Summ.
Roxas never cared what his dad did with his life. Until he fell in love with the boyfriend's younger brother. They're engaged to be married, but will the young lovers stand up for their relationship? I mean it's not REALLY incest!

It is written in first person, chapters switching viewpoints from Axel to Roxas. Axel for odd numbered chapters, Roxas for even numbered chapters.

Play the NRI not drinking game! For every time 'love' is mentioned, write "I WILL NOT DO DRUGS. KIYUX IS NOT ENCOURAGING DRUG ABUSE." on someone's face. HAVE FUN!

"Don't make the same mistake I did…"

"Dad! Dad, don't say that!"

"Accident. Worthless."

"Dad, you said you loved me! I thought you loved me!"

"Shut up."

"Dad!"

"I don't want to be your dad. I don't want you."

"No!"

"Roxas, wake up!"

"No… no… I don't want to be alive… you don't want me… don't make me…"

"Roxas, snap out of it!"

"No! I want to die! Kill me, please! I'm not supposed to be alive!"

"Stop!"

"I hate you! You don't want me! You never wanted me! I'm a mistake!"

"Mistake."

"You wish I was never born, don't you, Dad…?"

"Gift… wasn't planning on you being born… Don't cry… it's alright… here for you… I'll always be here."

I relaxed as I was pulled into a hug, mind clearing as I heard Axel's voice in my ear.

"I love you… you're cute and amazing and adorable and I love you so much… You're beautiful, Roxas… you're so beautiful."

"Ax…el…" I replied, the words sounding somewhat empty. After a moment I started to feel nervous in Axel's arms. I squirmed free of his grasp and fell to the floor with a THUD, not bothering to get up, simply staying on the floor and crying myself to sleep.

I can't take it anymore… it hurts… everything hurts… I can't deal with this anymore! I want to escape! Please, let me escape!

'I can go in your place.'

What?

'I will deal with the pain for now. You may rest. Sleep now. Sleep…'

I… I can't… nng…

Axel!

I felt his lips on mine and moved forward, craving the affection from my lover. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed back, whispering his name to myself more than to him. I let out a soft moan as I was pulled closer to his body. Unable to restrain my sobs, I broke the kiss and cried into his shoulder, trying to cope without surrendering to that one again.

"Axel… Dad…" I sobbed.

"I love you. I'll always love you, Roxas. Always. You're my angel…"

I looked up at him, unsure how to explain what had just happened in my mind. Was there something wrong with me? Why… why were there two of me? "I'm sorry…"

"Don't be. It's alright. Relax, baby, I'm here."

I stood, taking a deep breath as I tried to cope with all of the issues bombarding me at once.

"Are you hungry, Rox?"

I nodded, feeling my face flush as my stomach growled. Axel laughed and I nearly smacked him for being able to laugh when I was so lost within myself. I turned away.

He bound me with his arms, and I started getting slightly uneasy. "Don't be embarrassed. It was just so cute…" I furrowed my brows and focused on trying to get away, getting more and more panicked with each moment passed that I couldn't break free. "Roxas, I wasn't trying to upset you. I was just teasing, alright? I didn't think you would be so… offended. I'm sorry, baby."

I escaped his grasp and looked away. "I'm hungry," I said, knowing that it would make him leave for awhile.

"I'll go heat up something. Don't… don't stay mad, Roxas, I really didn't mean any harm. Okay?"

"Okay."

His lips grazed my cheek and I wiped it away, growling internally at his inability to see I didn't want him near me right now.

When we crawled into bed, I felt my stomach churning. Feeling sick all of a sudden, I slipped out of Axel's bed and into the hallway, walking towards Reno's room and sneaking in. Reno was lying behind my dad, hugging him around the middle as they slept. Reno lay topless, whereas Dad was wearing a white t-shirt. I took a deep breath and tiptoed to my Dad's side, watching him sleeping for a moment, noting how uneasy his expression was.

"Dad?" I whispered.

His eyes opened halfway and he looked at me, worried. "Roxas? What's wrong?"

I glanced away. "Nothing. I just wanted to… say goodnight…"

He moved over so he was closer to me, reaching out and petting my hair soothingly. "Goodnight, Roxas. I love you, my baby boy."

"I'm not a baby anymore, Dad… I'm sixteen…" I blushed.

"You'll always be my baby, Roxas. Sweet dreams, honey."

"Yeah…" I bit my lip. "Can I ask you something?"

"Anything, son."

I swallowed the huge lump in my throat. "Was I… a mistake?"

Dad looked at me in shock. "What?" he moved Reno's arms and slid down onto the floor beside me, hugging me tightly. "What on earth would give you that idea, Roxas? I love you, and I would never think of you as anything less than my beautiful baby boy. I admit that I had no idea that you had been conceived, and your mother's pregnancy was the result of my own ignorance, but if I had never found out about you, if I had never seen my baby's adorable face when you looked up at me for the first time… Roxas, I can't imagine life without you. Before I held you in my arms, and saw a beautiful new life… so small and fragile… I was miserable. You made my life worth living, Roxas. I didn't care if you seemed emotionless; you were always my baby and my purpose in life."

"Dad…"

"Roxas, I love you more than anything in the world. I know you might doubt me sometimes, but I've been doing everything I can to try and make your life worthwhile ever since I heard that your mother had given birth to my child. I refused to let your mother take you away from me forever or put you in harm's way… which may have been even stupider of me… because I wanted to keep you safe so badly… I wouldn't let your mother take you out into the blizzard… but when she tried to put you in danger I got frustrated and snapped at her… which is why she left… I'm sorry, Roxas… I'm a horrible father, I know… and it's my fault that you don't have a mom… but I love you so much… I love you, Roxas… you're not a mistake, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I hope you'll always remember that. You mean more to me than Reno, you're more important to me than myself. I love you. Never, ever forget that you're my baby and I love you."

"Thanks, Dad… I love you too."

He kissed my forehead tenderly and gave me another quick hug before sliding back into bed, Reno's arms instantly wrapping around him and pulling him close. Dad smiled at me. "Sweet dreams, Roxas."

"Goodnight, Dad," I replied and walked into the living room, curling up on the couch and falling asleep.

The next day when I went home, I still wasn't really talking to Axel.

"Roxas?" his hand was placed on top of mine and I almost pulled away, but forced myself to relax as he scooted closer to me. "Roxas, what's wrong? Please talk to me. I want to help you. If I did something that upset you, then you need to tell me or I can't fix it."

I stood and went outside, offering my hand to him silently as we walked down the path, unable to surpress a smile and a blush as he squeezed my fingers gently.

We walked into the forest, eventually sitting down on the hill, where I sat between Axel's legs like I normally did. I gasped as his arms coiled around me, but he kept breathing "it's okay" into my ear until I relaxed.

"Roxas… I'm going to ask you one more time… What's wrong? I really want to know why you're so mad at me… I don't want to lose your trust, and I really don't want to lose your love. So will you tell me?"

After a pause, I stood and walked over to a tree, leaning on it as tears pricked the corners of my eyes.

"Axel…" I waited until he walked over before taking a deep breath to steady myself as I prepared to confess my troubles. "Yesterday… when Reno walked in on us… I was really scared. I thought just how easily that could've been my dad… and that frightened me. So I didn't want to do anymore things we could get in trouble for… because I was really nervous and I just wasn't in the mood anymore. But then…" I bit my lip.

"Keep talking, Roxas. I'm listening."

"But then you started touching me anyway, and I was getting really uncomfortable because you escalated things even though I was trying to tell you to stop… but you… you wouldn't stop! I couldn't handle it, so I shoved you off and you hit your head..." I looked up at him.

He nodded, and I continued to speak.

"I felt horrible seeing you hurt, and so guilty that I had been the one to cause the injury… that I forgot all about it, passing it off as something I could just ignore. But when I started to calm down from being upset with what Dad said, I tried to go back to sleep, but it made me uneasy because I felt almost trapped by your arms, and your sugary words were like bait… and I ended up rolling off the bed and just crying there for awhile…"

"Roxas…"

"In all honesty, Axel… when you were touching me… it felt like I was… like I was being molested by him all over again."

I couldn't bear to look at him now.

"When I woke up and came back to my senses, you were holding me and I felt captured again… and when I heard you laugh at something as simple as my stomach growling, I started to get angry that you were so carefree when I was struggling to keep myself from hating you for making me feel the way Xemnas did. And… and I felt you trap me again, and I heard those words I had been the prey of for so long… and I snapped."

Fighting off tears, I knew I had to finish my explination.

"I couldn't even stand to sleep beside you. I just felt… like I'd been taken advantage of by the most important person in the world to me… the person I loved so much… and every word you said to me sounded so empty and meaningless. …like I was just prey, words were set to lure me in and the excuse of love was thrown in to get access to my body. It was the same way. It's always been like that, hasn't it, Axel?" I looked at him, hurt evident in my expression.

"Roxas, you… you mean everything to me. If you won't believe my words, and you won't let me touch you, and you refuse to permit me to try any other way to make it better, how do you expect me to prove how much I love you? Roxas, you know me better than that, and I'm sorry if I made you upset, I didn't realize you were actually frightened!"

"But the fact is that I WAS afraid, Axel! I was really scared, and you wouldn't stop! You're just like him!"

"Don't compare me to that asshole! He MOLESTED you, Roxas. I would NEVER do something like that to you on purpose. EVER. I LOVE you. He didn't. So don't you EVER say that I'm like him again."

"What will you do if I do? Rape me?" I sneered.

"Listen, are you PMSing? I love you and all, but you're being absolutely fucking ridiculous right now. Take out your menstrual bullshit on someone else!"

Furious, I smacked him and started to walk away, only to be vigorously spun to look at him.

"Roxas, don't do this shit. You know what I'm capable of doing. Don't push me like this, you'll regret it."

"I already do regret it, Axel. I regret every single god-damned SECOND of it! I hate you! You've wasted enough of my life already, I would have been better off if I never met you! I hope you drown yourself in the lake and I never have to even think about you again! Just get out of my face, Axel!"

"Stop acting like a spoiled little bitch!"

"Oh, so that's what you think of me? Nice to know," I growled, fuming. "I don't want to look at you or talk to you anymore! Get out! Get out of my woods and out of my life!" I contemplated spitting at him for good measure, but thought better of it.

"Roxas, please—"

"GET OUT!" I shouted, and watched him run off. Sobbing, I ran back into the house and into the basement, locking the door behind me and collapsing in the corner, breaking into tears.

Looking up, I wiped my eyes and saw something a few feet away. I crawled over to the clear glass bottle and read the label.

Vodka.

I opened the bottle, wincing at the strong smell but taking a deep breath before bringing it to my lips and taking a swig.

'That's right. Drown your sorrows in alcohol… then when you're out of it, I can take over again. You were never meant to be in charge of this mind. Only I can deal with all your pain and suffering, Roxas… So just drink up… and I'll be waiting for you.'

I slowly faded out of consciousness, losing all power over my own body as I suddenly felt…

Hollow.

Don't kill me!

*The 'two Roxas' thing is the original "emotionless" Roxas, and the current "complete" Roxas, who loses control of his emotions when things get hectic with Axel and his Dad. Breaking up with Axel was just the right type of trauma the original Roxas needed to take over again, because complete Roxas couldn't handle the unfathomable concept of being alone, due to the fact that having someone to love and be loved by was the reason complete Roxas emerged in the first place. Without Axel, and no longer sure if he can live off of his Dad's promised love, he broke down.