry? You are sorry? You lied to me and everyone in my family for two months, you let me mourn my father, you mourned my father and you lied about it." His voice was raising but Lyrina did not back down.
"I did not have a choice, I wanted to tell you sooner but I sent Jon.."
"So Jon knew before I did? You told Jon before you told your own husband?"
"I.."
"You always were closer to him. Are you sure he wasn't the one you wanted to marry?"
She knew he was angry but he was being irrational. They had spoken on the issue of Jon before, and Lyrina had never even looked at Jon in such a way.
"Robb, it has never been like that, don't twist this around. I wanted to make sure my brother had not lied, Jon was the only way to check on if your father was alive or not."
"I could have sent men to check myself, months ago."
"Robb, I had to lie you don't understand, Joffrey would have killed you, and locked me in the deepest parts of the dungeon."
"It does not matter, he still won because he got you to lie for him."
"I did not have a choice, he would have ripped me from you and taken me back to Kings Landing." Lyrina felt tears prick in her eyes.
"Maybe he should take you back, you seem to fit right in with the Lannisters of Kings Landing."
Lyrina felt like a knife had been shoved into her gut, she felt like her body was being twisted.
"Robb, you don't mean that. I know that. I know you are angry but just take this." She handed him the letter from Jon. He took it and glared at her with disgust.
"I will see you when I get back unless you run back to your brother and mother."
"You are a bastard Robb Stark."
"Wrong brother again."
He left her in their tent feeling broken. She wanted to chase after him, make him understand why she lied. She wanted him to know how her brother cut her as he told her about his father, about how if she ever spoke the truth he would die, their future children would die and she would be locked away. She felt tears fall from her eyes and she was thankful she had been strong in the moment, he didn't understand. He would never understand.
She knew he didn't mean a word he said but it did not change the sting in them. Maybe she should go back to Kings Landing, maybe she should go back to the torture of her brother, and the lies from her mother. She felt her whole world shake, and she was angry. She was angry that he did not listen to a word she had to say truly, he just jumped down her throat. He had to know Jon was the reasonable choice, he knew she trusted Jon and yet it was back to her loving Jon. She loved Jon but not in the way she loved Robb, never in the same way.
"Lyrina, Robb?"
Lady Catelyn entered her tent and the last thing Lyrina wanted was to see another Stark. It was just another persons she had to tell the truth to, another persons who could hate her. Robb would never trust her again, and neither would anyone else. She would have been better off in Kings Landing.
"It is just I. Your son has already left for battle, M'lady." She tried to keep her voice strong.
"Well then I shall give this to you. It is word form the Iron Islands, they wish to speak to someone in person about the terms of their help. They are seeking Theon but I would advise against it."
"I shall go then."
Lyrina was used to taking an active role while Robb was away, and leaving the camp may have been what was best for her. Time apart may have been what was best for both of them. She could not wrap her head around how two days earlier they had made love and now they were falling apart.
"Lyrina, I would suggest against that, Robb would not.."
"With all do respect, Lady Stark, I don't give a fuck what Robb would want."
Lyrina knew that in a matter of moments Lady Stark would be mad at her as well, she did not care what she said to her. She did not care what Robb would have wanted, he practically told her to go back home. He wanted her to go back to the man who cut her skin, and did other vile things to her.
"Is everything alright between you two? I thought.."
"No, but it is a matter of marriage I am sure it will be fine shortly." She did not want to lead on to how bad it was. She wanted the Lady to think it was just a disagreement, not something that could ruin them.
"I do have something to tell you, something important."
"Well speak your mind, Lyrina."
"I am sorry that I had to lie about this for so long but I had to be sure my brother did not lie to me. I lied because I was terrified of my brother, I still am, but I am trying to be my own woman. Lady Stark your husband is alive, he is at Eastwatch."
Lyrina stood there waiting for some kind of reaction, some kind of anger but she was met with only silence for a moment. The Lady looked at her with dead eyes that soon had tears falling from them.
"You are sure?"
"I am, I have known since I left Kings Landing but I had Jon Snow check, I just got word back. Your husband is alive, and well but he will not head south until Sansa is safe. We were both threatened to keep my brother's secret."
Lady Stark came toward her and Lyrina half expected the woman to slap her but instead she was pulled into an embrace.
"Thank you, you saved him and I know you lied because you felt you had to. He lied too and I know my husband would not have kept himself hidden unless he had to. Thank you, Lyrina."
Lyrina did not think she deserved her thanks but she hugged the woman back. She knew the woman was just overjoyed about having her whole family truly intact and alive. She knew when the dust settled the woman would be just as angry with her as Robb was.
"I have to tell Arya, and send word to the boys back home."
"Lady Stark, he did ask that no one outside of the House Stark know. He will not reveal himself until Sansa is safe or he is truly needed."
"I understand, and Lyrina if Robb was angry with you about what you did just know he will forgive you. My son loves you, I can see it in everything you two do. He would have killed to get you back, so don't think running off to the Iron Islands will be a fix to what is happening."
"It's not a fix, it is something that needs to be done. Thank you for the words Lady Stark, I am leaving at nightfall."
Lyrina was left alone and she felt strong. She would not let Robb's anger at her tear her down. She saved his damn father, she saved a man she cared for, by risking her own life and she knew that was important. His father was alive, and so he mourned the man for two months, so she lied to him for their protection but her own father was dead. People died in war and people went on with their lives. She knew he would not go back to Winterfell so his father living changed nothing, he was just sour that she lied. If he had listened to her he would understand, if he didn't let his jealousy and anger cloud his judgment he would understand. Lyrina could only hope that by the time she had the iron born on her side he would have calmed down.
She knew her husband and she knew that once his temper gave way to his true feelings he would be just as broken as she was. She knew he was ready to burn the city to the ground for her, she knew he was ready to kill her brother for her and she knew he didn't mean a word he said. She also knew that the war continued even if they were not speaking, and they needed me, so to the Iron Islands she would go.
A/N: Robb Start the moody, jealous teenage boy lol.