Summ.
Roxas never cared what his dad did with his life. Until he fell in love with the boyfriend's younger brother. They're engaged to be married, but will the young lovers stand up for their relationship? I mean it's not REALLY incest!
It is written in first person, chapters switching viewpoints from Axel to Roxas. Axel for odd numbered chapters, Roxas for even numbered chapters.
Yay, I got the # of reviews I wanted! 101+! So, as promised, here is the Roxy chapter.
Axel…
I ran as fast as my short legs could take me to the park. Why? Why did I have to tell him to kill himself? Why was I so cruel?
Suddenly, that smooth voice was speaking from the water's edge down where I had taken him swimming two summers ago.
"I'm sorry, Roxas… everything I ever did it hurt you… every word I said that upset you… I'd take it back in an instant. I'm sorry, baby. I love you so much…"
My heart lurched as he took one long stride closer to the water. "Axel, I forgive you!" I cried. "Don't do this!"
He visibly winced, but did not move forward. I knew this was my one chance to set things right between us and save his life. I loved him desperately and I never wanted to lose him, not now, not ever.
"I said some horrible things to you when you deserve better than that. I know I hurt you, and I hurt myself too, but I don't want you to kill yourself! I'm sorry… I love you too."
"Roxas…" he turned, near-emotionless gaze falling upon me as I panted for breath.
Knowing I had to move quickly regardless of my out-of-breath state, I bolted over to him and threw my arms around his waist, hugging him like I was afraid he were about to evaporate. "I'm sorry… I'm so sorry… Please forgive me. Axel… I love you…"
His voice spoke softly as fingers ran through my hair. "Don't cry, Angel…"
"I was so alone… I wasn't myself anymore. I died inside without you…"
"So did I, beloved. You're so precious…" his lips grazed mine and I moaned softly, adoring the attention from my love.
As we pulled apart, my voice cracked while I choked out a pleading request. "Axel… Could you do something for me?"
"What is it, dove?"
"Make me yours again. I want you so badly…" the thought of sex with Axel after what happened with Reno seemed so promising. There was no way I could be any more broken than I already was. I needed him.
He took off his jacket and led me to the clearing, lying his jacket on the grass and instructing me to lay upon it before pausing with a dazed look in his eyes until I called him gently to snap him out of it.
"Axel?"
He smiled at me. "Sorry, dove. Reminiscing, that's all."
"About what?" I asked, suddenly remembering the first time we came here.
"I love you," he said for the second time in under a minute, and I could hear the lust foaming from his words.
Guiltily, I looked away from his glowing green eyes. "We can't. Not here," I replied, but then a thought made me smile. "But I know somewhere we can fool around a little…"
I saw his grouchy expression turn suddenly excited and could not help my own smile from growing larger. I took his hand and led him to a clearing where I always used to eat a sandwich from Dad whenever I came to watch the water and be alone. Axel and I were together, and I was always eager to share everything I had with him.
"Here it is. We can't really get caught here, but please… please don't make me go all the way, not in public…" I bit my lower lip nervously, afraid he would be upset that I was rejecting sex again.
"I wouldn't do that to you, my angel. But at least let me help you relax."
I looked up at him, confused. "How?"
He took my jacket off and lay it on the tree stump I would always sit on while I ate, making me rest on top of it, knees slightly apart. Axel knelt between my legs, making me tempted to close them, but that was washed away as I was pulled down into a kiss.
Suddenly I felt his hand palming me through my pants and gasped, pulling free from the kiss for the extra oxygen as my eyes clamped shut.
"That's right, love, just relax for me, okay?"
Unable to verbally respond with anything but a whimper, I nodded hurriedly, encouraging his hand to touch me harder and faster. I felt my body heat up to the point I could feel the area he was touching begin to swell as blood left my brain in favor of a better-stimulated head.
Suddenly, a hand wrapped around my hardness and began full, firm strokes up and down the shaft. I dug my fingers into Axel's shoulders and moaned his name quietly, feeling my lower half growing to full salute.
"Shh…" his voice whispered to me as his lips dropped upon mine to distract me as a cold rush of air hit my freed erection. I hissed, but relaxed as he began stroking me again. He pecked my lips before speaking. "I love you. Don't struggle, now… This is going to feel new, but you'll like it, I promise."
My eyes snapped open to look into his, and I almost went limp out of fear. Slowly, I placed my trust in that loving gaze and took a deep breath. "Okay… I trust you, Axel."
"You're too cute."
His head lowered between my thighs and his tongue moved along the vein of my shaft, from base to tip in a slow, tatalizizng lick. I gasped in fright, squirming under him before his earlier words set in. It was going to feel good. He promised.
His hot tongue circled my head, avoiding the slit where presemen had started to form.
Axel seemed to bore of that quickly, opening his mouth and taking my member all the way into his mouth, surrounding the sensitive flesh in melting, wet, insanely arousing sensations. I surpressed a moan until a sharp suck sent electricity through my body as I brokenly moaned his name, arching and trying to thrust forward into the hot cavern but feeling his hands on my waist stopping me from trying such things.
I looked down and almost exploded just at what I saw. Axel was looking directly up at me, meeting my gaze steadily as his head moved up and down my arousal, mouth and tongue occasionally licking the slit or sucking along down at the base. His hair moved in time with his bobbing head, coming forward over his shoulders slightly more with each downward movement. Axel had never looked sexier.
That alone sent me tumbling clumsily to the edge. "Ahh… Axel… Axel, I'm close…"
I felt my face and body both grow hotter and hotter, could feel the saliva dripping from the corner of my mouth and sloppily running down my face.
I shoved my hand into my mouth as Axel engulfed my member into his and I shot white-hot pleasure into the back of his throat. As I gasped, exhausted from my release, he licked my slowly dwindling arousal clean, lapping up every last drop before wiping away my spit and kissing me deeply.
I tasted myself in his mouth as my tongue invaded the cavern my member had recently left. It tasted somewhat bitter, but creamy. I wondered idly if that was to Axel's liking but decided to put off the thought for later, as I was too tired now to even remember my own name.
"I love you so much, Roxas."
"Axel…" he fixed my pants and underwear, pulling me into his arms and down to lie with him on the grass, covering the two of us in his jacket. "Axel…"
"I love you. You're beautiful, my beloved…"
I nuzzled his chest with a sigh. "I love you too…"
We lay in silence for a moment before I called his name.
"Axel?"
"Mm?"
"One day… one day I'll do that for you, too. Okay?" I felt nervous promising to do something like that, but I knew it was only fair. I wanted Axel to feel good too.
"I'd like that, Roxas. I love you."
"Oh… r-right… that," I stuttered, blushing deeply at the memory.
He laughed, climbing over me and taking off my clothes before hissing furiously. "Who did this to you?"
"No one—"
"WHO DID THIS TO YOU, ROXAS?" he shouted, rage overflowing in his words.
"I…" I didn't want to tell him… but… I had to. "Reno."
He recoiled in shock, choking out a quiet "What?"
"I… This morning… I begged Reno to have sex with me. And he did…" I sobbed.
"And that fucking bastard hurt you?"
"Axel, wait…" the deadly tone in his voice made me panic for Reno's safety. I reached out to touch his shoulder to calm him, but my hand was slapped away. "Axel! Axel it wasn't his fault! I wanted him to! He didn't want to do it but I begged him!"
"You dirty little slut!" I recoiled into myself at his accusation, knowing there was nothing I could do to redeem myself for what I had done. "You slept with my brother!"
"And I hate myself for it! I don't know what came over me! I was so starved for attention and he was talking to me and petting my hair the way you always would and I tried to pretend he was you but I couldn't and I just… I know I'm a fucking whore, Axel, you don't have to rub it in!"
"Roxas…" his voice softened as he hugged me. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say that. I was angry and hurt, that's all. I'm sorry. I… I kissed Cloud, if it makes you feel any better."
"Now I feel dirtier…"
"I'm trying, Roxas, I really am. You aren't making consoling you very easy."
"I'm difficult, too… add that to the list of things wrong with me…"
"Don't think of it like that, that's not what I meant. I'm sorry if it came across that way, baby. Why don't I take you home now? You look exhausted."
"Okay… but… can you just hold me like this a little longer?"
"Sure."
I cried for a good hour before passing out on the way back, forcing Axel to carry me the rest of the way.
I was awoken by Dad, who was nervously fussing over Axel and I, hugging us tightly and kissing our foreheads and just generally being a pest until Axel was called away and scolded by Reno. It wasn't yelling, more like loud, firm talking.
When Axel had to leave, we couldn't sneak away for a private kiss, my Dad panicked if one of us was out of his sight for a mere moment. To my surprise (and Dad and Reno's), Axel kissed me anyway. Yes, it was only a peck on the forehead and a "take care of yourself", but he still gazed at me with "I love you" written all over his soft smile.
"Goodnight, Axel," I replied, a blush on my cheeks. Cloud kissed Reno goodnight and then led me up to my room, pausing me just as I was about to go in the door.
"Roxas."
"Yeah, Dad?"
"What was that with Axel just now?"
"I'm not sure. I guess… I guess he was just telling me he was worried and that he missed me while we were fighting…"
"Ah. You two are so close. It's nice that you have a friend like that."
"Dad?"
"Hm?"
"Axel's not just my friend," I offered curiously, unsure how he would respond.
"Oh? Well, best friend, then. Goodnight, son. Love you."
"I love you too, Dad."
I curled up under my blankets and yawned.
"I love you too, Axel…"
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